Fanwai 001 Yuan Niang's dream

Forty-nine years of Longqing, winter.

The goose-feathered snow poured down all night, and the streets, rooftops, and small courtyards were covered with a thick layer of snow-white blankets.

"Ahem... Ahem......"

A few hoarse coughs suddenly came from the low room, and then a gray-haired woman pushed open the window covered with dilapidated window paper, looked at the small courtyard that had become a world of ice and snow, and muttered, "It's snowing?" Is it winter again? ”

The cold wind blew, and the woman shivered with coldness, hurriedly closed the window, wrapped the quilt that exposed the cotton wool on her body, and shouted loudly, "Xiu'er, bring me a cup of hot water." Xiu'er~~ Did you hear it, Xiu'er! ”

The woman was so easy to warm up, and shouted at the top of her voice for a long time, but she didn't see her maid coming, and she secretly wondered if this dead girl had overslept again, alas, the girl she picked up halfway was not good, and she couldn't do anything but eat.

The woman scolded a few words angrily, grabbed her clothes and put them on randomly, then put on a big wool cloak and pushed open the door to the hut on the other side, kicked the door hard, and continued to shout: "Xiu'er, Xiu'er, it's dawn, the sun is going to dry your buttocks, you dead girl can't get up?" Why, you still want me to serve you? ”

The woman "clattered" and kicked the door, but the room was still silent, and there was not even a reply.

How? Something happened to this girl? Frozen to death in the house or ......

The woman wrinkled her brows, her emaciated sallow face covered with frost, ran to the woodroom beside her, took a sickle, inserted it into the crack of the door, and opened the latch.

Pushing open the door, a damp and moldy smell suddenly hit, and the woman didn't care to cover her nose and mouth, and hurried to the simple bed, but the bed was empty, and the old bedding was neatly folded, not even a wrinkle. She probed the thin mattress on the kang, it was cold!

Then, as if thinking of something, the woman came to the red-painted wardrobe, opened the door, and the closet was empty.

The woman's hand gripping the door tightened, and the back of her pale and flabby hand was covered with green tendons.

The situation could not be clearer, her only maid finally could not bear the hunger and cold, and preferred to be a fugitive slave at the risk of being caught, and ran out overnight.

“…… Little slut, I saved your life, but you treat me like this, aren't you afraid of thunder and thunder? Pander to? Aha? The woman's facial features were distorted, and her heart was even more miserable, and after a few roars, there was a strange sound in her throat, like crying and laughing, she sat down on the ground, looked at the suffocating courtyard, and grinned her thin lips that had lost their blood, "Ah? Ha... Hahaha... Zhao Yuanniang, you, you also have today, huh? Haha, hahaha, even the beggars who picked it up are going to abandon you, you are really a failure! Ah~~"

The woman cried and laughed almost frantically, and there was a light in front of her.

……

My name is Zhao Yuanniang.

The woman sat in front of the red lacquer carved dressing table, quietly looking at the woman in the silver mirror, her focused appearance, as if admiring a work of art. It's a pity that this work of art is a little different: the gray hair is casually pulled into a bun, revealing a forehead full of wrinkles, the eyelids are drooping, and a pair of originally beautiful almond eyes have been turned into triangular eyes, a straight nose, sunken cheeks, dry and dull skin, miserable white lips habitually bent downward, and the corners of the mouth are fine wrinkles......

I am Chinese New Year's Eve.

A hint of mockery flashed in the woman's eyes, and her thin hands like chicken feet gently stroked the white hair on her temples, "Heh, there are all white hairs." "No matter how you look at it, the woman in the mirror looks like an old woman in her fifties and sixties.

My father is Zhao Tianqing, the son of the president of the famous Confucian Chamber of Commerce, and my mother is from the Taiyuan Wang family, one of the five nobles, and her husband's family is the eldest young master of the Su family, the richest man in Kangcheng.

Through the refraction of the mirror, the woman coldly glanced at the empty bedroom, the damp, green mold-stained walls, the red-painted wardrobe, and ...... His eyes swept around, and finally fell on the woman opposite the mirror, with a yellow face and thin muscles, an embarrassed demeanor, and shabby clothes, just like all poor women, because of perennial suffering and malnutrition, she was decrepit before she was old!

I am the most beautiful bride in Cannes, and I am more beautiful than my father-in-law's love for him who redeemed him from the Qinglou.

