44 Has she become hypocritical?
Du Xiaoxian was sitting on the flower bed in the bushes, and suddenly saw a bright light coming from the gate, she knew that Gu Nianbin was back, so she quickly walked out of the bushes, walked under the tree and waited, now she is not afraid of Gu Nianbin at all, but is very happy to see him, because in this family, he is her dearest.
The car stopped in front of her, and when she saw Gu Nianbin coming out of the car, Du Buxian hurriedly called the young master, Gu Nianbin hummed, didn't look at her, raised his feet and walked straight into the house. Du Xiaoxian blinked her eyes, looked at his back gradually moving away, suddenly felt a little sad, her nose was sour, she pulled her head back to the bushes and sat down, she was actually rarely so sad, she was sad when her grandma died, Xiao Hei who had been with her was gone, she was also sad, and there seemed to be nothing else to feel uncomfortable.
But now she is very uncomfortable, usually Gu Nianbin sees her with a pleasant face and a very gentle appearance, and often touches her head to express his liking for her, which makes her the happiest. Every time Gu Nianbin made such a move, she was overjoyed, because it meant that the young master liked her, and if someone liked her, she had a sense of existence, and this feeling was very important to her. But now it's different, she feels very sensitively that the young master doesn't like her anymore, and he hates her just as much as they do!
Du Xiaoxian held her chin and looked down at her feet, they were right, she was a nasty ghost, she was annoying everywhere she went, and now even the young master hated it, so she ......
She looked up at the sculpture again, and under the moonlight like water, the bathing girl was serene and quiet, and she looked at it, and her depressed mood recovered slightly.
Gu Nianbin stood in front of the window, also looking at the sculpture in front of the courtyard in a daze, his mind seemed to be even more chaotic, since Shao Baiqing told him those words before getting off work, his heart has always been chaotic. Of course, Shao Baiqing is talking nonsense, how can he be interested in Du Xiaoxian? It's just a child, because he thinks she is pitiful, so he takes care of her a little more, which is definitely not what Shao Baiqing thought, but Du Xiaoxian's aggrieved expression just now made him feel blocked. There seemed to be a small voice in his head that said: You care about her, you really care about Du Xiaoxian!
Gu Nianbin shook his head vigorously, impossible, absolutely impossible, he turned his head to look at the photo of Xia Xiaowan on the table, he only had Xiaowan in his heart, how could he be able to accommodate another girl, not to mention that Du Xiaoxian was so much younger than him, and he was still a little maid, this was simply incredible!
Gu Nianbin went to the bathroom to take a cold shower, and then stood by the window with a dry towel to wipe his head, and glanced at the bushes by the flower bed below, it was dark and faint, and he couldn't be sure that someone was there, but Gu Nianbin kept staring there, and he felt that Du Xiaoxian must be inside, what was she doing hiding there? Sad? Will she cry?
threw away the towel, went to bed to sleep, picked up the photo of Xia Xiaowan on the bedside table, and told himself again that the person he liked was Xia Xiaowan, and it could only be Xia Xiaowan!
This night, he slept very unsteadily, and had a bizarre dream, many faces floated around him, all of them were women, Xia Xiaowan, Zhou Ting, several daughters of the world, and Xia Xiaowan, a partner in the business field... Every face was surprisingly clear, only one face was blurry, only a pointed chin could be vaguely seen, he reached out to grab that face to see clearly, every time he almost reached it, those faces rushed over to stop him, he struggled to pull them away, and then grabbed the blurred face, but he couldn't catch it, watching that face drift farther and farther away, he was inexplicably flustered, as if there was a very important thing that he couldn't remember......
Woke up in the middle of the night, wiped the sweat on his forehead, Gu Nianbin went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when he returned to the room, he saw Xia Xiaowan's photo frame falling on the floor, picking it up, and a small crack was knocked on the crystal frame, he had a vague bad premonition in his heart, and felt that he was worrying about nothing, put the photo frame on the bedside table, leaned on the bed and lit a cigarette, the green smoke curled up, diffused in the air, under the dim light, the smoke was like a net that was slowly being opened, Gu Nianbin looked at it blankly, Suddenly remembered the dream just now, and was a little upset and put out the cigarette in the ashtray. Pulled the quilt over his head and lay quietly.
