Cheng Jiahua walked out of the door, put his hand in his pocket, and looked at the scene in the yard. Although the sun lazily shone all over the world, there was no temperature, and when the north wind blew, people still felt chills and shivered. He opened his legs and walked towards his parents' bedroom, through the window, he heard his father's voice coaxing the child, and wanted to go to see Cheng Lin, after all, he hadn't seen him in the morning, and he didn't know if he missed his father.

When he entered the house, he greeted his father, and sat down in his chair. The parents were eating, and Cheng Yan was also sitting on the side, looking curiously at Cheng Lin in his grandmother's arms from time to time. Cheng Jiahua stretched out his hand and shouted at Cheng Lin, who had a pair of hazy sleepy eyes: "Do you miss your father?" Son? ”

"Go!" Mu Shi slapped Cheng Jiahua's hand away, "Have you washed your hands?" It's cold, be careful to get sick with the child. ”

"Mom, look at what you said, he's not a porcelain doll, how can he get sick." Cheng Jiahua smiled, "Let me hug me." ”

Mu Shi had no choice but to put Cheng Lin in his arms. Cheng Jiahua didn't know how to hold a child, clumsily supported the little guy's body with two arms, looked at him curiously and lovingly, and said: "Xiaolin, when you don't cry, you're still very well-behaved, and when you cry, you're not well-behaved." ”

"What child doesn't cry? You cried more than he did when you were a kid. Mu Shi smiled, looked at his son, and then looked at his grandson, and suddenly felt as if his life had become complete, "Crying children have candy to eat, this is a good thing!" ”

"How's your busy day out lately?" Cheng Tielong looked at Cheng Jiahua and looked at this scene, although he felt relieved in his heart, he couldn't help but make a serious expression on his face, "How much debt has you repaid?" ”

"Pay it off slowly, how can you pay it all off at once." Hearing this, Cheng Jiahua seemed to feel a little lost. He put Cheng Lin back in his mother's arms, sat down on the chair again, and hung his head dejectedly, as if he had scolded him for asking this sentence.

"Look at the way you look!" Cheng Tielong frowned, "Do things well outside, don't gamble, smear my old Cheng family." He lowered his head, took a mouthful of food into his mouth, and suddenly asked again, "You and Hetu have been quarreling so frequently lately, and they have woken me up with your mother several times." You are all adults, and you are still arguing, don't you think others will be embarrassed when you hear it? ”

"Got it." Cheng Jiahua hung his head and agreed. Mu Shi saw that the warm atmosphere was disrupted by her husband's words, and she felt very unhappy, but she didn't dare to complain about her husband, so she just turned her head to her son and said, "Go quickly, what you should do, don't disturb your father's dinner." ”

Cheng Jiahua agreed, got up and walked out. When he breathed in the fresh air outside the door, he breathed a sigh of relief and couldn't help complaining about his father. Every time the father and son sat together, the old man either said this or reprimanded him, and never said a word properly. Cheng Jiahua looked at the ruined scenery in the flowerbed with displeasure, and was about to turn around and walk towards his bedroom, when he suddenly heard a sound of water from the opposite side of the flowerbed, accompanied by a slight moan. Strange to him, he reversed his pace and walked across the flowerbed.

His vision was blocked by the railing of the flower garden, and when he walked over, he realized that he was squatting on a small bench to wash clothes. In the cold temperature, although the basin of water exuded a slow heat, but Hedi's hands were still red from the cold, she kept sniffing, occasionally raised her hand to wipe the sweat on the bridge of her nose, and was about to stand up and hang up her clothes, but somehow, her waist suddenly began to hurt. She hurriedly held on to the railing, threw her clothes back into the basin, and pounded her waist slowly but hard, trying to ease the pain. Before the pain went away, Cheng Jiahua's feet appeared in front of her eyes, only to hear him ask suspiciously, "What are you doing here?" ”

He was about to say that he had a low back pain, but after thinking about it, it seemed useless to say to him, so he closed his mouth. She didn't want him to see her embarrassed appearance, so she stood up straight, scooped up the clothes from the basin and wrung them out, and stepped aside to dry.

