Chapter 10 It is not a sin for a man to cry
I looked at the girl in front of me in shock, Dong E's dark cloud bead, she ...... It is the famous Concubine Dong E, the ...... of Shunzhi Wife.
I don't know why, my heart is slightly blocked, Su Mo'er has already taken a handkerchief to clean the residual tea on my body for me, and the Queen Mother looked at me with questions in her eyes. I smiled reluctantly, got up and saluted the queen mother and the concubine: "The son is rude." β
I sat back down and took a closer look at the clouds in front of me. She doesn't look as bright and atmospheric as the northern girls, on the contrary, she has a hint of the taste of the water town in the south of the Yangtze River, and her appearance is also beautiful and lovely, a standard classical beauty, but it is a little worse than Concubine Tong and Concubine Jing. Is this the woman who haunts Shunzhi's dreams? What is there about her that makes Shunzhi not hesitate to abandon the throne for her?
The concubine said: "This girl also has a heart, knowing that I entered the palace today, she begged me to bring her with her, saying that she wanted to ask the queen mother for marriage in person." β
The Queen Mother glanced at me, and said to Wuyunzhu: "Get up, it's rare that you are still so attentive at this time, don't worry, Prince Xiang will be fine, you can wait for the marriage with peace of mind, the palace and the concubine will not treat you badly." β
Dong Eshi thanked him, and was just about to stand up, when Chang Xi's slender voice came from outside the door: "The emperor - up - drive - arrive -"
Hehe, I smile bitterly, this is fate!
The concubine and I hurriedly got up, and the dark cloud beads turned in the same direction, still kneeling there.
"Greetings to the Emperor." With the voice of my greeting, Shunzhi walked in, he smiled when he saw me and didn't speak, and saw the haggard appearance of the concubine and hurriedly said: "The concubine sits, don't be polite." β
As he spoke, he walked to my original position and sat down, and then pulled me to sit down next to him, and then said, "How is Prince Xiang's body?" β
The concubine shook her head, tears were about to fall again, and the queen mother hurriedly said when she saw this: "The concubine is here today to advance Prince Xiang's marriage, so that she can be happy for Prince Xiang." β
Shunzhi nodded: "Prince Xiang's wedding must be solemn, and I will personally officiate for him at that time." Shunzhi looked at the dark cloud beads who were still kneeling there, and asked the Queen Mother, "What's wrong with this girl?" What went wrong? β
"Your Majesty," said the concubine, "she is Bogol's fiancΓ©e, and she has come with me today to thank the Queen Mother." β
Shunzhi looked at Wuyunzhu: "You are the daughter of Eshuo?" β
"If you go back to the emperor, the slave's Ama is Eshuo." Wuyunzhu replied obediently.
Shunzhi smiled: "So, I've seen you before." β
Wuyunzhu raised his head and looked at Shunzhi for a long time before saying, "The slave maid has not seen the emperor." β
Shunzhi raised his hand and motioned for her to get up: "It's not your people who I'm seeing, it's your words." Some time ago, E Shuo was sick, but you wrote the leave excerpt? β
Wuyunzhu stood up and said, "Amma's leave excerpt is indeed a slave ghostwriter, but how did the emperor know?" β
"Hehe," Shunzhi said with a smile: "Eshuo is five big and three thick, how can you write such beautiful words?" A few days ago, I summoned him to ask, only to find out that it was written by his daughter, and I was very curious at that time, wanting to see what kind of daughter Eshuo gave birth to? Able to write well. β
Hearing this, Wuyunzhu's face turned slightly red.
Shunzhi said: "E Shuo praised you in front of me for being filial piety and righteousness, and Prince Xiang was also his blessing to marry you." β
Wuyunzhu's face was even more red, but I didn't know why I was so upset. I turned my face away and found that the Queen Mother was looking at me, I followed the Queen Mother's line of sight, only to find that Shunzhi had been holding my hand tightly from the beginning, looking at our hands, and looking at the dark cloud beads in front of me, I pulled out my hand slightly in Shunzhi's surprise, and the moment my hand left his palm, my heart throbbed fiercely.
I stood up with a pale face: "Your Majesty, the concubine is a little unwell and wants to retire first." β
"Is the queen alright?" Shunji also stood up and looked at me worriedly.
"The concubine is just a little dizzy, the emperor doesn't have to ......" is broken, and he is really dizzy when he talks about it.
When Shunzhi saw my appearance, he hurriedly asked Chang Xi to call Lai Xi and the attacker in, and I made a kneeling salute: "The concubine will retire first, and talk to the emperor another day." β
The Queen Mother nodded, and I saluted the concubine again, it was really troublesome in ancient times, even if I didn't faint, I would faint after so many salutes.
