I suddenly hate talking, not because I'm angry but I really don't want to say it, and my social interaction is the same, can you not force me to socialize, I hate this feeling. The restless mood can affect me at any time, because poor sleep causes the recurrence of anxiety disorder, which can be completely stopped now, but now it is unstable, so please don't ask me why I have a relapse, because I don't know the reason, I can't vent my emotions, sometimes when I laugh awkwardly in front of people, I know it's going to be annoying, but try to be happy, I can't do the same as a normal person. Because of my differences, I always habitually run away. Get used to locking yourself in your own world because of the quiet.

Today, the doctor said that I was using the best medicine, and it was impossible to have a problem of poor sleep, but I still had it.

Ah Yu always said that he was worried about my situation, but I think that I and you are both half a catty and eight taels, that is, I have individual phenomena that are different from everyone else.

If the mood will get better, it must be that there is an important person around me who is guiding me, not giving up on me, understanding is more important than guiding, because most of the time what I need is affirmation and recognition, normal people think these are not a big deal, but for me it is different

March 2

Some emotions are sudden, and I can't resist this uncomfortable feeling, I've been myself, trusting everyone, but these trusts have turned into hurt, and the people who are ridiculous, sad, and sad are you and myself. I've always had me in my little world, and I've had others walk in. At the same time, I am grateful to some people for teaching me how to be hypocritical and artificial, this society is inherently dark, it relies on people's own innermost thoughts, and when all the best and sunniest ideas come together, they break through the darkness, and the darkness can only be hidden in the inner world of man. It is still oneself that motivates them, and external forces are only a driving force.

I never planned to give up on myself, I can work hard to change my mind, no one cares about it, it doesn't matter, I care about people or things, and there are very few things that really come true, and at the same time, disappointment is greater than hope is luxury, luxury for you, you, you, so tired, every time I get myself covered with injuries, so I don't dare to extravagant,

I know the changes in the past few years, a girl who doesn't smile in her eyes, the photos taken are all ugly, trying to learn the feeling of laughing again, accepting the outside world, it's really unbearable for me now,

Don't force me, because what I want is not for the people around me to force me to do it, to accept it. I'm sorry, but the more you push me, the more I reject the current state of life

March 7