The woman opened the powder on the dressing table and dipped the puff in some pearl powder and applied it to her face. It is worthy of the pearl powder that was popular fifteen years ago, and the effect is still good after so many years. The woman nodded with satisfaction, picked out some rouge with a hairpin and put it in the palm of her hand, dipped it with her right index finger, and wiped it evenly on her lips, and then rubbed her hands lightly against the palm, blurred the remaining rouge in her palm, and gently patted it on her cheeks.

After taking a closer look in the mirror, the woman regained some confidence from her face with glamorous makeup, and smiled lightly at the woman who was not in her prime in the mirror, the white powder at the corners of her eyes and mouth cracked a few faint lines, and her smile was extremely stiff. The woman's eyes glistened with tears, and she said to herself, "Is this still me?!" ”

How? Don't you believe it?!

After applying her makeup, the woman put on her best clothes, put on the most precious jewelry, felt for a piece of broken porcelain, and made a strong cut on her left wrist, and warm blood gushed out. The woman breathed in pain, got up and lay down quietly by the bed, folded her hands in front of her, and let the blood on her wrists flow.

Well, since you don't believe me, I'll tell you my story.

……

I was born in the capital and have lived with my wife, oh, my grandmother, for as long as I can remember. As for my mother, I rarely see her. Don't get me wrong, my mother is not my father's concubine, nor is she from a bad background, on the contrary, my mother Wang was born with five surnames and seven wangs, a prominent family background, and a noble bloodline.

The reason why I was taken away by my wife was because my mother was too cowardly.

I can't remember the first few times, but I looked impatiently at the cowering woman in front of me, a woman who was nominally my mother, but who had not supported me for half a day.

"Xiaoya, how are you doing? Did the people snub you? Is Mrs. good to you? Is there anything you'd like to eat? Just tell your mother, mother—" My mother, dressed in a half-worn skirt, crouched carefully in front of me, staring at me with both eyes as if she were afraid that I would disappear if I missed a mistake. The tone is even more doting, and absolute love.

It's a pity that I was still young at that time, and I couldn't appreciate this feeling called 'mother's love', not only did I appreciate it, but I was tired of dying, and I said angrily: "I'm very good, my wife loves me, who dares to snub me?" Besides, what do I want to eat, can my mother buy it? "I remember people saying that my mother's things were kept by others, and she had almost no money on her except for her monthly money.

"Yes, of course you can, what does the little girl want to eat?"

My mother was not angry at my disrespect, but asked me what I wanted to eat with a glint in her eyes.

"Well, I heard Sister Yinqiao say that there is a 'Fengji Dried Fruit' in Dongshi, and their candied fruit is particularly delicious." I didn't take my mother's words seriously, and said casually.

"Okay, I know, Ming'er's mother will let people buy it!"

The mother was very happy, nodded again and again, and a pair of ruby pendants on her ears swayed back and forth vividly.

A few days later, my mother quietly touched my door again, and stuffed me with a bag of things like a baby, "Little girl, eat." ”

I was amazed, apparently having forgotten what had happened a few days ago.

"This is the candied fruit of Fengji, with apples and dates, they are all the best." Mother said while looking at the movement outside, when she heard someone talking, she hurriedly flashed to the side, and after a few girls walked over with a smile, she came to me again, touched the top of my head with pity, and said, "Little girl, do you have anything else you want to eat or play?" ”

I shook my head in a daze, and inadvertently noticed that my mother's ears were bare, and the pair of ruby pendants were missing.

Later, when I was about six years old, my mother suddenly disappeared. I heard people whispering that her mother killed the younger brother in Aunt Su's womb and was kicked out of the house by her father. A few days later, news came that her mother had died, and the people said that it was retribution because she had also had a miscarriage and had died of excessive blood loss.

Only Mama Zhao, crying and shouting, said that her mother was wronged and killed, and her father kicked her mother to miscarry, and she was locked up in the Zhuangzi in the side courtyard, with no food to drink, no medicine, and no one to serve, and her mother was only found on the third day after her death. The hut where the mother was being held was covered in blood, and there were scratches on the locked door......

Later, Mama Zhao also disappeared, and his wife said that she was taken back to her hometown by her son to care for the elderly.

When Mama Zhao was leaving, she handed me a box and a dozen deeds of sale, saying that it was the last thought left to me by my mother.

In the third month after my mother left, my father, who was supposed to mourn for a year, married a new grandmother. This person is not an outsider, it is my grandmother's maiden niece, who said that she was not worried about me, and she was worried that my father would marry someone with a foreign surname and break the relationship between the two families.