When I returned to Kunning Palace, I thought that Shunzhi would come over later, but who knew that he didn't, but he just sent Changxi to send some nourishing medicinal food and told me to rest well. I'm a little disappointed, disappointed? I was taken aback by myself, I ...... Are you expecting him to come? Am I going to be one of the many resentful women in his harem?
No! No way! History is irreversible, and I can't stare at and jump down knowing that there is a fire kang in front of me, can I? It was destined that he would never belong to me, the queen. Isn't it also recorded in the history books that "the queen of filial piety, Dong E's family, and the daughter of the Minister of the Interior, E Shuo." Entered the palace at the age of eighteen, and his relatives were particularly generous, and he favored the harem. In August of the thirteenth year of Shunzhi, she was established as a virtuous concubine. In December, she was crowned the imperial concubine, and the ceremony was ordained and pardoned. In March of the fifteenth year, he gave birth to a son, Prince Fengrong, who was called 'This is my first son.' 'In the eighth month of the seventeenth year, he dropped out of the dynasty on the fifth day. Posthumously filial piety, dedication to Zhuang and Zhide Xuanren Wen Hui Duanjing Empress. These records all show how strong Shunzhi's love for Concubine Dong E is, but unfortunately, tragedy is tragedy, and even their children only lived for less than 300 days.
I know these things clearly, so in the past two years, I have deliberately closed myself off, not having too much contact with the concubines and things in the harem, and even letting Concubine Tong take over the duties of the queen, in order to spend the past few years peacefully, and then go out of the palace in a dashing manner to live my own life.
I deliberately don't think about Shunzhi these days, every day I try to fill my time, and Shunzhi is also very cooperative did not come to Kunning Palace, just when I thought I had completely gotten rid of the heart-warming feeling that Shunzhi brought me, came the news that Prince Xiang was critically ill, and the Queen Mother ordered Prince Xiang and Wuyunzhu to get married quickly within two days, I was dumbfounded, the Queen Mother did not know, this marriage decree is Prince Xiang's amulet, the more urgent, the faster Prince Xiang went.
In the blink of an eye, it was the day when Prince Xiang and Wuyunzhu got married, which should have been a happy thing, but the sky was not beautiful, and the sky was gloomy early in the morning, which made people's moods irritated.
As soon as I finished breakfast, Lai Xi led the panting Li Fu in, and Li Fu said urgently when he saw me: "Niangniang, the Queen Mother is urgently calling!" β
"What's wrong?" I asked Laixi to bring a cup of tea to Li Fu, and Li Fu didn't refuse, and took a big sip before saying, "Prince Xiang died of illness, and now the emperor and the concubine are in Cining Palace." β
"What?" I jerked to my feet, "When?" β
"I heard that it was this morning, and the sedan chair of Xinfujin hadn't gone out yet, and Prince Xiang couldn't stand it." Li Fu looked anxious, "Niangniang, the Queen Mother is still waiting for you." β
I hurriedly beckoned the attackers to change my clothes, Prince Xiang finally died, but it was not suicide as I imagined, but died of illness, but in any case, this unlucky Prince Xiang still died, and after all, he did not marry the filial piety and righteousness of Dong E's dark cloud bead.
I hurried to Cining Palace, and as soon as I entered the door, I heard the concubine sobbing and saying: "Bogol said before leaving, I hope that the emperor can point out good people for Wuyunzhu again, and don't miss her lifelong ......."
Hearing this, I frowned slightly, this Prince Xiang really had a deep love for Wuyunzhu, and he still missed her before he died. Quickly stepped into the room, only to see the queen mother sitting on the warm kang with a tired face, the concubine leaning on the cushion with tears on her face, Concubine Tong gently rubbing her chest for the concubine, and Shunzhi standing there with his back to the front door. When Concubine Tong saw me coming in, she was about to get up and salute, I waved my hand and bent my knees slightly: "The concubine respectfully invites the emperor Sheng'an, the queen mother, and the concubine Jin'an." β
The Queen Mother moved her lips slightly when she saw me coming in, but did not speak, Shunzhi turned around slowly, and said in a hoarse voice: "The queen doesn't have to be polite." His face was strangely pale, his eyes were slightly red, I felt sorry in my heart, among Shunzhi's brothers, only Bogol was close to his age, and now Bogol was in the flower season but died of a violent illness called Shunzhi How can he not be sad.
