Grandpa smiled and opened the A8 book, all of which I took when I was a child, from bare ass to elementary school graduation.

The cover is a picture of me and my dad, I'm still in my infancy, my dad is holding me, giggling in the middle of a golden ginkgo tree.

Grandpa pointed to the picture and said, "This is the year you were born." Your dad was studying in Boston, and when he heard that you were born, he fled back to see you because he missed you. You were born in autumn again, so I gave you the name Qiusi. ”

That's how my name came from, caressing my father's young face, and a warm sadness welled up in my heart.

Grandpa looked through them one by one, and he could tell when and where they were taken, and even what happened that day, he remembered.

One of them gave me a beating, a photo of me wearing a red sweater, two pigtails, holding a doll in my hand, and smiling brightly, with a large European-style building in the background, like in some old villa estate.

Looking at the doll, I suddenly thought of something, but unfortunately the inspiration was just a flash, and I was interrupted by my grandfather, "This is taken when you were five years old in Qingshi, your mother took you away at that time, in fact, she wanted to fight with us for custody, your grandmother cried anxiously, and then let people steal you back." Hehe, your grandma has never done anything bad in her life, this is probably the most outrageous one, but it's a pity that she didn't see you get married and have children. ”

I'll go, there's such a thing, I don't even know.

Grandpa was really old, and he babbled a lot, and finally handed me a box.

The box was very small, only a little bigger than a matchbox, and it was also very delicate, with a delicate pattern carved on it, and if you looked closely, there were three English letters: LQS.

It occurred to me that it was my initials.

Curious, I asked him, "Grandpa, what is this?" ”

Grandpa smiled, "Safe key." It's yours alone. ”

I suddenly felt trembling all over, my hands trembled involuntarily, and I felt that my grandfather was busy stuffing the box back into him as if he was explaining the future, "I don't want it, you can keep it for me first." ”

He said what's the matter with you, this girl, and I'll take it for you, and said, "Don't move this key at will, and you will need it again when you really need it." Remember, this can only be known by yourself, don't tell anyone, not even Zhong Ting can't let him know. ”

Early the next morning, Zhou Zhen called me and asked me to go to a dessert shop near Lianhua Mountain, saying that he had something to tell me.

I really don't understand, how could anyone think of opening a store in a place like Lotus Mountain, and would anyone dare to come and eat?

Sure enough, the business in the store was deserted, and there was a little girl who also served as a cashier, and the most suspicious thing was that her face showed a strange paleness, and she looked panicked.

Zhou Zhen sat by the window, his back straight, and changed into a black tie, which looked like a kind of murderous aura against the cool background of Lotus Mountain.

He was always expressionless, and he said hello to me and asked me what I wanted to eat.

I said I had just had breakfast and didn't have much appetite, just a glass of soda, and asked him, "What are you looking for me?" ”

Zhou Zhen didn't go around in circles, and said bluntly, "I want to tell you about the situation a few days ago, so as not to have a misunderstanding between you and Mr. Zhong." ”

Hehe, misunderstanding.

I didn't speak, I took a sip of soda.

He used concise words, without any delay, and concisely explained the situation of that day.

It turned out that Zhong Ting had secretly contacted the police before going to the appointment, which was right, could the kidnappers outdo the police.

The police are experienced and have countermeasures to all kinds of kidnapping, Zhong Ting came in with a bugging device and a camera, which can monitor the situation in the factory throughout the process, if he can directly take people out, if not, the police also have a trick, in short, they will protect the safety of the hostages.

It's just that I didn't expect that the kidnappers would be so cruel, and directly knifed the hostages, and Leng Lu was cut at that time, the skin was open, and the blood flowed for a long time.

In that case, Zhong Ting must put her safety first, and I don't know anything clearly, the kidnapper promised him that he would not touch a single hair of me, he kept going around with the kidnapper, and the police stormed in when he relaxed his vigilance at the most.

Scarface, who was the leader, reacted and almost escaped, and one of the other three kidnappers was killed, one was seriously injured and unconscious, and the remaining one was imprisoned, and Scarface became a Class A wanted criminal.

I was unconscious, and it was Zhong Ting who carried me to the hospital.

Zhou Zhen rarely used modifiers, saying that Zhong Ting was extremely scared at that time, it can be said that his soul was scattered, look at it, if I die, he will have to be martyred.

Later, I went into the operating room, Tan Yueming came over later, and the two fought again, and I don't know who made the first move, until they had no strength to smoke against the wall together, Tan Yueming asked Zhong Ting to test his DNA to see whose child it was, and he really went.

After the results came out, he sat in the corridor for a long time with the list, without saying a word, and then the person disappeared, only sent a message to Zhou Zhen, saying that he was going out for a walk, and then turned off his mobile phone.

It wasn't until yesterday that his phone finally went through.

In the past few days since his disappearance, he has been living in the Lotus Mountain and living in the Lianyin Temple on the mountain, which is said to be in repentance.

I asked Zhou Zhen, "What does he mean, let me go to the temple to find him?" ”

Zhou Zhen nodded, and said, "But Mr. Zhong also said that if you don't go, he won't force it, just tell you that you and his children are buried there." ”

Lianyin Temple is built in the middle of the mountainside, surrounded by green trees, clean and remote, there are several towering ancient pines outside the gate, the age of the trees is at least 100 years.