I didn't understand it at the time, but when I grew up, I realized that if the two families wanted to continue to marry, why not marry my mother's sister or cousin, but my grandmother's niece's niece. Isn't the Zheng family also a foreign surname other than the Zhao and Wang families?!

Later, I learned that my grandmother was my mother's stepmother and had always disliked my mother; The new grandmother Zheng brought a large dowry to Beijing, and her father was short of money to start a business.

See, in front of all interests, rules and etiquette are worthless.

Zheng became my stepmother, she treated me very well, not only took me back to the peony garden to live, but also specially selected several little maids to play with me. One day, I saw my uncle's cousin studying, so I quietly watched outside the door for a long time, and I wanted to go in and read along. When my stepmother found out, she told me: She is a concubine, you are a noble eldest daughter, and if you study with her, it is a very identious thing.

After that, my stepmother relaxed her requirements for me and let a few little maids play with me in different ways, so much so that I forgot to ask, why can a lowly concubine study, but I, a noble concubine, don't even know my own name?!

In the second month after the stepmother passed the door, Aunt Su had a miscarriage again, and it is said that her mother's previous roommate Zi Su was poisoned. My father was very angry and said that he would sell the perilla hair. Unexpectedly, Shisu found out that she was pregnant, so her stepmother came forward to help her intercede and leave her to live in a small courtyard in the peony garden.

Shisu is very grateful to her stepmother, and in the blink of an eye, she becomes her stepmother's confidant.

Not long after, my stepmother specially called me and asked my mother if she had handed me the deeds of sale of those descendants from the Wang family. I nodded. The stepmother also said that those people left their hometown and followed their mother to the capital, and now that my mother has gone, they also want to go back to the king's house and ask me if I can redeem myself.

I didn't know what self-redemption was, but thinking that my stepmother was very good to me and wouldn't harm me, I generously took out those deeds of sale and exchanged them for a hundred taels of silver tickets. And these silver tickets were also taken away by my stepmother, saying that I was young, so she would help me collect them first, and then give them to me when I would use them.

It's a pity that on the day I got married, my stepmother didn't pay me back the 100 taels of silver.

A year later, Aunt Su's cousin won the champion and chose a horse, and Aunt Su's identity became noble. The stepmother was very knowledgeable, so she invited herself to go to court and took the initiative to give up the position of the main wife to Aunt Su, and she became Aunt Zheng.

The father was very grateful to the stepmother, oh no, it should be Aunt Zheng's tolerance and generosity, and after seeing that Aunt Zheng handed over all the housework to the new stepmother, he handed it over to Aunt Zheng to take care of the two shops, so that she had something to do and would not be too bored.

Aunt Zheng is very capable, and takes care of the two shops properly, and her father is even happier when he sees it, and allocates two more to her, and later she even got a nameplate for Aunt Zheng as a Confucian merchant, and both husband and wife entered the Confucian Chamber of Commerce.

The new stepmother was very angry when she saw this, but she remembered Aunt Zheng's affection to take the initiative to give way, and she didn't want to do anything to her. In a fit of anger, the new stepmother took out her anger at the other aunts and girls in the house, and even I suffered a lot of wrongs.

After Aunt Zheng found out, she took me back to her, and often persuaded me, saying that my new stepmother has always been a powerful person, and even my mother was killed by her, so I must not be angry with my new stepmother, lest I ......

At the age of seven, I didn't know what it meant to kill, let alone sow discord, and under Aunt Zheng's 'teaching', I became more and more stubborn, ignorant, vulgar, and short-tempered.

Soon, everyone in the capital knew that the eldest lady of the Zhao family had a stubborn temperament, did not understand the rules, was unfilial to her mother, and was unkind to her subordinates.

A few years later, the Zhao family's business in the south was suddenly maliciously run, and many shops were taken away to pay off their debts. Grandfather was angry and went to the south to deal with it himself, but he didn't expect to meet a bandit on the road and die on the cliff.

The news came back to the Zhao family, and the grandmother also fell ill, and the uncle and the aunt came to serve the sick very actively, but I don't know why, every time the uncle left, the grandmother's illness would get worse, and within a month, the grandmother passed away.

The grandmother was in a hurry and didn't have time to distribute the family property, so before the grandmother was buried, the uncle, father and third uncle had a lot of trouble over the division of the family property, and almost quarreled with Jingzhao Mansion. The Zhao family suddenly became the laughing stock of the capital, and the business under its name was even more affected, and there was chaos one after another.

After dividing the family property easily, the uncle moved out of the Zhao family, and the father and the third uncle divided the Zhao mansion into two, and built a wall in the middle, and the two brothers did not get along with each other.

