I looked very distressed, motherhood was instantly stimulated, walked over and gently hugged his head into his arms, infinitely gentle caressing.

"You know what? Last night, Qiu Feng and Keren both persuaded me not to keep this child, and they were both questioning who the child's father was. But I insisted on staying, and they didn't understand. Nobody understands me...... I, I feel so lonely, so uncomfortable. ”

As he spoke, he began to sob helplessly, burying his face in my arms and letting out tears.

I was deeply touched, and tears fell like rain in an instant, thinking of Wang Feng's classic song, "Orphans of the Beautiful World".

*

Sometimes, I feel lost and feel like a piece of grass;

Sometimes, I fall into emptiness and I don't know why;

Time has passed, and I'm still here;

I've fallen into a deep vortex......

Baby, behold the moon rising in the distance over the wilderness;

Please hold me tight again, I feel cold, I feel pain......

*

No matter what the future holds, at this moment, I can't bear to let him be lonely, I can't bear to let him feel cold.

"Qiu Feng, they won't understand, no matter what the parents do, the children are innocent! He has the right to come into this world, and I won't ...... will not let him become the second Pei Kai. ”

This sentence immediately crushed me.

"Xiao Kai ......"

I hugged his head tightly, tears dripping down his head like beads of broken thread. knows very well that he is talking about children on the surface, but he is actually talking about himself. At this moment, I felt infinitely sorry for him, the sudden truth of his life experience, and the misunderstanding of incest, really tormented his heart.

I think of a saying: smart is mistaken by smart.

I don't know if I'm talking about Pei Kai......

In his arms, he let out a long sigh after crying. Then he wiped his tears with my hospital gown, raised his eyes and looked at me very sincerely, blinking his eyes with an innocent expression:

"Xia Luo, I don't ask you to stay, I just ask you to leave the child to me. Even if you marry someone else in the future and don't want to recognize him, I will never force it, okay? ”

Having said that, I can't bear to refuse. I can only nod my head and agree, and then find a chance to talk to him in a few days.

But this time, it seems that God is going to cut through the mess quickly?

Because Pei Kai really wanted this child, he blocked the news of my pregnancy, refused anyone to visit, and almost isolated me in the ward.

He is responsible for my food and daily life, and no one is allowed to interfere, including the nurses. He was afraid that someone with bad intentions would drug me and make me have a miscarriage.

But no matter how cautious he is, there will eventually be people who are "pervasive".

……

To tell the truth, when I reunited with Pei Kai many years later, I still haven't figured out how the child was miscarried this time. There are too many suspects, and Xia Luo's pregnancy can't be covered at all. Even though I didn't want the baby, I didn't kill him or her on the day of the miscarriage.

Someone released a dark arrow to kill the child without knowing it, and it also killed Pei Kai's last glimmer of hope......

He's in trouble!

Now let's talk about my miscarriage.

……

I can see that Pei Kai is really nervous about this child, and the next day I heard that Dean Jiang came back from Beijing, and he immediately went through the discharge procedures for me. I was worried that the hospital was full of President Jiang's people, and the child in my belly was not safe.

I didn't refuse, Pei Kai was very haggard in the past two days, always suspicious, and always felt that the whole world was going to attack the child in my belly. I looked very distressed, and it was difficult to say that I would let the child flow away.

When I was discharged from the hospital, I met Jiang Aiping in the corridor, and this was the first time I saw her: a typical image of a good wife and mother, although she was wearing a white coat, she did not have the cold feeling that female doctors often have.

When she saw Pei Kai helping me out of the hospital, she paused, sighed, stepped forward, frowned and persuaded:

"Xiao Kai, I heard. It was a good thing to be pregnant, but this baby ......"

Before he finished speaking, he was coldly interrupted by Pei Kai: "My business has nothing to do with you, please let me!" ”

Then, he resolutely passed by her.

Jiang Aiping was gloomy, and her heart was cold......

