136. Shadow
A meal is not happy, if you really want to say happy, it should be the three of them happy, after all, they all talk about everything, except for me and Fang Ziqing, I feel like outsiders can't talk at all, let alone be cared for.
As for what else comes next, that's their own. But no matter how much they waited, they didn't look like they were going to end. There seems to be endless words to talk about, and there are countless memories.
Since I was a child, I said it bit by bit, full of memories.
There is also the embarrassment of an hour, which is always talked about by Shen Qingzhi, and the happy look on his face is really dazzling, at least in my opinion. Think about it, wouldn't it be better between them if it didn't have me? But even so, I am still unwilling, and I don't want to give away the happiness I have gotten to others. With the first time, how do you let go of the second time. Free and easy, maybe I can't do it this time.
Lin Xiaode's words have been echoing in my mind, in fact, it is not unreasonable, but there are some things that I haven't figured out yet.
While listening to their past, I was also carefully looking at this woman named Shen Qingzhi. Anyway, no matter how you look at it, she is very good-looking, which makes me ashamed. Maybe only such a woman can be worthy of Xu Yi, who made him so 'good'.
I don't know if it's my delusion, but I seem to feel a little similar to her. Especially when I look at her, I always feel like I'm looking at myself. Needless to say, it's really a little bit like that.
In fact, it's not just me who thinks so, but Fang Ziqing is the same.
There wasn't much communication between us, and there wasn't even a word on the surface, everything was through the > "Enron, do you feel that you are very similar to this woman, and you really look at her." Your appearance is not too similar, but these facial features, especially the eyes, are really too similar. When it is quiet, there is also an indescribable similarity, that is, there is a little similarity between the words. ”
This is Fang Ziqing's original words, after all, this man also understands me. Since he's said something like that, I don't think I'm wrong. I do have a little resemblance to this woman. Or rather, I'm like a shadow of her. Looking at me, it was like looking at her.
This thought made me feel uncomfortable, as if I had figured out something, and my heart became more and more blocked.
I'm like her shadow, so what about Xu Yi, does he think the same way? Because of the likeness, that's why they chose me. In fact, to put it bluntly, I am her shadow, that's all. As for the love in Xu Yi's heart, it is actually this woman.
As if to see my emotions, Fang Ziqing began to use >
"Don't think for the worst, maybe sometimes things aren't what you think. Enron, don't think so much, in fact, you should believe him. Maybe I'm not in a position to say such a thing, but I really want you. Not all men are like me, and this is also something you said before. Of course, if you really want to leave him, I can ......" Fang Ziqing didn't say it directly, but I more or less understood what he meant. These words are actually nothing, and I will take them as another consolation.
This can be said to be the interaction between the three of them, talking all the time, without even a look.
"Sister Qingzhi, after so many years, why are you only coming back now. I'm back this time, will I still go? As he spoke, Lin Xiao changed the topic and asked directly. But as she said this, she glanced at me vaguely.
I know what she means, but she's not just asking for herself, she's helping me. At least in this way, we all have a bottom in our hearts. If she's only coming back temporarily, then there's no need to worry about it later. But if she doesn't leave this time, it's bad news for us.
"Well, I'm not sure yet. I would also like to stay here if I can. After all, you can't compare to your hometown outside, and you will feel at home here. ”
We can all see this scene clearly, when Shen Qingzhi said this, her attention was all on Xu Yi's body. That look of anticipation and happiness seemed to say, "As long as he speaks, I am willing to stay." For him, I will. That invisible show-off pierced my heart deeply.
The meal continued, but I had no appetite.
"Why don't you eat more, is it because you don't have an appetite? These are your favorite foods, what's going on today? "You didn't notice me until now," Xu Yi said with concern, reaching out and grabbing my hand.
Facing him, compared to facing Shen Qingzhi, I could clearly see that the smile on her face was disappearing little by little, and her eyes were full of provocation.
Sure enough, women are very possessive. Even if she doesn't do anything now, I can clearly feel her hostility towards me. It's a pity that Xu Yi, who has his back to her, can't see such a picture at all.
"Xu Yi, you didn't eat anything, are these dishes unappetizing?" Ignored instantly, Shen Qingzhi began to look for words, but he also pulled back Xu Yi's attention at the first time.