After my grandmother's seven-seven days were over, the uncle made a move and proposed to convene an emergency meeting of Confucian businessmen to re-elect the president.

Originally, my father got Su Yuma's promise and felt that he would definitely be able to become the new president. Who would have thought that at the meeting, the directors and the supervisors sent by the imperial court unanimously agreed that the uncle would be the new president, and the father was so angry that he almost vomited blood on the spot.

Even more to make his father vomit blood is still to come, Shisu gave birth to a son that year, is the only son of his father, the baby grew to six or seven years old, but suddenly fell into the lake in the backyard and drowned, his father and Shisu were so distressed that they fainted.

The father is okay, thinking that he is still young, and there is no shortage of women around him, and a son can be reborn after he dies.

But Zi Su went crazy, shouting crazy every day that Aunt Zheng killed her son, Su was an accomplice, and finally set a fire in the peony garden, and burned most of the house divided by the second room, almost overnight, the second room almost went bankrupt.

Without money and a shop, my father's temperament was still strong, and after a few days of illness, he struggled to get up and run the business. Fortunately, because of the rapid rise of the Su family, the Su family helped his father in the most difficult time, which made his father very grateful. The Zhao and Su families became close to each other for a while.

This year, I was fourteen years old.

Because the new stepmother couldn't have children, there were disasters in the family one after another, and her temperament became a little weird, but she just looked at the eldest aunt right, because the family was separated and resented each other, and suddenly became a girlfriend who talked about everything.

After being reminded by my aunt, my new stepmother finally found out that I was old enough to marry. And she often thinks about her mother's family, especially now that her husband is still relying on the Su family to do business, and the new stepmother wants to make the two families inseparable.

So, I thought of marriage, and I was the best candidate.

Half a year later, I married into the Su family in Kangcheng with a shabby dowry, and it wasn't until I worshiped heaven and earth and entered the cave house that I knew that the eldest young master of the Su family, who was praised by Aunt Zheng for looking like Pan An, better than Zijian, and rich in Shi Chong, was actually a fool!

I was immediately stunned, crying, making noise, and arguing to go home, but I was arrested by my strict mother-in-law, kneeling in the ancestral hall, copying ancestral teachings, and going from house to house...... In less than a year, I was scared of my mother-in-law's rectification, I didn't dare to say anything casually, and I didn't dare to take a step on the road...... One day, an elder of the world friends in the capital saw it, and said with a sneer, she really deserves to be Wang Qiniang's daughter, this soft temperament is exactly the same as Zhao Er's grandmother back then.

Only then did I realize that my mother's weakness was not innate, nor was my ignorance and incompetence, and that Aunt Zheng, who had once appeared as a loving mother, would not really love me.

But it's too late, and my life has long been ruined.

Therefore, when the eldest uncle easily found the Su family and asked me if I wanted to go with him, I refused. Looking at my uncle's lost back, I swore to myself more than once that if I could live again, I would definitely protect my mother well, obediently learn the rules and skills, and not let my mother and myself fall into such a miserable situation.

Maybe it was because I accepted my fate, I became numb, and even when my stupid husband was tricked and killed by mistakenly eating a big cigarette ointment, I didn't feel anything, I didn't feel happy or sad.

This attitude of mine angered my mother-in-law who lost her son, and she sent me to a certain Zhuangzi of the Su family in a fit of anger, and I was locked up for more than ten years......

The woman was lying on the kang, bleeding all over, after she looked back on her miserable life, she sighed silently, slowly closed her eyes, and a string of Buddhist beads on her wrist was stained with blood, and suddenly emitted a golden light, wrapping the woman, and everything around her was spinning rapidly.

When she opened her eyes again, she found that she suddenly returned to the year when she was six years old, holding a bag of candied fruit in her hand, looking at her little hands full of meat nests, and uncertainly twisting a date and throwing it into her mouth, well, so sweet, the little girl smiled contentedly and bent a pair of big eyes, and tears quietly flowed from the corners of her eyes.

P: Woo, I re-read the abandoned woman today, and a certain Sa found that there were so many insects in front of me, I was so ashamed that I was ashamed of myself, and I was so sorry for the relatives who supported the abandoned woman!! Modified for an afternoon,Finally the BUG of the public chapter was modified.,A certain Sa apologized to all the relatives again for his carelessness.,~~~~(&g;_&l;)~~~~

Re-P: I've long wanted to write about Yuan Niang's extra, and it just so happened that the text was going to involve this piece, so I wrote it in advance, I hope you like it