The days passed in contradictions.

Ye Qian and I are inseparable, lukewarm, friends are not like friends, colleagues are not like colleagues, and lovers are not like lovers.

Summer passed before you knew it.

Autumn is coming.

On this crisp Friday afternoon, I came to Chairman Lang's office in a depressed mood.

Chairman Lang had a bandage on his arm.

"What about you?" I asked Chairman Lang in confusion.

"Don't mention it," Chairman Lang said with a depressed face, "Is there anything wrong with you?" ”

"Can I finish that mission you sent sooner?" I asked straight to the point.

"If you insist," Chairman Lang said seriously, "I know you're depressed, and I'm even more depressed than you!" ”

"Then I'll hold on a little longer!" I said helplessly.

Chairman Lang smiled.

I turned around and went to my office and started packing my things to get ready to go home.

"You haven't harassed me for a long time," Ye Qian thought and said, "Right! ”

"Tired!" I said with a blank face.

"But I want to harass you now," Ye Qian laughed, "Are you free this weekend?" ”

"Where do you want to go?" I asked with a smile.

"I want to go to Cai Lun's tomb to have a look," Ye Qian said with a serious face, "I heard that it's very close!" ”

"It's not far," I smiled, "if I ride a motorcycle, if there are fewer cars on the road, it will be there in ten minutes!" ”

"Are you free tomorrow morning?" Ye Qian asked thoughtfully.

"You're getting more and more polite to me!" I laughed and said, "Whenever you're available, you're always available!" Beckon, linger! ”

"That's good," Ye Qianwan smiled, "See you tomorrow morning!" ”

"And what are you going to do tonight?" I asked tentatively.

"On a date!" Ye Qian smiled, "Is there a problem?" ”

I smiled silently.

Ye Qianyan smiled, her cheeks were smiling, and the sun was rippling.

A night of cranky thoughts.

After dawn, I rode a motorcycle and took Ye Qian to Cai Lun's tomb.

Cai Lun's tomb is located in Longting Town, Yangxian County, Shaanxi Province.

It sits in the south and faces north, and the whole tomb is composed of four parts: the front square, the ancestral hall, the tomb and the cultural museum.

I stood in the north of Cailun Square and looked at the antique three-bay door carved beams and painted buildings, and a pair of stone lions in front of the door looked solemn and quiet and charming against the backdrop of the tall ancient cypress in the door.

"Cai Lun, the inventor of papermaking, is buried here!" I stood on Cai Lun Square and said to Ye Qian.

"Cai Lun's papermaking technique is listed as one of the four great inventions of ancient China," Ye Qian said seriously, "and he has made outstanding contributions to the spread of human culture and the progress of world civilization, and has been revered by people for thousands of years." ”

"Yes," I said with a smile, "in Mike Hart's "List of 100 Men Who Influenced the Course of Human History," Tsai Lun is ranked seventh. ”

Ye Qian smiled and nodded.

We chatted as we walked through the gate and into the ancestral hall.

On the east and west sides of the ancestral area, there are bell and drum towers. The ancient cypress in the courtyard is towering to the sky, the flowers and trees are lush, and the three halls of the Cai Lun Ancestral Hall are covered with the worship hall, the dedication hall, the main hall, the three halls are all three open intermittent mountain top type, but the pedestal rises in turn, so that the hall looks more magnificent than the other.

We first entered the worship hall, which introduced Cai Lun's life and paper-making process.

"The invention of papermaking is a revolution in writing materials," Ye Qian said softly, "Since then, paper, as a new writing material, has benefited China and the world, and promoted the process of human civilization." ”

"Yes," I said seriously, "you see that above the main hall of this backyard, there is a plaque of Emperor Dezong's handwritten imperial book 'Cai Lun Temple' in the Tang Dynasty, and a couplet of 'Gong Qi Cangjie, ranked among the sages'. ”

I saw that in the middle of the hall was a seated statue of Cai Lun.

He pressed the placket in his left hand and held the paper in his right hand, full of wisdom.

As we visited, we came to the back of the main hall.

A beautiful mountaintop-style hanging flower gate separates Cai Lun Ancestral Hall from the tomb.

On the door, there is a plaque hanging on it, on which is the three words "Cai Lun's Tomb" handwritten by the veteran of the Republic of China and the famous calligrapher Yu Youren. After entering the Hanging Flower Gate, you will enter the cemetery. In front of the tomb, there is a heavy eaves rest on the top of the mountain four corners of the sacrificial pavilion, behind the pavilion is a tall mound mound, surrounded by stones and blue bricks, the upper part of the mound is green grass. There is a Hongbi pond behind the tomb, called Mingyue Pond, which is said to be the paper washing pool of Cai Lun papermaking. The whole cemetery is simple and elegant, solemn and solemn, expressing people's deep commemoration of Cai Lun for thousands of years.

Finally, we visited the Cai Lun Paper Culture Museum on the west side of Cai Lun's tomb.

"Cai Lun is a household name in China," I said to Ye Qian after I came out of the museum, "but do you know his beautiful love and miserable life?" ”

"I don't know," Ye Qianwan smiled, "Please explain Teacher Pang!" ”

"Cai Lun entered the palace during the Yongping period," I said seriously, "and he was accompanied by a maid named Ji'er in the palace. Her original surname was Mi and she entered the palace at the age of seven. After the two fell in love, Cai Lun often grieved because of physical problems......"