I was very anxious when I saw this, so I cautiously persuaded Pei Kai: "Xiao Kai, have a good talk with your mother, is it okay?" ”

He retorted angrily: "Is she my mother?!" ”

I was stunned, frowned and blamed, "How can you say that? I've been raising you for twenty years. ”

I thought that I was not a biological mother, but I was also an adoptive mother, do you need to be so cold and ruthless?

"She said it herself! Tell Pei Songpu to take Xia Wenlin's son and get out! Pei Kai's grievances erupted suddenly, and he roared angrily with red eyes, "You go and ask her Dean Jiang, did she say this personally?!" ”

"......" I was stunned and speechless.

It is hard to imagine what kind of family war happened in the Pei family after the secret was revealed. At that time, what kind of pain and abuse was Pei Kai?

Although I can understand Jiang Aiping's anger after discovering that she was deceived for twenty years, I can't agree that she actually said such hurtful things in front of her son......

Suddenly remembered what Pei Kai had just said, an orphan in the beautiful world!

"Xiaokai, mom is angry, I didn't want to be heard by you......" Jiang Aiping turned around and explained anxiously.

I breathed a sigh of relief, fortunately, I didn't say it in front of my son, I was overheard by Pei Kai.

"Don't explain!! I didn't complain about you, I felt uncomfortable that you went to Pei Songpu to get angry, he was the only one who lied to you, and he had nothing to do with me. Pei Kai's attitude is still cold, "In the future, everyone will go their own way, I, Pei Kai, have no parents, only a wife and son!" ”

As he spoke, he resolutely left.

I can't persuade anything anymore, and my heart is infinitely heavy. From his last words, I could feel that he was on the verge of despair, desperately trying to grasp a life-saving straw. Perhaps at this time in Pei Kai's heart, Xia Luo and the child are his only remaining hope.

I feel very sorry for him, but I can't leave his "only remaining hope", what should I do?

Neither I nor the child can continue with him anymore, who can teach me how to do it?

……

Pei Kai took me to a quiet and comfortable courtyard in the suburbs, where the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant, far away from the hustle and bustle, which is very suitable for raising a baby.

The house was rented with the help of Sister Hua, and Pei Kai originally demoted Sister Hua impulsively, but Xia Luo's pregnancy made him sober up instantly, and he suddenly realized that he couldn't implicate innocent people because of his emotional twists and turns.

The most important thing is that he has to accompany his wife to raise the baby. No one took care of Zhongyu Media, so he had to use Sister Hua again.

When we arrived, Sister Hua was waiting at the door of the house.

"Sister Hua, I'm bothering you this time, I ...... before" Pei Kai was very grateful and guilty when he took the key to the house from her.

"Don't think too much, rest assured to accompany Luoluo to raise the baby." Sister Hua was very relieved, patted Pei Kai's arm, and said with a smile, "Sister Hua, when you are your own brother and sister, our family doesn't talk to each other." ”

Pei Kai breathed a sigh of relief, and suddenly became more grateful: "Thank you, Sister Hua." ”

When we parted, I looked at the woman's back and remembered one word: wide heart and fat body.

Remembering what Pei Kai said before, it is better to send charcoal in the snow than icing on the cake. I vaguely feel that Kuang Chunhua is the smartest woman next to Pei Kai.

The next few days were the most tangled moment of my life.

From eating and living to tidying up the housework, Pei Kai did it all by himself, and he didn't want me to interfere at all, as if he was worshipping Xia Luo as Guanyin Bodhisattva.

He took meticulous care and gagged my decision to "refuse to give birth to this child", which not only did not make me comfortable, but became more and more anxious.

Me: "Xiao Kai, what if...... I mean, what if the child doesn't survive? ”

Him: "Then I'll die with him!" ”

Me: "......"

Him: "Xia Luo, I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life." Either let the child accompany me, or you and the child accompany me. ”

"I'll accompany you!" I only felt forced to blurt out helplessly, and then pleaded weakly, "If you want to get married, I will marry me and let the child flow away, is it okay?" ”

Pei Kai snorted bitterly and coldly: "Can cousins and sisters still get married?" ”

"We're not cousins!"

