The text message was sent by Gu Nianbin, writing: Xiaowan, where have you been? I'm scared to death.

Du Xiaoxian looked at that sentence, his eyes straightened. They went together, Xia Xiaowan left halfway, Gu Nianbin was worried, it was okay, she shouldn't be suspicious, although the tone was a little intimate, but Xia Xiaowan also said that they grew up together and had a great relationship, even if Gu Nianbin was worried about death, there was nothing wrong with it.

She has been persuading herself in her heart, but her fingers pressed down without obeying the call, and finally she couldn't hold back, and clicked into the text message menu, she saw the previous one, which was sent by Gu Nianbin yesterday morning: Xiaowan, are you angry? Why not reply? You should know me, give me a call and I'll be waiting.

Xia Xiaowan replied: Brother Nian Bin, how could I be angry with you? I'm just a little bit of a preemptive, you don't have to be so nervous.

Then came Gu Nianbin's: Xiaowan, I didn't eat it this time, let's make an appointment next time, okay?

Further on: Xiao Wan, how did you go? Didn't you make an appointment to eat together?

These two Xia Xiaowan didn't reply.

The previous one is Xia Xiaowan's on the eighth night of the first lunar month: Brother Nian Bin, you don't want to be like this, you can only say that I came back one step late, although you said that you still love me, but you are too affectionate and can't let go of Xiaoxian, so it will be very tiring. I'm already very satisfied to be by your side like this, don't be sad for me anymore.

Du Xiaoxian looked at this somewhat long message, his heart shrank suddenly, and he brought out a huge pain, it turned out that he was still in love with Xia Xiaowan, and he still loved Xia Xiaowan!

She hurriedly looked forward, and Gu Nianbin posted: Xiaowan, Bai Qing's wedding touched me very much, and I once wanted to give you such a grand wedding. It's a pity that fate makes people, and everything can't go back.

Du Xiaoxian flipped through the two lines of words, she closed her eyes, and she could almost imagine how helpless and hurt Gu Nianbin was when she sent this message!

Gu Nianbin was so painful in his heart, but he treated her as before, Xia Xiaowan was right, Gu Nianbin was a man who valued affection, and he couldn't let her go, so he could only bury the pain in his heart and not let her notice it at all.

It turned out that the truth was like this, Du Xiaoxian slowly put the phone back on the coffee table, her heart seemed to have overturned a pot of hot oil, burning her heart with a swishing sound, the pain was irrepressible, she pressed her heart hard, trying to alleviate the pain, but no, the pain was more like a clearer, like burning out thousands of bloody holes.

It would be nice if Xia Manyin splashed sulfuric acid on her face that day, Du Xiaoxian thought, if that's the case, it would really be a hundred, where would it hurt so much! It really hurts!

Xia Xiaowan looked at Du Xiaoxian's heartbroken appearance from the crack in the door, and sighed sadly: I'm sorry, Xiaoxian, I was as naïve and stupid as you at the beginning, but in the end, I only ended up pitiful and pathetic. So don't blame me, what I once lost, I want to get it back little by little.

Inside and outside the door, the two girls were secretly sad, the mobile phone on the coffee table suddenly rang, Xia Xiaowan hurriedly opened the door and walked out, Du Xiaoxian didn't move the mobile phone, just looked fixedly, looked a little trance, looked at it for two seconds, and then looked up and said, "It's the young master calling." ”

Xia Xiaowan picked up her mobile phone: "Brother Nian Bin, I'm sorry, I didn't tell you when I left, I have a stomach problem, it's okay, I've already seen a doctor...... I'm at your house now, and I have a lot of pain on the road, so I happened to pass by your house, so I came up to ask for a glass of water and medicine, and took a rest by the way...... No, I'm leaving, okay...... I'll call you when I get home. ”

After hanging up the phone, she glanced at Du Xiaoxian, suddenly widened her eyes, and said in some surprise: "Xiaoxian, what's wrong with you?" The face is not very good, is there something uncomfortable, I called Brother Nian Bin to come back quickly. ”

"Don't," Du Xiaoxian hurriedly stopped her: "I'm fine, but I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, and now I'm fine." She squeezed out a smile: "Maybe I ate too much at night and held on." ”

Xia Xiaowan looked a little worried, "I'll still call Brother Nian Bin back, I'm not worried if you stay alone." ”

"I really don't need to," Du Xiaoxian drank water from the cup, the water was already cold, and it flowed down his throat, cold and cold, until he was cold to his heart. "Don't scratch him, I'm fine, just take a break."

"Okay then," Xia Xiaowan said, "I'll go first, Brother Nian Bin is almost going back, if you have something, call him." ”

Du Xiaoxian nodded, stood up and sent her to the door: "It's so late, be careful on the road." ”

"Don't send it if you're uncomfortable," Xia Xiaowan pushed her in and closed the door with her hand. Designing such a simple little girl, she really can't bear it.

Du Xiaoxian sat on the sofa for a while, she thought she would cry, but she didn't. She just felt tired, her body was weak, she was deeply tired, and her mind went blank. She was originally a simple person, but when she suddenly suffered such a blow, her brain circuits were not enough, so she automatically stopped and simply didn't think about anything.

