The time buried in this dark night stopped with the moment the door opened, and the good memories were like sweet and greasy candy, eating too much, after all, you had to drink a glass of tasteless water.

The light in the room reflected on my face, illuminating my eyes, but it could not warm my already cold heart.

This is the house I bought for her, and the house price in Shanghai was far from exaggerated in the nineties, but even so, this house is still not a small amount of money. I remember that when her name was written on the real estate deed, the fat man was still whispering to me behind me, so that I should not think too idealistic. I also blame him for misunderstanding Rain Butterfly.

I remember when I was decorating, she said she liked the beige wallpaper, saying that the color was warm, so I happily went to buy the wallpaper, but when I came back, she said that it was better to change to purple, which looked avant-garde.

Every time there was a thunderstorm, she was scared, afraid of the rumbling thunder, afraid of the lightning that would light up the whole sky at that moment, so I would hold her, hold her tightly in my arms, and gently pat her back with a word of comfort. It may seem silly to say that I am embracing my future, but I have fantasized more than once about taking her to see her father, and on the day of the wedding, I will have a few tables, and the fat man and Luo Qiong will be the best men for me in awkward suits, and I think that one day, she will tell me with tears in her eyes that she is pregnant, and then we will happily hug each other.

For me, this is not just a first love, it is more like a choice in life, I choose to give everything for her, but unfortunately, I love her more than she loves me.

There was a faint smell of perfume in the room, Yudie is a woman who can't do without perfume, she likes to wear clothes when she enters, and in the nineties she carried LV on her back to go shopping in Shanghai Ocean Department Store, and I asked a friend to bring back those perfumes from Italy.

She never helped me buy a single dress, never cooked a meal for me, never asked me if I was tired, never said she wanted to go to work without me risking my life again and again to earn money.

However, I never blamed her, because in my opinion, it is natural for a man to raise a woman, and if she follows you, you should take care of her for the rest of your life.

I remember when I first got married, I used to sneak around and figure out how to propose, and now it seems so funny.

The man in front of me was stunned for a moment when he heard my words, as if he was a little surprised, looked back at Yudie and asked, "This house is not yours?" ”

Yudie looked at me with some surprise, because I said that it might take more than a month to come back, but instead of the panic look when I was caught, I calmly lit a cigarette, as if to tell me that she had already guessed that there would be this day.

"Hey, I asked you, didn't you hear?"

The man yelled at her.

Yudie looked up at me, smiled and said, "Can you give me a minute?" ”

I didn't say anything but took a step back, and then the man closed the door, and the light in the room disappeared from my eyes, and I stood in the dark shadows, leaning against the wall, and took out the cigarette from my pocket and lit it, and the burning cigarette butt was especially beautiful in the dark, the dazzling brilliance and the burning light was like my love, which had been lit since the day I fell in love with her, and now it was almost burned out.

There was a man's roar in the house, apparently unaware of my existence.

My hair was a little long, and it was a little itchy to pierce my eyes, and I exhaled the green smoke in my mouth, and the moment I put down my backpack, I suddenly heard a "pop" from inside, although I kept telling myself to be calm; Although I've been in good control; Although I had already guessed what might have happened.

But he still clenched his fists and sighed softly......

"Hey......"

The cigarette butt in my hand fell to the ground, the shattered ashes burned on the ground with the last light, I kicked on the door, only to hear a "bang", the wooden door that should have been particularly strong was kicked open by my kick, the second heel went up, the lock completely collapsed, the door "bang" hit the wall, a loud noise came, and I looked up to see the man looking at me in surprise. And the rain butterfly sitting opposite it covered her face.

"What are you doing!"

The man asked loudly, his face full of anger.

I walked over without saying a word, my hand fell on the Tushan knife on my waist, and when I got closer, the Tushan knife suddenly pulled out and put it on the man's neck, the man's frightened face changed greatly, but before he could go back, he had already grabbed the collar by me, and the cold blade only needed me to wipe it lightly, and his little life was gone.

"Hill!"

Seeing this, Yu Die hurriedly shouted, I turned my head coldly, my eyes were like angry tigers, Yu Die's face changed for the first time, and what I just wanted to say paused because of my eyes, and then said tremblingly: "Don't kill people." ”

The man also raised his hands, and the anger just now completely turned into fear at this time, I turned my head without saying a word, looked at the man and said, "Which hand did you hit her?" ”

The man was even more frightened, his right hand trembled slightly, I raised a foot and kicked it on the ground, and then grabbed his right hand and pressed it on the table, the Tushan knife turned over in the palm of his hand and inserted it into the man's right hand, the man screamed in pain, I pulled out the Tushan knife and then stepped on the man on the ground with a kick, looked at the rain butterfly and then looked at the man on the ground, retracted his foot and said: "Get out!" ”

The man clutched his bleeding hands, rushed out of the room with pain on his face, and disappeared into the hallway.

And I pulled a chair and sat opposite Yudie, wiped the blood on the Tushan knife, didn't open my mouth and just looked at her, what was left after the anger in my heart was vented was more terrible pain than that knife, and the wounds in my heart were more difficult to heal than the wounds on my body.

"Is there anything you want to explain?"

I finally spoke.

Yudie opened her mouth to say something, but in the end she just shook her head.

Actually, I really want to ask her, why can't she live a good life with me? Why are you out there at dusk? But these vulgar questions were brewing in my heart for a long time at that time, and in the end I didn't say it.

I never force her to say what she doesn't want to say, and I don't force her to do what she doesn't want to do, maybe I'm too spoiled by her.

"In the past few years, I always think of you I saw in the discotheque, lively and cheerful, like a flower butterfly dancing on the dance floor, very beautiful. I've always felt that you were a gift from God, and I never had the luxury of being with you, but when you moved into this house, I began to fantasize about marrying you and living a simple life with you. We can cook together, feed the next generation together, cuddle and sleep together, and see your smiling face the next day, that's all I hope is. ”

As I spoke, my eyes were a little sour, and I wiped it gently, and there was a faint wetness in my palms.

"Xiaoshan, I'm sorry."

She spoke softly.

I laughed immediately, and in the end it was just five simple words.

"Divide it."

I still said this, although I have always held it in my heart, even if she acts positively, even if she can sincerely say that she has changed, I will not want to break up.

"Hmm."

She replied softly, and it dawned on me that maybe to her I was just a person who could provide money behind her back, and be stupid and not ask for anything in return. Maybe she never loved me, that's why she was looking for a man outside, maybe she had expected such a day.

I nodded, wiped the tears from my eyes with the back of my hand, stood up and nodded, "Good, good!" ”

"The house is mine."

She said suddenly, I was stunned, and then laughed and said: "For you, it's all for you, the house is yours, the car outside is also yours, it's all yours, I don't want it." ”

She walked out with her feet up, but when she reached the door, she suddenly asked, "Do you hate me?" ”

I paused, smiled deliberately and said, "I'm just willing to fight, I'm too stupid." ”

"Thank you...... If it's not you, my mother ......"

"Don't say it, between us, we don't owe each other from now on, and we don't get along with each other. You are you, I am me, I will not come here again, don't call again, I will not manage money if you come to me again. That's ......"

Babbling as if these words were for himself, he stumbled into the darkness, walked faster and faster, and finally ran wildly, tears flying in the air, in fact, there was no laughter, full of pain and that torn heart, hoping not to turn back, to run to the love in the centrifugation.