I don't know how to comfort him, perhaps, all he needs now is a quiet space, a room of people stay quietly like this, only the concubine let out a low sob, this time Chang Xi flashed in from the door, and came to Shunzhi lightly, Shunzhi looked at Chang Xi, his eyes flashed with sadness, and after a while, he asked in a low voice: "How are you preparing over there?" β
"Back to the emperor," Chang Xi bowed and said: "The mourning hall of Prince Gong's mansion has been prepared......" Before the words were finished, the concubine cried bitterly, followed by trembling all over her body, and the queen mother saw this and said: "Concubine Tong, accompany the concubine to rest first, and talk about it in the afternoon, so that the imperial doctor can wait for him at any time." β
"Yes." Concubine Tong hurriedly asked the palace people to mix the concubine, and then went down with a salute, and the queen mother said to me: "Queen, accompany the emperor to go out for a walk, and let the emperor stay alone." β
I walked out of the door with the Queen Mother, the Queen Mother asked Su Mo'er and Li Fu to stay in place, I stepped forward to support the Queen Mother, I knew she had something to say to me, but she had already gone far away, she still didn't say a word, I looked at the Queen Mother worriedly, she frowned, her face was almost transparent, she looked into my eyes, and said sadly: "The Imperial Doctor clearly said that Bogol can last for a while, how can his condition suddenly worsen?" Don't...... History is really ...... Can't it be reversed? β
I didn't speak, just gently held her hand, and the Queen Mother shook my hand hard, with two lines of tears in her eyes: "I really can't accept that the emperor will go before me one day." β
I whispered: "You are the Queen Mother, the strongest woman in the Qing Dynasty......"
"Yes," the Queen Mother interrupted me: "I am the Queen Mother, and I am also a strong woman, I have survived all the difficult days, but I am also a mother, what makes me so strong is my son, if I lose him, I am nothing!" By the end, her voice had become a little poignant.
My eyes were so hot that I almost burst into tears, but the Queen Mother's eyes looked at me without turning, and there was a hint of anticipation in her eyes, hoping that I would tell her that history could be reversed and that her son would not leave her. But I disappointed her, I turned my face away, two warm tears came out of my eyes, the Queen Mother couldn't accept it, what about me? Am I okay with that?
The Queen Mother trembled and almost fell, I hurriedly supported her, the Queen Mother waved her hand lightly, choked and said: "The queen go to see the emperor, help me persuade the emperor well, call him ...... Don't be too sad. β
I reluctantly retreated, turned around and returned to the main hall, Chang Xi was waiting at the door, saw me far away and knelt down, I walked up to him, and whispered: "Get up, I'll go in and see the emperor, don't let people in for the time being." β
I entered the hall, Shunzhi was still standing with his back to the door as just now, I was afraid of scaring him, so I deliberately took a heavy step to let him know that someone came in, he didn't look back, just stood there blankly, looking at his back, I suddenly found that he was really lonely, somehow, my heart was sad.
I walked up to Shunji and gently pulled his sleeve, he looked at me with sadness and helplessness in his eyes, I half-hugged him and asked him to sit down.
Shunzhi sat there indifferently for a while before he said slowly: "I have had a good relationship with Prince Xiang since I was a child, he lives very happily, as if he has no troubles, but I am overwhelmed by such and such things every day, and I envy him very much. He said that he liked freedom, so I would not give him any errands, he said that he wanted to be with his mother, so I ordered the concubine to go out of the palace to live with him, and he said that he liked the daughter of the Eshuo family, so I pointed out the Dong Eshi to him...... I...... I just hope that he can live happily all the time, but who knows, he is dead......" Shunzhi's voice has begun to tremble, I looked at his appearance, and began to understand a little, in Shunzhi's heart, Bogol is his stand-in, has been living happily for him, at the same time, Bogol is also Shunzhi's dream, Shunzhi is looking forward to one day being as carefree as Bogol. Can ...... now Bogol is dead, and what Shunzhi has lost, not only his brother, but also his playmate, what Shunzhi has lost, is his dream!
I stood beside Shunzhi, held his head in my arms, and said softly, "It will be better to vent it." "Everyone only said that he was the emperor of the Qing Dynasty, but they forgot that he was only nineteen years old.
Shunzhi shook his head lightly: "No, I can't cry." β
"You can!" I raised his face and looked at his painful eyes: "You are not the emperor now, you are Fulin, the Fulin who has lost his dearest brother." β
Shunji looked at me, pulled me into his arms, let me sit on his lap, hugged me tightly, buried his face in the side of my neck, his body was trembling all the time, there was a wet and cool feeling between my neck, I hugged him back, like holding a helpless child, listening to his suppressed cry, my heart was like being grasped tightly by a big hand, so tight that I could barely breathe.
I finally shed tears, this is the emperor, I can't even cry heartily.