Bai Ling, who suddenly suffered the pain of losing her husband, was hit hard mentally. She didn't eat water and rice for a day, which crushed her spirit and exhausted her physical strength.

She told herself that she still had her elderly mother to take care of at home, and that she must not collapse. She supported her numb body and returned to her home, but she didn't expect that her biological mother, who had been living with her for a long time, would say goodbye and leave at this critical moment.

Faced with the empty home, the grief in Bai Ling's heart could no longer be concealed and endured. Bai Ling cried loudly: "Ming, my good husband, I'm sorry for you." Ming, I've made you suffer. Ming, you shouldn't leave me alone......"

"Mom, your heart is so biased, your heart is so ruthless. For the sake of mother-daughter affection, I tried my best to forget everything in the past, forget my miserable childhood, and forget that my mother had left countless handmarks, foot marks, and scolding marks on my young body. For the sake of mother-daughter affection, my husband and I have lived a long life of separation. Why do you have to stick another knife in my heart at the critical moment, and I will become the water spilled by the married girl? ”……

"You are still my own mother, and your heart for your own daughter is still so ruthless, if you are a stepmother, what will your heart be like? I only understand your heart now, you are going to make me worse than dead. Why is your heart like a bandit? ”

Suddenly, a voice sounded in my ears: "You're right, I don't want children to ......"

Bai Ling was suddenly stunned. Today, she seems to have a new understanding of this sentence: the mother is extremely selfish, giving birth to a child, but she has no maternal love for her own child. I don't even want to have children, am I more selfish? In addition to the deep pain hidden in the bottom of my heart, is it my mother's selfishness, which is not only inherited from herself, but also takes root and grows in her own body? Will your heart be more vicious than your mother's?

There was a past that flashed in Bai Ling's heart.

Fang Ming's colleagues gathered at night, and those who got married brought their spouses. Workers who are tired from a long day want to spend a happy night. A man who had drunk alcohol began to talk about the mountains. He stood up, holding his glass in his hand, as if a leader announced his decision: "If a person does not want to start a family, and if he does not want to have children, he should be expelled from the ranks of the state civil service......"

"Why is that?" Doubts were immediately raised.

I just heard him say, "If a person does not marry and have children, he has no sense of family responsibility." He has only himself in mind, and this is an extremely selfish person, an irresponsible person.

"A country is a big 'home'. You are not even willing to take on the responsibilities and obligations of a small family, can you still do a good job in the affairs of a big family? ”

As soon as his words landed, he immediately attracted a round of applause. Not only the people at the same table applauded him, but also the guests at other tables on the side. There were also a few who expressed the opposite view.

The wine table was originally a place for lawsuits, and when there was no argument, there were people who deliberately threw out the topic of argument. When there is an argument, there are also people who will fan the flames and make the argument more intense, all for the sake of having fun.

However, this point of view touches Bai Ling deeply.

Bai Ling, who suffered the pain of losing her husband, was in a trance and was already in a state of numbness to the outside world. I should have cooked some food for myself first, people are iron, rice is steel, and I don't panic from hunger at a meal. She didn't know what to do when she didn't eat water for a day. Suddenly, there was a sharp knock on the door.

Who could it be? Mother has the key in her hand. Bai Ling's brain makes mechanical deductions, and people mechanically want to stand up, but their limbs do not obey commands. She struggled to her feet, top-heavy, holding the dresser with her hands on the wall and raising her legs under the guise of a stagger. She felt that her two feet weighed as much as a thousand pounds, and she looked like a patient with cerebral thrombosis, and her feet were moving against the ground. Only then did she see that the key in her mother's hand had been placed on the dresser.

"It must be the mother who is back again, it must be the mother-daughter relationship." Bai Ling comforted herself.

Bai Ling stiffened her body and went to open the door. When I opened the door, I saw that it was my cousin Shanshan. Shanshan wiped the endless tears on her face with her hands.

As soon as Shanshan opened her mouth to call out for sister, Bai Ling fell into Shanshan's arms and lost consciousness. Exactly how long it has passed, she doesn't know.

"Cousin, cousin......"

Bai Ling heard a very small and faint voice, a very distant voice, which was as small as a mosquito humming, and then it was as far away as if it came from the sky, from another planet......

"Cousin, cousin......"

The voice grew louder and louder, as if it was running towards itself. Bai Ling finally opened her red and swollen eyes.

"Cousin, let's eat first. You're afraid you haven't eaten for a day." Shanshan said, pointing to the rice bowl on the dresser.

"Shanshan, you? ……”

"Cousin, you eat first, and I will accompany you to eat." Shanshan handed the rice bowl to Bai Ling.

