Some people may have noticed that I am very slow to update this book, and on the China Literature platform, most people are based on three chapters, but I have always had difficulty doing two chapters.

In the past, I could write two chapters a day, and sometimes even three chapters, but in the past two years, I have fallen to the bottom, and my heart is so tired that two chapters a day feels like my whole person is stumped.

My family said a year ago that I was suffering from depression, especially this year, and often persuaded me to see a psychiatrist.

In fact, I also know that I have been in a state of extreme depression for the past two years. The mood is extremely depressed, tired, no motivation, there is no energy, this feeling of powerlessness, fatigue is indescribable, and it is indescribable, in short, it is extremely tired, extremely depressed, and negative.

In the last two years, a lot of things have happened, and I have been weighed down by huge debts, and I am a full-time writer, and I came from the outside, and old readers should know that I have always written about the traditional first-person supernatural, and when I first arrived here, "Descendants of the Earth Master" hit the streets, because it has been proven that this traditional supernatural is outdated here.

"The Descendants of the Earth Master", written for a year, the income is not enough to live at home, life has fallen to the bottom, more and more debts, while working hard to code words, thinking that the recent situation can be improved, while finding that the situation is getting worse with the code words, this feeling of confusion and powerlessness, maybe it is the beginning of my depression and tiredness.

Then, I kept telling myself that if I reopened a new book this year, I would definitely get better.

Then, at the end of the year, a new book was opened, but ...... No, it's gone, and it's pounced (it's all taken off the shelves).

It's hard, it's too hard.

The editors and editors-in-chief also worry about me, because they also know the difficulties of my situation, and they keep telling me about changing the style and theme, and they want me to get back on my feet.

However, I guess I am in a state of depression, I only feel tired, I can't listen to any advice, I just keep feeling lost, confused, hopeless, and want to give up.

Right now, I'm in such a mood, extremely depressed, this book is in charge of yin and yang, and it is obviously also a street road. Other people's collections are more than 100,000, and I have a collection of 2,000.

Now, I force myself to sit in front of the computer every day to code words, sometimes I can force out one chapter, and sometimes I don't need to force two chapters, but it takes more than ten hours. It only takes three hours to get it done. And the reason why I take so long is because I sit in front of the computer in a daze most of the time, and at the same time, my heart is depressed and uncomfortable, more tired than codewords. Well, I guess people who don't have depression don't understand this feeling, how can they sit in front of the computer without coding words, and they will be tired.

Generally speaking, while being in debt, under great pressure, and trying to survive with codewords, but finding that continuing to write will only be a waste of time and effort (a waste will take a year), and there is no hope. Well, it's this tiredness, this confusion, this feeling of powerlessness, the feeling of falling into the abyss.

The reason why I decided to talk about these situations is that I see people tipping one after another every day, I just want to tell you that there is no need to tip, because I don't know if I can finish the book, I can only try my best to grit my teeth and stick to the present, today, tomorrow...... Until I couldn't hold on, maybe I would give up, so I didn't want anyone to break the bank, and finally found out that the book eunuch was a eunuch.

I'm trying my best to write this book, because after all, there are still some readers who are silently supporting, just trying to finish it and give everyone an explanation, or one day I'm so tired that I can't finish it, and I don't know if I can finish it persistently. (Well, it's a very winding sentence, this may be the entanglement in my heart, otherwise I would have given up a long time ago)

If you can write it until the day it is put on the shelves, everyone is willing, just give a subscription. (At least after it hits the shelves, I won't write it for a long time, and I'll stay up until I write a perfect ending.) ）

I really don't want to tell the public about the above negative things, usually I promote my awesome things in the circle of friends or readers, but today I got out of control, and I told some readers in a group, anyway, some people know, so let's talk about it to everyone.

Anyway, I was forced by my family to go to a psychiatric hospital last year, and in a room in the testing room, the doctor asked me to sit in front of the computer and do a psychological test, saying that it was depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder. The medicine was prescribed, but I didn't take it, and then I was afraid that it would expire, so it was gone.

That's it, thank you all for your support, I ...... Exert oneself.

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