Chapter 2: Tears
The east has turned white. A small convoy of minivans, a broken gold cup, and a cheap car stopped in front of a villa in the middle of nowhere.
"Wake up! Xiaoyun, wake up! We're here. Xue Qiong, who was sitting in the back seat of the car, patted Xiao Yun, who was leaning on her body and closed her eyes.
But the other party did not react.
Xue Qiong waited for a few seconds, then looked at her carefully. Then changed to a helpless tone, and at the same time followed the lights in the car, staring at Xiao Yun's face.
"Alas... No way, I'll carry you to your room..."
As soon as he finished speaking, he could clearly notice that Xiao Yun's face gradually became like a boiled shrimp.
"Okay, it looks like you're awake, right? Then I'll go first. If you're happy to stay in the car, stay for it. ”
"Ah~~~~~ senior, are you so bad!!! People just thought that they could be carried into the room by the seniors, and they couldn't help but get excited~~~"
"Tsk, every time I see the leader, I think it's very interesting... Don't you say, accounting? Xiao Li, who has an inexplicable fanaticism about biological and chemical weapons, and also has a chatter attribute, found an opportunity to whisper to the tired girl next to him, and the accountant.
"Ah, yes, that's right... And blood has just dripped onto your shoes. ”
"Oops, I'm rubbing! Ah, it doesn't matter, I'm busy working in the station for the next few days, and it doesn't matter if I go to wash it~ Those anatomical maniacs usually just wait for it to dry and fall off. ”
“… Dirty. ”
"Okay, okay, I'll wash him when I go back..."Xiao Li walked into the villa quickly with the travel bag containing the corpse in both hands. The accountant, who was suddenly left behind, was stunned for a moment, and then sped up to follow.
By the time the removal was over, it was already dawn. Because the samples brought back had not yet regained consciousness, Xue Qiong suddenly found that when everyone cheered up and endured sleepiness to sort out the first-hand information, he actually had nothing to do.
"Senior~~~" Xue Qiong sent Xiao Yun back to her room, but was stopped by Xiao Yun sitting on the edge of the bed and couldn't leave.
"What? After pretending to die for half an hour, plus squinting all the way, you're in good spirits now, aren't you? Xue Qiong showed a helpless expression on her face, but she still couldn't resist her and sat next to Xiao Yun.
Then Xiao Yun took advantage of the situation to climb on Xue Qiong's shoulder.
"Senior, you're really, you sent the girl to her room, do you want to leave right away?" After Xiao Yun said this, she deliberately stretched out her tongue and licked it on her lips.
"Don't play, go to bed early, with your IQ..."Xue Qiong looked directly into Xiao Yun's eyes and said with a smile: "I shouldn't forget the accounting thing, and I can do it at dawn, she will go back to this room to sleep later, right?" ”
As soon as Xue Qiong's words fell, the door of the room was opened.
The accountant stood in the doorway for two seconds, one hand still resting on the doorknob, and the hallway light shone in from behind her.
“……”
The accountant gently closed the door and went out.
"Senior, you see, other accountants are still very sensible, in fact, I want to have one more layer than you~~~" Xiaoyun looked like she had succeeded in her treacherous scheme.
“… Your hair is disheveled, you've dressed up in another face for action, you're wearing clothes that don't make you entertain, and most importantly, you're now smelling of tomatoes all over your body. ”
"This proves my sincerity~~~"
Xue Qiong stopped talking, drooped her head and frowned and made a posture of squeezing her eyes.
"Humph!" Xiao Yun's nose twitched, and then she wrapped her arms around Xue Qiong's waist from behind without giving up.
"Okay, I'm not going to play, anyway, you'll say that you will use it next..."Xiao Yun learned Xue Qiong's tone, "'I'm not frigid, I can solve it myself if I need it, such as borrowing a female test subject reserve that looks okay and hasn't been used, but you can't, you also have a certain status in my heart, so I don't want you to be too involved in my future' and something like that perfunctory me..."
“… Go to sleep. The anesthetic given to our quasi-No. 4 sample can last for about eight hours, and you also want to get the first-hand information yourself..."Xue Qiong wanted to stand up, but was hugged by Xiao Yun.
