Chapter 168: Learning to Let Go
"Shen Yuexi, you are sick, what are you doing so close to me?"
I was suddenly a little annoyed and angry, and when I groped Shen Yuexi, I felt that his flesh was tight, and it must have hurt a lot, and I felt a little guilty in my heart.
"Where did it hit? Does it matter? I can't see you stay away from me, it's rude to be so close, really. ”
"Rude to your sister, is Lao Tzu a beast to bully a blind man?" He yelled angrily, and grabbed my hand again, "It's okay, it's just that my proud nose almost knocked it crooked, and it bleeds a little." ”
I was embarrassed, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, you can take me to the front room." ”
"Luo Xiaoqi, sit down!"
Shen Yuexi helped me to the edge of the bed and sat down, closed the door before saying to me: "Are you Xiao Yige at the mercy of ordinary people?" If he wants to leave, no one can stop him, and if he doesn't want to go, no one can take him with him. ”
"But the elders of the Demon Sect want to take the academy to open the knife?"
"Could it be that Master is pretending to be good-looking? He was made a god at the age of six, and he is the god of the heavenly realm, no matter how arrogant and domineering those elders are, they have to give some face, right? There is also Daochang Lu, Master Wuchen, they are all powerful Xuanzong who have entered the sect, and they are more than enough compared to those elders, right? ”
After a pause, he added: "And, just like you, what else can you do when you go out and be cannon fodder?" Do you think you can do anything? ”
"I ......" Shen Yuexi's words made my face red, I groped for his ears and twisted them fiercely, and said angrily: "What are you talking nonsense about? ”
Shen Yuexi also pinched my face, and said quietly: "Luo Xiaoqi, I see that you don't want to stop the Demon Sect Elder from attacking the academy at all, but want to stop Xiao Yige from leaving, are you afraid that he will go?" ”
"What nonsense are you talking about."
I was poked in the heart by this guy, and I was immediately a little embarrassed.
That's right, I'm just afraid that my little brother will leave. He has become a demon, staying in these places in the world, and the powerful demonic nature on his body will devour all the living beings and spiritual energy around him.
There was a Zhuxian Array that suppressed the demonic nature before, and it was naturally safe and sound.
But now the entire Qishan and the surrounding mountains have long been unable to see the slightest shade of green, the lush greenery of the past has become a withered yellow, and all the beasts in the mountains have died.
The little brother understands these in his heart.
But if he goes, what about me, what shall I do?
I can't even bear the ferocious aura of Yunding, let alone go to the Demon Realm. It is said that there is no grass growing there, and the entire Demon Sect Mountain Gate is filled with a strong fierce atmosphere.
It's a place rejected by righteousness, how can I survive?
Suddenly, I realized what it meant to be close at hand but out of reach. I want to get close to my little brother, I want to follow him through thick and thin, but God doesn't fulfill people's wishes.
I was silent for a long time before I asked Shen Yuexi again, "Then what's going on outside now?" Did the little brother promise to go with them? ”
"I didn't go to the front hall, Master asked me to come here to watch you, he was worried that you would do something stupid. You don't have to worry about the affairs of the Demon Sect, and you can't take care of it. ”
"Shen Yuexi, then you said that the little brother is him, will he leave?"
"Do you think he will stay, leave behind the scourge of the world? Do you know how many people and livestock have died on the way to the four elders of the Demon Sect? ”
“……”
I was speechless, and suddenly a sadness came over my heart, and my eyes began to ache faintly, and I felt a wet liquid gushing out of my eyes, and I didn't know whether it was tears or blood.
Shen Yuexi grabbed my shoulder and wiped it on my face with a tissue, "Luo Xiaoqi, don't you want these eyes?" You're crying all blood, you know? The gauze is all soaked. ”
I choked up, "I can't help it, I don't want my little brother to leave." ”
"You idiot?" Shen Yuexi suddenly became angry and roared: "Isn't it life and death, why are you crying, is he the only man in the world?" Luo Xiaoqi, if you continue like this, you are ready to be blind for the rest of your life. ”
"You, what are you fierce?"
"Luo Xiaoqi, you have experienced ten reincarnations, and each time you have to be burned by the Red Lotus Karma Fire, you have become neither human nor ghost, you really don't know what's going on?"
"I don't want to know."
