Li Yannan ran out in the middle of training.

For the team members who have always listened to Ning Shaoming's words, this is not a common thing, but everyone is not too worried, because Ning Shaoming is a quick-tempered and soft-hearted person, but they are more worried about Chang Shenghua, who said in the past that they should "prescribe the right medicine".

Hmm, I always feel that as soon as the female instructor makes a move, she will lose her skin if she doesn't die......

Chang Shenghua found Li Yannan near the kennel of the black-backed dog's eldest brother.

The eldest brother was playing on his stomach in a corner, rolling around from time to time, Li Yannan was sitting next to it, leaning his back against the wall, stroking its back, staring at the somewhat gloomy sky above his head with empty eyes, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

That action and demeanor are really different from the usual living treasure Li Yannan, Liu Xinglao said that he is the mascot of the first team, and I have never seen such a decadent and sad side of Li Yannan.

Chang Shenghua felt that the people in the Dragon Destroying Brigade were really interesting, everyone seemed to be so wanton, but there was an unspeakable shadow behind everyone.

Chang Shenghua stood at the dividing line between the two, watching them half indulge and half weep.

Maybe people are alive, there will be many contradictions that are difficult to reconcile, but when it comes to the susceptible people of the Dragon Destroying Brigade, it will always be more vividly reflected.

This is probably the reason why people who are more and more outstanding are more likely to have mental illness, the sick mind makes them more sensitive to the sorrows, sorrows, joys and joys of the world, and the more things they experience, the easier it is to go further than others to get in touch with things that others can't touch, but they are also more likely to collapse at a certain boundary.

Chang Sheng thought that it was actually a great thing that Ning Shaoming, who was a complete amateur, could gather such a group of people together and maintain that shaky balance.

Chang Shenghua didn't take the initiative to alarm Li Yannan, until he was finished in a daze and finally noticed the existence of Chang Shenghua, so she stepped on the snow and walked over slowly.

Li Yannan showed a somewhat cramped and resistantly expression.

Chang Shenghua walked up to him, found a random place to sit down, and said flatly: "You don't have to apologize, you yelled at me just now, I wasn't angry." ”

Li Yannan's crampedness became more serious.

Chang Shenghua said again: "But if you think I'm not good to your boss, I won't apologize for this." ”

Li Yannan immediately became a little angry.

Chang Shenghua looked at his changing expression with interest, "Actually, your meeting assessment is scheduled for yesterday, but you changed the order with others, why?" ”

Li Yannan said stiffly: "There is no why. ”

Chang Shenghua showed a clear expression, "You think I'm not a good person, so you don't want to talk to me?" ”

Li Yannan said a little angrily: "Do you think you are doing good deeds?" You're just playing us around, and even the boss listens to you, why are you still dissatisfied?! ”

Chang Shenghua heard the meaning of his words, "It seems that you have a big opinion on my practice of 'collecting money and not doing things'...... Relax, of course I'm not talking about money, it's just a reference, I'll put it another way, you think I'm lying to you, especially your boss? ”

Li Yannan's face was a little stiff, and there was a bit of accusation and incomprehension in his tone, "The boss is a good person, and he hasn't done anything bad to you, why don't you help him?" ”

Chang Shenghua couldn't help but laugh after hearing this, "If you help him because he is a good person, there will not be so many people in the world who don't want to be good people, but be a bad person or a bad person." ”

Li Yannan was stunned, that look...... It was as if Chang Shenghua could cry immediately if he said a few more words.

Chang Shenghua didn't joke anymore, smiled, and said, "Li Yannan." ”

Li Yannan subconsciously straightened his body, in fact, in the Dragon Destroying Brigade, everyone is used to calling each other by code names, only Chang Shenghua will call them by their names, which seems so out of place, but it also has a little more deterrent power of oppression, which makes people involuntarily listen carefully.

Chang Shenghua looked at him seriously, Li Yannan noticed that this was the other party's expression when he officially entered the working state, and he was a little resistant, but Chang Shenghua just looked at him like this, he couldn't help but be dragged by the other party's thoughts, and slowly relaxed.

Chang Sheng saw that his shoulders were not so tense, so he said slowly: "We have talked a few times, right, you are a high-achieving student, living in a very poor county, and you were admitted to a well-known university in China with high scores......

Li Yannan's lips moved a few times, but he didn't interrupt her speech.

"Your talent is very good, you ended the recruit training with the first place in the recruit camp when you were in the recruit camp, and you were the commander of an infantry regiment who went to pick people, and you were appreciated by him and became the acting captain of a recruit infantry team, and everyone wondered if you had gone through the back door because of this incident, and you used to pretend to be stupid and pretend not to understand the way those people looked at you...... But it didn't work, they still target you. ”

Li Yannan seemed to be stabbed by her scar in the center, his face turned slightly pale, and the eldest brother next to him whispered "woo", his hands trembled, and fell on the eldest brother's back to warm up as if he was afraid of the cold.

In fact, he didn't expect Chang Shenghua to remember it so clearly, after all, there are dozens of people in Dragon Destroyer, and everyone has a different story, but Chang Shenghua even said the details correctly.