“……”
"I'm sorry senior, I know you used it twice in a day... That move, it is also very painful to turn yourself into another person..."Xiao Yun's hand hugged tighter.
"Coupled with the fact that your physical strength has not been good, you still used it today when you just ran such a long distance..."
"So, I just want to..."
"When everybody looks at you, you're either paralyzed or laughing... Even those smiles are all genuine... But only I know that when you force those fake smiles into real laughs, you will..."
"Senior, there's no need for your personality restructuring project to continue, you just need to come with me..."
Xiao Yun felt Xue Qiong's body tremble.
"Your heart will break..."Xiao Yun couldn't cry anymore.
Personality Restructuring Program.
This is something that Xue Qiong has conceived since he was very early and put into practice for himself, and it is also one of the important reasons why he chose to study psychology in school.
This plan is to accomplish one's so-called "inner strength" in a simple and crude way, and to gain complete control over one's own thoughts.
And the basis for this is that Xue Qiong watched the movie Resident Evil at the beginning of the second phase of secondary school, and then as soon as her brain opened, she thought "Since the actual virus, the T virus can turn people's bodies into superhumans, then psychosis... Isn't it also refreshing... How about making the mind strong? ”
What's new... First of all, he used self-taught self-hypnosis to split his originally complete personality into three parts, that is, artificially created multiple personalities.
The three personalities are the rational parts that are good at decision-making and ruthlessly make choices in the best interest, and are called the No. 1 sub-personality.
It looks a little stupid, a little crazy, acts very logically, and the disguised part of the thinking ability is indistinguishable from ordinary people, and is called the second sub-personality.
and the most ruthless, only responsible for protecting themselves and destroying the survival part of the enemy, known as the number three sub-personality.
These three personalities can think independently of each other, but the memories are shared.
To take a less appropriate example, these three parts are divinity, humanity, and beastness.
At the same time as the split, Xue Qiong also destroyed some of the rules in the conventional sense that he had been building since he was born... Because that was the "limit", he did not allow these things that he saw as meaningless, hindering his plans.
After splitting the originally complete personality into three "people" and removing some impurities, they were reunited with self-hypnosis in different proportions... Theoretically, this method can make Xue Qiong temporarily become any person, and she can also generate all kinds of emotions and emotions at any time according to her needs, rather than being controlled by them. In addition, due to the split of the personality, he can also think about different things at the same time... Although this way of applying it can be very draining, he can do it.
This plan sounds ridiculous and mysterious, but in the end, it is nothing more than his own thoughts acting on his own thoughts, a powerful deception of himself, as long as he himself is extremely convinced. Even in order to ensure the effect, he made some restrictions... And he also convinced himself, these restrictions not only made him really believe that he was using a very powerful skill, but also made him more cautious every time he used this ability.
And the reason why he has committed numerous crimes in his short life, but has not been brought to justice until now, is the credit of this practice. Because he can become a "different person" at any time, his habits, his personality, can be changed at will... Such a person is completely untraceable.
But the only flaw in the personality reconstruction program is in itself. From the day this plan began, Xue Qiong's entire inner world was irreversibly fragmented little by little, and various psychological obstacles followed. Although Xue Qiong can easily accept what he thinks is useful and then cure what he thinks is useless, he can never prevent the problem from constantly appearing.
As a countermeasure to this defect, in addition to adding some restrictions to it, Xue Qiong could only keep himself in a relatively stable state of three for one third each.
The stable state that accounts for one-third of each is also Xue Qiong's favorite state. Xue Qiong in this state is rational but doesn't think too much, she can kill people who need to be killed at any time without other ideas getting in the way, and even have some little humor when interacting with people, a little irrational and unqualified... It would make people feel that he is not too dangerous.
"Senior~~~" finally put Xiaoyun to sleep, of course, nothing happened. Xue Qiong was about to get up and leave and return to her room, when Xiao Yun, who was lying on the bed, suddenly burst into a dream, with tears on her face, but the corners of her mouth were upturned, and she was still drooling.
"It's really troublesome, around, around....I'd rather believe that you have learned to directly control the tear ducts..."Saying this, Xue Qiong still took a piece of tissue paper and wiped her face, and then bent down to tuck the quilt corner for her, the autumn morning is still a little cold. After doing this, he turned around and left Xiao Yun's room.
