Chapter 385: I've Been Working On It Too
Qin An'an's inquiring voice fell, and Ji Chenxi's big hand holding the cup on the side moved invisibly, but in the end, he didn't respond to anything.
stared at him deeply for a long time, seeing that he didn't seem to have any intention of answering, Qin An'an's eyes also dimmed at the moment, his red lips were tightly pursed into a straight line, and he hesitated in his heart for a long time, and finally mustered up the courage to look at him and said-
"Ji Chenxi, I remember that you often reminded me of this, you said, there is no need to disguise and pretend the relationship between us, as my husband, you should protect me all my life, so that I can have a safe haven when I am hurt and sad, and I am willing to believe your words and believe in your sincerity......
So...... Gradually, I let down my guard against you, take off my armor, I show everything about me so clearly in front of your eyes, you can say that I am selfish, I want you to help me solve the problem, this, I do not deny, but, I hope that I can exchange my sincerity for your sincerity......
I don't want to be the only one between us who is confessing forever, and you bury all your thoughts in your heart, such you will make me feel uncontrollably that we are so close, but you are so far away that I can't reach ......"
The faint but vaguely lost voice slowly drifted into Ji Chenxi's ears.
His fingertips holding the glass tightened suddenly, and he subconsciously lowered his head to look at her, seeing that there was a helpless and desolate look on her delicate face, a strange light flashed under her dark and deep eyes, and he leaned over slightly, and said in a low voice, "Madam, why do you have such thoughts?" You should be able to feel my ...... to you And a lot of words ......"
I once heard Lu Qing say that Qin An'an's temperament became extremely sensitive after experiencing the events of the year, and he could indeed feel it after living together after marriage, but he never thought that her sensitivity/sense was completely beyond his expectations.
In fact, she looks fragile and helpless, but her back is very straight, and she can't help but feel more and more sorry for her.
However, Qin Anan didn't give the man a chance to finish his words.
She had already thought about saying what she was thinking, so she took a deep breath, interrupted the man and said, "Ji Chenxi, you listen to me first." ”
Look at the firmness that faintly appeared in her starry eyes.
Ji Chenxi's handsome eyebrows frowned slightly, and for a moment, he nodded invisibly and said, "Okay." ”
This simple word was extremely clear in Qin An'an's ears.
She shook the hand that fell to her side, and then said, "Ji Chenxi, I hope you can understand and understand, what I said today is not to force you to confess anything to me, you must not misunderstand...... I just want to tell you that my feelings for you, from cohabitation to now, are indeed ...... There has indeed been a subtle change, I don't want to lie to you about how much I love you, but at least, I like you and want to live a good life with you......
Therefore, I want you to understand that I have no malice towards you, you want to be my haven, and I also want to be the little woman behind you who can give you strength and rely on...... Even though, I know...... My power is so small, or almost zero in the eyes of a businessman like you who can dominate the world at a young age, but ...... I have also been working hard for myself, for you, for our family, and for our children in the future......"
Such words that shook the man's heart fell.
Qin An'an's starry eyes were full of firmness and sincerity, and the momentum between his words suddenly did not look like the little girl who needed to be protected, but was slowly becoming stronger, and slowly became eager to protect him around him.
Look at her like this-
Ji Chenxi's heart was almost uncontrollable because of her.
From cohabitation to now, she is really telling him seriously for the first time-
She fell in love with him, and was willing to join hands with him for the rest of her life, using her meager strength to protect him and protect this marriage.
In this second.
He was unparalleled in satisfaction and excitement.
Because Mr. Ji felt that his dedication had finally gotten the response he wanted most from her.
There was silence for a moment.
Ji Chenxi suddenly casually put the glass in his hand on the desk next to him.
The slender arm wrapped around her slender waist and clasped it gently, and the other hand pressed her head, and in the blink of an eye, he embraced her whole person.
Then he bowed his head suddenly.
His chin rested on her heart, his eyes closed slightly, and even his voice was a little emotional, "Madam, I understand what you mean, and I believe that you didn't say these things to me to force me to confess...... However, there are some things that I didn't tell you because I really don't know how to say them, how to explain them to you, and I didn't mean to hide them from you, do you understand? ”
The magnetic, beautiful voice slowly fell overhead.