In the evening of the next day, Du Xiaoxian was sweeping the floor, and suddenly saw a white car driving in from the gate, she recognized it as the car of the young master's girlfriend, Miss Xia, she quickly avoided it and let the car pass. Then he lowered his head and swept the floor, but after a while, Yu Guang saw a figure walking towards her, and when she looked up, it was Xia Xiaowan, she looked at her with a light smile: "Your name is Du Xiaoxian?" ”
Du Xiaoxian nodded, inexplicably a little flustered, and held the broom with his hand.
Xia Xiaowan said again: "I seem to have seen you in Nian Bin's office? ”
Du Xiaoxian nodded again, feeling more and more uneasy.
"How old are you?"
The gentler Xia Xiaowan's tone was, the more flustered Du Xiaoxian became, she didn't understand why Xia Xiaowan was talking to her at all? She bit her lip and said in a thin voice: "I'm eighteen." ”
"It's so good, the same age as flowers," Xia Xiaowan asked again, "Where is your hometown?" ”
"Daliang Mountain." Du Xiaoxian suddenly remembered the last time she was hot with Xia Xiaowan, and hurriedly said, "Miss Xia, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do it last time, I ...... it."
"It's okay, I know you didn't mean to." Xia Xiaowan smiled gently, "It's just a small thing, don't worry about it." ”
While the two were talking, Gu Nianbin's car drove in from the door and stopped beside them, Gu Nianbin opened the car door and came down, looked at Xia Xiaowan and smiled: "There is something temporary, otherwise I will pick you up." ”
"It's okay, I just arrived, and I'm chatting with Xiaoxian."
Du Xiaoxian hurriedly called the young master, Gu Nianbin responded lightly as he did that night, but he still didn't look at her, and walked to the other side of the house with Xia Xiaowan.
Du Xiaoxian heard him whisper to Xia Xiaowan, "What do you have to talk about with her?" ”
There was a slight contempt in that tone, and Du Xiaoxian only felt as if she had been pricked by a needle in her heart, which made her frown. She quickly turned around and lowered her head, and suddenly a tear dropped on the back of her hand, and the hot tears seemed to burn the skin, stinging, then two drops, and then a series of falls.
She held the broom tightly, and it was so uncomfortable that it was as if a hand was wringing her heart, and she couldn't even breathe. Du Xiaoxian didn't know why she was so uncomfortable, what the young master said was right, a humble person like her really has nothing to talk about, but why is she so uncomfortable, it's just a sentence, no matter how ugly it is, she is indifferent, why is she so sensitive now, is life too good, has she become hypocritical?
Looking at the back of her hand with teary eyes, there were still some shallow marks from the burn last time, that time she did something wrong, the young master not only did not scold her, but also rubbed the ointment on her, smiled at her, and even hugged her. His arms are so warm! Can ...... now With indifferent eyes and a disdainful tone, he was alienating her, and the closest young master was going to stay away from her, and there would be no one who treated her as well as the young master. Du Xiaoxian burst into tears, and suddenly she was so sad that she couldn't help herself, and even her shoulders trembled.
Xia Xiaowan went up the steps and glanced back, Du Xiaoxian in the distance stood with her back to them and didn't move, her thin body seemed to tremble slightly in the sunset, she couldn't help but sigh, Gu Nianbin also looked back, he didn't know what Du Xiaoxian was standing there for, but it was as if suddenly he stepped on an empty step, and his heart sank instantly.
Fang Yaru stood at the door, watching them come up, and smiled very happily: "You guys are back." ”
Xia Xiaowan greeted with a smile, stepped forward and grabbed Fang Yaru's arm affectionately, compared to Gu Shanshan, now she and Fang Yaru are more like mother and daughter.
