Today is the Lantern Festival on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, and I will return to school early tomorrow morning, and I won't be able to see Liu Cen for a few months. Just after dinner (local custom, the New Year's festival generally eats two meals, before ten o'clock in the morning and before four o'clock in the afternoon), Zeng Ziqing hurriedly came to the small river that was agreed, I don't know why I went home this winter vacation, I always felt that Liu Cen seemed to be a little wrong, and her eyes drifted unconsciously, and there seemed to be no inexplicable feelings, which made Zeng Ziqing a little panicked, and I didn't know what Liu Cen was thinking. Zeng Ziqing thought about it this time, he must let him tell his heart today, and he can't be separated for a few months with suspicion.

Liu Cen came earlier than her, sitting on the bank of the river, looking at the other bank motionless, there was a big cardboard box next to him, the afterglow of the sunset was quietly sprinkled on him, such a soft picture Ziqing read a kind of loneliness, and his eyes became sour. After a moment of silence, she quietly walked behind his back and put her arms around him.

"Qingqing, you're here. Cold or not? ”

"It's not cold, I thought Brother Cen was going to turn into a stone man? Brother Cen, if you want to become a stone man, it will not be a Wangfu Stone, but a Wangfu Stone. After Ziqing finished speaking, she realized that there was something wrong with her words, and her face turned red. Fortunately, Liu Cen didn't know what to think and didn't care.

Seeing this, Ziqing stretched out her cool hand and put it into Liu Cen's neck.

"I'm naughty again, my ass is itchy."

When they were young, Zeng Ziqing and Liu Cen lived next to each other, and the relationship between the two families has always been very good. Liu Cen is four years older than Ziqing, and Ziqing has been following Liu Cen behind the call of "Brother Cen, Brother Cen". Later, Liu Cen's family moved away from their original location and arrived in the county seat first, and Ziqing's family also came a few years later. This long-distance relationship began after Ziqing graduated from high school, and the two only had the opportunity to be together during the holidays, and now Liu Cen has graduated from college and is wandering alone in Shanghai, while Ziqing is still studying in a provincial capital not far from her hometown, and she will graduate in half a year.

"Come, Qingqing, let's see what good things Brother Cen brought you today?"

"Ah, fireworks, such big fireworks, just for me? It's too expensive. Although she was very happy, Ziqing knew that such a big box of fireworks would cost seven or eight hundred, which was enough for her food expenses for a month. No way, a layman.

"It's okay, I want you to have an unforgettable Lantern Festival. Later, later。。。。。。 ”

"What's going to happen after that?"

"It's nothing, when the sun goes down and the moon comes up, Brother Cen will show you the most beautiful fireworks."

"Brother Cen, do you have something to hide from me? Is there a problem encountered? ”

Liu Cen stood up and took Ziqing's hand, "Walk with me by the river, I've been sitting here for a long time." ”

"Okay."

In the early spring in the south, there is still a lot of green in the ground, and there is a warm moisture in the air, with the fragrance of wild grass, and the smell is still very pleasant.

"Qingqing, you will graduate in half a year, right? Ever wondered what to do after graduation? ”

"I thought about it, after graduation, I will go to Shanghai to find you, find a job, and then we will work together to earn money, save money, buy a house, and live a happy life from now on."

"Silly girl, don't you like big cities?"

"I don't like it, but you like it."

"Then you can't be wronged just because I like it. Think about it, what do you want to do the most? ”

"What do I want to do most? I said, don't laugh at me. ”

"Okay, no joke."

"I want to build a big house similar to a courtyard house in Beijing in a place with beautiful mountains and rivers, and have an orchard and a vegetable field. Be a simple and happy rice worm. ”

"Hey, your dream seems simple, but it's not easy to do. People are always tired of life, lose their own nature, and many times, they don't know what they want? ”

"I know, I don't want much. I was a simple person. ”

"Qingqing,"

"Huh?"

"Qingqing, you are a good girl, listening to Brother Cen, you will definitely live the life you want."

"But that's not what you want, is it?"

"Qingqing, I, I have something to say to you."

"I know, I will accompany you to Shanghai, I am not afraid of hardship, we work together, we will slowly get better in the future, you will always be by my side, right?" Ziqing hurriedly said.

