But the seemingly small site is like a mountain that I can't cross, especially under hunger, cold and exhaustion. I don't know how many laps I ran, but I fell to the ground, and the clothes on my elbows and knees were directly torn, and I gasped in pain. I still didn't eat at noon because the man told me that people who don't know how to balance resources don't deserve to live.

For a moment, I wanted to smash my fist over and let a four-year-old understand balancing resources? But I resisted the urge. Because the punch is too small, it is not the power that is smashed, but the punishment. Also, I can't interfere with my own past.

It wasn't until just before I went to bed that I received another piece of dry biscuit, and I was so hungry that my chest was pressed against my back, but under the man's gaze, I only tugged at the biscuit tightly and did not put it in my mouth. He dropped: "Good." And he turned and left. When I had listened to the footsteps in the distance, I devoured it, and in a few moments I was already half a piece of bread in my stomach. But just as I was about to bite again, I paused, looked at the cake silently, and finally wrapped it in paper and hid it in my clothes.

I was amazed that I could understand a man's words at such a young age! Not only that, but when I woke up, I pushed open the door and followed the whole scene, but there was no one in sight, and I quietly walked under the tree. When the man came with heavy steps and saw me under the tree, his eyes flashed with surprise.

My mood became cheerful, even a little tsundere. Whether it was out of my child's psychology or my own, I was trampled like mud in two consecutive meetings with this man, and finally I could raise my head to look at him for the third time.

Although I was still ordered by him to run around the field, I no longer had to worry about starving at noon, because the food was hidden close to me. The images began to fly, most of them were training to strengthen my physique according to the man's orders, and the originally thin little body gradually became stronger, and occasionally I was punished, but because I understood the phrase "balance resources", I never starved again.

Taming seems to be the only way for me to survive. I don't know if it's because I'm dull and wooden, or if I don't speak very fluently, I hardly speak, and since I was ordered to call the man's chief, the only thing I have said is: "Yes, sir." ”

I gradually resigned myself to my fate, and this time the dream was longer than any other, and it didn't interrupt it, nor did it jump to another time and space, at most it only sped up the time process, and made me feel like I was watching a movie and fast-forwarded.

On several occasions, a middle-aged man had come to me, and listening to the voice was the first time he had spoken to the chief, and he might have been the one who had kidnapped me. Every time he came, he stared at me with what I saw as ill-intentioned, and then whispered to the chief, but in the end he left without doing anything. Based on my current ability to judge the logic of my behavior, I can see that this person's eyes are full of purpose and related to me, but the corners of his mouth drooped when he left, obviously not achieving his wish.

But the last time a middle-aged man looked at me before leaving, I felt my heart beat faster when I saw it, and the man's eyes read: Ambition must be achieved. So when I was ordered by the commander to follow the middle-aged man, I had a feeling like I was stuck in my throat, and I had a premonition that it was definitely not a good thing to wait for me.

The middle-aged man led me to a clearing where there were two people, one in a white coat, and my first instinct came to mind of a person—Dr. Lee. Naturally, there was no Dr. Li among them, this was more than 20 years ago, Dr. Li was only slightly older than me, and he was just a child or teenager at this time, but I don't know if he was affected by the pale color, and he felt very similar, especially the eyes that looked at me, with a cold feeling.

The other wore a blue coat, somewhat like the one worn by doctors in modern operating theatres. In the same way, the look in my eyes made me shudder, as if I was ...... Look at a dead thing.

My attention was drawn to a medical case at their feet, which was bigger than the usual one.

The white coat spoke: "Is that her?" Why are you so thin? "The voice was hoarse and low, like it was playing from an old radio, mixed with the subtle sound of electricity.

The middle-aged man replied, "It's her, I brought it back with my own hands." When I first came, I was even thinner than this, but now I have been domesticated by Brother Ting for half a month, and I am already much stronger. The blue coat took a step forward, lifted my chin with his fingers and looked at it carefully, and then said, "The whites of the eyes are clear, it's a good seedling, it's a pity." His voice was like a white coat, like an electric sound coming from a machine, full of metal, and it made my scalp tingle when I heard it. And his fingers on my chin were as cold as a dead man's hand.