Only then did Bai Ling see that in her bowl of noodle soup, in addition to noodles, there were two eggs wrapped in it. And in Shanshan's bowl, there was only thin noodle soup.

"Shanshan, my sister really can't eat it."

"Sister, if you can't eat, you have to eat. Now, you can't collapse. If you collapse, my brother-in-law will be distressed......"

Shanshan said this, and the tears rolled down in strings.

"Shanshan, why are you here?"

"Cousin, these days, I've been unsettled, and I always feel like something is wrong. Especially today, I don't want to do anything, I can't sit, I can't stand. Suddenly, my mom called. She asked me, Shanshan, have you seen Sister Ling recently?

I thought about it for a while and said, "Mom, I haven't seen Sister Ling for a while."

You should go and see your sister Ling now. I feel very bad right now. Listen to the voice, and you know that my mother is already crying.

"Mom, don't be upset. I'm going to see Sister Ling now. "I came in a hurry.

"Cousin, Bailong Baihu is on the way."

"You told them?"

"Cousin, you told them. You only said half a sentence. They called me again. ”

On this night, five people, including my brother, sister-in-law, and cousin, accompanied Bai Ling. The phone at home rang non-stop.

Shanshan is my aunt's daughter.

Aunt aunt, aunt is also a mother. Since my father's death, my aunt has been very close to my siblings.

I left my hometown to work. My aunt often came to visit me at the factory and often brought me souvenirs and mountain goods. My colleagues often think of my aunt as my own mother.

My aunt's in-laws are in the mountains. It has beautiful mountains and rivers, beautiful women, and is a tourist area under development. My aunt's appearance and character let the locals know that there are also beautiful women outside the mountains, but they have much more knowledge and experience than them. Therefore, the aunt who married into the mountains is quite popular with the local villagers.

The aunt also likes girls. When she found out that she was pregnant with a girl, my aunt was very happy and hoped that she would be born soon. As a result, she refused to come, and her aunt named her Shanshan. Take the meaning of long overdue.

Shanshan grew up and went out of the mountains to work. Although I am in the same city, the two units are also more than ten miles apart. We are always in close contact. No matter what happens to Shanshan, I am always the first person to tell her. Even looking for a partner is no exception, and the blind date is for me to accompany and make a decision.

The two fell in love at first sight.

"Shanshan, what more do you want from me? Any comments? "The man is sincere. The cousin said, "I don't".

"Then you agreed to marry me? The man continued to ask with confidence.

Shanshan lowered her head, blushed, and whispered, "You go and ask my sister." ”

"This is your personal matter, how can I ask my sister?" The lad is not open.

"My sister has the final say." Shanshan whispered.

The young man set his eyes on me. I had to speak.

"Young man, why are you so unenlightened? Shanshan promised you a long time ago. Shanshan grew up in a deep ravine, and her thinking is very traditional and conservative, and it is even more difficult for you to let her say the three words I agree with than to ascend to the sky. ”

When the young man heard this, he jumped three feet high. Patting himself on the head and saying, "I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid, I'm so breathless." Shanshan, I thank you. He immediately hugged Shanshan into his arms, Shanshan, don't you think I'm stupid? ”

Shanshan blushed and broke free from the young man's embrace, and crawled on my shoulder with a red face and smiled happily.

The young man suddenly took out his camera: "Sister, let's take a group photo." I'm going to record this beautiful moment. I want to put this beautiful moment in the family album and accompany me to old age. ”

I stood in the middle, two of them, one holding one of my hands, with an auto-camera camera, recording the unforgettable moment.

When I was at my worst, my cousin Shanshan came to me first. My brother and sister-in-law also hurried to my side when they heard the news. There are also best friends Fangfang, girlfriends in the same room, Lao Qi and Lao Jiu. This is the aunt and uncle, this is the sisterhood and brotherhood, family affection, friendship, love, and care blended together......

In accordance with Ming's wishes, Ming's body was sent away.

My cousin and sister-in-law still have to go to work. As soon as they left, my aunt came to me. Fangfang, Lao Qi, Lao Jiu, came to accompany me in a marquee, and bought me the necessities of life, in my refrigerator and kitchen, all kinds of fruits and vegetables are full. Needless to say, they wanted me to come out of my grief as soon as possible, admit the reality, face the reality, and be strong to continue to live.

"Fangfang, let's eat here at noon. You can still buy this dish. As soon as the aunt who was cooking heard that Fangfang was leaving, she hurriedly greeted and stopped her.

"Auntie, another day. I still have guests in my house today. ”

Bai Ling sent Fangfang away and gently closed the door. As soon as he turned around, a sudden gust of wind blew the door open, almost knocking Bai Ling to the ground.

The scene in front of her brought Ling's thoughts back to eight years ago......