I told a lie, and no one knew about it except Aunt May. Almost everyone in the neighborhood, including neighbors and friends, thought my grandmother had died, but she wasn't, at least I don't think she did.

When I was eleven years old, my grandmother suddenly fell asleep and she stopped breathing. But when Aunt Mei was putting my grandmother in the coffin, I found that she still had a heartbeat, even if it was very slight, but I could feel the vibration. At that time, Aunt Mei was very suspicious, and when she listened with her ears, she could indeed hear a faint heartbeat, but her snort and pulse stopped beating.

In the current era, feudal superstition is still prevalent, and such a strange and bizarre thing will be rumored very outrageously if it is spread. Aunt Mei immediately decided not to make a noise, carried her grandmother back to the house, and the person who helped the funeral came over early the next morning, Aunt Mei said that the aftermath had been done at night, although others thought it was strange, but it was not good to ask more.

After the others dispersed, Aunt Mei told me to stay at home and guard my grandmother not to run around, and she went out. At that time, I was still living in an old house, and I was alone in the whole house with my grandmother who didn't know whether she was going to die, and to be honest, I was quite scared. From time to time, I went to touch my grandmother's heart, but I was afraid that it would stop beating, and I waited until the evening before Aunt Mei came back.

When she entered the door, she asked me how I was doing, and then asked me to go to sleep, when I was still young, and I didn't dare to listen to the words of adults, although I was worried about my grandmother, I obediently went back to my room. When I slept until I was in a daze, I felt that someone was pushing me, and when I opened my eyes, I saw that it was Aunt Mei, and I didn't know what was going on, so I was pulled up, and it wasn't until I entered my grandmother's room that Aunt Mei said let me help. He asked me to help carry my grandmother to the mountain bike outside the house, and there was a wooden board nailed to the back of the car, just enough to put my grandmother down.

After settling in, Aunt May wanted to leave me at home alone, but I said I was scared, and she thought about it and let me get into the mountain bike with me. It was so dark and it was the middle of the night, I was really scared, but with Aunt Mei and my grandmother by my side, my fear was reduced a lot. I asked Aunt Mei where she was going, and she replied that my little child should not ask more, and buried herself in the bicycle.

Because the old house was in the countryside, the road was not as good as it is now, and it was almost dawn when the mountain bike rode to the city. The destination is where it is now – the sanatorium. It turned out that Aunt Mei rushed to the city to contact this matter during the day, and my grandmother's situation was special, and it was definitely not possible to stay in the old house, and there were also doctors in the nursing home, who diagnosed my grandmother as a vegetative person after examining her. It wasn't until I was older that I understood what it meant to be in a vegetative state, but I didn't think my grandmother was in the same situation as a vegetative person. Because no vegetative person says that they don't have a breathing pulse but have a heartbeat.

Grandma has lived here ever since. The sanatorium has undergone renovations and staff changes, but the director has never changed, and my grandmother has never left. At first, in addition to nursing my grandmother, we would also take nutritional injections every day, but gradually we found that my grandmother's physical functions would not change even if she did not take nutritional injections. Her vitality does not exist except for her heartbeat, as if a master in martial arts has protected her heart with the last breath of true qi.

After that, Aunt Mei only hired a nurse to help take care of her grandmother, do some cleaning and wiping work, in the past ten years, the original old nurse retired, replaced by a new nurse, is what I met outside the door just now, she is actually called Zhang Juan, and she used her name casually.

I whispered to my grandmother about some of the things that had happened in the past eight months, and it was also a habit of mine. Every time I come back from a long trip, I will come to explain these things to my grandmother, no matter how big or small, there is no omission. At the end of the speech, I took my grandmother's wrinkled hand, put it on my face, and said silently: "Grandma, don't worry, I will definitely find a way to save you." ”

When I came out of the nursing home, it was noon, and I looked up at the sky, and it was clear. I ate a bowl of mixed sauce noodles at a nearby stall, and then I set off to reapply for a certificate, taking pictures and filling in information, running up and down many times, and finally got a temporary ID card, and the official certificate will take two months to get it. I went to the bank to report the loss of the card, and filled in the information again. After everything was done, I looked at the time, it was already three o'clock in the afternoon, and I hurriedly ran to the public phone booth and dialed Lin Miaomiao's phone.

This time, I copied her number on a piece of paper, and as soon as the phone was connected, Lin Miaomiao's angry voice came from the other end, and she hurriedly comforted her and asked her to meet at Wanda Plaza. Fifteen minutes later, when the two armies met, Lin Miaomiao rushed up and gave me a bear hug, I rubbed my sore shoulder, and smiled wryly thinking that her temperament was really inconsistent with her petite and beautiful appearance.

found a dessert shop and sat down, Lin Miaomiao began to pour bitter water, and told me all the things that had happened for a while, and the most talked about was the boyfriend she made. I look at the man who is secretly funny, and his heart can contain Lin Miaomiao's heart, I guess he has a very good set.