Qin An'an leaned on his warm body and was stunned for a while, before he nodded and said, "I understand...... I'm worried about you, too, that's why I ......."
She didn't go on any more than that.
But the man holding her knew it in his heart, lowered his head and kissed her lightly, and after a while, he turned to take her slightly cool hand and led her to sit down on the office chair behind the desk.
Finding a more comfortable position on the man's strong thighs and sitting down, Qin Anan raised his eyes slightly, seeing the man's thin lips pursed lightly, knowing that he had something to say, he didn't urge, just waited quietly.
Time seemed to stand still at this moment.
The husband and wife looked at each other silently, and it seemed that it had been a long time before Ji Chenxi closed his eyes, and after opening them again, he said in the calmest tone possible, "Actually, I have nightmares every year when I am close to Qingming...... It's a lot better to have your wife with you this year, and in previous years, I should have started this dream again half a month ago......"
His deep voice came from his ears.
Qin An'an's hand resting on his lap tightened slightly, and he also subconsciously asked, "Is it a dream related to your biological mother?" ”
Every time this kind of festival arrives, it is natural that I will miss my departed relatives more and more.
She was the same, just like two days ago, she also dreamed of her deceased mother.
Her dreams were calm and peaceful, though.
Mother Lu Qing also smiled at her as she remembered, and the mother and daughter walked together on the road full of sycamores, walking, walking, there seemed to be a bright light at the end, and the closer they got to that bright light, Lu Qing's figure became more and more blurred......
"Hmm."
The man's magnetic voice interrupted her floating thoughts.
She raised her eyes to see that the man's quiet eyes were as quiet as the deep sea, and at some point a faint light condensed, and after a moment of silence, she continued in her gentle gaze, "My mother died in childbirth after giving birth to me, so that my memory of her is almost zero, and even her appearance is seen from the photos given to me by others......
However, every year at such a time, I can almost dream of how my mother died on the operating table, and maybe it is the relationship between mother and son, I can even clearly feel that she was so painful and desperate when she died, I have never met her, but I can feel the deepest grief and resentment in her heart......"
Speaking of this, Ji Chenxi's eyes also seemed to have a gloomy look.
The picture in the dream resurfaced clearly in front of him, the desperate cry of the woman, and the cry of the baby when it was born were intertwined in his mind, and the pain at the temples began to become obvious again, so he couldn't help but raise a hand and gently press the temples.
Seeing his handsome eyebrows, he frowned slightly.
Qin An'an's heart tightened, and after thinking for a while, he actually took the initiative to lean on his shoulder, gently wrapped his hands around his neck, and asked out in confusion, "I have always felt that you have a very heavy heart, is it because of your mother's death?" ”
From the man's cold and deep voice, she vaguely heard a little bit of cattiness, she lowered her eyebrows and thought about it, and finally asked.
However, as soon as her inquiring voice fell.
The man's big hand resting on her lap gradually tightened unconsciously, and after taking a light breath, he nodded in response, "Not exactly, but most of them." ”
"It's hard to be true, you are suspicious ......"
Qin An'an heard his words, pursed his lips and said.
"Not what you think, ma'am."
Seeing that she seemed to have misinterpreted something, Ji Chenxi slightly loosened the strength of his hand, but his eyes became more and more cold and continued, "I don't know how to explain to you, mother, she did die because she gave birth to me, and Dad and Jiang Shurong did not harm her with their own hands, but many times, it is not that the blood on the hands is innocent, and the mental damage is far more cruel and fatal than killing with a knife." ”
If it weren't for Ji Yunan who failed her back then, if it weren't for Jiang Shurong's door-to-door provocation three times and twice during her pregnancy.
He thought that his mother Shen Bei would not suffer from severe depression during pregnancy, let alone have suicidal thoughts as the symptoms worsened, so that when she finally gave birth to him, she had a complete mental breakdown, gave up all desire to survive, and died on the cold operating table.
And all this was told to him by Ji Yunan's father, that is, his grandfather Ji Zhenkang, after he took over most of the Ji family's industry.
This includes what kind of means Jiang Shurong used to force Shen Bei away, and what kind of means she used to conceal the truth that Ji Yunan had a son in six years......
If it weren't for Ji Zhenkang's appearance in the end, he thought that maybe until today, the Ji family only has a justifiable little princess like Ji Chenxin......