15. Help

"Grandma, yes, I'm a high school student now, there are very few high school students in the county, I went to the commune to be a teacher, it's more than enough, I take you, you can get out of this mountain now, you don't have to study for two more years in high school and three years of college, five years, I have to miss a lot of things, then the gains outweigh the losses." I don't just want me to live alone, I want you and my aunt to live well too. ”

"No, you have to go to school to continue your education, haven't you worked so hard all these years to go to school just for the goal of going to college? This is your wish in this life, and it is also the wish of your grandfather. You can't give up all these years just because something like this has happened. ”

"Grandma, a person's wish will change, now my wish has changed, I just need to be with you and live a good life, this wish is more realistic and reasonable than the previous one. You think, if I go to college, the two of us have to live a hard life for another five years, I will work now, I can immediately improve the living conditions of both of us, I will take you out of here immediately, I can work and make money, I can continue to study, I can go to university at any time, and when I save enough money to go to college, I will take the exam again, I will go to college, and I will take you with me, and I will not be separated from you. ”

"Xiaoling, I haven't seen you for a few days, you seem to have changed your mind, where did you hear about what you said? How is this possible? Did I scare you today, so you suddenly changed your mind? I don't want to drag you down, and if so, I'd rather die. ”

"Grandma, don't say such things, what is not a drag, if you want to say drag, I have dragged you and grandpa a lot over the years, you believe me, I can support you now, I can go to find a job now, if you don't believe it, I will go to find a job first, and when I find it, you will believe me and follow me, if I can't find a job, I will continue to go to school."

Doctor Niu said: "Xiaoling, you'd better continue to go to school, but your family's situation is really difficult, it's not easy to go to school for another five years, if you want to go to the commune to teach, I think it's okay, those elementary school teachers in the commune, there are few who graduated from junior high school, you, a high school student, are much better than them." I know the people over there in the commune, so I can help you ask. ”

"Really? If that's the case, Dr. Niu, that's the best thing to do. Then please ask Dr. Niu to help me ask. ”

Chen Yifan put down the bowl, Zhao Xiaoling handed him a cake, he shook his head, "I'm done, you go out with me, I have something to say to you." ”

Zhao Xiaoling put down the bowl and followed Chen Yifan to the courtyard.

In the past half a day of getting along, Zhao Xiaoling intuitively felt that this person had extraordinary abilities and unfathomable thoughts, but one thing was certain, he was a good person with a cold face and a warm heart, and on this day, he helped her a lot, and she was grateful to him.

She didn't know what he was going to say to her when he called her out alone.

"What is your greatest wish? Going to college? He said suddenly.

"I ...... My biggest wish was to go to college, but now, I just want to be with my grandma and try to make a good life for both her and me. ”

"If it's because of money that makes you change your mind, then I can help you, how much does it cost to keep you going to school without any worries?"

Zhao Xiaoling raised her head in surprise and met his blazing eyes, she felt that the pressure of that gaze was so great, she couldn't help avoiding his gaze and lowered her head.

"Don't worry, I don't have any purpose, I just want to help you, your situation is too difficult, I'm just doing what I can."

"I know, I also believe in your sincerity and purity, thank you."

Zhao Xiaoling had mixed feelings in her heart.

He and her are only one side of the story, and he can help her like this.

Although she could not rashly accept his help, she still thanked him for his kindness.

"But I can't take your help."

"Why? Isn't your greatest wish to go to university? I can help you fulfill your wishes. Don't give up your dreams because of money, money, there will be a chance to earn it in the future, but there are not many opportunities to go to college, and if you miss it, you will miss it. ”

"No, there will be opportunities to go to college in the future, and even not going to college is not a serious shortcoming in my life, and the loss of my loved ones is a vacancy that I can no longer make up for in my life. So now, it's not just a matter of lack of money, I don't know if I say that, can you understand. ”

Zhao Xiaoling's words, she herself felt that she couldn't say clearly, if it weren't for the pain she experienced after losing her relatives in her previous life, she would not have such a choice.

Unexpectedly, Chen Yifan said: "I know, I understand."

"Thank you!" Zhao Xiaoling didn't know what else to say except this sentence.

"So you decided you wanted to get a job and leave here with your grandma?"

"Yes, I want to leave here, you can also see it, the environment here, and the people here, make me feel very depressed, people have a lot to do in this life, time and energy should not be wasted on these meaningless rotten people and bad things, to have a good way to live, you have to leave here first, get rid of these unclear entanglements."

"You can't waste your energy and time on meaningless rotten people. That's a good thing, and there is no one who agrees with it more. ”

This is a girl with a good mind, and she is indeed incompatible with the people here.

She shouldn't spend her time running on this more than 100-kilometer road every week, and she shouldn't have to live hard to survive.

"Are you going to go to the commune to become a teacher? Being a teacher can support you and grandma? ”

Zhao Xiaoling smiled helplessly, "This is just one of my plans, it stands to reason that most of the primary school teachers are junior high school students now, and it should be no problem for me to be a primary school teacher as a high school student, but there are no absolutes, maybe people just don't want me!" Many times, it's about the background and relationship, but it doesn't matter, I'm mentally prepared, if I can't be a teacher, I'll do something else, isn't it now a liberalization policy? I can go and do a little bit of a small business. There was no problem feeding me and my grandmother. ”

Zhao Xiaoling thought about it, no matter what, she would not continue to go to school, she would leave Zhaojiagou with her grandmother, she would rely on her own ability to support her and her grandmother, and let her grandmother live a life that she never dared to think of in her life.

Seeing that Zhao Xiaoling had already made up her mind, Chen Yifan said: "I want to find a way to help you, are you willing to work in the county?"

"Of course, the conditions in the county are better, the salary is higher, and I can start a small business outside of work. But I know that jobs in the county are hard to find. ”

"You doubt my abilities?"

"No, no, no...... I mean, you don't seem to be from Nanxian County, and you don't work here...... How do you know the people here? ”