Chapter 233: Bitterness

When Jiang Ruonan heard Yingxue's words, he remembered Jin Shaokang's haggard appearance before, and his heart seemed to be tightly grasped by an invisible hand.

Although she reminded herself over and over again that she had nothing to do with him anymore and should not care too much about him or pay too much attention to him, her heart was anxious and caring, and she was completely out of her control.

So she comforted herself that even if he was not a husband and wife, he was still the father of the children, and he had treated himself sincerely, even as a doctor, he should not sit idly by.

She bent down and helped Yingxue up, "I saw him the other day and found him...... A lot has changed...... What's going on? What the hell happened to him? Is it sick? ”

Yingxue clenched Jiang Ruonan's hand, "Madam, after you left, I found that there was something wrong with Master Hou, after he came back from the mansion, he sat in the house, didn't speak, didn't eat, just in a daze, listened to the maid in the courtyard, and couldn't sleep all night, and then began to drink, what Mrs. Tai said he didn't listen to, Mrs. Tai was so anxious that Mrs. Tai burst into tears, and the illness on her body flared up again, but fortunately, Mrs. taught Liu Yue massage and cupping, and Mrs. Tai felt better." ”

"But not long after, Hou Ye suddenly 'fell into a coma', and his whole body was 'convulsed', fortunately, Ning An invited a friend of Hou Ye to come in time and cured Hou Ye, but from that time on, Hou Ye's body was not as good as before, and he was cold all over his body in winter, and it didn't work if there were a few fires in the house, but in summer, he was hot all over his body, and he had to be immersed in ice water when he was uncomfortable. Madam, didn't you see the suffering of Hou Ye at that time......" Speaking of this, Ying Xue couldn't help but shed tears, "Every time the illness attacked, he gritted his teeth and endured desperately, the meridians of his whole body protruded, and his face was as white as a ghost, madam, no matter how good Hou Ye's body is, he is still a human being, and he is also a flesh and blood...... Mrs. Tai looked for doctors everywhere, looking for all kinds of tonic 'medicines' for Hou Ye, but it didn't work."

Every word of Yingxue was like a knife, cutting Jiang Ruonan's heart, making her unbearable pain.

She gritted her teeth and tried her best to endure it, but tears still rolled out.

"Madame......" Yingxue grabbed her hand, "We can all see that Hou Ye has never forgotten you, in the second year after you left, Mrs. Tai wanted to help Hou Ye marry a wife, Hou Ye did not agree, Mrs. Tai ignored him at all, and then Hou Ye asked An Ning to quietly spread the news that he was sick, these are what An Ning told me 'privately'." Originally, because of the divorce, Mrs. Tai said that it was not smooth for the Hou Ye, and with this incident, there was no news about the family affair that was already a little eyebrow. This dragged on for two years. Mrs. Tai saw that she couldn't find a suitable main room for Hou Ye, and saw that Hou Ye's body was like this...... Zhang Luo wanted to buy a concubine for the Hou Ye and continue the incense for the Jin family, but the Hou Ye refused, and Mrs. Tai bought one on her own initiative, but the Hou Ye ignored her at all, and Mrs. Tai was also anxious, and wanted to coerce the Hou Ye to say that if she was so obsessed with 'obsession' and did not come back, she would live in the nunnery and never come back. Hou Ye later knelt at the entrance of Mrs. Tai's 'door' all night, until the morning 'coma' passed, Mrs. Tai was distressed and no longer 'forced' him, now, that 'woman' has never seen Hou Ye a few times, if it weren't for Mrs. Tai to stop, I am afraid that Hou Ye has sold her

Madam, Master Hou has always taken you to heart, and the slave maid is not completely ruthless to Master Hou when she sees you, now that you have a child, why don't you be together, why should you both be in pain? The slave and maid know that they are not qualified to say this, but the slave and maid feel very uncomfortable when they look at you like this."

Jiang Ruonan pushed her hand away, stood up, turned around, and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, "Yingxue, I know you are for my good, but there are some things you don't understand, and I don't know how to tell you......"

She lowered her head and said softly: "There are some things I have tried to believe and try my best, but if it doesn't work, it won't work, I don't have confidence anymore and don't want to try it anymore...... Don't say anything. ”

She never doubted his feelings for her, but this is the case, the deep-rooted concept of three wives and four concubines formed since then made men in this era have no ability to restrain their feelings, even if Jin Shaokang really likes her, he has made up his mind to promise her, but he will still be tempted by other 'women' unconsciously. Now he can't let go of himself because he feels guilty, but once he returns to him, will the same thing happen again?

She didn't have the strength to defend her whole life, and she didn't have the confidence to try this kind of pain again, she was very 'selfish', and at this moment, in order not to let herself get hurt again, she could only watch him suffer.

The only thing she could do for him was to see if she could solve his physical ailments.

She had already decided about this matter, but now that she said it, her heart would still hurt.

Tears slipped down quietly

After Yingxue left, Jiang Ruonan called Zishan to his side and slowly told her everything about himself.

"I didn't mean to hide it from you and my great-grandfather, I just don't want to recall these things anymore, but now that I'm back here, maybe I won't leave for a long time, so I have to let you know about these things, and I don't want you to know about these things from other people's mouths."

