A night of love.

After dawn, I drove Chu Fangfang and set off.

"Today is mainly to see two people," I said to Chu Fangfang while driving, "one is named Meixue, 24 years old, graduated from a bachelor's degree, and became a surrogate mother purely for money; One is named Xiaoqin, 27 years old, graduated from a bachelor's degree, and drifted north specifically for surrogacy! ”

"They are all undergraduate graduates," Chu Fangfang said with disdain, "Has this book been read into the dog's stomach?" ”

"You seem to be disgusted with surrogates?" I asked Chu Fangfang after thinking.

"It's not very disgusting," Chu Fangfang said seriously, "It's a very special disgust!" ”

"Conception on behalf of others," I pondered, "is a subject that is highly controversial legally, morally and medically: for tens of thousands, you can get someone else to continue the incense for you; By renting out your belly, you can easily earn a good amount of money. Because it is contrary to social morality and law, China's supply and demand sides have long traded in a covert manner. ”

"Surely they are all against it!" Chu Fangfang guessed.

"Not necessarily," I said earnestly, "there are those who approve of it, thinking that it is accumulating virtue and doing good; Some objected, arguing that it was a creation of evil. So, is the surrogate mother pregnant for good or for evil? When we're done interviewing, we'll have the answer! ”

Chu Fangfang looked out of the car window thoughtfully.

I smiled silently.

At noon, Chu Fangfang and I came to Chaoyang Park, which I had made an appointment with Meixue.

Chaoyang Park is located in the central prosperous area of Chaoyang District, with Liangmaqiao Road in the north, Chaoyang Park Road in the west, East Fourth Ring Road in the east, and Chaoyang Park South Road in the south. It is a comprehensive and multi-functional large-scale cultural, leisure, sports and entertainment park based on landscaping, a key park and boutique park in Beijing, and the largest urban park within the fourth ring road of Beijing.

"My name is Miyuki," Miyuki said to me with a smile as soon as they met, "I'm 24 years old." ”

"Very young," I smiled, "looking like a college student in his early 20s!" ”

"Thank you!" Miyuki smiled and said, "I have a boyfriend named Lin Yuan, he and I met and fell in love in college, and after graduation, we came to Beijing together. We thought that with our enthusiasm and passion, as well as the stack of various certificates we obtained in college, we would definitely get ahead in Beijing. ”

"People who come to Beijing are full of enthusiasm and passion!" I said it seriously.

"Yes," Miyuki nodded, "we came with boiling blood and passion, however, as soon as we arrived in Beijing, the cold reality here gave us a disadvantage: after curling up in the basement for three months, nibbling on instant noodles for more than two months, and submitting countless resumes, we finally believed that the things that we were once proud of on campus turned out to be in the north, a city full of talents, like a grain of sand floating in the wind in front of us, small and insignificant." We are like two poor ground mice, living humbly under this bustling city. ”

"I lived in the basement when I first arrived," I said softly, "and it really felt like a ground mouse!" Plus there is no money, which one is depressed! ”

"One day," Miyuki said softly, "Lin Yuan, who was already penniless, jokingly said to me, you see how mixed we are, it's better to be a surrogate mother, people take care of food and housing, and there will be more than 100,000 after ten months!" I laughed and jokingly said to Lin Yuan that I should also go to surrogate motherhood, Lin Yuan was stunned at first, but the ensuing serious expression startled me a lot, he actually searched the Internet for 'surrogacy', which has always been outside our world. ”

"The term surrogacy is very foreign to many people!" I chimed in.

"There's no way to be strange," Miyuki said helplessly, "Maybe it's really because we panicked, and what happened next made me fall asleep all the time." I even thought it was just a joke when we were at the end of our rope, and just approached it out of curiosity, but the stack of certificates that had been making me run into walls in Beijing came in handy for the first time at this time. A staff member of a surrogacy website said that under conditions like mine, in addition to food and accommodation, I can have a net income of at least 130,000 yuan! ”

"130,000 is a lot!" I said with emotion.

"Yes," Miyuki said with a serious face, "130,000!" This is an astronomical sum that can change our fate from now on for us who have been cornered. I know that we need money so badly, money to keep us on our feet in this crowded and indifferent city, money to sustain our great desperate love. As soon as I thought of this, and then thought of Lin Yuan's eyes that were almost about to retreat from Beijing, I agreed almost without hesitation. ”

I want to talk.

Chu Fangfang was thoughtful.

"It's really like a dream," Miyuki said in a calm tone, "from contacting the agency, to interviews and meetings with the client, to medical checkups, signing agreements, taking medications, and performing surgery to implant embryos...... It really felt like in a dream. The only thing that made me feel real was that I stopped running around Beijing, and Lin Yuan bought a glossy outfit and temporarily moved out of the damp and cold basement. The predicament seems to have become a gray shadow that has passed away in the blink of an eye, and the seed that brings us money and the hope of others begins to sprout in my body. My only thought is to end this weird October life as soon as possible, and then continue to chase our dream of love with Lin Yuan in the sunshine of the northern city. ”

I didn't say a word, and listened quietly to Miyuki's outpouring.

