Chapter 32: The Past

The emperor sighed slowly, and only said, "Don't be angry, the queen mother. Sit down and talk slowly. Gao Qing took the county lord out first. ”

The Empress Dowager Shengci's tone was not soft: "This matter is closely related to Xiao Dong, she should also listen to it, how does the emperor plan to give her justice." ”

The senior female officer lowered her head, and slowly withdrew with a solemn hand.

Xiao Dong only hated that he couldn't slip away like a high-ranking female official. There was a breathless tension in the hall. 〕

Xiao Dong helped the Queen Mother sit down, and she could clearly feel the cold palm of the Queen Mother's hand.

It's the same for herself.

The queen had to be so fast, but by this time, the two of them were silent.

Xiao Dong stood aside, and after a while, the emperor beckoned to her.

Xiao Dong walked over slowly.

"Hurt ...... All right? ”

"Back to the emperor, it's been good a long time ago."

The Emperor looked at her earnestly. Xiao Dong was wearing a plain chrysanthemum ivory cardigan silk shirt, a colorful water wave skirt, with beautiful eyebrows and eyes, slim and elegant, and no longer looked like a childish child.

"Mother, I still remember that when I was in school, I was beaten by my master, and when I went back, I had a high fever, and I was lying alone in the house...... The queen was also pregnant at that time, and she couldn't take care of me at all. I struggled to sneak in to see you, do you remember? ”

The Empress Dowager Shengci was slightly stunned, a little distracted, and whispered, "Naturally remember." ”

"I asked at the time, are you my mother? You didn't speak, just nodded at me. I asked again, why don't you come to see me when I'm sick...... You didn't answer me at that time, in fact, I myself later understood that you didn't come to see me for my own good, and if you talked to me and got close, the queen would not tolerate our mother and son. ”

The Empress Dowager remembered the situation at that time. He was only five years old, his little face was red, and his lips were cracked. He looked at her from there with his eyes on the doorway. For many years, she could not forget his gaze at that time.

He had been looking forward to seeing her, and then left disappointed.

She didn't come near him, she didn't hug him.

She didn't cry until he was gone.

It was the flesh and bones that had fallen from her body, but she couldn't even hug him, and she didn't even dare to shout his name.

"After the queen gave birth to the prince of the garden, my situation was even more unbearable. I told myself that no one could help me, I had to rely on myself and get through day by day. Do you remember how arrogant the prince of the garden was at that time? As soon as he said that, I had to lie down and ride him on horseback. The younger brother was pushed down by him, fell and fainted, and it took more than a day to wake up. I begged a number of people to ask the doctor to come and show my brother, but no one paid any attention to me. My brother woke up on his own and told me that he didn't hurt at all, and I thought, even for my brother, for your sake, I must succeed. ”

His tone was calm, and Xiao Dong's heart was sour when he listened.

It turned out that the emperor and King An had such a hard time when they were children—but King An never told her about it.

"Does the queen mother remember why the prince didn't have it?"

"It's not...... Fever? ”

"Yes, but at that time, the queen looked at this sister-in-law as precious and careful as her eyes, so decent, why did he get a fever?"

Xiao Dong's heart tightened.

Oh my God, how did she hear this ...... This kind of secret?

Heaven and earth, let her get into it, or let her faint immediately, or let her hear the emperor say this again.

She hung her head and didn't dare to look at the expressions of the Queen Mother and the Emperor. After the emperor said this, the Empress Dowager Shengci was silent for a long time, and the hall was so quiet that you could hear a needle dropping.

The emperor continued, "Without the prince of the garden, the empress is not satisfied with me. There have been three people, such as Prince Cheng, Prince Xian and Prince Yi, who have been raised in front of her, Prince Cheng has no biological mother and foreign relatives, and Prince Xian has a cowardly and docile temperament, and he is stronger than me. At that time, the queen was more interested in the prince of Xian, and the people of the Chen family had already asked him to be appointed as the prince, but there was no room for change between me and the queen, and there was no impermeable wall in the world. Even if it's not for the sake of saving, just to save my life, I can't lose. Qingyuan has a deep affection for me, with her talent and beauty, there are many people in the palace and outside the palace who admire her like a carp crossing the river, but she favors me alone...... We didn't have much chance to meet at the time, and even when we did, we didn't have a chance to say anything. But even when I looked at her from afar in the crowd, I felt an indescribable joy in my heart—but I couldn't marry her. ”

Xiao Dong is already going to be stupid.

Qingyuan? Isn't Qingyuan just ...... Her mother?

Xiao Dong had guessed before that maybe there was an unspeakable love entanglement between the emperor and her mother, as well as King An, and he laughed at his whimsical being too ridiculous. But I didn't expect that the emperor was really ......

She stood there in a daze, listening to the emperor's voice, which was even lower than just now: "I want to marry the daughter of the Li family, Qingyuan came to me before I got married, said goodbye to me, said that she didn't blame me, and wished me good luck and peace and well." I watched her walk and climbed up to the pavilion to look into the distance. I wanted to rush out and chase her back......"

The situation seemed to be spreading out in front of him, and the long palace road was empty and silent in all directions. As a teenager, the emperor watched his beloved drift away, despair like a rope around his neck, tightening little by little until he could no longer breathe.

You can't speak, you can't shout, you can't cry, you can't stay......

The Empress Dowager Shengci's voice trembled a little: "You have always been healthy, but before you got married, you had that serious illness, it turned out that the illness was for her ......"

However, why did Yao Qingyuan marry King An a few years later?

Xiao Dong was terrified, but he couldn't suppress his doubts.

She quietly looked up at the Emperor.

The emperor did not look like his usual majesty, and his face was a little pale. At this time, he looked like Wang An was a brother, more similar.

"After all, my father is in my ...... But when I became the emperor, I still have to live by looking at the face of the Empress Dowager Shotoku. The queen mother will be oppressed by her. The harem is controlled by her, she has to intervene in the government, and she has to ask about the affairs of her brother's house. If it weren't for this, Princess Shen would not have died so early. After so many years, I have endured it, and my mother and younger brother have also endured it, and looking back, every step is wounded and bloody. ”

Where the emperor was sitting, the light did not shine directly on him, and Xiao Dong felt as if his whole body and the shadow were about to melt together.

Cold sweat gradually oozed from her back, and it was cold. Although the weather was getting warmer, it was hot and dry when she came just now, but it was cool and empty when she entered the Zichen Palace, and that little bit of heat had already turned into cold, she was a little in a trance, and she only felt that what she heard in her ears was extremely unreal.

- And, it seems, there are even more fatal words, slowly floating from the deep waters of time.

"The Li family helped you, but what she did, could the emperor not have seen or heard, and didn't pursue it?"

Lee's? Empress?

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I wrote a thousand before and I don't think it's good. Deleted the rewritten ......

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