No matter what I asked in my heart, my sister in the photo would not give me any answer. Although this is a matter of course.

When it was time to fall asleep, even when I went back to my bed, I couldn't fall asleep that day. I don't know why, Tang Ling's face appeared in front of her, and she refused to disappear.

"When am I going to die?"

Her voice kept looping in my head. It's like the lyrics of a favorite song, or those magical advertising songs, and they keep repeating in my head.

The next day, when I arrived at school and opened my bag, I found Dove's chocolates inside.

What can I do, I thought.

Because of that kind of thing that happened, I couldn't give it to her.

After a period of frustration, I finally decided to leave this to her, and I went to her hospital room again after school.

On the way, I kept thinking.

Going to her every day like this, wouldn't it be a problem for her? Maybe she didn't want to see me again, the one who broke her important things?

If you think about it, it's still embarrassing. It's better that at that time, she lost her temper directly at me. Just vent your feelings and anger on me, and I'll be more relaxed. I felt a dull ache in my heart, and it was a boredom for me.

Why would I still want to have something to do with her even after all this unpleasant feeling?

I thought it was incredible myself. Why is that.

That's probably ...... It must be, she has some resemblance to my sister Xiaoyan.

It doesn't mean that they look alike. Their personalities are also very different. But, as indescribable as it may be, there is something about them that resemble them. Probably, the word temperament is the closest. Somewhere Tang Ling is very similar to Xiaoyan at that time.

I've always been puzzled about my sister's death.

I think if you are with Tang Ling, maybe you will understand.

Stopping in front of the hospital room, I took a deep breath. Deeply, slowly, inhale, then exhale.

After that, I finally made up my mind and walked in.

Just like when she first came here before, Tang Ling was still on the innermost bed in the multi-person ward. On closer inspection, she looked at the notebook as if she was writing something. It was a brand new notebook. She spread the notebook on the bed table with its slender legs and wrote it wholeheartedly. Her side face looks very serious, making it difficult to talk. For a moment, I hesitated. At this point, as if sensing the breath, she noticed me and looked up.

"Since you're here, wouldn't it be nice to say hello directly."

She looked at me incredulously and said.

"What are you writing about?"

She looks very ordinary. Gone are the feeling of breaking with a slight touch of the light touch. But, no, maybe it was at this point that she made me feel a little cold inexplicably.

"Secret."

She picked up the notebook, as if to hide its contents, and only showed me the back cover.

"Got it."

Hey, it must be a diary or something, anyway. I didn't dig any further and gently placed the chocolate on the table.

"Wow - it's Dove's white chocolate!"

Tang Ling's eyes widened, she took the chocolate in her hand, and asked me, "Can I eat it?" I nodded, and she carefully opened the package and bit down with a click.

"It's a little different from regular chocolate."

I don't know why she was so happy, she smiled happily.

"I'll tell you a little bit."

I didn't know what she was talking about for a while, but I quickly came back to my senses that she was talking about notebooks.

"I, actually, I was just sorting out what I wanted to do before I died."

This one...... I always feel like I've heard it elsewhere. In the face of death, I look back on my life and complete the things I couldn't do, regrets, and wishes in the end. I think that's a very common idea. For example, a touching goodbye, a celebrity who wants to meet each other, and so on.

"During the previous check-up, I asked the doctor how much time I had to live. Then the doctor replied to me very embarrassedly, 'I don't know the specifics, but it should be fine for half a year'. What a quack. What do you think of human life? Then, I thought that I would have a rare opportunity to spend the precious time I had left as meaningfully as possible. ”

After saying it in one breath, she frowned slightly.

"Still, it can't be done."

"Why?"

"Because I can't go out. My condition is already quite serious and I am absolutely forbidden to go out now. The doctor told me very seriously. ”

At that time, an idea suddenly came to mind.

That's not a commendable idea at all.

But I'm just curious to know.

What the hell was written in that notebook?

For some reason, I care.

What did Tang Ling want to do before she died.

"Well, can you let me help?"

So, I accidentally said it.

She looked at me as if taken aback.

"Why?"

"I just want you to atone for me and for breaking the crystal ball. I think I did something irreparable. However, just apologizing always feels that it is not enough, but the apology is too thin. Although I may not be able to tell...... But even if you say that as long as I can do it, I will do it. ”

"Really?"

After a short silence, Tang Ling said softly.

"Can you really do anything?"

The intonation all rises by a chromatic scale. It's like a temptation.

"Definitely, I promise."

I said it.

She stared straight into my face, suddenly widened her eyes, and let out an "ahhhh

"I suddenly had a great idea!"

I don't know what she's thinking. Contrary to her previous troubled appearance, her expression was as if it was suddenly cloudy and clear.

"Now, will you help me?"

At that time, I suddenly had a strange premonition.

A premonition that if you continue to listen to it, you won't be able to turn back.

