Su Ying heard her pulse beating violently, like a bubbling spring, but what flowed out was clearly not water, but her blood. If not, why does she feel like a knife?

In the light of light, it was as if someone had lit a light in her head, illuminating the past clearly.

It was when he was not yet on the throne that he was in a small pavilion near the Calyx Xianghui Building, when he said to her: "If I were emperor, you would be much happier than you are now." ”；

It was that day that Pei Yu led the troops into the imperial city, he fought outside all night, broke into her palace in military uniform, and told her peacefully not to be afraid, he was there;

It was on her birthday that he took her out of the palace to see the golden trees and flowers in the sky, and shot three arrows effortlessly, teaching her to be dumbfounded;

When it was in Kunlun Yuan, he leaned down with a smile, let her step on him and get on the horse, and used his body to protect her in a critical situation;

It was the night of the Shangyuan Lantern Festival, and he took her to shuttle in the colorful lantern array, which was the most difficult Jiuqu Yellow River array, but he still took her out.

And also...... And also!

He specially learned from Yun Shan that Hu Qu and played it to him; He was afraid that she would be bored in the palace, so he specially asked the palace people to tell her stories; He is such a cold person, because of his own words, he actually learned to bark a puppy...... All kinds of memories swirled in her mind like a marquee, those eyes with unknown meanings, the inexplicable disgust for Ye Jingzhi, his loss of control and sorrow that night...... All of them have answers.

In a trance, the words he had just said sounded in her ears, and it was clear that the sentence had just been spoken, and the person who spoke was in front of her, but this sentence seemed to be far, far away, as if it was floating from the sky.

He said, "Ah Jin, I actually love you like that. ”

Su Ying never thought that Pei Zhao would say such a thing to her. She used to be a girl who liked to think crankily, she liked Pei Zhao so much, but she didn't even dare to think about this one thing.

What is behind this relationship, she knows even if she is not sensible. I made a big mistake last night, how can I make a mistake again and again?

Pei Zhao has lost too much in this life, she can't give him anything, does she want him to lose even more? She clearly knew that he was so eager to be a good emperor who would be famous through the ages, if it was because of himself, because of himself......

Tasting the salty, warm liquid in her mouth, could it be that there were two rivers hidden in her eyes? Otherwise, why can't these tears be stopped? She stubbornly wiped it over and over again with her sleeve, and with tears in her eyes, she saw Pei Zhao's bright eyes, and he had just said that sentence so boldly, but at this time, in addition to expectation, there was more obvious fear in his eyes.

Su Ying knew too well what that fear was, and when she didn't know Pei Zhao's intentions before, she was also afraid in her heart. She knew that she should say the most mean and ugly words at this time, it was best to make Pei Zhao feel painful when he heard it, and it was best to make him disheartened from now on, but how could she say it?

After a long time, she finally held back her tears and spoke: "Pei Zhao, do you think that I like Ye Jingzhi, that's why I am so out of control?" ”

Without waiting for Pei Zhao to speak, she chuckled again: "If that's the case, then you're wrong." Mr. Ye is very good, but I don't like him. ”

Pei Zhao was about stunned, because his eyes were full of confusion when he looked at her, but soon, surprise, joy, expectation, and hope floated in those eyes...... Such a look broke her heart, but she had to harden her heart and slowly tell a lie that even she couldn't tell: "Did you just say you like me?" I don't know if your words are true or false, but Pei Zhao, I don't like you. ”

Pei Zhao's body shook, and his voice trembled slightly: "Ah Ming, Chinese New Year's Eve that night, you told me that you fell in love with someone......

"Really?" A smile tugged at the corner of her lips: "Maybe I'm lying to you, or maybe it's true, but no matter what, that person won't be you." You are the emperor of Da Cao, and I am the queen mother of Da Cao, there are countless possibilities between me and you, but this is the only one, it will definitely not. ”

Pei Zhao looked at her quietly, maybe it was numb from pain, and he didn't feel very sad in his heart. He never knew that he had deceived himself to such an extent, Su Ying had already said such things, but all he was thinking about in his mind were those things from the past.

The first time he saw her in the Imperial Garden, the bell at the corner of her skirt rang so crisply, and at that time, if he hadn't promised to help her remove the paper kite hanging from the tree, wouldn't he have fallen in love with her so powerlessly?

Probably not. Pei Zhao thought desperately, because she was the same as herself, she was always in this Daming Palace, and she would meet him one day, she would comfort him clumsily like before, worry about him stupidly, and try her best to make him happy, naively thinking that as long as she gave herself the same reward as Pei Yu, she would be happy.

He cherished the robe she made for her so much, and that night should have been so happy, but all this had been cut off by his own hands. She was trembling and weeping under him, knowing that if he took this step, he would fall into the abyss.

But he did it anyway.

