284. Is it worth it
Zhang Ji was not wrong, when he heard him mention the special criminal team, some things were embedded in the brain. Because of the experience on the body, the overwritten memories, and, the last name of the chief. On the island, except for the leader who called the chief as Ah Ting, the rest of the people called him Brother Ting, but I knew the full name from Instructor Qin.
Mu Yiting. Mu Yi, Yang, Yang Ting.
Yang Xiaofeng's Yang, he is Yang Xiaofeng's undercover father who has not been seen since he was thirteen years old. He is indeed the leader's henchman, otherwise Yang Xiaofeng would not have been able to see him occasionally from childhood to adolescence, I don't think about what kind of excuse he used to leave the island and return home, but it is certain that Yang Xiaofeng's mother and daughter have always been secretly placed.
I was the same age as Yang Xiaofeng, at most one or two years apart, and when I drew pictures in my dreams, I always felt that he would look at me intentionally or unintentionally, but he was actually missing his daughter. In my body, he saw the shadow of Yang Xiaofeng. And the reason why I can have the breath that belongs to Yang Xiaofeng, and even made Xu Jianglun mistake it for a while, is because the chief is teaching me as Yang Xiaofeng. The idea of indoctrination is subtly influencing me and influencing her.
I have only been painting for eight years, and by the time I am twelve, it may be the threshold of Yang Xiaofeng's thirteen. What happened this year? As soon as I asked Zhang Ji, I knew that after getting the answer, I froze in place, and turned to bitterness in my mouth. It turned out that the chief did not try to end this undercover career, and that year he secretly started a riot, but the final outcome was...... Heavy casualties!
The police secretly lurked on the island, and the people trained by the commander should cooperate with the outside, but they still couldn't fight the leader, almost all the troops were wiped out, only one person fled under the desperate escort of the chief, and Zhang Ji was taken away at the same time. So far, Zhang Ji has embarked on his road to becoming a police officer. However, although the turmoil on the island is over, the matter is not over, and the leader is not a person who can be fooled at will. The chief originally had the intention of dying, but at a critical time, Instructor Qin stepped forward to replace the inner ghost.
Zhang Ji didn't say anything specific about Instructor Qin's ending, but I can imagine it with trembling hearts. With the cruelty of the leader, even when I was only four or five years old, was able to mercilessly throw me into the wolf's cage after I was defeated in the competition test. How could he show mercy to Instructor Qin?
After that year, the chief issued a death order: no one was allowed to step out of the island without permission, and those who violated the order died.
As for me, after witnessing too many dead people, as well as the tragic death of Instructor Qin, I went crazy.
Yes, crazy. I live in a dark world, and I don't know anything but painting. I painted day and night, but no one knew what I was talking about, charcoal painted all over the white paper, a pair of eyes and a heart in the dark.
The idea of the leader, the island does not raise useless people, and it stands to reason that I should be cleared. But first, the commander is protecting, and secondly, it is also the most critical: the snow wolf guard! That's right, it's the snow wolf in the wolf's den. I don't know where the leader got this snow wolf, he has always worshiped it as the guardian saint of this island, in fact, the commander's final failure in the incident was also because of the snow wolf, it was the one who killed the operation commander. So the leader's belief in it reached the point of demonic disease.
But this snow wolf was very special to me, and did not bite me when I was four, and when I was thirteen years old, he took me under his wing, and the chief took the opportunity to tell the chief that I would be a lucky star in the future. Thus I was left behind, and I became the only exception on the island.
Time is really scary, and after ten years, I have grown from a teenager to an adult, but I still live in that dark world. And the people around him are also changing, and the leader is beginning to be unable to manage all affairs, and he is more and more dependent on his superiors, but he must consult him for any important decisions. Therefore, Xu Jianglun's identity was also unconsciously exposed in front of the chief, and at this time, it was when Xu Jianglun was in Qinnan Normal University under the pseudonym Yi Feng. When the chief learned that his daughter was in love with the chief's son, he planned and tried everything to return to the mainland, but he didn't expect to grit his steel teeth and watch his daughter walk into the sea of fire!
Because Xu Jianglun, the son of the chief, is there.
If he makes any move to stop Yang Xiaofeng, then he has hidden his identity for several lifetimes, all the hardships he has swallowed, and the lives of many colleagues who have sacrificed will be in vain.
Just listening to Zhang Ji say this, my teeth tightened, and I felt the pain of the chief. This is not something that can be explained by the word perseverance, it is the pain of breaking teeth and swallowing blood into the stomach, drinking the poison that pierces the intestines, and the intestines rot.
So, the chief is tired, he doesn't want to live anymore.
