"At the beginning, I was blind. We, from now on, will be separated from each other, and each will rejoice. ”

A passage of words, like a drumstick slamming, reverberated and echoed, lingering in his heart for a long time.

I couldn't figure it out at first, so I went to Xu Qing's house to find him that night, but Xu's mother told him: "Xu Qing has completed the procedures for studying in Japan, and now he should be on the plane." ”

Shi Chu's heart suddenly tightened, and a coolness jumped down from the heavenly spirit cover and spread all over his limbs.

He went home and smashed everything he could, the cups, dishes, and photo frames he drank with Xu Qing, and finally got a bottle of wine that his friend secretly gave him on his back, he was stunned, pried open the cap, and drank freely.

As the saying goes, wine can dispel sorrows, so I wanted to try it at the beginning, but I could also dispel my feelings.

He tried dozens of times, and almost got drunk to death a few times, and his mind was still full of Xu Qing's lingering jade face.

The little milk dog has grown up and has become a little wolf dog, which can bite.

Love and hatred can change a person.

At first, when Gao came to visit and comfort, he would open the door to let him in, and then directly cut off their brotherhood. Just because of Xu Qing, he abandoned Gao Yinqin, a close friend who was born and died together. His temperament is getting colder and colder, like a cold stone without a heart.

With the ability at the beginning of the time, Xu Qing escaped to the ends of the earth, and he could find it. can get Xu Qing's GPS positioning, but I'm afraid to see him. At first, the other party would answer, and after a while of silence, he hung up, and then every phone call he made at the beginning of the year was not answered.

In the end, the other party took the initiative to call.

Xu Qing's tone was cold and concise, but it was enough to turn people away. He said:

- "Break off friendship, don't you understand?" Please stop bothering me, okay? ”

"Click", Shi Chu's hand holding the phone shuddered, as if he heard a cracking sound from his chest.

Xu Qing's request, he has always been good, but this time, a mouthful of sweetness gushed in his throat, he swallowed hard, and his voice was hoarse. He replied:

- "No, good! ”

……

At the beginning of the slow sinking in the sea, his eyes could not be opened, but he felt the light getting farther and farther away, without the discomfort of lack of oxygen, like a baby floating in the amniotic fluid of the mother's womb, extremely comfortable.

He hated Xu Qing, he hated it all the time, and he hated it until the end and found out that Xu Qing was still his first first love, and he had a deep love for Xu Qing. Although the other party doesn't know it.

If everything could be done all over again, he would trade his death for ......

When Xu Qing arrived, the search and rescue team had already suspended the search, and many people, journalists and some nearby residents had gathered on the beach.

The sea breeze is howling, blowing the clothes rattling, like the whining sound of the little beast, and the waves on the sea are turbulent, which makes people tremble.

The director walked up to him: "Didn't find it." ”

Xu Qing couldn't help trembling, and tears poured out like a flood. Bamboo Horse Shichu's face appeared in front of him again very clearly, looking at her with a smile, as if asking him mockingly, "How is it?" Regretted it? After getting a girlfriend, do you still think you can't do without me? It was late and woke up from a dream. ”

It was as if there were thousands of fine needles piercing my heart, and the pain was already numb, but the wound was dense, which made people feel creepy.

Some feelings are destined to be indelible; Just like some people, they are destined to be irreplaceable.

He hurried through the crowd, to the sea, and then plunged headlong into it, his figure falling into the sea, making waves of water. The crowd covered their mouths and watched this scene in amazement, the snake spirit was sick, and suddenly jumped into the sea.

Xu Qing dived into the depths of the sea, the sea water was cold and biting, as long as he thought that his brother was enduring this pain, he felt that the blood in his whole body clotted.

He sped up and swam deeper, the pressure on the bottom of the sea was strong and oxygen-free, and he held back his chest with extreme pain, and when he endured it to the limit, he came out to change his breath and swam again.

Where were you at the beginning of the day?

