Chapter 115 Choice

In a sense, Zhao Zhi and Qin are very similar.

Qin's maiden family severed relations with her, and her husband's family did not allow her to be expelled with a child—it was exactly the same.

Xiao Dong was standing under the porch, and the Qin family was talking to Zhao Zhi in the room. Xiao Dong didn't have to listen deliberately, Qin's voice was not small, and he could hear her words clearly when he stood outside.

"Xiao Dong told me everything about you, I think your experience with me is true."

"I was about the same age as you that year, well, the girls here in Suizhou got married early, and many people got married when they were thirteen or fourteen. I didn't meet Qin Lie's father until I was sixteen years old. The first time we met, I thought he was dressed like a girl, his hand was whiter than mine, and his body was fragrant. The first time I saw him, he was standing under a tree in a daze, and at first glance he really looked like a girl. I thought he was doing the same poetry as those scholars who came to the school, but he was embarrassed to say that he was lost...... He asked me for directions, and I led him down the mountain. Halfway through, he was out of breath and couldn't hold on, and I helped him walk the second half of the way, and that's how we met. ”

Zhao Zhi didn't say anything, and Qin continued: "I also thought about what kind of person I wanted to marry before. There wasn't a single one in the whole village that I could look up to. I always felt that they were brutal, and my mother scolded me and asked me what kind of person I wanted to marry. But I didn't expect that the person I fell in love with later was not brutal at all. Compared with him, I was like a barbarian, illiterate, and I couldn't understand what poems and sentences he said. One time he said that he wrote me a poem, and he read it to me, but I didn't understand it, and he didn't get annoyed, so he just looked at me and smiled, and the smile was so beautiful, and my face burned like a fire. My family didn't allow me to associate with him, and they refused to marry me to him, my father locked me up, and my mother scolded and persuaded me. said that the Han son's brother was not sincere, but he was just coaxing me. He won't marry me seriously, and several girls in our clan have been deceived before, and the end is miserable. He also said that even if I can marry him, life will not be easy, the etiquette and habits of the Han family are completely different from ours, women are locked in the courtyard, and they can't get out for the rest of their lives...... I know all of this and understand it, but I just didn't change my mind, and finally broke off the relationship with my family and clan and ran out. Except for a suit of clothes and a pair of shoes, there was nothing. ”

Zhao Zhi's voice was hoarse, and it didn't sound like much, but she spoke after all.

"He married you?"

"Married." Qin's voice was proud: "My vision is good, he is not such a negative person." He also had a falling out with his family and fell ill again. His father was very open-minded, and his mother didn't resist him, I still entered the Lin family, sat in a sedan chair, worshiped heaven and earth, and became his wife seriously. ”

"That'...... The people in your family have no contact with you again? ”

"Nope." Qin said: "Later, when they met me a few times, they didn't look at me and left directly, as if they didn't know me." ”

"You don't want them, don't you blame them?"

"Thinking is also thinking, I used to wake up crying at night. I miss my mother, I miss my brother, I am still with them in my dreams, I am still at home, eating green leaf cakes, and running around on the wooden building barefoot......"

"Then, what about the Lin family? What do they do to you? ”

"Except for Qin Lie and his father, everyone else treats me like some poisonous bug. His mother could shoot a poisoned knife out of my eyes, and she wanted to eat me raw. From top to bottom, even the people who sweep the floor and watch the door, they are afraid of me and look down on me, they think that I seem to know some evil method, so that Qin Lie's father is fascinated and has to marry me. They would say some strange things in front of me, but they would always whisper behind their backs, and then laugh out loud. He had two cousins, and he tried to bargain with me, and he did something to me, but I beat him up......"

"Huh? So, do you know? ”

"Some know, some don't."

“…… How did he treat you? ”

Qin Shi paused for a moment and said slowly, "Very good." He couldn't have been nicer to me. For this, I don't care about anything else...... Now I just regret that I had a bad temper at that time, and I often quarreled and quarreled with him...... Every time, he wants to coax me well. He would also write me poems and read them to me when he was done, regardless of whether I understood them or not. He also painted for me, and the people in the paintings were much better than myself. If I had known that the time together was so short, I shouldn't have quarreled with him, I should have treated him well and made him happy every day. ”

She said these few words plainly, but it made people feel an indescribable sadness.

He ...... Passed away? ”

"Hmm. He went early, without even seeing his son. If I hadn't been pregnant with a child, I would have gone with him. Later, I gave birth to a child, and I became a father and a mother alone, and I suffered a lot. Sometimes I feel like I can't hold on anymore, and every time I get to think of that short-lived ghost. If he had been around, he would have smiled at me again and not spoken. I like him the most, and every time he looks at me like that, I don't get angry or uncomfortable. ”

The room was quiet for a while, and Qin Shi said again: "Actually, after so many years, sometimes looking back, there are a lot of ups and downs, but there are no difficulties in this world that cannot be overcome. Even if you have any stupid thoughts, can you give up your children? ”

Xiao Dong listened carefully.