"Who knows?"

One sentence squirted me.

That's right, we have all paid attention to the trend of public opinion in the past few days......

The media exposed Pei Kai's life experience: his biological mother is suspected to be Xia Wenlin!

But there is no definite evidence, it just hyped up the topic, and Pei Songpu and Jiang Aiping were pushed to the forefront. Although neither of them gave the media a positive answer, they still couldn't stop Secretary Pei, who had just successfully overturned the case, and the "official reinstatement" was shelved again......

The media did not mention Xia Luo's "father" Lu Kai, perhaps because he didn't believe Ma Ke's words at all; Maybe it's because of Ma Ke's political identity that he doesn't dare to make a fuss; But perhaps, the Lu family suppressed public opinion behind the scenes.

They only reported one thing fairly: Ma Ke frequently appeared in front of the camera and admitted that Xia Luo was her daughter! Attention, it's a daughter, not an illegitimate daughter! As for Xia Luo's father, Ma Ke didn't mention it again. The media didn't ask, but in the follow-up reports, it was Xia Wenshan by default.

As for what Xia Luo said that night, Xia Wenlin and Xia Wenshan are not brothers and sisters, and they were completely ignored by the media.

Maybe they think it's not worth digging into, and the "discerning people" present see that it's Xia Luo's lie; Maybe someone behind it did it on purpose, so that the public would acquiesce that Pei Kai and Xia Luo were cousins and not let them get married. And the one who has the most motivation to guide public opinion in this way is still Yi Fan.

So, Pei Kai and I inexplicably became "cousins".

In this round of public opinion storm, Pei Kai is no longer able to fight back, he knows that he has lost. The only hope now is to keep the child and keep the connection with Xia Luo in the second half of his life.

We struggled with this abusive mind until October 31st.

……

Tomorrow is November 1st, my twenty-first birthday. Pei Kai originally planned to quietly prepare a birthday gift, a diamond ring the size of a pigeon's egg, and he wanted to make a last effort on my birthday and propose again.

He hoped that Xia Luo would give him another chance for the sake of the child.

But I don't worry about being home alone, he is almost inseparable from me these days, as if he is a 24-hour personal service.

So, after thinking twice, he decided to take me out with him.

But it was impossible to take me with me to get the ring, for fear that I would refuse on the spot. So when we arrived at Pacific Place, we had a brief lunch, and he pretended to go around and help me choose a birthday present, and he didn't care about my absent-minded perfunctory, saying that he didn't need a birthday present, etc.

Because of his insistence, I picked a random bag.

After paying, Pei Kai excused himself by saying that he would go to the service desk to get gift wrapping, and gave me the car keys to ask me to wait in the car first. In fact, I secretly went to get the diamond ring, and planned to put it in the bag I just bought, and give me a "surprise" tomorrow.

I never thought that after being separated from Xia Luo for ten minutes, something would happen to her!

I swear I didn't wrestle, I didn't eat anything, I didn't feel sick in the process, and I didn't meet anyone, except for ......

As soon as I arrived at the underground parking lot, I was walking towards Pei Kai's car, when an off-road vehicle suddenly attacked behind me, and instead of crashing into me, it stopped a hundred meters in front of me.

But after all, it was too fast, and I was caught off guard. I was so frightened that I shook my body violently, turned around and almost didn't stand firm, but fortunately I held on to the hood of the car parked next to me, and didn't let me fall to the ground, and I didn't hit anything.

Shocked, it turned out to be a red Wrangler?

Qiu Feng's car?

I didn't have time to read the license plate when I suddenly felt a strong stabbing pain in my abdomen......

Suddenly cold sweat broke out, I frowned tightly and covered my abdomen and slowly squatted down, a hot current gushed out from my lower body, and the beige wide slacks were instantly dyed red.

I didn't care to see who the two men who came down from the Wrangler were, and there was only one sentence in my mind:

Child, I can't keep it!

Pei Kai, you're going to a dead end!