Why can't I find you?

It is written in many books that lovers can use the power of the Sansheng Stone to appear telepathically, so what if there is no name of Shi Chu and Xu Qing on the Sansheng Stone at all? Will he never be able to find him in this life?

"What is that sound, 'wolf howl'?"

A female reporter next to the director shuddered and asked.

The desperate and terrible shouts were transmitted along the wind, and in this sound, there was endless pain and powerlessness, which was terrifying.

"No," said the director, "it's 'human howl.'" ”

Gao Yinqin rushed to the scene, and as soon as he got out of the car, he saw Xu Qing who was soaking wet, he had exhausted his strength, but he still refused to stop looking, the green tendons on Gao Yinqin's arms burst out, and he was dragged onto the boat by the collar.

"What sin did you create in the beginning to fall in love with you?" Gao Yin yelled at him, "When I was a child, I pestered me to be my first boyfriend, I did enough in advance, and when I became an adult, I patted my ass and left." He has lived better than dead in the past three years, you know? What sin has he committed to be treated like this by you? ”

At this time, Xu Qing's mood was on the verge of collapse.

If he committed a sin because he fell in love with him at the beginning, then he Xu Qing is the original sin.

"Now you get your wish, no one will bother you anymore!"

Gao Yin was angry, his hands were clenched into fists, and he smashed it against the wall next to Xu Qing's head.

Every word drilled into his ears and heart, and then turned into needles densely pierced into every nerve in his body, not the kind of pain that was so severe that it could be called, but a continuous pain all over his body.

Xu Qing sat down helplessly against the railing and hugged her knees, crying silently, and in a trance, she heard the cruel words that she had given to Shi Chu on the phone: "Break off friendship, don't you understand?" Please stop bothering me, okay? ”

"Enough!" The director scolded, and two bodyguards walked out of his side and forcibly took Gao Yin away.

He squatted down and patted Xu Qing's back, and sighed meaningfully: "Young man, if you don't listen to my advice, wake up now." Then he turned and walked away.

——

The search and rescue team continued to search for two days, but only found Qi Xing's body, and found no trace of Shi Chu.

Xu Qing didn't close his eyes all night, with dark circles under his eyes, and his face was as white as ashes, like a zombie coming out of a movie.

He thought he hated Shi Chu.

From the moment he was born, he was favored by the beginning. When he was hungry, he would bring him food, warm him with his body when he was cold, put down his work and play with him until he fell asleep when he was bored, everything depended on him, and never made him feel reluctant.

Until the appearance of Gao Chen, Shi Chu spent less and less time with him, and even did not go home for a week several times, leaving him alone at home, and rarely contacted him on the phone.

Once, he finally couldn't help it, and when Shi Chu was about to go out with the folder, he grabbed the corner of Shi Chu's clothes and asked, "Brother, what have you been busy with lately?" ”

Shi Chu stroked his head, and the smile on the corner of his mouth was like a light moon at four o'clock: "Our future." ”

And high diligence busy in the future?

He has always doubted that there is any relationship between Shi Chu and Gao Yinqin, even if there is none, the same class in high school, the same school in college, and each other in work, can definitely give birth to something.

Within a few years, his suspicions were confirmed the night before his bar mig.

However, the next day, the cheating man actually confessed to him with flowers and a ring. was by Shi Chu, he "became popular" overnight, and received countless text messages such as "Dead gay, Shi Chu is mine".

Oh, I really know how to play, in order to eradicate his obstacle, I justifiably got together with Gao Yinqin, and deliberately used online violence to force him away.

But today, after so many years, he began to think, what is more profound than hatred?

Why did he feel like a knife in his heart and grief-stricken when he was first killed?

Is there a limit to the mood of liking someone?

To hurt, to be hurt. But he will not be disgusted, but hope that the scar can leave an eternal trace like a burn.

In this way, they will not be able to forget each other. Then, be willing to stay there for the rest of your life.