Zi Shan saw that Jiang Ruonan's eyes were red and swollen, and her expression was bitter, knowing that she was uncomfortable

"Actually, great-grandfather once said that the identity of his sister is not simple...... It's okay, Zishan doesn't blame my sister for hiding it from me, if it were me, I wouldn't want to mention it."

Jiang Ruonan hugged her and said excitedly: "Zishan, thank you, thanks to you and great-grandfather, I have a relaxed and happy life this time, if it weren't for you, I don't know what it would be like." ”

Zishan hugged her, patted her gently on the back, and comforted her.

At the same time, in Cining Palace, the Queen Mother took advantage of Emperor Jing Xuan's visit to see her, sent a cadre of people and others back, and discussed one thing with Emperor Jing Xuan.

After listening to the Queen Mother's words, Emperor Jing Xuan's face immediately changed color, and he stood up with a "ho", and said resolutely: "No, the minister will never agree to this matter."

The Queen Mother looked at Emperor Jing Xuan with a cold face, "What if the mourning family insists?" ”

Emperor Jing Xuan pursed his lips, and his chest rose and fell, "Forgive your sons for not being filial, and your sons can promise their mothers anything, but this is the only ...... I will never agree" After speaking, Emperor Jing Xuan turned around and walked away.

The Queen Mother looked at Emperor Jing Xuan's back, frowned, and sighed long.

On the same day, Jiang Ruonan took his two children and Zishan to see the Queen Mother.

The Queen Mother was very happy to see the two identical children, and she also liked Zi Shan's caring and well-behaved children, and immediately rewarded the children and Zi Shan with a lot of things.

Brother Qing'er had a sweet mouth, seeing that the Queen Mother was kind and amiable, and gave him a lot of good things, he walked to the Queen Mother's bed, snuggled up to her, and called "'milk', 'milk', 'milk', 'milk'", Jiang Ruonan hurriedly said: "It should be called the Queen Mother." ”

The queen mother's heart was crispy when she was called by the child, where would she mind, and smiled at Jiang Ruonan: "It's good to call 'milk' and 'milk', what a kiss, there are more people in the palace who call the queen mother, 'milk' and 'milk' are not rare, 'milk' and 'milk' are very rare now, two little babies" She 'touched' 'touched' Brother Qing'er's face and said with a smile.

Bo Ge'er was more careful, he looked at the Queen Mother for a while, and asked: "'Milk' 'Milk', are you sick?" ”

The Queen Mother looked at him and smiled, "How do you know?" ”

"As soon as I came in, I smelled the smell of 'medicine', during this time, my mother was treating 'milk' and 'milk'."

"Yes, Bogoer is so smart."

Bo Ge'er walked to the side of the Queen Mother, took her hand, and her big eyes were full of worry, "'Milk' 'Milk', are you still in pain now?" ”

The Queen Mother only felt heartwarming, and immediately bent down and hugged the two children in her arms, "It doesn't hurt, your mother's wonderful hand is back to 'spring', and 'milk' and 'milk' don't hurt anymore......"

The Queen Mother played with the children for a while, and asked Aunt Ye to take Zishan and the children to eat something and go around the palace. The children happily went.

After they left, the Queen Mother asked about the children's situation in detail, and Jiang Ruonan did not hide it from the Queen Mother, and explained the matter and the situation.

The Queen Mother asked her, "What are you going to do?" ”

Jiang Ruonan lowered his head and said softly: "I will live well with the children in the future, and when Zishan is older, I will find a suitable family for her." Let's take a closer look at the art of medicine. Two years before his death, my great-grandfather painstakingly taught me that I could never fail him, and that I would carry forward his medical skills and fulfill his last wish, so that he could smile at Jiuquan. ”

"Listen to your tone, don't you get married?" The Queen Mother asked.

"It's the same to marry anyone, it's better not to marry, and the emperor is ......"

Men in this era are almost the same, if even Jin Shaokang can't give her confidence, who else can? She already has children, she has a home, she will not be lonely in the future, and there are not only things about love and love in life, but also many things that can be done.

And she is still worried, no matter who she wants to marry, she is afraid that the emperor will stop it, this person has a terrible possessive 'desire', and he doesn't necessarily like himself very much, but he can't get it, and he doesn't want others to get it. Instead of being exhausted by then, it is better for her to be determined not to marry, as long as she lets out the words and pounces on the medical skills wholeheartedly, he can't force herself into the palace......

The Queen Mother naturally understood what she meant, "The children will always grow up and leave you one day...... At that point, you're still alone. ”

Jiang Ruonan raised his head and looked at the Queen Mother and smiled, "I'll talk about it then." ”

The Queen Mother remembered the emperor's persistence and couldn't help but sigh long.

Do you want Ruolan to be so lonely? She is already sorry for her parents, but she can't let her son harm her for the rest of her life.

The Queen Mother pursed her lips, as if she had made up her mind.

Jiang Ruonan saw that the Queen Mother looked heavy, and didn't want her to worry about her own affairs anymore, so he found a light topic, "When I entered Beijing this time, I found that there have been many changes in the capital, and I have not had time to accompany the children during this time, and I will take the two children to the street tomorrow." ”

The Queen Mother said with a smile: "I heard Aunt Ye say that tomorrow there will be a temple fair in the White Horse Temple in the west of the city, it should be very lively, you can take the children there." ”

Jiang Ruonan smiled: "The children must like it"

PS: In the next chapter, father and son meet.