The doctor, who did not have a medical license, was about 50 years old, and it was said that he was a retired nurse from a hospital, and his skills in abortion were not bad. She simply touched Zhang Xiaogui's belly, and coldly ordered her to change her clothes and go to the operating room behind the black clinic.

The couple has been silent. The husband lit a low-quality cigarette with a trembling hand, smoked two puffs, and handed it to her. Zhang Xiaogui took it and put it in his mouth, keeping it in his mouth, looking at the dim fire at the top of the cigarette and the faintly rising smoke.

I was stunned for a long time before I took a sip.

The smoke ring spit out of his mouth, Zhang Xiaogui couldn't help but glance at his already bulging belly, and shed tears again.

"Otherwise, let's stop fighting. Born! Her husband saw her uncomfortable and held back this sentence.

Zhang Xiaogui glared at him: "Born? What to raise? We don't have any money to rent a house for dinner next month! ”

"Anyway, there's always a way." Her husband stammered and snatched the cigarette from her mouth and took a few puffs. Looking at his bitter face that reflected a bright and shiny glow with the brightness of the smoke, Zhang Xiaogui was even more angry.

"What's the solution? The children who are born are just suffering with us. I'd rather throw her life down the drain before it even starts than have her live a hard life with us. Zhang Xiaogui shook his head.

The husband didn't speak again, just smiled bitterly with his hands and feet.

Zhang Xiaogui didn't speak again, she gritted her teeth and walked straight into the operating room. The so-called operating room was nothing more than a dirty bed, and the sheets had been washed so that they could not be seen in their original color, and they were all stained with blood.

She lay down as the unlicensed doctor had told, her hands and feet tied to the operating frame. She looked at the roof of the tin house in panic and listened to the thunder outside. I only felt a cold surgical instrument touch my lower body, and then there was a heart-rending pain, and the pain was so painful that I almost fainted.

That kind of pain can not be forgotten by Zhang Xiaogui to this day. What I can't forget is that the surgical tray has been cut to pieces, and the hands and feet are separated from the body of my unborn baby.

I don't know if it's retribution, but after ten years, her and her husband's lives have gradually improved, and they are earning more and more money. But I was never able to get pregnant again.

Maybe it's really retribution.

The increase of human age will be accompanied by different periods of hormone secretion, and after the age of 28, life is more and more stable. Suddenly, one day, she found that her husband was envious when he saw someone else's child, and his eyes were unwilling to blink. Children with relatives are also very patient.

Maybe it's time to have a baby, she thought. I now have the ability to raise a baby and give her a happy life.

My husband is very wooden and never says anything he doesn't like in front of him. Even if you think about it in your heart, you keep it in your heart, afraid that you will be unhappy.

When Zhang Xiaogui told her plan to have a baby, her husband was going crazy, and he was not good at expressing it, and he hugged her several times. Even when I went to bed at night, I woke up laughing many times. I don't know if I dreamed of a baby.

But the truth gave the couple a blow to the head. The next day, she went to the hospital for a prenatal check-up, but was found to be infertility. The years that followed were almost torture. She didn't go to work anymore and willingly raised her body at home and prepared to have a child.

From Beijing to Shanghai, from New York to London, from well-known doctors at home and abroad to warlocks. For several years, both husband and wife searched for it. In the end, Zhang Xiaogui realized how serious his infertility was!

Thankfully, modern science has reached an awesome level.

Zhang Xiaogui underwent artificial insemination surgery. Her eggs and her husband's sperm were artificially selected and fertilized, then cultured into embryos in the hospital and finally injected into Zhang Xiaogui's uterus.

The doctor said that the baby in her womb was fragile and she could not do any strenuous exercise.

If you don't exercise, don't exercise. Zhang Xiaogui felt that as long as the crystallization of the two could be born, everything would matter. She never got out of bed after returning home from the hospital. Meals, the maid of the house will push her bed. In the bath, the maid will wipe her body with a damp cloth. Even when he urinated, Zhang Xiaogui was wearing diapers, afraid of having a fetus when he went to the toilet.

Every other day, she even injects pangolin solution into ****, which is said to be effective in protecting the fetus.

After her husband finishes work every day, he always can't wait to rush home, looking at her bulging belly day by day. The fool did not dare to touch it, so he looked with his eyes, and sat for hours at a time, and did not feel tired, until he saw her asleep. Every time she sees her husband's loving expression looking at her belly, Zhang Xiaogui feels very happy.

Every woman's choice is different, and compared to a strong woman, her Zhang Xiaogui's wish has always been simple. Have a good husband, a solid family, and one or two children.

But happiness within reach may be a luxury for some people.

The child, who was pregnant for more than three months, completely gave Zhang Xiaogui a desperate blow one morning. That day, she felt wet in her lower body, and suddenly had a bad premonition. Sure enough, when I touched it with my hand, I only touched the blood on the palm of my hand.

She had a miscarriage.

Since then, the road of artificial insemination has also been completely cut off.

Her husband comforted her that when she was thirty-six years old, if she could not give birth to one, she would adopt one. Don't you like your daughter? Let's just adopt a daughter!

With such a caring husband, what else can Zhang Xiaogui say. She couldn't say anything, she just felt guilty, guilty that she couldn't give birth to a baby of her own for her husband who loved her so much.

She hated, hated why she didn't stick to it ten years ago. Only now does she understand that it doesn't matter how much money there is. The most important thing is whether you can have a baby of your own, which is the continuation of the lives of the two.

Dink has Dink's own concept of life. But people who are crazy and want to have a baby will have a chemical reaction with this little cute thing.

This year, Zhang Xiaogui is just thirty-six. Beijing's examination report also came out, and his uterine environment was really unable to conceive himself. She died and discussed with her husband for nearly half a month, and finally planned to adopt one.

However, there are always countless buts in life that make people want to swear words. As soon as he entered the world of child adoption, Zhang Xiaogui knew that it was more difficult to adopt a healthy baby than to give birth to one.

Babies abandoned by parents are usually disabled. And the healthy ones are the newborn babies, and many families who have been infertile for many years want to adopt.

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