After a while, she went to take a shower, climbed into bed and lay down, slowly recalling the night of the eighth day of the new year. When Gu Nianbin came back that day, she was already asleep, and in a daze, she saw the sound of him opening the door, then the sound of taking a bath, and then he entered the room and lay down beside her very lightly. The man who had just finished taking a shower had a good smell of shower gel, but it couldn't hide the strong smell of alcohol, and he quickly turned around and slept with his back to her. And usually, he always had to hold her in his arms, and his breath always hit the top of her head or neck, and she was so confused that she didn't feel anything wrong.

The next morning, she woke up very late, and he was no longer at the pillow, and at noon he also said that there was a social meeting and did not return, until she was taken to the company by Zhou Ting, but the expected surprise turned into a loss, she made a fuss, thinking that she was careful, but it turned out that everything was for a reason, but she didn't know.

She has never liked to think about things very much, but now that she thinks about it carefully, the context of her memory is so clear, and the shots are as if they have been magnified, and even the tiredness on Gu Nianbin's face is extremely clear, so clear that it makes her panic.

But she didn't hate Gu Nianbin at all, even if he still loved Xia Xiaowan.

Because Xia Xiaowan came first, and she came last. As Gu Nianbin said, fate made people, it was a mistake that made her occupy the position that should belong to Xia Xiaowan, and it was her existence that made the two of them suffer.

Gu Nianbin is a good person, he hid it from her, bearing the pain of wanting to love but not being able to love, Xia Xiaowan is also a good person, she only said that she was late when she came back, but she didn't complain about anything. They were all afraid to hurt her!

When she didn't know, it was two people who were in pain, but now that she knew, it became that all three of them were in pain, and she thought, if her withdrawal could fulfill their happiness, then it would be worth it for her to bear all the pain alone.

It's just that she thought again, if she left, would Gu Nianbin be sad? Will it be like last time to chase her? Would he miss her without her?

What to do? What to do? Her mind was in turmoil, her mind was not enough, and all her thoughts were scattered into a mess......

There was a noise at the door, it was Gu Nianbin who came back, she heard him enter the door, heard him go to take a bath, heard him come into the room, and muttered quietly: "Why did you sleep?" ”

Then he lay down beside her lightly, and seemed to touch her hair lightly as he slept, but as he had slept that night, with his back to her. She opened her eyes slightly, looked at his broad back, bit her lip stubbornly, and told herself in her heart over and over again: You can't cry, you must not cry, since he hid it from her, she will treat it as if she doesn't know. Otherwise he would be uncomfortable, and the last thing she wanted was to make him uncomfortable.

The man seemed to fall asleep quickly, and she heard his even and steady breathing, and she looked at him silently with her eyes open, until her eyes gradually became hot, and she exhaled very lightly, and slowly turned around and closed her eyes.

Such a cold night is actually the best sleep, but she didn't feel sleepy at all, half a sound, opened her eyes again, looked at the dark room and was distracted, slowly, her eyes adjusted to the darkness, she could see the outline of everything.

The house is finely decorated, they only brought clothes to move in, Gu Nianbin said that she can add whatever she wants, change what she wants, she is the housewife of the house, this kind of thing should be in charge of her, but she thinks everything is very good, new and beautiful, so nothing has moved, she only added a glass vase, bright royal blue, there is a flower shape on it, a red and gorgeous one, with turquoise leaves, very eye-catching and beautiful, Gu Nianbin laughed at her cheesy, saying that only she would buy such a vase. But she likes this, she likes this bright color, the paintings she paints are all like this, colorful patchwork together, Mr. He Sen said that vulgarity is elegance, which is also a style. The vase was placed on the small cabinet by the window, and when the sun shone on it, it was full of light, as if it was a treasure vase that could shine, and at night, the bottle shone in the dark, like ice, and like warm jade. The curtains were drawn, but there was still a faint light on the edges, and she guessed that the moonlight outside should be good.

Thinking about something inconsequential, I gradually felt my eyelids become heavy, and finally closed.

But in the middle of the night, she woke up again, didn't open her eyes and knew that she was in his arms, because it was very warm, she took a deep breath greedily, turned around gently, and wanted to get out of his arms, but the man's hand tightened, and tied her more firmly, she was a little stubborn, and took his hand away directly, to separate some distance from him, the man woke up, half-opened his eyes and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"It's a little hot," she whispered.

Gu Nianbin was drowsy, but he still reached out and touched it, "It's all cold, what's hot?" Sleep fast. I couldn't help but say, hugged her and fell asleep.

She was silent, what about the cold? How cold is her heart!

The man's breathing gradually deepened, and she thought he was asleep, but after a while, he asked in a low voice, "Why haven't you slept yet?" ”

It turned out that he knew, but she couldn't speak, for fear that she would cry when she opened her mouth.

Her silence made the man suspicious, and he opened his eyes to look at her: "What's wrong with you?" ”

She couldn't even open her eyes because there were tears under her eyelids.

Gu Nianbin finally felt that something was wrong, reached out and turned on the bedside lamp, squinting at her: "Xian'er, tell me, what's wrong?" ”

No, it can't be said, death can't be said, he is already very hard, she can't add to his pain anymore.