"Qingqing, how can I bear it? In the past few years in Shanghai, it has been really hard, especially in the first two years, I kept changing jobs, kept moving, and several times, I almost gave up, but I was not reconciled. Every time I couldn't hold on, I thought that my years of hard work would not be in vain, and my family was still looking at me, so I gritted my teeth and survived again. It was only in the past two years that my work stabilized. Forget it, don't talk about that. I mean, it's better for you to stay in your hometown, at least, there are parents here, there are families. I don't want you to work so hard out there. ”

"But there's no you here."

"I, I've found the right person for me, Qingqing, I'm sorry."

"You mean I'm not for you. Then why are you telling me now? We haven't been together for a day or two, we have grown up together since childhood, so many years, you don't know what kind of character I have? Just now to say I'm not for you? Ziqing shouted at Liu Cen.

"Qingqing, you know I didn't mean that. I, I mean I've now found one that works better for me. In the future, you can also meet someone who is more suitable for you than me, so you don't have to follow me to suffer, and I am reluctant to let you suffer. ”

"Sure enough, it's a man's logic, if he doesn't love it, he can't let me suffer, so he sends me away. And what about her? Are you willing to let her suffer? I guess she won't let you suffer. Ziqing's words were a little mean, usually, she would not speak like this, in Liu Cen's heart, she has always been well-behaved and sensible.

Damn, why are you so sensible, why do you tell the truth of the facts so sensitively, why do you cruelly expose the ugliness of human nature, why can't you deceive yourself? Liu Cen has always been gentle and elegant in Ziqing's heart, with a strong bookish flavor, when did he become strange?

I don't know when the moon crept up quietly, holding a layer of faint yellow halo, adding a warmth, but this warmth could not reach Ziqing's heart. Many years later, Ziqing still remembers the moon this night, warm but cold.

Zeng Ziqing has never been a person who drags mud and water, she is used to seeing too many parts and combinations, and she also knows that whether it is a man or a woman, love is love, and there is no reason. Only if you don't love will you find all kinds of excuses, and no matter what kind of excuse you have, you will never return to the sweetness you used to be.

"Let's go, Brother Cen, didn't you say that you bought fireworks and set them off?"

"Qingqing, you, I'm sorry. Okay, let's go with fireworks. ”

Beautiful fireworks, dazzling and short-lived, remember who said that beautiful things are short-lived, such as youth, such as love, such as life, so you must know how to cherish it. Under the bright fireworks, there are wet faces and tearful smiles. Liu Cen's heartstrings were plucked, and he wanted to say something, but he finally held back.

"Brother Cen, goodbye." Ziqing said softly.

"Goodbye, Qingqing. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I know that this sentence is too light and can't make up for the harm I have done to you, but, apart from this sentence, at this moment, I really can't find a more suitable word to express my apologies, and I don't dare to say anything to ask for your forgiveness or not, after all, hurt is hurt. ”

"I know, Brother Cen, I don't blame you. I know you're not feeling good either, this holiday, I'm afraid you're thinking about how to say this. In fact, many times, I can see that you are absent-minded, and I thought it was because of work. It's just, I didn't expect it to be this, I'm sorry to make you embarrassed, it's me who is not good enough, so I can't stand by your side. Not in the future, goodbye, Brother Cen. Ziqing said.

"Nonsense, Ziqing, I don't allow you to say this about yourself, you know that this is not the case. It's my fault that I'm not good enough to give you the rich and leisurely life I want to give you. ”

"Brother Cen, don't be like this, love is love, if you don't love, you don't love, no matter how many excuses you have, it's just an excuse, I want to go home."

"Then, let's go, I'll take you home." Liu Cen habitually came to pull Ziqing's hand.

"Don't bother, I'll go back by myself, so be it." Ziqing put her hand in her own pocket.

Liu Cen reacted suddenly, sighed in his heart, and said: "Qingqing, don't be like this, no matter how bad it is, I am also your brother Cen, let me send you home, it's too late, it's not safe on the road, in case something happens, how can you make me feel at ease?" Be obedient and come home with me. ”

Ziqing thought about it, and it was indeed the case, so she no longer insisted on it, followed Liu Cen, and stopped fifty meters away from the door of her house.

Ziqing stretched out her right hand, and the two waved goodbye. Ziqing watched Liu Cen's back getting farther and farther away, more and more blurred, Ziqing silently thought in her heart: "Goodbye, my youth, my love, goodbye, Brother Cen, no matter what you remember, forget it, it's best not to see each other in this life." Says who? People who love each other can't get along with each other, so it's better to choose to forget each other. I believe that there will be such a person waiting for me ahead, not seeking wealth and glory, as long as he knows me and understands me, loves me, and tolerates me. ”