Chapter 156: Difficulties and Contradictions
Yin Zheng felt that he was really crazy.
When Song He fell asleep in the bedroom, Yin Zheng walked into their bedroom, and in a dimly lit room, Yin Zheng sat on the edge of Song He's bed, looking at the sleeping woman in front of him, silent for a long time.
He remembered their past, from-for-tat, hating each other, to loving each other later, Yin Zheng didn't know why he and Song He were like this, and he didn't understand, and he never understood why Song He seemed to be a different person since she was pregnant, like a frightened bird, a little movement would cause Song He to be frightened.
Even now, it has evolved into Song He beginning to mind the appearance of the child, as well as suspicious of the relationship between the two of them.
Yin Zheng also felt tired, and he didn't even want to spend any more time explaining to Song He.
Therefore, when Yin Zheng sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the sleeping Song He, a very terrible idea suddenly popped up in his mind, and even after this idea appeared, Yin Zheng really did it.
He gave all the servants of the house a vacation, ten days.
Yin Zheng thought that ten days should be enough for him to wear out Song He's thoughts about leaving him.
The villa was too quiet, and when Song He woke up, he felt that it was different because it was too quiet, as if no one was here at all except himself.
When people are in danger, they can always have an extraordinary intuition, Song He looked at the garden where there was no maid to work, and at that moment, he suddenly remembered what Yin Zheng said to her, and for a moment, Song He felt cold, but intuitively knew that Yin Zheng had really imprisoned himself here, as he said.
And now, Yin Zheng looked at Song He who was full of tears on the bed, and from her desperate face and painful eyes, Yin Zheng saw that the demon in his heart was shouting and instigating - to leave Song He, which was right.
"It's been so long......" Yin Zheng's tone and eyes were like the wind in the middle of the night in the cold moon of winter, cold and biting, deeply penetrating Song He's appreciation, and the man lowered his body, like a huge and terrifying shadow, enveloping Song He's whole person.
She heard Yin Zheng say, "It's been so long, Song He, your heart is not with me yet." ”
Song He could only shake her head back and forth in the despair and abyss-like pain that Yin Zheng gave her, her eyes were full of tears, and in Yin Zheng's cold gaze, she tried to make Yin Zheng understand that it was not what he thought, she was just ...... It's just because they love Yin Zheng too much that they don't want to share Yin Zheng with anyone, not even their children.
And now the man who appeared in front of Song He's eyes, although his facial features, eyebrows and eyes were all Yin Zheng's appearance, but Song He felt too strange, Yin Zheng would never look at him with such eyes, her Yin Zheng was not this man who would exude a gloomy and cold atmosphere.
"Yin Zheng ......" The coldness in Song He's eyes reflected the horror on Yin Zheng's face, fear was like a wild grass growing wildly in Song He's heart, she shouted Yin Zheng's name in a trembling voice, and with this call, the tears in Song He's eyes seemed to be unbearable, and finally rolled down, wetting her pillow.
But despite this, Song He was still stubborn and did not avoid Yin Zheng's gaze, in Yin Zheng's gloomy gaze, Song He did not hide through the curtain of tears, and even met Yin Zheng's gaze directly, and said: "Yin Zheng, do you love me or your child?" Or is it just to give birth to a child for you just to have my body? ”
With every word or sentence Song He said, Song He herself clearly heard the sound of something breaking, she knew that it was the past, and the tenderness and warmth that Yin Zheng gave her was the beauty of every day.
But now, those memories that Song He once regarded as treasures have been turned into powder in Yin Zheng's shackles that seem to destroy everything.
Song He knew that everything was ruined - it was Yin Zheng who ruined them, and he also ruined them.
In Song He's questioning, a hint of different color flashed in Yin Zheng's gloomy eyes, but immediately, a faint smile appeared on Yin Zheng's gloomy face.
That smile seemed to be just on the surface, as if if there was wind at the moment, it would be able to blow the smile on Yin Zheng's face away immediately.
The corners of Yin Zheng's mouth were slightly upturned, but in Song He's eyes, it was extremely terrifying and dangerous.
The man finally spoke: "Even if I say I love you, you don't believe it, why do you ask?" So what's the difference now? ”
Facing the man in front of him who looked like a demon, Song He began to tremble uncontrollably when he heard his voice.
But Yin Zheng refused to let go of Song He, and even had a strange distorted pleasure in his heart, wanting to torture Song He, punish Song He, and let Song He know that she couldn't escape herself.