Fang Yaru talked and laughed with her, walked into the house, and when she turned around, she saw Gu Nianbin standing still, and asked in surprise, "Aren't you coming in?" ”
Gu Nianbin took out the cigarette case, "I'll smoke a cigarette and come in." ”
"You'd better smoke less. Not good for the body. Fang Yaru nagged and saw her son lighting a cigarette by himself, she couldn't help but shake her head, and whispered to Xia Xiaowan: "You can also talk about him, now I say that he is useless." ”
Xia Xiaowan smiled: "I said he wouldn't listen to it." ”
"How do you know if you don't try," Fang Yaru lowered her voice: "I don't care before marriage, and it's even more difficult to manage after marriage." ”
Xia Xiaowan blushed, and said with a rare twist: "Auntie, it's too early to say this." ”
Fang Yaru secretly glanced at her son, and saw that he was standing by the pillar smoking, and didn't pay attention to them, so she said, "It's not early, I still want to find a time to visit your parents." ”
"This ......" Xia Xiaowan turned around and glanced at Gu Nianbin secretly, "Let's ask Nianbin what he means first." ”
"I'll tell Nian Bin," Fang Yaru pulled Xia Xiaowan to sit down on the sofa, "You also go back and ask your parents what they mean, and arrange a time for the two families to meet." ”
"Okay, as long as Nian Bin has no opinion, my parents are easy to talk to."
Fang Yaru nodded with satisfaction, Gu Nianbin and Xia Xiaowan seemed to have developed well these days. Everything is going in a good direction, and it seems that her wish will soon be fulfilled. Thinking that Gu Nianbin was about to get married and have children, she was so excited, her heart disease for many years was finally going to be removed, she ended up relaxed, and in a blink of an eye, she could hug her fat grandson again, Fang Yaru felt that the happy life in her later years was already beckoning to her.
Gu Nianbin smoked a cigarette and silently looked at the thin figure in the distance, he knew that Du Xiaoxian was crying, although her shoulders were no longer shaking, but she was wiping her tears, again and again, and kept wiping......
He suddenly got angry, what was he crying about? What is there to cry about? Where are there so many tears? Why can't you wipe it dry? Throwing the cigarette butt on the ground and striding down the steps, he walked towards her angrily, he wanted to ask her why she was crying? Eat and live well here, and let her go to school, what is she not satisfied with? Why are you crying?
The anger was only for a moment, and as he walked across the front yard to the lawn, his pace slowed down markedly, and at last he stopped, looking at the thin figure still with his back to him. He has always been a very straightforward person, but in the face of Du Xiaoxian, he is always a little hesitant......
Finally turned around and walked slowly towards the house, they are people from two worlds, and they are destined to have no intersection in this life, just like two parallel lines, they can only go their own way.
Gu Nianbin walked up the steps and looked back, Du Xiaoxian was sweeping the floor with a broom, and looking at it like this, she was as normal as usual. Gu Nianbin suddenly wondered if he had hallucinations again just now, Du Xiaoxian was obviously normal, how could he cry?
Du Xiaoxian wiped away her tears, calmed down, and continued to sweep the floor. Since she was a child, there have been more people who don't like her, she doesn't care at all, no matter how difficult life is, she still has to live! She is not a cheeky person, but she can turn a blind eye to those white eyes, ridicule, and ridicule.
But now, she cares about Gu Nianbin's attitude, he used to be so good to her, so good that she is like ascending to heaven, happy and happy, but now his attitude has changed 180 degrees, making her fall from heaven to hell, when she thinks about it, her heart is twisted, it is a strange pain that she can't bear. Du Xiaoxian felt that she couldn't stand it, her thoughts were always very simple: since the young master didn't like her anymore, what was she still doing here, it was better to go. As soon as this idea popped up, it was like a wild horse that had escaped from the leash, rampaging through her mind, and she couldn't take it back.
But if you really want to go, where can you go? This job was obtained by the second aunt, how could she just leave?
She stopped, exhaled softly, turned around and glanced at the side of the house, just saw the back of Gu Nianbin entering the house, the tall figure made her eyes light up, but it dimmed in an instant, her heart twisted, it hurt, it hurt, she turned around and looked up at the gorgeous clouds in the sky, even if she would leave, even if she could never see the young master again, she would remember him, remember him forever......