The Primal Wander

Biluo felt like she was floating upwards uncontrollably, the sky was scattered with sparkling light, everything was so beautiful, so complete, it seemed that nothing could make her feel inadequate.

The dark world around her, stretching infinitely, seemed to have no end, and she floated beyond a ray of light, and began to move upward, and soon felt that she was moving forward, but it was not long before she felt herself drifting backwards again.

Even so, she didn't feel that she had troubles and anxious emotions, emotions had been abandoned to the body the moment she left the body, and now she was just a thought, a thought, which could be a thousand miles at any time, and could be a second for thousands of years.

She floated in the light, and as the light rose and fell, it seemed like a long time, and then it seemed like a moment, and she gradually focused her attention from the whole light to the point of light in it.

After paying attention for a moment, she realized that the light was not eternal, but always changing, its quantity and speed were constantly changing, never the same moment, and never a moment stopped.

She wanted to reach out and grab a point of light, but she couldn't feel her arm, slowly, she couldn't feel her body, she turned into a mass of invisible matter, and her whole body began to emit light, just like this billions of rivers of light, she was just one of the billions of points of light in this river of light, she merged into this river of light, and with it rushed and undulated.

Then she saw some scenes that she hadn't seen just now, she saw a point of light coming to the river of light, and then seeing the point of light leaving the river of light, and slowly, she saw countless points of light coming in at one end of the river and going out from the other side of the river.

At this moment, she suddenly realized in her heart that this river does not exist anywhere, any space, any level, it only exists in time, and all time has traces and tracks here, this is a river of time.

At the moment she woke up, she broke away from the river of time and drifted away, following the trajectory of the river of light, flying farther and higher.

At the end of the endless darkness, she saw the only light in the darkness, a bright and dazzling light, warm, happy, peaceful...... It's as if all the best words in the world should be used here.

The moment she saw the light, it was as if she had crossed countless darkness and finally saw the light, and she ran to the light with all her heart.

The light was dazzling and scorching, and the closer she got, the more she felt her spirit blur a little, and even so, she wanted to rush over, to get closer to the light.

She even felt that as long as she could get close and integrate into it, even if it was worth giving up everything about herself, it was this self-consciousness that was sinful and wrong, and it was self-awareness that prevented her from integrating into that light.

I'm going to forget myself, I'm going to give up my sinful self, I'm going to give up everything so I can be in that light......

This thought came to her mind, and it was like taking root and could no longer be changed.

She wished that with a knife in her hand, she could cut herself apart, tear herself into pieces, so that there would be no self, no self limitation, no self as an obstacle, no sin of individual thinking, only it, they, they would ...... together

Isn't that so, she can merge with that light, and she can be a part of them......

She hazely thought it was a good idea, just as she was about to open her mouth to bite herself, ready to tear herself apart......

A voice that seemed to come from nine heavens away suddenly came, striking on her soul word by word.