Go inside, the temple is brilliant, the Buddha is solemn, the bell is melodious, the cigarette smoke is curling, there are monks, novices, laymen, and laypeople passing by on the road, there is no noise, everything is full of solemnity.

Zhong Ting lives in a meditation room in the backyard, and when I went over, he was chatting with a Zen master.

When he saw me coming, he didn't have much expression on his face, but he could see the fierce waves in his eyes.

I stared at him and couldn't help but sneer, "You are also worthy of Zen? ”

He hung his head and didn't speak, looking helpless.

The Zen master looked over quietly, "Don't be excited, don't be excited, and listen to the old man." There is Zen and a pure land, just like wearing a horned tiger, a teacher in this world, and a Buddha in the future. All things can participate in Zen, and there is no such thing as being worthy or unworthy. ”

The quiet place of Buddhism was abrupt, and my face couldn't help but blush.

The Zen master also said, "Female donor, love and non-love, nothing more than a thought, the past, the past love, let it pass, that is just a part of life, like a drop of water in the vast sea, a speck of dust in the long sky, without those past, can not create the present of you, cherishing the present is always better than half-heartedness." As for children, gains and losses are predestined, if you are dedicated to goodness, how do you know that you will not lose and regain. ”

I think I was brainwashed by the Zen master, and until he left, I was still reading what he said, and I thought he had a point.

There are a total of nine meditation rooms in this courtyard, but only Zhong Ting lives there, which seems to be deliberately taken care of by the temple.

Thinking about it, he must have donated a lot of incense money.

The room was unusually quiet, and we didn't speak for a long time, and finally he spoke first, "Qiu Si, I was wrong. ”

I laughed and snorted, but didn't speak.

The corners of his mouth twitched as he looked at me, "Really, I was wrong, very wrong. ”

I looked at him, "You're wrong, you're right." What's wrong with you choosing the person you love, you don't recognize your child, he is not happy even if he is born, you are the one who gives him relief, you are right, you are not wrong anywhere..."

He didn't speak, but jerked me into his arms and hugged me tightly, trembling all over.

It took me a while to realize that he was crying, crying so much that he couldn't stop crying.

Later, he began to slap himself, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm damned, I killed my own child, I'm a failed father...... Please give me another chance to make amends, and I can make amends. I'm completely done with her, you believe me. Let me come back, let's go back, give me another chance, okay......"

I don't know what to say except for tears.

Thinking of the lost child, thinking of his suspicions, I angrily pounced on him, he didn't move, let me vent, "Qiu Si, our child is buried in the main hall and underground palace, there are high monks chanting for him every day, he will come back, believe me, our child will definitely come back." ”

At this moment there was a knock on the door, and he choked up and shouted to come in.

The teenage little novice took the food, with a bit of innocence on his face, and looked at us curiously and suspiciously, "Two donors, please use it slowly." ”

Zhong Ting pulled me to sit down and handed me the chopsticks, "You must be hungry after walking for a long time on the mountain road, eat a little, and take you to see the children in a while." ”

Thinking of the child, I swallowed it and put the chopsticks back on the table.

He sighed, put down his chopsticks as well, and pushed the food aside, "Then sit like this, let me hold you and sit like this." ”

Somehow, I fell asleep in his arms, and when I woke up, it was gray.

There was no light on in the room, and he remained in his original position.

I looked up at him, maybe his arm was too sore, he couldn't move for a while, and then he slowed down for a while before he let go, and moved twice.

I said you're stupid, why don't you stay still?

He smiled, his eyes shining, and the next second he tossed softly against my lips.

I pushed him away, "I'm hungry." ”

He smiled, pulled me out, walked down the stone steps, came to a small restaurant selling vegetarian vegetables, asked for a braised bamboo shoots, a vegetarian melon soup, two bowls of rice, and cautiously said, "Let's eat vegetarian here." ”

After eating, he took me around the temple, pointed to the main hall and said, "Our son is there, he is only staying there temporarily, let's wait for him to come back." ”

I didn't speak, and he didn't say much, but pulled me slowly back to the room.

Only one of the nine meditation rooms had to be cleaned up, which meant that I had to be carried under the covers with him.

Of course, in such a place, he wouldn't do anything excessive, just held my hand and hugged me from behind, "Qiu Si, let's start from scratch, don't care about the past, start from scratch." ”

I couldn't sleep at night, and I slowly remembered something, and I felt like my heart was tied by a thin thread, and I felt a dull pain every time I moved.

There was a strong wind outside the window, and there was a terrible whistling sound, and I slowly turned around and bit down his arm.

This is not the first time I have bitten him, but it is the hardest bite, to vent my pain and resentment.

He tried his best to endure it until I let go without saying a word, just trembling slightly, and then hugged me into his arms again, "Qiu Si, I love you, I really love you." ”

I have been waiting for this sentence for many years, but when it came out of Zhong Ting's mouth, I did not have the throbbing I imagined.

That night the wind stopped, the sky was full of stars, and the starlight passed through hundreds of millions of years, quietly shining in front of the window, shining on my and his faces, shining on every inch of painful wounds, and shining on my gradually cooling heart......