I sighed: "I know that you also have a good impression of me, and even like me, but this kind of shallow affection is not enough for you to give me a reciprocal response, so you have always been like me in the past twelve years, so I have never been able to let go of you...... Right? ”

"I didn't!" Shen Yu hurriedly retorted, "I have clearly refused your confession several times. My attitude is very clear to you. ”

I almost didn't feel embarrassed to crash to death on the table. The second law of licking the dog really came into effect - it always combines the three major illusions of life: first, the phone vibrates, second, someone knocks on the door, and third, she likes me. Licking a dog always feels good about itself, but it's really just someone else's food.

"Isn't what I just said too straightforward? But I really didn't leave you. She looked at me blankly and asked again. She didn't care to explain this sentence, but as soon as she opened her mouth, I was furious.

"Yes, you rejected me." I heard her so anxious to clear up our relationship, and I couldn't help it for a while, and finally it all exploded.

"But when did you not answer the call I gave you? Which of the text messages I sent you, but you didn't reply?

"You know that I am dead set on you, and I will not give up easily because of your refusal, but you still keep correlating with me and giving me hope - isn't this hanging on me?

"You're like hanging a carrot in front of a donkey, and the donkey keeps chasing after it, right? Isn't it cruel to treat me like a donkey? ”

The more I talked, the more angry I became, the more I talked, the more excited I became, and the more I talked, the more I wanted to squirt.

"I'm not made of cement, my heart is also fleshy, and my heart will be like a knife when I feel uncomfortable!" My eyes were red, and I gritted my teeth and tried desperately to hold back tears, trying to maintain the last of my dignity in front of her.

"Twelve years! It's been twelve years! How many times have I wanted to give up, and you have to care about it again.

"How many times have I been so excited that I couldn't sleep all night, just because you said a few more words to me - yes, you rejected me, but you didn't alienate me, you didn't have a boyfriend, so I couldn't get it and couldn't let go!

"Tell me with your conscience, what are you!

"It's like I'm stuck in a mud puddle, I can't pull my legs, and I don't know when it's going to end! I'm going to suffocate! ”

I pulled my hair hysterically and screamed at her in pain.

I remembered one more thing, no, I still have to spray!

"The day you had your car accident, I was so nervous! Later, the doctor said to me, you have prepared a pair of rings, I am sad and happy! I'm sad, I'm afraid you won't wake up, I'm happy, I feel like there's finally an echo! Even if you didn't mention it later, I thought it was because girls tend to be shy.

"But yesterday you actually said that everything you did was to pity me! Hahaha! What am I? Is it just a joke! A complete joke, right? "I couldn't help myself with spasms.

"You ......" Shen Yu looked at me with a pale face, looking shocked.

After a while, she muttered, "I suddenly understand one thing, why did God divide me into two people?" I'm afraid it's just to pay off debts - I didn't lie to you, I've had a certain degree of lack of affection since I was a child, a lack of affection, friendship and love.

"When I grew up, it's not like I didn't go to the doctor, but you know, modern medicine is a little powerless against viruses, let alone psychological problems that can't be seen and touched. The doctor was also strange, but he couldn't change that either.

"You have always been good to me, I know it in my heart, it is as clear as standing on a tall building and seeing the lights of thousands of homes. I tried to respond, but I couldn't concentrate. I'm really, really frustrated in this regard.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know it would be like this. You will always look so peaceful, so carefree. She bowed solemnly to me, "Apologies may seem too shallow for you, but I still have to say, I'm sorry."

"But one thing I want to tell you is that I never used you as a spare tire, I used myself as your spare tire - I do have psychological problems right now and can't fall in love with you, but I don't fall in love with anyone else but you.

"If you have a heart and fall in love with another girl, even if that girl is a twin with me, I have carefully considered it, I am willing to accept it, and I will not hinder your happiness.

"Since you mentioned the ring, I can tell you that the ring was not bought on those days, I actually bought it not long after returning to China, and then I always took it with me, not for anything else, just for a certain day and a certain moment of a certain year, when I suddenly have emotions, when I suddenly like someone, I will wear the ring on your hand for the first time, regardless of it......"

I looked at Shen Yu blankly, not knowing what to say.

She had never said anything like that, and I never knew what was going on in her heart. But when I heard her say so much in one breath, my nose was inexplicably sore, and tears poured out of my sockets, and I swirled on my eyes with the tension of the liquid.

"You also said yesterday that you will fulfill me and Hua Fei'......"

“…… That's really my selfish thinking. "I don't know when I'm going to get better, I've lost my confidence." But when I think of you coming together with others in the future, my heart is inexplicably empty. I thought afterwards that if you could really be with that woman, maybe it wouldn't be a bad thing, because if you look at it that way, you'll still be by my side. ”

After Shen Yu finished saying this, he was silent for a moment, looked at me again, and said firmly: "I have already said it thoroughly today, then now that I have changed my mind, I must tell you that if I have someone I want to love and someone who wants to get married, you must be the first choice!" As for the woman, let her wait behind me first! ”

I looked at her in amazement. I can't say what I feel in my heart, it seems to be sour and astringent, bitter and sweet, but in any case, it is a hundred times better than being numb to no taste.

"I said that yesterday, in addition to being selfish, I also feel that it is unfair to you in the long run, because I can't respond to that deep emotion, and I don't know why, when I just 'woke up' that day, I had a fire in my heart for some reason, as if I had to say a few uncomfortable words to you.

"But for so long, you are the only man I should like," Shen Yu seemed a little embarrassed to say such a sensual thing, her eyes fluttered and she didn't dare to look at me, "It's also the man I should still like now." ”

The adverb "should" seems to be a little awkward to use here. But in any case, this is Shen Yu's approval of me after all.

It seems that her attitude towards me in the middle of the night is fake, and this attitude is true, although this may also be one of the three major illusions in life.

But my heart still beat wildly involuntarily, as if a spring breeze was blowing in my face, and my whole heart was soaked in the warm hot spring.

I couldn't help but hug Shen Yu.

"Oops, what are you doing?!"

Shen Yu pushed me hard, but her struggles grew weaker and weaker until she stopped moving.

All of a sudden, we were quiet, and the restaurant seemed to be quiet, and the whole world was silent.