Night, slightly cool

It's so late, they're all sleeping, they should be able to go home, mom should be asleep.

When I got home, I took a deep breath, and then opened the door, and it was so dark that I couldn't breathe.

Turning on the light in the living room, fortunately my mother was already sleeping in the bedroom, looking at the messy environment, I sighed deeply.

After changing his shoes, he walked lightly to the toilet and quietly put water to wash, for fear of waking up his mother, and if he woke up, he would have to be beaten and scolded.

After washing up, I turned off the lights in the living room and toilet, and walked softly to the bedroom and closed the door gently.

Then he walked to the side of the bed by the light from the window, took off his shoes, and lay down on the bed in a large shape, closed his eyes, and breathed steadily.

Body... There was still a faint pain in the place where he was beaten, and as soon as he closed his eyes, the picture of his mother beating and insulting himself appeared in front of him, and the scenes were constantly being performed in front of him.

Then, there is a picture of the classmates playing pranks on themselves, spray paint on the desk with the word "death" and the word "wild seed", in the school bag, water poured into the desk, wet all the books, 502 strong glue on the bench, and cold water was poured from the head when going to the toilet......

One picture after another, repeating and emerging.

Tears unconsciously flowed down from the corners of the eyes to the ears, and there was a little itchy feeling.

Grief amplifies and amplifies in the night, and then grief flows backwards.

Tears slid down like broken pearls until they soaked a large pillow.

Cover your face with a pillow, don't dare to cry, afraid of waking up your mother, afraid that your mother will know that she is crying, and even more afraid of being beaten and scolded again.

I don't know when, I joined the dreamland. In the dream-

With a fair complexion, red lips and white teeth, long black hair, and a gentle smile on her face, Ye Li, who was dressed plainly, looked at Qi An kindly, stretched out her arms, and opened her arms.

Before Qi An was four years old, Ye Li had always been like this, but since Qi An's father was gone, everything has changed.

"Zi'an, my good boy. Come on, mommy hug. ”

Qi An didn't hold back his tears and ran towards Ye Li with all his might.

Maybe it was because he was too happy and excited, and he accidentally tripped on his left foot and fell down with his right foot. struggled to stand up, and when he looked up, there was no Ye Li.

There was a blank all around, no one and no sound, a deathly silence.

"Mom? Mom! Mom, where are you! Mom, don't you want Qi'an? Woo woo woo ...... "Qi An squatted weakly on the ground, hugged his legs with his arms, buried his face in his knees, and began to cry.

"Qi'an...... Qi'an ......"

"Who? Who's calling me? Qi An heard someone calling his name and immediately stood up, and looked around, there was still no one, all white.

"Qi'an...... Qi'an ...... I'm a dad, kid...... I'm sorry for you......" A weak voice came into Qi An's ears, and the sadness in his voice could be heard.

"Dad... Father...? Qi An stood in place in shock, his whole body stiff and unable to move, with a look of disbelief.

"Kid...... It's Daddy I'm sorry for you...... It's Dad who is useless, and he left your Mom early, is Dad useless...... It's causing you and your mother to be like this now, woo woo woo ......"

"Dad? Father! Why...... Why did Mom say I killed you...... Is it true?! Dad, how the hell did you die! Father! ”

"Kid...... I...... It's not your fault, don't listen to your mother, you're right, you're a good boy, Daddy will always love you and your mother.... Remember...... Don't blame your mom...... Don't resent her...... Remember......"

"Dad! Father!!! Qi An suddenly woke up, sat up suddenly, and gasped for air to calm down.

Originally...... It's just a dream, but the tears are real, and the pillow is even wetter.

It was still dark outside, and it should have been early, so Qi An continued to lie down and sleep.

I slept groggily, and Ye Li got up at six o'clock in the morning, so Qi An was also called.

It's a new day...... Another nightmare...... In my ears is Ye Li's scolding again, every day like this, this kind of life ...... When will it end......