In Ran Zijin's memory, his mother is a very strong existence.

He can still remember his mother's appearance, but that way he either glared angrily or scolded him.

Ran Zijin's father is a man of few words, he is a security guard in the miners' community, and his daily job is to answer the phone in the community during the day and persuade the neighbors to abuse and fight; At night, he flashlights and patrols the neighborhood every hour. The work is carried out in three shifts a day, and there are irregular two days off a week.

Although his father is in charge of the security of the community, he cannot guarantee the safety of his home.

Ran Zijin's mother was a spicy woman who was laid off from the mine early and opened a small supermarket on the street.

She is diligent and capable, but she is short-tempered, and because of her temper, the ruffians in the neighborhood dare not come to the door to find fault; But also because of her temper, the house is always full of scolding and smashing, and sometimes even when eating, she will inexplicably overturn the table directly.

And it is even more common for Ran Zijin to be beaten by his mother by pulling his hair, so his childhood has always been covered in a long, deep shadow.

When Ran Zijin was sixteen years old, his mother died inexplicably.

No one can say the true time of her death, nor the cause of her death.

She died sitting behind the counter of a small supermarket, smiling, with her eyes open, looking at the door.

A guest came in to choose something and wanted to pay, but found that she did not respond, the guest reached out and patted her on the shoulder, and her whole body collapsed like a pile of dominoes, although she still maintained a smile on her face.

Ran Zijin remembered that the photo on her mother's urn was her face when she died, because she never left a smiling photo when she was alive, and even in the family portrait taken every year, she looked bitter and hateful.

When he grew up, Ran Zijin looked more and more like his mother, he completely inherited his mother's soft but slightly rigid facial lines, and he grew into a handsome boy who was a little exaggerated. Since high school, Ran Zijin has received many love letters from girls confessing, but he has not responded to any of them.

In his heart, it was not so much that he was afraid of women, but that he was still afraid of his mother.

Until he met An Yue by chance at school, a girl who always seemed a little silent.

He was queuing up in the cafeteria, and this girl was standing in front of him, she was thin, her face was very white, her blood was very light, and she even looked a little malnourished.

Just when it was her turn to cook, a panting girl ran from behind.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I have low blood sugar and dizziness, can you let me eat first?"

An Yue glanced at her timidly, revealing a look of trepidation, as if she herself was the one who cut in line.

"Okay, okay, you're in front of me." She replied in a particularly slender voice.

"I said, 'What are you doing?' You have low blood sugar, who is hungry and doesn't have low blood sugar! We're all hungry, so we're lining up at the back! A boy standing at the back of the line shouted.

"The old lady can't have low blood sugar? People are willing to give up their seats and do your! The hypoglycemic girl scolded angrily, not looking hungry at all.

"Everyone, don't argue, I'll go to the back ......of the line," An Yue continued to whisper, and then walked to the end of the queue with her head down.

She passed by Ran Zijin, and Ran Zijin only felt an electric current come out of his mind, and then stretched out towards his limbs.

His dopamine and hormones were rising, and he knew that this girl was exactly the kind of girl he was looking for in his dreams, a gentle and meek, soft and pale girl.

Ran Zijin didn't have any experience in love, and he never dared to express his emotions, he was just silently paying attention to An Yue.

What surprised him even more was that An Yue actually took the course "Game and Society" at the same time as him. So, the weekly class had become a holiday for him, and he had rushed to the classroom early each time, taking a seat with a book in the back row, and then sneaking to the door, pretending to be casual and waiting for An Yue.

An Yue always came to the lecture hall ten minutes early, and at this time, Ran Zijin would also pretend that he had just walked into the classroom, and walk into the threshold with her one after the other or side by side. It was also one of the happiest moments of the week.

But then he found that An Yue's face was getting more and more haggard, and she seemed to be worried about something.

He wanted to help, so he followed An Yue from afar, and he found a middle-aged uncle who often came to the school to harass her.

At first, he thought that there was some ulterior secret between An Yue and this uncle, or that she had borrowed a loan shark from the campus, and the uncle was the underworld thug who was collecting money.

He turned to follow the uncle again, and found out that he was a real villain. He wanted to find an opportunity several times and jumped out to ask the uncle why he wanted to hurt An Yue, but he didn't have the guts because he was timid.

The only thing he did was to take advantage of the villain's defenselessness and push down a wooden board from a tall building to smash him, but the guy still escaped, and Ran Zijin felt that he had exhausted all his strength.

After all, he has always been a weak and powerless person who does not dare to do or act - he does not even have the courage to confess, let alone stand up to protect others.

He didn't dare to do it casually, he felt that the scoundrel had discovered him, and he had to continue to follow him from a distance and quietly.

Until he was finally surprised to find out that the person who spent money to hire the uncle was actually a student of Weiyang University, and her name was almost unknown to everyone, because she was Du Wanqian, the daughter of Weiyang real estate tycoon Du Jiansheng.

How could Du Wanqian set her sights on such a gentle and obedient girl as An Yue?

At first, he was puzzled, until one night when he was running at night in an unoccupied playground, Du Wanqian, who was drunk, suddenly stopped him, and then told him domineeringly and arrogantly that he was her man, he could only be her boyfriend, and if he didn't agree, the woman he liked would die.

Du Wanqian's appearance made Ran Zijin tremble, because he remembered the shadow of his childhood again, and remembered the way his mother abused and beat him.

At that time, he did not dare to agree, nor did he dare not agree, but he was at a loss, and fled without saying a word like a frightened bird.

But evasion could not solve the problem, and his dodge aroused Du Wanqian's ruthlessness even more.

A few days later, he actually saw An Yue's death with his own eyes.

He was weak enough to see the woman he had a crush fall from a tall building, and all he could do was run to the tavern and get drunk, and lie down in the street crying like a wreck.

In the middle of the night, he saw several wild dogs frantically fighting for food.

Some of them are embarrassed, some are skinny, and some are old, but every dog is dancing and jumping and biting in order to survive.

Ran Zijin suddenly understood, in fact, being old, weak, sick, and disabled were not reasons, they were just excuses that cowards found for themselves, and he felt that he could not be compared with a lost dog.

He stood up crookedly, smashed the bottle of wine in his hand to the ground and smashed it to pieces, he was crazier than a mad dog, and he rushed out of the old street with a whoosh, ignoring the amount of the screaming of the residents coming from the surrounding windows.

At that moment, he had quietly made up his mind that he must get an explanation back for An Yue.