Chapter 39: I Can Go Myself

Although he defines himself as an outlier, he is never willing to admit that he is in love with a man. Or has he been waiting so stupidly for so many years, the object of his unrequited love has never changed, and he only has feelings for this one person, and the feeling of lying on his body is so wonderful, how should I explain my reaction? Let's stop dreaming......

Then he thought about it again: "It's better to be sober, everything between him and Fang Longxing is so ethereal and unrealistic, forget it!" Let him go, let himself go! It's really tiring, it's so hard!

He really hoped that the experience of the first half of his life was a dream, just a beautiful dream, a dream will have a time to wake up, and now may be the time to wake up. Stop coveting this impossible relationship!

I couldn't see him before, it was just simple love and fantasy, but today he appears in the circle of his life, and everything is so real. But he knew that he would never be able to catch it, and since that was the case, there was no longer any hope.

Maybe in the near future, he will marry a wife and have children, which is undoubtedly a terrible nightmare for himself, and he will fall into the abyss of hell forever. How to face it? In what capacity?

There is only the option to leave! Leave quietly! Perhaps the only way to do this is to leave. Leaving the person who makes you sad, the place where you are sad, and never seeing each other again in this life, this may be the best ending!

Lonely old age? Loneliness, loneliness, helplessness, sadness, disappointment...... No! No! No! No! I can't be swayed by all this, I want to be in charge of my own destiny, how can I go with the flow? Even if you want to turn around, it will definitely be gorgeous, and you must not feel self-pity and be full of grievances. Right! Be stronger, look away, why embarrass yourself, everything has been faced and solved by yourself for so many years, what else can't survive?

Don't think so pessimistic, meeting him again in your lifetime is already a gift from God, as long as he lives well, isn't this my greatest wish in this life? Even if he gets married and has children, he should be happy for him, and send his most sincere blessings, which should be like this - sincere blessings to each other. This means that I have no regrets and can be satisfied......

Fang Longxing looked down at the person lying on his lap, his heart was full of happiness. Zhang Fengyi's eyes closed gently, his soft pink and fair face, his finely carved facial features, so beautiful that there was no flaw, and his even breathing reminded him of the "Sleeping Beauty" in the fairy tale, Zhang Fengyi at this time is probably a thousand times more beautiful than the "Sleeping Beauty"!

Fang Longxing felt that he was even more adored when he closed his eyes at this moment, and at this moment he was lying on his lap, like a charming and cute cat basking in the sun there, gentle and demure. He would no longer see the alienation and indifference, majesty and inviolability in his open phoenix eyes.

He vaguely felt that something must have happened to Zhang Fengyi, but he didn't dare to be sure of his guess, no matter what, he would guard him without hesitation......

Wang Haitao is very busy in the kitchen alone, and cooking for Zhang Fengyi is also a happy thing for him, when it comes to cooking, Wang Haitao is really a good hand. His dishes are not only full of color, flavor, and taste, but also have a balanced nutritional ratio. This is a cooking technique that he specially studied for Zhang Fengyi, so he specially learned a lot of special dishes from his chef father.

On weekdays, he is worried about Zhang Fengyi's body, so he changes all kinds of ingredients to make delicious dishes for him. He also learned from the gourmet chefs on the Internet, the practices of several famous dishes in the cuisine, and cooked them for him, in order to one day feed his Mr. Zhang fat. The double-door refrigerator in Mr. Zhang's house is full of Wang Haitao, and he has prepared a lot of ingredients, hoping to make his favorite dishes for Mr. Zhang anytime and anywhere.

Zhang Fengyi's thin body and long body made him really distressed to see it! What Wang Haitao couldn't figure out was that he worked so hard to match the diet, but his Mr. Zhang never gained weight, which made him very confused...... He wouldn't know what Mr. Zhang was thinking deep in.

People think about people, they will think about dead people, Zhang Fengyi's heart is full of thoughts and worries about the other party's Longxing, this worry becomes a demon, how easy is it to get fat? It's good to be skinny.

