Chu Fangfang began to chat with a girl with a serious face.

The girl looks to be about 20 years old, not pretty, but not ugly either.

"I'm bitter," the girl said to Chu Fangfang, "bitter life!" ”

Chu Fangfang smiled and nodded.

"I want to talk to you about my love story in the North Drift!" Said bitterly.

"Let's talk about it!" Chu Fangfang said with a smile.

"Xiao Han is my lover," he said bitterly, "I never thought that he would find my place to live." When he recklessly pushed the door in, I was crouching on the edge of the bed, rubbing a high paraplegic man on the bed with a basin of warm water. Xiao Han, who was in a suit and leather shoes, stood at the door in a daze, looking at the tattered furniture in the room and the man who was lying on the bed and lost his legs, without saying a word, his face full of surprise. ”

"Didn't you tell Xiao Han where you lived before?" Chu Fangfang asked puzzledly.

"No," he shook his head, "because I don't want him to know, I usually go to his quarters!" ”

"Who's that guy in bed?" Chu Fangfang asked tentatively.

"My man!" Sighing bitterly, "When Xiao Han stood in my room with a surprised face, I got up and asked him expressionlessly who he was looking for, and he shook his head blankly. As soon as I stretched out my hand, I slammed the door shut. I turned to my man and said, 'Wrong door,' and my man didn't say anything, just moved his body into the bed with difficulty......"

Bitterly and quietly.

Chu Fangfang listened carefully.

"As soon as I put down the towel," said Kuku, with a blank face, "I started cooking the noodles." After eating, I sat quietly in front of the shabby dresser in the corner of the room, as usual, and began to carefully dress up: I changed into fashionable and sexy underwear, which wrapped the curves of my body round and smooth; I changed into a knee-length skirt with a wrap at the hem, which not only made my legs look slimmer and moving, but also allowed me to sway in a charming posture while walking; Then, I donned a thick cashmere coat and beautiful, sleek long-heeled boots...... Such a costume is enough to withstand the cold of Beijing's winter night; This kind of outfit is enough to make my sexiness self-evident! ”

"You're talking about winter, right?" Chu Fangfang asked thoughtfully.

"Yes," said bitterly, "what happened last winter! ”

"You're deliberately dressing yourself up sexy, aren't you?" Chu Fangfang then asked.

"Yes," said bitterly, "I love this elegant and sensual outfit, which makes me feel like I'm not a complete outcast from this world yet." It is this kind of dress that gives me a capital that can despise others in the midst of hostility. After I finished dressing up, I habitually took out the lipstick again, looked it in the mirror, and gently applied it to my lips again. The lipstick was given to me by Xiao Han, the lipstick was burgundy, and the color of the lipstick was as red as blood...... I pursed my bright red lips in the mirror, looked at the little woman in the last glass, who was wearing heavy makeup and fashionable clothes, got up and smiled and kissed my man's face. ”

"Are you going to work?" Chu Fangfang asked tentatively.

"No," said bitterly, "I want to find Xiao Han." I lied to my man, I said I was going to work, and he didn't say anything. I saw the bright red lipstick on his pale face, so striking and incongruous. I turned and closed the door, it was already cold outside. ”

"Did you find Xiao Han?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"I found it," said Ku Ku, "I found Xiao Han directly by car, and he lived in a community not far from my temporary house." When I went, he was lazily curled up on his large, comfortable leather couch, smoking a cigarette while holding the remote control to the TV. His room, spacious and bright, warm and cozy. It's just that there are no women in it. ”

"He's still single?" Chu Fangfang asked thoughtfully.

"Yes," said bitterly, "when I entered his house, I said to him straight to the point, begging him not to come into my life again!" ”

"What did he say?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"He casually turned off the TV," said bitterly, "and then he looked at me quietly and asked me seriously, if I had ever thought about changing my life?" My tears fell and I said I thought about it, more than once! Seriously, I've been dreaming about it! But what about the man? He's my husband, and he's got to this point for me! If I leave him, he will die! I raised my hand to wipe my tears as I spoke, Xiao Han gently patted me on the shoulder, saying that I am still young! I am small, I choked up and said to Xiao Han, I am only 20 years old this year! If my parents hadn't divorced when I was very young, I would have been a student; If this society could allow me to find a solid job, I wouldn't be where I am now! I wanted to go to school, but I didn't even have a place to eat and live. I've looked for a lot of jobs, and I want to earn some money to support myself, but I can't find ......."

Suddenly, tears rained down.

Chu Fangfang's tears also flowed out.

After a while.

Chu Fangfang asked softly:

"Your parents are divorced?"

"Yes," said bitterly, "after they divorced, no one wanted me!" Ever since I could no longer see my parents, I had no language for the world, and the only thing I could communicate with the world was the tears of the past, and the youthful flesh that I now spread out in the depths of neon again and again. In this world, I have no home, no language, no joy or sorrow, no day and no night. At the edge of this familiar and strange city, in the depths of the thick and bright neon at the edge of this city, I walked like a corpse with heavy makeup, lonely and desperate...... It was the man who had lost his legs now that put an end to those ugly days, gave me the concept of home and a warm feeling for the first time, and let me live like a normal person in the sunshine of this city for the first time. ”

"How did he get hurt?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"I was disabled because of an accident," explained bitterly, "and after he became disabled, I had to use that ugly life again to maintain the man in bed who once supported me but now needed me to support him, and I depended on him for my life." ”

"Haven't you told Xiao Han any of this?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"Not before," said bitterly, "after I found him that time, I told Xiao Han everything about my past. Those words have long been frozen in the deep cellar of my memory; Those words have long been hidden by me in a place where no one can touch them, and no one can see them; Those words, I have never confided in any man who has possessed my body; Those words, like my tears, were accumulated in my heart, and no one saw them. But that day I told Xiao Han about it, because he had seen the tears on my face, because he already knew everything about me, because he had told me that he loved me very much! ”

"And then?" Chu Fangfang asked tentatively.