"What physiological problems?" Ye Qian asked curiously.

"Eunuch!" I smiled, "Cai Lun is a eunuch, but Ji'er thinks that since he has entered the palace, even if it is spiritual sustenance, it will also bring spiritual comfort." As a result, although the two of them cannot live physiologically like a real husband and wife, they depend on each other and love each other. However, at that time, due to the eyes and ears of the palace and the ban, the two did not dare to show it too much. ”

"This is also love?" Ye Qian muttered.

"In the ninth year of Emperor Yonghe," I continued, "Cai Lun saw that the historian intended bamboo slips to engrave books, which was extremely troublesome and hard, and at the same time, when he was in charge of the palace documents and archives, he also felt that 'silk is expensive and simple, and it is not convenient for people', so he decided to make a better paper than Western Han paper, so he germinated to find something that could replace bamboo slips." One day, he went to visit Ji'er, and occasionally found that the pulp overflowed to form a transparent film, and he couldn't help but have an idea in his heart, he decided to use the bark to grind, after high temperature cooking, and then use a fixed-scale wooden mold to make a paper shape, and after drying in the sun, to make paper. In the meantime, it lasted fifteen years, failed many times, and finally succeeded. ”

"Behind every successful man," Ye Qian smiled, "it seems that there is a smart woman, even the eunuch is no exception!" ”

"Cai Lun's character is too strong," I said seriously, "he offended many ministers in the court, and at the age of seventy he was demoted to the rank of court lieutenant. Cai Lun is a person who wants to save face, and he feels that instead of sitting and waiting to be killed and being humiliated to death, it is better to make a decision on his own and get rid of it. So, he and Ji'er drank the medicine and died at the same time. ”

"If Cai Lun has a famous saying," Ye Qian said with a smile, "he will definitely say that if I improve my papermaking skills, I will only write a love letter for you!" ”

"Cai Lun's love," I said deeply, "is actually the love of depression!" ”

"What is depressed love?" Ye Qian asked thoughtfully.

"Depressed love is a heavy burden," I said with emotion, "like a prisoner, wearing a shackle, because there are many, many things that are difficult to let go, so it becomes a kind of imprisonment, a kind of contradiction, a kind of pain, a kind of depression." Depressed love is surging in the heart, but pretending to be unfazed on the outside; Obviously there is a fire in his heart, but his face is full of calm and indifference; Hide all the secrets deep in your heart, entangle all the entanglements in your heart, can't, don't want and don't want to make it public. Depression love, which is difficult and painful, requires great endurance and determination to maintain; Depressed love is like being stuck in a swamp, the more you struggle, the more painful it is, and the easier it is to sink yourself......"

"Then with me, are you depressed?" Ye Qian asked suddenly.

"I'm not a eunuch!" I said with a blank face, "What am I depressed about?" ”

"Then your work during this period is very problematic," Ye Qian said with a serious face, "Many people in the unit have opinions about you!" ”

"What if you have an opinion?" I said indifferently.

"Your mind is not on work," Ye Qian looked at me with clear eyes, "I can't even read the propaganda drafts you wrote!" ”

"I didn't even want to write it!" I said disdainfully.

"And what have you been up to lately?" Ye Qian asked softly.

"Writing that novel," I said earnestly, "I want to finish it as soon as possible!" ”

"Are you serious?" Ye Qian smiled.

"It doesn't matter if I don't take it seriously," I said firmly, "and I've decided to start something, and I'm going to do it with all my might, because I don't have the idiom 'give up halfway' in my dictionary!" ”

"Do you know Toscanini?" Ye Qian asked with a smile.

"Famous Grand Conductor!" I smiled.

"Toscanini was eighty years old," Ye Qian said with a serious face, "and his son asked him what was the most important achievement of his life. He replied: 'What I'm doing at the moment is the most important thing, whether it's conducting a symphony orchestra or peeling oranges. 'Do you know what I'm trying to say?' ”

"Live in the moment!" I blurted out.

"That's right!" Ye Qian said earnestly, "There are many people who always live in expectations, always looking at the future, thinking that tomorrow will be better than today, and the day after tomorrow will be better than tomorrow, completely losing their most valuable thing - the time in front of them." They live in expectation all their lives, and in the end, they may only reap the rewards of helpless disappointment. ”

"Even if the end result is disappointment," I said earnestly, "I'm going to work hard to get it done!" ”

"Let's do the current work first!" Ye Qian said with affection, "Cherish this moment and focus all your thoughts and energy on the things in front of you." The best guarantee of a beautiful future is to cherish and make good use of the time in front of you. As long as you cherish this moment, the future will be beautiful! ”

"Thank you for your concern!" I said to Ye Qian emotionally.

Ye Qian smiled slightly, her cheeks smiling, full of affection.

I have mixed feelings, and I don't smile at it.

"Let's talk about Cai Lun's love now!" I whispered to Ye Qian.

"Actually, Cai Lun's love is also desperate love!" Ye Qian said in a deep voice.

"Yes," I said seriously, "disappointment is failure, despair is suicide!" ”

"Let's go!" Ye Qian smiled, "Go home!" ”

I smiled and got on my motorcycle.

Ye Qian stepped forward with two long legs and stepped into the back seat of the motorcycle dexterously.