He quietly followed Xu Jianglun after he also rushed into the sea of fire, and quietly took Yang Xiaofeng away when he was rushing to save the leader's son with the people accompanying him. This is the rare time he was born as a father to pick up his daughter, and it was also the last time. Yang Xiaofeng entered the sea of fire before Xu Jianglun, the flames had almost swallowed her, and the only breath left was only enough for her to listen to her father who looked up and respected her to whisper something in her ear. She agreed unconditionally, and before she died, she glanced at me, who was still crazy and stupid, and said the last sentence with her lips squirming.
My heart moved slightly and I asked, "What did she say?" ”
At that time, Zhang Ji was there throughout the whole process. Watching someone come back from madness, watching someone die in annihilation.
She said, "You are all wrong, and one day, she will rather be crazy and stupid."
The willow bank, the wind and the waning moon. Yang Xiaofeng......
I chew on this poem softly, the name is in my heart, you and I have never really met, but you really know me as you know you. If I used this switch today, I would really rather sink into that dark world and be stupid for the rest of my life.
But there is a voice in the bottom of my heart that says: If it is, you won't be able to meet Gao Cheng.
Yes, Gao Cheng, how can I, why, I am willing not to meet you? The relationship between you and me was laid when I was five years old, and I was paranoid in my dream that I would not remember you, because you had made a promise to make me wait for your return.
The chief died of exhaustion in order to transplant Yang Xiaofeng's entire memory into my brain. He handed over all the burdens to Zhang Ji, and Zhang Ji was the operator of this reincarnation of fate. I would feel that the chief is a person of affection on the one hand, and a person who does not understand feelings on the other. Instructor Qin loved him and was willing to die a tragic death for his scapegoat, no matter how painful he was, he gritted his teeth and endured it; Yang Xiaofeng is his biological daughter, and he can also be sacrificed for his obsessive loyalty; Zhang Ji was his most proud disciple, but before he died, he handed over the burden and the pain.
Isn't this a kind of demon at work? If the chief is in front of me, I really want to ask: Is it worth it?
Suddenly I felt that something was wrong, just now I remembered the train absconding, if according to Zhang Ji's statement, then when did I escape? When he asked Zhang Ji, he asked back: "Do you know why you want to cover you with another layer of Xia Zhu's memory?" ”
I was stunned: "Isn't it because you want to create a new identity to start your plan?" ”
He shook his head, "If that's the reason, after you become Yang Xiaofeng instead, with her own consciousness as a police officer, she only needs to hide her identity and disguise herself as another person, and she is well versed in the way of undercover." ”
I think he really has a point, so why did he add Xia Zhu's memory again?
"Because something unexpected happened. I never thought that you, who were originally stupid and sunk into an autistic space, would not be controlled at all after transplanting Yang Xiaofeng's memories into your brain to wake you up! Your own memories dominate, and in the process, you will become a picture of my plan and that of the chief, and when it is completed, you will pretend to be obedient, and then turn around and abscond overnight. ”
It turns out that Xia Zhu originated here. After being captured by Zhang Ji, in order to prevent me from thinking about it again, I strengthened my memory. It's no wonder that I'm wooden and lack love roots, because the meaning of the existence of this layer of memory is to cover the second layer of Yang Xiaofeng. It's just that the prelude to the painting, the image is an illusion, no matter how many layers of memory I am covered, it is engraved in my blood and bones, it has become instinct, including the bone shrinkage technique I learned there.
Everything that should be sorted out has been sorted out, and it is time to come to this last question: "Zhang Ji, for the sake of me being A, tell me, where is he?" He paused: "Why do you ask me that?" ”
A chess game, pinched in his hand, the drop and the starter are all controlled by him, I, Xu Jianglun, and Gao Cheng are the ones who are being played. Gao Cheng had stunned me a month ago, and disappeared with the madman and the man, and I can't think of a reason why he would abandon me.
There is a detail that I have missed, I fell asleep on the back of Gao Cheng in the evening, and whether the painting at that time was real or not, I fell into the dream and opened the door of childhood. And Xu Jianglun said that he found me in the cave at night and brought me back to the island, so in the interim, if I experienced my childhood dreams, I would definitely be able to glimpse Gaocheng who could escape into my thinking space. With his acumen, he could deduce what was going on even if he had only watched the footage.
Could it have changed his original plan to take me to this island in search of memories, and then left me alone in the cave? So...... Did he remember that I was the little bamboo pole he had made a promise to?
Small bamboo, small bamboo poles...... The difference is one word, but it is the same person. Gao Cheng, have you remembered?
Find your roots, draw shadows, demons! I am the brain, you are the heart, that's why the brain becomes a shadow, and the heart turns into a demon! Is that so? This doubt has been deep in my heart since I woke up, and I have never dared to think about it, but this moment...... Zhang Ji's sneer came from my ears, interrupting my contemplation: "Zi, I have already become a chess player. His tone was a little self-deprecating.
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