"Don't want to know, I'm also going to tell you that Xiao Yige has done so much for you because he owes you. If he hadn't put a blood curse with his life, how would you have been entangled with him for thousands of years? He doesn't let you go because he loves you, but because he is unwilling to become a fallen immortal! ”
Shen Yuexi's words shocked me to the point that my scalp was numb, I knew it before, but the little brother he said used his life to entangled me with a blood curse for thousands of years, what does this mean?
What does it mean that he doesn't let me go is not to love me, but to be unwilling? Why was he unwilling?
I grabbed Shen Yuexi's hand and said word by word: "You tell me clearly, Shen Yuexi, you tell me clearly, what do you know?" What are you talking about? ”
"Okay, don't think about it too much, you rest for a while, I'll go to the front hall to have a look, and ask Master to come and show you your eyes." He hesitated, wiped the tears from my face, got up and left, and didn't say anything else.
I didn't rest, I cautiously groped my way to the window, opened it, and looked up at the clouds. I couldn't see anything, but I thought my little brother might be there.
He used to sit on the edge of a cliff and meditate, and I could see that many days and nights were spent like this.
He looks at the scenery from the mountains, but he is the scenery in my eyes.
Is he here at this time?
I tried to open the Heavenly Eye to see what was going on outside, but I didn't know if it was sealed by the master with a talisman or what, so I couldn't open the Heavenly Eye at all, so I just gave up.
"With such a noble status, how can the Lord inhabit this land of projectiles? Please return to the Demon Realm with us to take over the position of the Demon Sect Ancestor and dominate the Demon Realm. ”
"Please return to the Demon Realm!"
Suddenly, a loud voice came, mixed with an unprecedented ferocity. The window that I had just held up fell with a "pop" and hit the back of my hand holding the window.
I bared my teeth in pain, and was about to open the window again, but a hand reached out from behind me and stopped me, "Don't open it, it's too angry outside, and you won't be able to stand it just after your eyes are changed." ”
"Master." I turned my head and fumbled, and found that Mr. Nian was right in front of me, and lowered my head and said, "I, I just want to see, oh no, I want to hear it." ”
"Qi'er, the Demon Sect is an existence against the sky, I don't want you to be too involved with that side, lest you end up in ashes."
Mr. Nian took my hand that had just been smashed by the window and rubbed it, pulled me to the edge of the bed and sat down, and began to change the gauze on my eyes.
While changing, he persuaded me bitterly, "Qi'er, let him go, what's the use of being entangled like this all the time?" He has become a demon and cannot change anything. ”
"Down? Master, you must not have loved anyone, that's why it's so easy to say. If I can let go of my little brother, I will let go as early as when he refined Ling'er into a Jingyuan. ”
Saying that, I had a sour nose, sniffed and said, "Master, some things are engraved in the bones, in the flesh and blood, even if the flowers are scattered, you can't let go." ”
Mr. Nian was silent for a long time before he said: "Silly girl, how old are you to talk to Master in such an old-fashioned manner, how do you know that I haven't loved anyone for thousands of years?" ”
"And who have you loved? Is she also an immortal? ”
"She's beautiful and good!"
Listening to Master's slightly sad tone, I thought that his love must not be happy either, so I didn't ask any more questions.
Mr. Nian carefully changed the gauze for me, while I pricked up my ears to listen to the situation outside. It's just a little noisy, and I can't hear it clearly, as if Daochang Lu and Master Wuchen are there.
After changing the gauze, the master said again: "Qi'er, you can't cry anymore with these eyes, if you can't make a contract, your efforts will be wasted." Now the yin and yang worlds are afraid that there is no more suitable eye than this, you have to be obedient. ”
"I see, Master."
I can hear Mr. Nian's worries, and I don't want to mention the matter of my little brother again, after all, we are just masters and apprentices, and my emotional things are always not good to annoy others.
Then he helped me to the bed and lay down and tucked the quilt. I don't know what he did, and suddenly I couldn't hear anything, and the room was eerily quiet.
I couldn't hear the voice and was a little frightened, so I hurriedly said, "Master, Master, are you leaving?" ”
"I'm here, go to sleep, I'll leave when you're asleep!"
He was right next to me, so I couldn't make a little move, and I fell asleep. In a daze, I felt the warm fingertips slide across my face, very gently.
I subconsciously shouted "little brother".