Chapter 12: Sensitive Subordinate

Although the love affair between the same sex existed in ancient China, the dignitaries at that time believed that it was a common thing to have one or two male pets, and even more so to pet male pets for fun, and the young man and the prostitute were all products specially designed to provide amusement for the upper class.

Even when Wang Haitao read these historical anecdotes at that time, it was difficult for him to understand the thinking and behavior of the ancients, and he sighed greatly. But now he is in love with a man, and he is willing to fall in love, becoming a complete "homosexual".

He tried to give up the impossible, unrealistic, and unrealizable idea, and even tried his best to restrain this undesirable thought. Because he knew how dirty and terrible it was for him to have such thoughts about Mr. Zhang. If Mr. Zhang knew that he had bad intentions for him, what would his reaction be? Wouldn't he have died a miserable death? Mr. Zhang must feel disgusting, right? Even he himself was a little disgusted with himself.

But people are sometimes terrible and pitiful, and sometimes they will be cheap, and the more they want to break free, the more they can't break free. He had thought of many ways to forget him, but in the end he couldn't. As long as the man named Zhang Fengyi appeared in front of him, he lost all strength to resist him!

Wang Haitao couldn't extricate himself and secretly fell in love with Zhang Fengyi, Mr. Zhang was happy, he would smirk; Mr. Zhang is sad, and he will be like a knife; Closely related to his life, sympathy for the same disease, and hatred for the same enemy, everything Zhang Fengyi has touched Wang Haitao's heart, as if he himself only exists for his existence, and he only lives for Zhang Fengyi!

In the more than eight years they have been together, Zhang Fengyi's smile in front of him can be counted with just a slap, and he usually has a face without a trace of expression, but it is not the kind of ice, and he is also content with Wang Haitao. He always smiled at himself, and he was lucky, at least luckier than the rest of the company.

At least he was the only one in the company who saw Zhang Fengyi's smile, and that smile was simply too beautiful, too amazing, and too charming. Wang Haitao thinks that his smile is as noble and elegant as red wine; There is coffee-like modernity; It is also fragrant like milk tea, which can be called a variety of amorous feelings, which makes him feel like a dream, and has a lingering attachment to him!

He even thought: If such a stunning and fascinating smiling face is seen by others, won't it cause more trouble? It's best that no one in the world sees his smile. He was also complacent that Mr. Zhang never smiled in front of others.

Wang Haitao is also like most people, he has a strong sense of jealousy and possessiveness when he loves, and he wants to please each other as much as possible. He deliberately created a lot of opportunities to have contact with Zhang Fengyi alone, and wanted to stay by the side of the person he loved. He fought side by side with Zhang Fengyi, striving for all kinds of overtime opportunities, no matter spring, summer, autumn and winter, he never complained. As long as he can stay with Zhang Fengyi for a while, as long as he can let himself look at this lovely person, and being able to hear his even breathing is very satisfying for Wang Haitao.

He took the initiative to ask Zhang Fengyi to be a driver, and he said: It is convenient for communication and work! Although the company appointed a driver to Zhang Fengyi, how could he rest assured that Mr. Zhang's life would be handed over to other drivers? He was constantly worried about the safety of his beloved.

also simply moved to the vicinity of Zhang Fengyi's apartment under the pretext of working convenience, so that as long as he received a call from Mr. Zhang, he would definitely appear in front of Mr. Zhang within ten minutes. Not only did he assist him in his work, but he also lived, ate, and all aspects around the clock, without complaint and willingly and silently dedicated his all.

Even when he himself had a cold and fever, he didn't forget to take care of his Mr. Zhang, but his thoughts and persistent love for Zhang Fengyi were hidden very deeply. He's afraid! He was afraid that one day once Mr. Zhang knew, everything would be over! He was afraid that Mr. Zhang would never pay attention to him from now on, and he was afraid that he would transfer himself away from his side, which would undoubtedly announce his death sentence.