"Later," said bitterly, "Xiao Han got up and hugged me gently, and I felt my body tremble slightly. Xiao Han raised his hand, gently wiped the tears flowing from my face, then kissed me on the face, looked at me without saying a word, and finally got up and took out a wad of banknotes from the drawer and gave it to me...... I stood up and started undressing in front of him, and I said I wouldn't ask for her money for nothing! I really wouldn't ask for anything from anyone for nothing! Xiao Han hurriedly explained, saying that he didn't mean that! I just repeated, repeating, repeating that I wouldn't take his money for nothing! Xiao Han continued to explain, saying that he really didn't mean anything else! I said I had no other meaning, so I hurriedly put on my clothes, opened the door, and ran away......"

"Where are you going?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"Where else can I go?" Bitterly laughed, "I know it's over." I walked down the street in a daze, and the cold wind from the north blew and cut my face like a knife, and soon my cheeks became cold and numb; The neon lights on the surrounding rows of buildings flowed with brilliant and colorful light like a woman with heavy makeup; On the streets, the footsteps of pedestrians are gradually sparse...... I walked aimlessly down the street. On such a cold night, I don't know how long I have to go? In the depths of such a gorgeous neon, I don't know how far I have to go? ”

Chu Fangfang opened his mouth and closed it gently.

Looks like she wants to say something, but she doesn't know what to say.

"I wiped away my tears," said in a bitter and heavy tone, "in the dim light of the street lamp, I took out my small makeup case, hurriedly repaired the makeup that had been destroyed by tears, and then stepped on my high heeled boots, and stepped on my changing lonely figure under the weak street lamp, and walked towards the neon depths of the night......"

Chu Fangfang opened his mouth and closed it gently.

It seemed that she wanted to say something again, but she didn't know how to say it.

"Would you like to hear me sing a song?" Ku Bitter suddenly asked.

"Yes!" Chu Fangfang nodded lightly.

Bitter began to chant and sing:

“…… At 10:20 a.m., order a glass of Singapore

sling/1:17, to get rid of the man in front of me/3:50, I decided to push open the door alone/4:05, take a breath of cold air and never look back/The city in the early morning, wake up in a dead ash/Red-eyed street lamps, staring at lonely pedestrians/You haven't adjusted your gaze all night/You only see, my body can't see my soul......"

"The city of the early morning?" Chu Fangfang pondered and asked, "You were out all night?" ”

"Yes," said bitterly, "it was dawn, and I returned to the rental house full of exhaustion. The door was closed, and I struggled to push open the old door......"

As he spoke, he suddenly began to cry bitterly.

Chu Fangfang looked puzzled.

"How?" Chu Fangfang asked.

I'm still crying.

After a while, she wiped away her tears.

"When I opened the door," said bitterly tearful, "I saw my man roll under the bed. He curled up and fell in a pool of blood; At his hand, a sharp blade was discarded; His blood was shed all over the ground; Blood was shed, like tears on his face......"

"He killed himself?" Chu Fangfang asked sadly.

"Yes," said bitterly and sadly, "dead! I looked up at the warm winter sun that had just risen outside the window, and silently closed the curtains. I sat quietly at the dresser, quietly looking at my face, my makeup was still so rich. After a while, I gently picked up the sharp blade on the ground......"

"Don't do anything stupid!" Chu Fangfang hurriedly said.

"I didn't do anything stupid," said bitterly, "and that day, I got up and slowly opened the curtains, and I wanted to see the sun of the world for the last time. My hand holding the blade was shaking. Outside the window, the sun is warm. At this time, I saw Xiao Han in the sun, he was standing under my rental house, waving his hand to my window...... He once said to me that when there is a night in the world, there will be a day, and even if the night you experience is long, there will still be a time when the sun rises, no matter when and where, you must leave a window for hope......"

"Leave a window to hope!" Chu Fangfang muttered to himself.

"I'm done with my story," said with a smile on his face, "thank you for your patience!" ”

"And where are you on the net now?" Chu Fangfang asked.

"Xiao Han's home," said Ku Ku, "is my home!" ”

"Goodbye!" Chu Fangfang smiled and waved his hand to Ku Bitter.

My vision was blurry.

In the hazy eyes of tears, Chu Fangfang's voice came softly:

"How's it going?"

I didn't say anything.

"Why are you crying?" Chu Fangfang asked me in confusion.

"Why are you crying?" As I spoke, I jumped up from the computer chair and ran downstairs, "Let me see why the proprietress didn't bring me the colorful black chicken shreds and the five-flavor black chicken blood tonic soup?" ”

"Get me a bottle of beer when you come up," Chu Fangfang shouted behind me, "I want to drink!" ”