After a long time, Pei Zhao finally got up, he couldn't see any joy or anger on his face, and even smiled at Su Yin: "I'll come to see you tomorrow." ”

Su Ying turned her head indifferently, and heard the sound of footsteps from near and far, the door of the hall was opened with a "squeak", and Duan Niang and Yun Luo quickly ran in and looked at her worriedly. She smiled at them lightly and said tearfully, "I'm fine." ”

Pei Zhao is gone, she can finally cry with confidence, this is good.

In the night, Su Ying started a fever again, this time the pain was menacing, Duan Niang and Yun Luo Yi were unsolvably guarding her bedside, because Pei Zhao gave an order, the imperial doctor did not dare to go back to rest, so he had to wait outside the hall, and he called the pulse every few hours.

Su Ying didn't know all this, she only felt that her body was hot and cold, and her eyelids were very heavy, so uncomfortable. In a daze, there seemed to be a pair of big hands gently caressing her forehead, those hands were wide and warm, with a thin layer of calluses in the palms, very similar to Pei Zhao's hands.

She hoped that it was Pei Zhao, but she was afraid that it was really Pei Zhao, and her heart was so confused, but she was even more confused. The hands slowly slid through the corners of her eyes, wiping away a little of the moist liquid, and she realized before she realized that she was in tears. Then she heard only a sigh, and with an infinite long emotion, she had little strength to think about it, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

This illness lasted for five or six days, or after she woke up, Duan Niang told her: "Your Majesty came over in the morning for five or six days, and stayed by your bedside every night, and the slave persuaded him to take a rest, but he didn't move, and when he saw that you were going to wake up that day, he returned to the Chaoyang Palace." ”

She listened quietly, with no expression on her face, and Duan Niang said something to make her happy: "His Royal Highness Thirteen ran to us every day, and turned out his red clothes and put them on, looking forward to the Queen Mother waking up earlier, he refused to leave that day, but after all, he was young, and after staying up for many days, the nurse held him in his arms and patted him twice, and he fell asleep." ”

She finally showed a faint smile: "I want to meet Ah Ming." ”

When Pei Ming rushed in, she was drinking medicine, a bowl full of bitter medicine, she drank it in one gulp without frowning, Pei Ming saw that her eyes were about to fall out, and hurriedly fed the bitter candied fruit into her mouth: "Doesn't the queen mother feel bitter?" ”

She smiled and touched Pei Ming's hair: "With Ah Ming here, the queen mother is not bitter." ”

Pei Ming felt that today's queen mother was very strange, but he was too young to guess anything. Hmm, maybe it's because she's not feeling well at the beginning of her serious illness? Thinking of this, Pei Ming pulled Su Ming's sleeve: "Queen Mother, Ah Ming will accompany you out for a walk, does the Queen Mother like swinging or playing in the water?" ”

Look, everywhere in this palace reminds her of Pei Zhao, and there is no way to escape. She actually didn't want to go anywhere, but Pei Ming racked her brains to make her happy, and she couldn't say anything to refuse: "The queen mother doesn't want to play with that, I heard that the flowers in Baihuazhou are blooming very well, so it's better to go and take a look." ”

Pei Ming cheered, turned out the thickest clothes he could find, and clumsily wanted to put it on for Su Ming: "The queen mother won't be cold when she wears this." ”

Yun Luo hurriedly smiled and stopped: "Your Highness, this is a big hat that is only worn in winter." ”

She looked at the snow-white fox fur and looked very lonely.

It's easy to clean up, and she was looking down to sort out Pei Ming's collar when she suddenly heard three voices brushing together: "The concubine has seen the queen mother." ”

Come on, there's no way out now. She patted Pei Ming's puffing smile comfortingly, and smiled at the three kneeling people: Get up. ”

The palace ladies served tea and snacks, and Wu Yuehua said first: "A few days ago, the Queen Mother was sick, and the concubines were supposed to come to serve the Queen Mother, but His Majesty instructed that the Queen Mother needs to recuperate, and the concubines are not allowed to come to disturb her. ”

She smiled reluctantly: "The mourning family is very good." ”

"Since this is the case, the concubine body is relieved." Sun Miaoyi took over the conversation and glanced at the palace next to her, the person understood, clapped his hands gently, and a few palace people walked in with a tray, Sun Miaoyi personally uncovered the red cloth on the top, and said with a smile: "The concubine knows that the queen mother likes these things, so she specially ordered the family to find some exquisite and strange ones, and asked the queen mother not to dislike them." ”

The tray was full of things like Huarong Dao, flower boards, and empty bamboos. She used to like these very much, but now she only feels interested: "The mourning family likes it very much, you have a heart." ”

Yun Shan looked at her worriedly and said softly: "The Queen Mother has been sick for so long, and the concubine's face is not very good, but is there still something uncomfortable?" ”

She shook her head: "No, it's just a little boring, thanks to you to come to talk to the mourners." ”

Yun Shan wanted to say something, but Sun Miaoyi had already opened her mouth first: "The concubine is clumsy, and the Queen Mother laughed." However, the concubine heard that there is a little palace maid in the Queen Mother's palace who is very good at telling stories, so why don't you call her here to relieve the Queen Mother's boredom and let us see it? ”