Chang Shenghua didn't seem to notice Li Yannan's small movements, and continued: "You didn't have a good time in the two years you enlisted, when you were competing for a non-commissioned officer quota to stay in the army, you were plotted and thrown on the way to the assessment...... You didn't tell me who that veteran was, you just said that he made you think that there aren't really that many bad people in the world. ”

Li Yannan lowered his eyelids, "He's just a passerby......"

"That person is Ning Shaoming," Chang Shenghua met Li Yannan's surprised gaze and said lightly, "Right?" ”

Li Yannan was a little stunned, "No......"

"It seems that I guessed correctly, of course it's not difficult to guess," Chang Shenghua made a gesture of spreading his hands, "but obviously, Ning Shaoming didn't remember who you were, he only knew that there was a little soldier cub named Pumpkin who admired him very much, he went to the infantry battalion to dig people, and after someone saw him, he desperately jumped into his fire pit." ”

In the Dragon Destroying Brigade, not everyone was kicked out by the original unit, and in the later stage after the Dragon Destroying became famous, many soldiers came to participate in the selection.

Li Yannan was a little angry by Chang Sheng's words, "This is not a fire pit!" There's nothing wrong with dragon destroyers! ”

Chang Shenghua smiled, "You should really tell your boss that you are a brainless fan that he has hidden for many years, and you are a fan of him when you don't know who he is." ”

Li Yannan said in a rough voice: "There is no one in the Dragon Destroying who doesn't like the boss!" ”

If Ning Shaoming was in front of him, Chang Shenghua really wanted to make fun of his heartthrob and 10,000 hatred attributes, I really don't know how a person can collect these two in one.

She said slowly: "Ning Shaoming, when Uncle Lei Feng sent you to the assessment, what did he say to you?" ”

Li Yannan was stunned and didn't say anything for a while.

Chang Shenghua glanced at his action of stroking his eldest brother, "If you just let you take a ride, you shouldn't be so grateful to your boss." ”

Li Yannan argued: "Isn't it normal for the grace of a drop of water to be reciprocated? ”

"Oh?" Chang Shenghua seemed to be smiling, "You Yongquan is eager to be a man according to his standards?" ”

Li Yannan was speechless for a while.

Chang Shenghua earnestly induced: "Don't you want me to know that he is a good person who deserves to be rewarded?" Let's talk about it, and let me see how good he really is. ”

Li Yannan was really a little moved, and a complicated look flashed in his eyes, full of memories and warmth, "I don't need you to admit it, he is a good person, and he shouldn't be embarrassed all the time." ”

Chang Shenghua thought about Ning Shaoming's usual fried-haired and short-tempered appearance, noncommittal.

How to put it, the heart is too good, and it is also a fatal weakness.

Li Yannan was silent for a few seconds, as if he was sorting out his words, "Instructor, you are a psychiatrist, and you know what is wrong with me...... I'm not as optimistic as I seem, I'm not as carefree as everyone says, like the boss, right? ”

Chang Shenghua did not say anything.

Depression and anxiety are the most frequent mental illnesses regardless of region or race, and the Dragon Destroyer Brigade is no exception.

For Li Yannan, Chang Sheng's painting can only be summed up in one story - the clown amuses the crowd, but the clown is unhappy.

Li Yannan smiled a little self-deprecatingly, "I also think it's not good for me to be so hypocritical as a big man all day long, but I really can't be happy, I can't eat alone, I can't sleep well, I can't laugh when I listen to jokes, how can I be happy?" ”

Chang Shenghua nodded and said: "I can't empathize, but I can understand that this is not hypocrisy, you are just sick like a cold, no one can ask that a sick person must be happy." ”

She spoke calmly and objectively, as if a doctor were stating the facts, without any sympathy or discrimination.

Li Yannan still couldn't help but have a sour nose, and continued in a somewhat nasal voice: "When I first saw the boss, I thought he was also such a person. ”

At that time, Ning Shaoming drove past him, and he saw the other party's depressed and smoking side face from the open window, full of blank and lonely expression, but after noticing him, Ning Shaoming reversed the car and came back, with a flirtatious smile on his face, and he didn't ask him why he couldn't be alone in the wild, but just asked him if he wanted to take a ride.

"Maybe my expression was too ugly at that time, he made a lot of jokes with me, I laughed, and he said - life is hard enough, don't embarrass yourself, cry when you should cry, laugh when you should laugh."

"I asked him, do you cry when you're upset?"

Then Ning Shaoming laughed a few times, and said in a tone that seemed to be a joke, yes, turn on the stereo, play rock music, and then cry under the covers, and then get up after crying, and he is a good man again.

Chang Shenghua couldn't help but shake his head after hearing this—it was worthy of Ning Shaoming's style.

Li Yannan looked down at the eldest brother, who seemed to sense his emotions, stretched out his tongue and licked the back of his hand.

He touched his eldest brother's head and said, "I also asked him, what if it's useless to cry and he feels that he can't live anymore?" ”