Chu Fangfang lowered his head slightly, thoughtful.

"That seed sprouts in my belly day by day," Miyuki recounts, "and I feel its presence strongly every day." I saw my body deform day by day, until one day I couldn't see my feet when I was walking! I was amazed at the miracle of this little being. Accompanied by the couple, I went to the hospital for more and more prenatal check-ups. Since I was pregnant, prenatal check-ups were a regular occurrence, and the more frequent I was, every time I came back, I could see the happy expressions of the couple. ”

I opened my mouth and closed it again.

I don't know what to say.

"However," Miyuki said excitedly, "there are so many unpredictable things in life. While I was still immersed in the miracle of that little life, bad luck befell me once again, just like the poverty and hardship I had when I first arrived in Beijing. That time, after my usual prenatal check-up, I was surprised to see the rapid change in the couple's faces, and the strange expressions of the intermediary who arrived later seemed to indicate that something was about to happen. After my repeated questioning, they told me the truth: the child's arm was deformed! ”

"Ahh I exclaimed, "It's really hard to accept!" ”

"Yes!" Miyuki said with tears in her eyes, "It's really hard for me to accept! It was a feeling of thunder and the sky was spinning. When I woke up, I found myself lying in the hospital, and the doctors were busy preparing to operate on me. After a moment of blank space, my mind suddenly seemed to go crazy, and I involuntarily grabbed the messy medical equipment in front of me and threw it at them......"

"Do you care about that kid?" I asked tentatively.

"Yes," Miyuki said with a pained expression, "I always thought I wouldn't care about him, he was just someone else's child, and he just came to this world through my mother's womb." But when the fruit is cultivated, the mother suddenly becomes a source of conscience and uncontrollable love, and suddenly I find that I love that child so much, and the future and future that I once tried so hard to pursue are not important, even if I put the future and the future into it, I want to keep that child. I just want to see him, to see what that little creature who will come into this world in a few months is really like, and no one can take away his life! My crazy actions stunned the couple who were looking for my surrogacy, and they never returned after paying the rest of the money to the agency. The agency repeatedly persuaded me to dispose of the child no matter what, and they even used the word 'illegal' to describe the child. ”

"It's illegal!" I say for sure.

"What about illegality? What about legality? Miyuki raised her voice and said, "The only fact is that I conceived him, and he has brought me experiences and fantasies that I have never experienced before, even if it is just a pain and torture!" ”

"Did you give birth to the child in the end?" I asked curiously.

"I gave birth," Miyuki said with tears in her eyes, "and the child was finally born in my willful mind." As they say, he was a little boy with a crippled arm, but he had big eyes and lovely soft lips...... I shed tears as I kissed him, and I thought I was going to raise him anyway. If this is a bitter fruit, it is also a bitter fruit that I have bred myself, and I am willing to spend my whole life tasting it. ”

"Single mothers have a hard time!" I thought about it.

"Yes," Miyuki said after wiping the corners of her eyes with a tissue, "In the second month after the child was born, I dragged my weak body to Lin Yuan. I didn't mean anything, I just wanted him to know the bitterness and grievances that lurked in my heart. At this time, Lin Yuan was already the manager of a well-known foreign-funded enterprise in the CBD, and he had a luxurious house in UHN International Village on the east bank of the Xiba River; In the house, there is also a girl who is as sunny as I was when I first walked out of school. ”

I opened my mouth and closed it again.

I don't know whether to affirm or deny the man named Lin Yuan.

"Hayashi didn't let me stay in his house for long," Miyuki said quietly, "and he took me straight downstairs to a coffee house and sat across from me, looking at me like a stranger." I don't remember what he said, I just remember that he seemed to have called, and the girl who came next took out a wad of bills from her Xiaokun bag and threw it in front of me with anger...... The scattered banknotes slid silently across my face...... I vaguely remember that I seemed to mention money to Lin Yuan, but that wasn't my intention. And Lin Yuan, who always stood behind the arrogant girl, smoked a cigarette without saying a word. The girl's high heels dangled in front of my eyes, and she repeatedly warned me not to go to Lin Yuan again. I nodded as I crouched on the ground, I just wanted to finish the bills she threw at me early and go home early. I thought, after coming out for so long, the little guy should probably wake up, he has no father, he can't see his mother anymore......"

Miyuki stopped crying as she spoke.

I didn't know how to comfort her.

I glanced at Chu Fangfang, and Chu Fangfang immediately comforted Meixue softly.

"It's 500 yuan," I said to Miyuki, who stopped crying, "a little thank you for interviewing you!" ”

Miyuki looked up at me and hesitantly took the bill.

I got up and took my leave.