I couldn't help but tremble slightly, and after he found out, he smiled coldly, and said as if sorry: "The little guy is quite psychic, I know that I am afraid." It's just that who made you shed his blood. As soon as he withdrew his hand, he coldly ordered: "Put her down!" ”

As soon as the words fell, I felt a pain in my scalp, my hair was grabbed from behind, and I was pulled back without mercy, the force was so great for me that I had no choice but to be dragged to the ground, my head hit the ground heavily, and my eyes were so painful that my eyes were full of stars. Before I could struggle, my hands were pressed above my head, and my feet were fixed. Out of the corner of my eye, I was horrified to see the white coat open the box and take out a needle from it, which was as thick as my current arm, and the long needle tip made me shudder.

The blue coat lifted up my sleeves, and the expression was seriously stroking from the wrist to the arm, and the eyes were not obscene, with my young mind at the time, I may not have understood what they were going to do, but my adult mind escaped into my own perspective, and I almost didn't have to guess what was going to happen next. Sure enough, the fingers of the blue coat were on my veins, and he said lightly: "That's it, the others are too thin and not obvious enough, Lao Hu, it depends on your level." ”

The white coat glanced at me in a tone like talking about the weather: "You underestimate me too much, can this difficulty stump me?" As he spoke, the huge needle in his hand pierced me, obviously piercing my arm, but I felt that the tip of the needle seemed to be pierced into my eye. I thought it was just a simple blood collection, but as more and more blood was drawn from the syringe, my vision began to blur and my body felt fluttering.

I knew that I wouldn't die this time, or I wouldn't be the one I was, but I was still scared. It was a fear of feeling the blood getting cold a little bit. When his consciousness was confused, he seemed to hear a voice talking, squinted his eyes slightly, and vaguely saw that among the people who saw the shadow and shadow, in addition to white and blue, there were other colors, which felt slightly familiar.

After a few seconds, I finally recognized who that person was, and it was actually the chief who had just sent me to this dead end. His voice was as tender as ever, but this time it wasn't speaking to me, "Do you want to kill her once?" So why bother giving her to me, and just use it for experiments when you bring it back? ”

The middle-aged man was laughing: "Brother, don't be angry. ”

The chief sneered: "There's nothing to be angry about, it's just that you don't waste my time by what you have to do." ”

I felt my body take off, and then I saw the moving ground with my misty vision, and it took me a while to realize that I was walking with my waist in my hands. I may not know anything else, but I am familiar with that shoe, because most of the time I am staring at it these days, it is the chief's shoe.

When I saw the threshold, I realized that I was back in my house. The body flew into the air and was thrown into the bed without weight.

"Today you are allowed to rest in bed for half a day, and tomorrow morning I will see you come out on time to train." When the words fell, something was left beside me, and I raised my eyes only to see the cold and hard back of the chief walking out of the door.

Weakly retracting his gaze, he found that next to his elbow was something wrapped in oiled paper. When I opened it with great difficulty, I couldn't help but be stunned, and it was hard to believe my eyes. It lasted for more than half a month, and the daily food was the kind of cake that was so dry and hard that it was hard to swallow, but it was easy to fill my stomach, and this time the chief actually threw me a small piece of beef, and the aroma immediately aroused my appetite.

Humans have always been carnivores, and the temptation of meat is hard to resist. I didn't think much about the significance of the sir's act, so I took a bite of it, it was dry beef, still very hard, but the deliciousness was indescribable. But after two bites, I was reluctant to eat any more, so I carefully wrapped the oiled paper, turned over and hid it under the bed, and found the cake that had been stored there and continued to nibble.

Life is so difficult, if you don't rely on yourself to restrain the balance, it will only be bleak forever. Such a rare delicacy will be the motivation and comfort when you feel that you can't survive it in the future.

Even my adult mind would not consider this act of mercy by the Chief. It was the greater benefits that enabled me to survive. For a year, I was still thin and often pale, because every three months I would be taken to the white coat and the blue coat and drained a large tube of blood. This is secondary, and the key is that I observed the look on each of them, from the initial excitement and eagerness, to the anxiety that even turned into disgust in the eyes of me. Including the sir, although he still asked me to do various physical training every day, there was often a flash of disappointment in his eyes.

It's because ...... Ordinary.

I didn't show any unusual characteristics at all, and my physical abilities were usually not up to standard because I was always being drawn blood, not to mention that I had some talents because of Sheng Shiyao's special blood. At this point, I still can't draw.

In the early morning of this day, I always felt that the commander's gaze drifted over intentionally or unintentionally, and only after the completion of a round of training did I hear him say in a deep voice: "There will be an ability test today, follow the rules of survival of the fittest, if you don't do your best, no one can help you." ”<