12. Self-deception
When I got back to the door, I didn't take my eyes off his legs. In just a few minutes, about a hundred steps, his legs showed no signs of jolting, and he walked like an ordinary person. However, I still did not agree with his claim that he was using a wheelchair to get around, and the landlady clearly mentioned that he had a leg injury, so she asked me to take care of him. As he stepped out of the elevator, he secretly attributed his behavior to self-esteem.
The guilt escalated, and I said euphemistically behind him, "Tell me what you want to buy in the future." He had to force himself down the stairs, and he had to be careful not to be seen that his legs and feet were inconvenient.
He walked up to my door and looked back with an impatient expression, "Open the door." ”
I glanced at his door, "Do I need to go to your side and push the wheelchair over first?" ”
"No, that thing is too much trouble."
The living room was quiet, and as soon as he entered, he walked straight to the dining table with a waiting expression on his face. I listened carefully in the kitchen a few times, but I didn't hear anything else, not even the TV.
When I walked out with a plate of food in one hand, I was stunned again.
He actually ...... Fall asleep on the table!
Almost as soon as I put my plate down, my eyelashes popped open, and my dark eyes seemed to be stained with a mist. He sat up straight, grabbed a piece of braised pork ribs with chopsticks and put it in his mouth without a little embarrassment, and after picking out the bones, he sandwiched another chopsticks of fish meat.
That expression, I really don't know how to describe it, is quite meaningful. But after seeing that he was quite diligent in putting down chopsticks, he was relieved, turned back into the kitchen and added two bowls of rice, and saw that there were many bones on the table.
I didn't get up, so I listened to his casual and cold evaluation: "The ribs are not flavorful, the middle part is as light as water, the outer juice is too salty, and the sugar is also less; The fish is too old, the wine is too much, and in addition, you put less chopped green onions. ”
The corners of my mouth stiffened slightly, and when I came back from outside today, I passed by the vegetable market, and suddenly I remembered the request he made yesterday, and I went in and bought ribs and a sea bass and came back. It is counted as compensation for the negligence of not fulfilling the duty of care in these two days.
No matter how good his temperament is, he will inevitably be angry when he is judged so badly for his good intentions. When the rice bowl was put down on the table, it was slightly loud, and he said in a not very good tone: "Let's just eat." ”
He looked at me noncommittally and suddenly said, "You must be thinking in your heart right now: this person is so difficult to serve. ”
I couldn't bear it anymore, "Do you like to analyze people so much?" Think you can get a glimpse into other people's hearts after reading a few psychology books abroad? Then let me tell you, it is true that my father died early and my mother remarried, but our mother and daughter had a harmonious relationship and talked by phone every week; Yesterday was indeed my birthday, but I had already eaten with my staff at the gallery, so there was no need to go home and do it again; It was true that a policeman gave me a bouquet of lilies, but he was not my suitor, just a customer of my gallery. ”
After talking about this in one breath, his breath was slightly shorter, and he continued after taking a breath: "Also, I didn't think about anything in my heart just now, so you don't suspect my mind anymore." In the end, I didn't have any confidence in saying it, because there was indeed a flash of thought at that time.
The atmosphere at the dinner table froze, and he stared at me calmly, and in order not to show weakness, I also looked back.
After an interval of four or five seconds, he shrugged his shoulders, pushed away his chair and got up, and when he walked to the door, he suddenly turned back and said, "I don't think it's too much to make a reasonable analysis of a person who is going to be around me from time to time. Whether I'm just a rookie who has read a few psychology books, you'll know later. As for the rest, I know that you are just deceiving yourself. ”<