"Senior~Senior~~Huhu..."
In Xiao Yun's non-stop dream talk, Xue Qiong gently closed the door of the room.
After the room returned to darkness, Xiao Yun opened her eyes.
"Senior, in terms of deceiving myself, I'm really not as good as you..."
"As a result, I didn't want you to use it the most, and I still forced you to use it once..."
She knew that she had already made Xue Qiong's heart move again just now... But Xue Qiong immediately and ruthlessly reset her emotional state.
While Xue Qiong solved the feelings in his heart, he also hurt himself again.
In the dark, Xiao Yun only felt that there was a cool thing sliding down her face.
From that day a year and a half ago. Xiao Yun remembers very well that five hundred and ninety-two days have passed.
The man, expressionless and silent, appeared with a dagger and killed six tall underworld youths who surrounded him in a dark alley.
The man, with the shoulder stabbed by the enemy in the counterattack, panting and bleeding, crouched in front of her, his hands on his knees, little by little, with eyes that could not read any thoughts, examining himself, the bodies that were dishevelled by them while the corpses lying on the ground were still alive.
But his mouth was muttering to himself, "Do you want to kill it... I really care...", almost made her think that she was going to fall from one despair to another.
The man, smiling abruptly, stood up and left, not forgetting to scan the wallets of the dead.
The man, whom he met by chance at school, saw him crouching alone on the ground with his hands on his knees in the midst of the moving crowd, staring at the cheap bread that had fallen to the ground.
"I really care... Do you pick it up, or just leave it at that, and go to the supermarket under the school building to buy another one..."
"In the middle of such a big road, it's still a sunny morning, so there won't be many bacteria~~~"
"Hmm... However, it is precisely because of this that the vitality of pathogenic microorganisms that may be exposed to them is stronger than that of ordinary ones, and the pathogenicity may be higher..."
"Otherwise, you are half and I am half, how about ~~~"
The man turned his head, cocked the corners of his mouth, and stared at himself for at least ten seconds. Seeing the viper-like eyes of that day again, I felt deep fear once again like falling into an ice cave.
"Zang Ruiyun, people are as troublesome as their names, on the surface, they are the same professional girls of the same class of my own class, but in fact..."
Before the man had finished speaking, he picked up the bread that had fallen on the ground, broke it in the middle, and shoved the half that had been in contact with the ground into his own mouth, and handed her the other half.
The man, who had been half-joking with himself for more than five hundred days, was only used to disguise the boring entanglement in his heart, but he never accepted it, nor did he admit that he had any problems with his function.
The man... He is killing himself with determination, from the soul to the body, from the individual to the social.
When Xue Qiong told Xiao Yun about the personality reconstruction plan, Xiao Yun knew that although this person was able to maneuver around in various symptoms that could already be judged as mental illness, and thought that he was using it for his own use, one day... He's going to go completely insane.
"Really, I almost thought I was... It's true... Like... I'm on you..."Xiao Yun's eyes stared blankly at the ceiling, her tear ducts still working hard.
"Eight hundred pacesetters... Whining... Ben North Slope... North slope artillery side by side ... Run... Yes! There was an artilleryman who had his head shot in the head by a sniper! Ahh
This is a much safer way to control yourself than Xue Qiong's approach.
The tears managed to stop.
The underground space of the villa is several times larger than that above ground, which is used as a working area and the ground part is a living area. Because the house is not big, it is generally two people living in one room, except for hackers with social phobia and Zha Yao who is too dangerous. However, most of the researchers' members are night owls and workaholics, and they don't actually spend much time resting at the station. So after deliberately going to Xiao Li's laboratory and shaking it in front of the accountant to prove his innocence, Xue Qiong, who returned to the room, found that the two single beds were empty - Fu Shuai, who lived in the same room, was obviously still immersed in the joy of work.
Xue Qiong opened the large bottle of mineral water on the bedside table, poured it into his stomach, and looked at the electronic clock on the wall by the way, six o'clock in the morning.
"I didn't sleep all night, but when I woke up at dawn, I was very energetic..."
After forcibly restraining the urge to turn on the computer and write the experiment records first and then play the game for a while, Xue Qiong took off his coat and hung on the chair next to him, ready to sleep for a while......