Zhao Zhi sobbed softly in the room and did not speak.

It's also good to be able to cry. It's better to cry out than to keep it in your heart.

"I don't know...... I don't know what to think, what to do. I sometimes hate my father and my mother, why should I take such a desperate road. However, they were kind to me, and they married me far away, and gave me a generous dowry, so that I could live and live. I want to hate, but I can't hate. There is also the Zhang family, he is also good to me, and when the news from the capital first came, he also protected me and comforted me. But I can't go back to Zhang's house anymore. He's a dutiful son, his mother...... My mother died, and I hurt him, and my child, I ...... I don't know what to do with him, and I don't know how to feed him. He follows me, what will he be able to do in the future? His background will make him unable to hold his head up and be a human being for the rest of his life......"

Zhao Zhi and Qin are different people. Qin's stubbornness is estimated to be like this, so she is alone, and she is still struggling to give birth to a child and raise it alone. Now that he has this family business, Qin Lie also has a career, and his days are getting more and more prosperous. If she had found a short-term view like Zhao Zhi at that time, how could there be anything later?

Therefore, when encountering difficulties many times, some people choose to give up and escape, while others grit their teeth and survive. After the most difficult level, the hardships in the future seem to be nothing. In fact, why should people who are not even afraid of death be afraid of living?

Does it take more courage to live, than to die?

"According to what you say, then I should have looked for a short time earlier? Qin Lie still has my surname, but he is not surnamed Lin. Besides, although he and I have the surname Qin, our people have long denied me. ”

Yes, the situation of the Qin family at that time was also unrelated and unsupported, and Qin Lie was still born in the grass shed. I survived such a dilemma.

What if it were yourself?

Xiao Dong asked himself. Replaced by herself, if she was in the Qin family, and Zhao Zhi was in the current situation, how would she choose? Will you be cowardly and commit suicide, or will you face it bravely like the Qin family, live, and live better?

Xiao Dong heard the sound of footsteps, she turned her head, Qin Lie hurriedly came over, and whispered, "Zhang Manting is here." ”

Xiao Dong was taken aback.

How did he get here? Is it here to ask the teacher about sin?

"He was the only one, and he said he wanted to see Zhao Zhi."

Xiao Dong hesitated and glanced into the room.

Qin Lie said in a low voice: "This matter can't always be delayed, escape is not a way, there must be a decision." ”

"Then, ask Zhao Zhi first...... Look what she thinks. ”

Zhao Zhi's path has to be chosen by herself, and others can't decide for her.

Xiao Dong looked at Zhang Manting head-on for the first time. The last time I saw Zhao Zhi was married, he was wearing a lucky dress with a big red flower, and he looked really ...... Well, the red face. Probably all the grooms looked the same, smiling silly.

Qin Lie accompanied him over, the sun was blazing overhead, but the porch was becoming more and more obscure, and his face was blurred.

They walked to the eaves of the porch, and President Zhang Man said, "I've seen the county lord." ”

Straightening up, Xiao Dong could see his appearance clearly. Zhang Manting's eyebrows are like a kind of thorny grass tied with a broom, very smooth, very long, and with a warm expression. From his face, it was not clear what the man was thinking.

I don't know why, the word county lord came out of his mouth, and there was a very awkward feeling.

Zhao Zhi is also the county lord, is it difficult for him to have such an attitude towards Zhao Zhi?

Xiao Dong returned the salute: "Ah Zhi, she is inside, and she has been sick for several days." Well, the child is very good, quite strong, and has a good temper. ”

"Thank you Brother Qin and the county lord for taking care of Neiko and the dog."

Xiao Dong stepped aside, Zhang Manting pushed the door and walked in, and covered the door with his hand, cutting off Xiao Dong's sight.

Qin Lie took her to the tree in the courtyard and sat down on the stone bench.

"Don't worry, in my opinion, he's a very affectionate person."

"But I also heard that he is still a filial son."

Xiao Dong turned his head and glanced at the door.

If only Mrs. Zhang hadn't died. Things are always easy to settle between husband and wife. But when human lives are involved, that's another matter entirely.

I don't know what they're going to say. Will Zhang Manting question her? Or comfort her? Will they be reunited, or will they break off?

What will Zhao Zhi do in the future? What about the child?

Countless questions swirled in her mind.

"We have helped everything we can, and we have done everything we can, even if the Zhang family wants to do something, they will look at you and me."

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Tomorrow is the last day of class, and the day after tomorrow I will go home......

I miss my son and want to go back early, but I am a little reluctant to be here. This is a small dormitory, and there are classrooms for classes......

The mood is so complicated.