At this moment, I think I understood what Lin Xiao meant. This woman is not as simple and harmless as it seems on the surface, this is a woman's intuition.
Seeing his attention being pulled away again, I suddenly stood up in a panic, which made several people look at me at the same time.
"Excuse me, I'll go to the bathroom." With that, I left in a panic.
It's embarrassing, it's really embarrassing. I just didn't control my emotions just now, otherwise I wouldn't have made such a loud noise. Among the five people present, except for me and Fang Ziqing, the three of them are all daughters and young masters, in terms of upbringing and cultivation, we are naturally incomparable. But just now, when I looked at that hand reaching out to Xu Yi's arm, I really wanted to have a seizure. I always feel that this woman is provoking me and trying to make me ugly.
In the toilet, I came out and stood by the sink, looking at myself in the mirror, and I kept saying, "Calm down, you must calm down." That's just in the past tense, it's not a big deal. "I don't know what else I can say other than to comfort myself like that. It's false to say I'm not jealous, it's just that I'm not so obvious. If it was Lin Xiao, it is estimated that she would have had a seizure a long time ago, but this time she was calm, which was completely different from before.
I'm still washing my hands, and there's an extra person next to me. Shen Qingzhi, I didn't expect her to come, I thought it was Lin Xiao.
I have a hunch that this woman didn't come to the toilet for convenience.
Just as I thought, she really didn't come to the bathroom, but to talk to me.
"Hello."
Salute first and then soldier, this woman is really good at playing routines, but I'm not a fool, how can I not know this. But she showed her affection so gently, and I didn't have a good seizure.
"Hello, Miss Shen." As a courtesy, I also simply responded.
I wanted to go, but someone didn't take the next step at all, so I couldn't move, so I just stood and no one spoke.
I thought I could be silent for a long time, but I didn't want to break down in a short time.
"I heard that you are with Xu Yi now, you are really happy."
When he opened his mouth, he heard the meaning of the words. I seem to be very happy when I say it, but in fact, the sour taste has already come out. But compared to vinegar, this kind of sour smell is really unpleasant, anyway, I don't like this taste.
"I don't know if you have found a problem, you and I are a little similar, if we stand together, this person who doesn't know will think that we are two sisters. When I look at you, I feel like you're another me, or a shadow of me. You wouldn't mind if I said that. ”
Shen Qingzhi said with a sanctimonious tone, "Mind, how could I mind." "If you want to embarrass me, I don't. Doesn't it mean that I'm her shadow, I'm phew, I'm not anyone's shadow.
"Actually, I think most of the reasons why Xu Yihui will be with you for a while is because he misses me too much. is with you, also because you are like me, otherwise he would not be with you, Miss An, do you say yes? ”
I suddenly found that this woman has a lot of words, isn't it just to hit me, then I'm really sorry, I've been growing up in the blow. If I couldn't even bear this, then I guess this life would have ended a long time ago. But unfortunately, Shen Qingzhi didn't know about this.
"Shadows? Perhaps. But this doesn't mean anything, at least when I was with Xu Yi, he only had me in his heart. As for the rest, I think what Miss Shen said shouldn't be counted. You can't represent, let alone control everything about him.
Listening to Lin Xiao, Miss Shen can also be regarded as Xu Yi's first love, so I don't know where Miss Shen has gone over the years, which has made Xu Yi miserable for so many years before she came out. If I had shown up earlier, maybe Xu Yi wouldn't have been in pain for so long. That way, my marriage should be very happy. In fact, if you think about it, this is also thanks to Miss Shen's fulfillment, after all, you created such Xu Yi. ”
I said this from the bottom of my heart, after all, Xu Yi's experience is something I don't know, and I don't know about his past, and I don't bother to ask. We can see the present, not the past. If you really want to talk about the past, my past is not much better, but he doesn't care about these things, because he said that what he cares about is me as a person, our present, and our future. As for the past, it was only once.
"But Miss An, the acquaintance still leaves Xu Yi, you are not suitable for her. People like you are actually in it for the money. Suddenly reaching out and patting me on the shoulder, Shen Qingzhi said directly. The look of smiling meat without smiling is really unpleasant to watch.
Beautiful on the outside, dark on the inside, such a woman is really disgusting.