…… But even so, I just replied as if I had fallen into her eyes.

"What should I do?"

In this way, my wonderful fate with Tang Ling began like this.

"I hope Xiaotian can help me with this."

After Tang Ling finished speaking, she smiled a little shyly. Her smile was a little boyish.

“…… Ha? ”

I didn't understand what she said.

"I hope that Xiaotian can replace me and do what I wanted to do before I die. Then, tell me your thoughts after doing it. ”

"This is too nonsense......"

I replied a little speechlessly. At this time, there are a hundred question marks floating in my mind.

And is there any point in doing so. If it were me, it would only be uncomfortable for me to do what I wanted to do but be done by someone else. But Tang Ling didn't seem to think so.

"Because, there is no way. It would be impossible for me to go out even if I wanted to go out again. There is no other way. Don't you think that's a great idea? ”

Tang Ling was like talking to herself. She actually wanted to come by herself, she must have thought so at first. But there is a saying in the world that you can't help yourself, and I can understand that.

“…… Hey, anyway, I know what you want to say. I'll replace Tang Ling and do what Tang Ling wants. Then, I'll tell you what I think. ”

Still a little confused, I said as I reflected on her words.

"That's it!"

She seemed a little happy and smiled.

"It's not good to suddenly hand over the difficult things to you, so let's start with the simplest. Which is better......"

Tang Ling opened the notebook as she spoke, scanning it with serious eyes. After that, suddenly a wicked smile appeared on his face and said to me.

"Then without further ado, I have something I want to ask you......"

To be honest, I only had a bad premonition in my mind.

"I want to go to an amusement park before I die."

According to her, she only went to an amusement park with her parents when she was very young. What would it be like to go to the amusement park after being sensible, she seemed to be very interested in this.

Because I said that I wanted to achieve it before I died, I thought it was a big deal. I was ready for a great dream of the future that I couldn't realize. But her wish was so humble and so small. So at first, I was a little confused.

"So? …… That is......"

After that, I thought about it for a while, and finally remembered that it was me who did it. I couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed.

"So I hope that Xiaotian can go to the amusement park for me."

"No, wait...... Are you kidding? ”

"Really?"

Tang Ling replied generously, smiling mischievously.

A week later, for some reason, I ended up at a famous theme park outside the prefecture.

Of course, I came alone.

What sad thing happened to make a man who is not too big come to the amusement park alone?

Basically, amusement parks are places where you come with your family or boyfriend or girlfriend. That's pretty much it. I don't think anyone would come alone.

And it's still Golden Week. As far as the eye can see, there are so many people. Sure enough, they are all groups of couples, family, friends, etc. If you come to someone like me, of course, you won't find a second one.

It's not normal for a man to come to an amusement park alone. He's either an amusement park fanatic or has a broken head. But I'm not either, I'm not an amusement park fanatic, and I don't want to say I've got something wrong with my head.

……。

However, I also have a so-called itinerary. I didn't come to the amusement park just to play. No, it's for fun, but for me it's not just playing.

The initial destination is, a roller coaster.

I bought my ticket with a gloomy mood and stood in the queue for the roller coaster. I've heard that roller coasters have to wait for a full hour. Ah, I want to go home. It's really annoying.

By the way, I hate roller coasters a lot. I sat once when I was a kid and never sat again. I really don't understand what that stuff means. What's the point of sitting in an open-air facility and running around at a breakneck speed? I don't understand at all. Although it is not afraid, it is certainly not afraid of anything...... But anyway, I don't want to sit at all.

Never sit again.

I think it was the worst manned vehicle ever built.

I got off the roller coaster, shuffling along with an indescribable sense of fatigue. My stomach was turning upside down, and almost all the toast bread I ate in the morning was vomited. It's a bad feeling. The mood couldn't have been worse.

But even so, what I have to do is not finished.

Next, go to the store named by Tang Ling. It was a café in an amusement park that mainly sold dim sum. I waited in line for about thirty minutes before I got inside. From this point of view, it is not so much that I am here to play, but that I am here to queue up. Ninety-five percent of the people in the queue were couples. This shop is the shop with this sweet atmosphere.

Many clerks in cute uniforms walk around the store. It seems that the uniform itself is called one of the two main features of the store, but to be honest, I have no interest in uniforms at all. One of the clerks came over with the menu, and I didn't even look at it, as if I was venting and ordered.

The store was noisy, and I was a man who ordered a bunch of couples to eat in a store full of couples. "What", "It's terrible", "It's terrible", I know everyone is quietly taking me as a topic. I looked up at the ceiling, closed my eyes, and tried to isolate my consciousness from the outside world.

What kind of punishment game is this?

I want to disappear, I want to disappear, I want to disappear.

Just as I was repeating this sentence in my head, I ordered snacks and drinks.

It looks like these things are about the weight of two or three people.

Do you have to eat all of this alone......