Zhang Fengyi is not picky about eating, and he has never asked Wang Haitao to do anything for him. Every time Wang Haitao came to his house to prepare documents with him, he ate whatever Wang Haitao did. He also tried to make food for Wang Haitao, this man is excellent in everything, but this level of cooking is really not flattering.

If he makes you something to eat, then you don't have to chew it at all, just swallow it, and you can barely fill your stomach. And then you don't feel sick to eat it. It can be seen how unpalatable it is, so Wang Haitao took the initiative to take the obligation to cook for him, which is what he has been looking forward to. Zhang Fengyi couldn't screw him, so he let him go.

This is not considered to be oppression of Wang Haitao, because a person who can make himself sick when cooking, how can he expect others to share the so-called "food" with him? So Zhang Fengyi simply gave up his great dream of becoming the best chef and let Wang Haitao play freely. It is only natural that he has become a eater and connoisseur of real food. With peace of mind, his stomach was at the mercy of Wang Haitao.

In about half an hour or so, Wang Haitao prepared the meal for Mr. Zhang, one meat and one vegetable, and one mushroom soup. Paired with nutritional science, it has all the color, flavor, and flavor. You can smell the aroma of the dishes from afar, and after the dishes are finished, Wang Haitao goes to the living room to invite two people to the dining room.

Every time they eat together, they have a separate meal system, and Zhang Fengyi, who has been clean since he was a child, is really reluctant to stir chopsticks on the same plate with others. Wang Haitao has always respected Mr. Zhang's personal habits, and he doesn't feel that there is anything wrong. To love him is to respect his lifestyle, eating habits, and personal preferences, not to ask him to change for himself, but to change from himself to the rhythm and mode of life that suits him.

At this time, Zhang Fengyi's body felt much more relaxed now because of the antidote medicine he had taken before, and his head was not as painful as when he first came back, coupled with Fang Longxing's massage, the flush on his face had also receded a lot.

He felt as if he was asleep on Fang Longxing's lap, and he also dreamed that when they were young, everything in the dream was so real and beautiful! It used to be the best part of his life. was helplessly woken up by Wang Haitao, he wished that he would always stay in the beautiful dream and never wake up again.

When Zhang Fengyi stood up, he was a little anxious, and his eyes were so dark that he couldn't help but slip and almost fell, but fortunately he was dragged by Fang Longxing, and then he was hugged tightly to his chest. At this moment, Zhang Fengyi feels that his embrace is really warm, and isn't this the shoulder he wants, the reliance he wants?

But Zhang Fengyi immediately sobered up and subconsciously pushed him away. Fang Longxing was pushed by him like this, and because he was unprepared in advance, he was actually pushed two steps away. This push put both men in a momentary embarrassment. It was Fang Longxing who reacted first, and immediately sent a word of concern.

"Fengyi, why aren't you better? Why don't I carry you to the restaurant for dinner! He looked frightened, very worried about Zhang Fengyi's physical condition.

"No, I'll just walk by myself." Zhang Fengyi came back to his senses, his face was calm and unappreciative, and he still said coldly to him.

Wang Haitao took in the series of actions of the two people, and a trace of unhappiness and sadness appeared on his face. He muttered in his heart, "Why is this Fang Longxing so annoying? At the end of the day, I always use my hands and feet against Mr. Zhang, which is too self-respecting, right? What a guy who has no bottom line, no discipline, and no attention to details! Does he think it's good to always hug other people when there's nothing going on?

But what can I do? What can you do about it? He really had no choice but to let him be unreasonable and nonsense. Fortunately, Mr. Zhang doesn't like this person very much, judging from his reaction, it seems that he still hates this guy, Wang Haitao can only comfort himself in his heart.

This meal was quite harmonious, Zhang Fengyi had already been accustomed to Wang Haitao's cooking skills, and he ate with relish, Wang Haitao would show a smug smile every time he saw Mr. Zhang finish all the food on his plate.

After all, his hard work was not in vain, what else in the world could be happier and more important than pleasing Mr. Zhang? "If you want to tie a person's heart, you must first tie his stomach", this ancestral secret recipe, Wang Haitao has always believed in it! And it's a tried-and-true antido. As long as Mr. Zhang eats happily, Wang Haitao will be satisfied!

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