At this time, the store suddenly floated the sound of music, the front melody was very good, I couldn't help but pull out my mind to listen carefully, it was a girl singing, the voice was very magnetic, when I heard a certain word, I was stunned, and then I found that the word appeared very frequently, and I couldn't help but hear it. Lin Miaomiao stretched out her hand and waved it in front of my eyes several times before pulling me back to my heart, "Are you listening to me?" ”

I replied, "What is this song called?" ”

Lin Miaomiao rolled her eyes after being stunned, and said angrily: "I said Ah Xiao, are you from the mountains?" I don't know such an old song, Joey Yung's "Little". ”

"Little ......" I said softly, and what touched my heart just now was the two words that appeared frequently in the lyrics.

Do you know why I call you Tiny?

Because you are a little existence to me.

If I wish, then it would be fine to keep this little existence forever;

But if I don't want to, I'll make this little existence nothing. Now you're with me, and you're zero......

The man's words floated clearly in his mind, small, at least still there; Zero, is nothing. I am nothing to him, and all the past events that I have experienced together have been erased. Somewhere deep in my heart, I began to feel like I was digging my heart and bones again.

Lin Miaomiao may have seen my strangeness and asked me what was wrong, I looked at her in a daze, and suddenly had an urge to speak. After a little sorting out in my mind, I made up a person to put on me, and told the encounter with that person and the entanglement after that in the past two months, without any specific things, and also omitted those dangerous situations and strange strange events.

Even so, Lin Miaomiao was stunned after hearing this, and she sighed with embarrassment: "Ah Xiao, your friend has really rich experience, and if you save someone casually, you saved a boss male god, why didn't you meet me." ”

I couldn't help but laugh, "Don't you have a boyfriend anymore?" ”

Lin Miaomiao said with an indifferent expression: "A boyfriend is a boyfriend, and a male god is a male god, this is different." The man your friend met had the potential to be a male god, but unfortunately the two fell apart in the end. ”

"I'm not telling you this story to let you be a male god, it's for you to analyze the mentality of my friend, after she separated from them, every time she thinks of those things, she will feel sour, and even painful, what do you think is going on with her?"

"Poof-" As soon as I finished asking, Lin Miaomiao burst out laughing, juice spilled all over the table, and star foam spilled on me, before my anger rose, she hurriedly took a tissue to help me wipe it and said: "Ah Xiao, you are really boring, you don't even know that you like people." Sour, my heart hurts, these are all reactions after falling out of love. ”

I glared at her, "Who said it was mine?" That's the story of a friend of mine. ”

"Which friend are you? Tell me about it, you don't have any friends I don't know. I still want to hide it from me, your face is full of distress and entanglement, okay, I won't laugh at you, I will always meet once or twice, just get used to it. ”

I don't speak, is my heart so obvious? Could it be that there are too many emotions reflected on the face? She said that feeling was called ...... Like, do I really like Sheng Shiyao? Next, Lin Miaomiao kept chattering in her ear, explaining to me, and completely regarded me as a lovelorn person. But I know in my heart that where is there any broken love, not even love, where is the loss?

I was in a trance, and was regarded by Miaomiao as "too deep in love, difficult to extricate myself", and finally she patted me on the shoulder and pretended to be old: "Sister understands, first love is so sour and bitter plus painful, if you really can't let go, go to him." It's rare that you like someone, you have to stick to it, I support you! ”

Obviously, this made me cry and laugh, but I was seriously thinking about it.

Find him..... Can I still do it? I clearly remember the address of Liu Yufang, which is estimated to be eight hours away from my small town in the south of the Yangtze River, and I can reach it with just one train ticket. After parting with Miao Miao, I went home distraught, and in the evening Aunt Mei saw that I was strange and asked me what was the matter.

I stumbled to say what I was going to do, and her face immediately sank, and her atmosphere suddenly became stiff. I didn't dare to come out, burying my head and looking at my toes, like a child waiting to be trained. But Aunt Mei didn't say anything, threw the bag in her hand, turned around and walked into the room. Looking up at the closed door, I walked over to the couch and picked up the bag, which contained a beautiful long dress, which I had bought for the size and style.

Aunt Mei has always regretted her decision, always thinking that she caused me to embark on this road of no return, and lost many of the girlish feelings that I should have at my age. So she always tries to compensate in other ways and ways, but in fact, I really don't need to, the road is my own choice, and I will continue to walk city by city until I reach the end.