The cold and gloomy man propped up his body and blew his breath down on Song He's neck and ears, but wherever those air currents passed, Song He involuntarily began to tremble, and many small goosebumps appeared on his skin.
But Song He refused to admit defeat and refused to let Yin Zheng see her weakness, so she was still stubborn, and under Yin Zheng's bad punishment and pressure, she said: "There is a difference, this determines whether you are worthy of my continued love." ”
Song He's words seemed to be like a big joke, which made Yin Zheng involuntarily laugh in a low voice, and the man's laughter echoed in the room for a long time, as if he was very happy, but at the same time, it made Song He sound extremely piercing.
This is Yin Zheng's sarcasm to Song He, Song He feels that what he just said is like being amorous, maybe even Yin Zheng is not uncommon and cares if Song He still loves himself.
In the dim light, Song He got used to the dark eyes and saw Yin Zheng's face, even if he laughed, it was just like a smile, the man's strong body was like a towering mountain, in the past, Song He felt that this mountain gave her a sense of security, but now, the man she loved actually relied on this advantage to coerce herself, control herself, and let the uneasiness and apprehension land on Song He's heart.
When Song He was vacillating between the children because of Yin Zheng, even if she was disheartened and wanted to leave Yin Zheng, she still couldn't help but soften her heart sometimes, and she also wondered if this was too cruel for Yin Zheng? Whether her departure will make Yin Zheng's life, which he thought had come to the light, fall into darkness again.
But life is too long, just as Song He knows that he can't bear Yin Zheng's love for him to his children, Song He is also sure that if he is reluctant, his future life will only be pain and disputes.
Yin Zheng needs such a woman, not a person like her who seems to be soft and weak, but is extremely stubborn, Song He thought, she is just a momentary time, and someone will always appear in the future to make up for the hollowness in Yin Zheng's heart.
This may be fate.
At the beginning, he was forced to marry Yin Zheng, and at the beginning, Yin Zheng's purpose in marrying himself was to let Song He give birth to a child for him, and now, they are really back on the right track, and the so-called love experienced in the middle is just a long way out of the way.
That's what ...... She Song He and Yin Zheng should appear in the ending.
Song He felt that her heart was pinched by an invisible hand, twisting and pinching it fiercely, which made her feel painful and at the same time felt a kind of desolation of being retaliated by fate, which made her see the real cold and cruel reality.
Song He now understands that the most painful future is not that he and Yin Zheng will be separated from each other from now on, but that when she is still trapped in the fog of loving Yin Zheng and can't find an exit, Yin Zheng has been able to treat her so cruelly and without pity.
She also wanted to understand Yin Zheng, but Yin Zheng couldn't even understand her own feelings, so why did Song He understand Yin Zheng?
This kind of restraint is tantamount to clearly telling Song He that Yin Zheng wants to break Song He's wings, so that Song He can only live here for the rest of his life.
Love, or love Yin Zheng's heart, Song He can admit it frankly, but for Song He, love is not her whole life, why should she listen to Yin Zheng's words, so as to become a person who has no opinion and lost her life?
What kind of expression did Yin Zheng's face buried in the shadows show, Song He couldn't see clearly, the only thing she could see clearly was Yin Zheng's eyes that were always dark and shiny in the shadows, and there was a scorching fire burning in them, so that Song He couldn't figure it out or understand it.
But Song He knew what Yin Zheng wanted to hear, and he also knew that what he said could shake Yin Zheng's heart.
So, Song He looked at Yin Zheng, with obvious tears in his eyes and red eyes, and his miserable and pitiful appearance fell into Yin Zheng's eyes directly, making Yin Zheng have a moment of doubt and hesitation.
Immediately after, Yin Zheng saw Song He open his mouth, and his most familiar voice slowly spit out from Song He's cherry mouth, with choked and trilled sounds, as if a hand was choking Yin Zheng's heartstrings.
Song He looked at Yin Zheng like this, and then said, "Yin Zheng, do you still want me to love you?" ”
There was clearly a period of intense and long-term vacillation and hesitation in the man's eyes as silent as ice, Yin Zheng was like a trapped beast, fighting frantically against his desires in his heart, and this obvious struggle did not escape Song He's eyes at all.
Suddenly, after seeing the struggling Yin Zheng and understanding the distress and pain in Yin Zheng's eyes, Song He felt that it was not the man in front of him who was terrifying.