After all, "homosexuality" is still difficult for people to understand and identify, and even not respected. Even in today's modern society with such developed economic information, "homosexuality" has always been a thing that is not favored by others, how can he Wang Haitao reverse this indisputable fact?

Wang Haitao let his love sink so much; Love is so out of control; Love is so selfless. He knew it couldn't be; He knew there would be no results; He obviously loves very hard, but he still insists on his so-called love.

There is nothing wrong with love itself, and there is no sin in it! We have the right to love and be loved by others, and no matter who we love, at least that person can always make us find 10,000 reasons to love.

If there is a purpose in love, it is not pure love. Love should be regardless of ethnicity; Regardless of nationality; Regardless of race; Regardless of appearance; Regardless of character; Even regardless of gender! As long as we don't have some ugly purpose, we can throw off our arms and pursue the person you think is worthy of your love and dedication. Love is also to be reciprocated; willingly; No regrets to pay......

Love is good; Love is just; Love is faithful; Love is not jealousy; Love is not boasting; Love is not arrogant; Love is endurance; Love does not seek its own good; Love is not to be shy; Love is inclusive; Love is understanding; Love is forbearance; Love is kindness; Love is selfless giving......

For those who we don't love but love us, even if we can't accept it, at least we must maintain the respect that life should have! Although we cannot control the love and hatred of others, at least we must be good and manage ourselves! There should be no fear in love, and if there is fear, there will be no complete love.

Love can't be procrastinated, love must be deeply loved, if you don't love, please leave, so that he (she) can get the love of someone other than you. If you don't love, you must know how to refuse appropriately, and don't let others have any hopes and illusions about us, which will mislead others and ourselves, and will give birth to hatred because of love......

Love must also be brave and bold to say it, without hesitation, hesitation, or hesitation. It doesn't matter if you don't get accepted, it's a big deal to take a gorgeous turn, which not only liberates yourself, but also relaxes the soul, so that you can lock on to the next goal without regrets, start a new round of chasing, or usher in the romantic situation of being chased......

Wang Haitao doesn't understand this, he just blindly pays silently, never dares to strive for his own happiness, if you love him, you have to tell him boldly, let him know your love for him, so that he can also feel the love from you. Even if he doesn't accept it, although we give selflessly and unreservedly, if all the efforts and dedication are ultimately unsuccessful, then we can really make a gorgeous turn and retreat to the second, which is not a kind of happiness......

In the vast sea of people, God will always prepare a person for us who can stay with us for a lifetime, right? But people are often obsessed: this person is the love of my life! He (she) is the only one in my life, and I am reluctant to let go, not only can I not get liberation, but also make people feel entangled by nonsense, which can only make people more disgusted. Contradiction......

Wang Haitao is such a dead-hearted man, that is, he would rather give up the entire forest for the sake of a tree. A person who would rather hang himself from a tree than let himself live. Fortunately, he is not the kind of person who messes around, and he didn't do anything to make Zhang Fengyi hate him, he was just wishful thinking and didn't disturb the other party's unrequited love.

He has never looked at the girlfriend introduced to him by his mother, and he can find all kinds of reasons and excuses for every blind date arranged by his mother for him. This is very bad for his mother, who is bent on holding her grandson, who is also thirty-four years old.

Even if people in big cities today are very avant-garde and open-minded! Traditional ideas are not very heavy. There are still many single aristocrats in their forties! But what parent doesn't want to marry their children early, but they have their own wishes and concerns?

Wang Haitao is determined to defend Zhang Fengyi like a jade, he doesn't care how Zhang always thinks of him, and even whether he can accept and admit him in the end, he can't let anyone except him touch his body.

Wang Haitao is a person with a dead brain, once a certain person is identified, then this person is the whole of his life, his only one. He is definitely an ideal lover type, and he has definitely done it to Zhang Fengyi.

But the person he loves deeply really doesn't know anything, Wang Haitao, a person who can dig out his heart and lungs in front of true love, does not dare to confide in any of his thoughts in the face of this person he loves deeply, and is even afraid that that person will know what he thinks.

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