Cheng Jiahua stood for a long time before he said in a daze: "I really don't know who you put your depressed face for, day by day, nothing stops." ”

Hearing this, the grievances and anger in Hedi's heart surged up again, she turned around, and was about to refute him and question him, but found that Cheng Jiahua had turned around and walked away. Suddenly, all the complex emotions in her heart turned into a powerlessness, which spread from the spirit to the body, and she felt that she could no longer stand.

Barely washing the basin of clothes, she dragged her tired body back into the room, and was lying down to rest for a while, when Mu Shi came in again. She held Cheng Lin in her arms, and saw that Hedi had finished all the work that should be busy, so she put the little guy into the small bed and said: "I just changed Xiaolin's diaper, by the way, you have been careful when you sleep at night in the past two days, and cover Xiaolin with more quilts, on such a cold day, I am afraid that he will be cold." ”

"Got it." She turned her head to look at the little guy who kept tossing people, only to see that his eyes were tightly closed and he was already asleep. He Tu's heart couldn't help but feel a sense of desolation, even this newborn baby had so many people who cared about him and loved him, but no one was worried about him. Her back pain, leg pain, and head pain are also painful, how she wishes that there was such a person to ask her, is it better now, does she need someone to take care of her? But no one asked, not a single one.

Except for Xiaolin, Mu Shi didn't seem to have anything to say to Hedi anymore, she turned to leave, and closed the door by the way. The room was quiet again, only the sound of Cheng Lin's thin breathing kept circulating and undulating, making Hedi's sleepiness thicker and stronger, and his body becoming more and more tired. She lay down on the bed, closed her eyes, and remembered the scene of the phone call to her parents the other day. It was the first time she contacted her parents after giving birth, and they were very happy to know that they had added another grandson, and kept asking how the little grandson was doing, whether he was in good health, and whether his grandparents were good to him? After this series of questions, it was only then that he was asked to Hedi. Cuiying grabbed the phone and asked her how her physical condition was, and whether her mother-in-law was interested in her during confinement. To these questions, Hedi gave an affirmative answer, she did not tell them the truth, even though her knee hurt faintly again when she was on the phone at that time. She just smiled and said that she was very good, her mother-in-law was also very good to herself, and Cheng Lin was also very good, so that they could rest assured. She knew in her heart that she was so far away, even if she told her parents, they couldn't help much, but added a layer of worry in vain, plus her mother's health was not very good, so she could relax if she could. I don't know why, in the face of her parents, Hedi's pain and grievances have become weak and blurred, and a great sense of responsibility rises in her heart, desperately whitewashing her life with words, making them sound as if they are living a particularly good life. However, when she hung up the phone, and that great sense of responsibility disappeared, her heart became full of mixed feelings again, and the bitterness seemed to fall on her heart together, and she was in pain and almost shed tears. After avoiding her mother-in-law's gaze and running back to her room in embarrassment, Hedi covered her face and threw herself on the bed and cried, but she didn't dare to cry too loudly, for fear of being heard. She cried so aggrieved and miserable, even if Cheng Yan beside her grabbed her arm with his little hand again and again, he couldn't stop her tears. No one knew how much she wanted to go home, how much she wanted to be by her parents' side, even if they scolded her and beat her, she was willing to bear it. Thinking so, reminiscing, Hedi's eyes turned red again, her throat choked, her nose was clogged, and tears flowed down her cheeks. Lately, she has been in tears so much that it seems to be drowning her. He Tu whimpered and cried, while looking at the sleeping Cheng Lin with blurred teary eyes, and it seemed that someone was twisting her heart with her hand.

After crying for I don't know how long, she fell asleep in a daze. It seemed that a long time had passed, and it seemed that it had not been long before she was awakened by a small movement, the sun had just moved a little to the west, Cheng Lin was still asleep, and there was no tendency to wake up, and there was a sound of footsteps in the yard, and then disappeared outside the gate.

That was the sound of Cheng Jiahua and Cheng Jiaji going out.

He sighed, propped himself up, and straightened his hair slightly. She still felt very sleepy, her head was very painful, but she couldn't sleep. Barely supported to take the sewing basket, ready to do the needlework she has always been good at. The shadow of the sun gradually moved west, Cheng Lin yawned, woke up from the dream, Hetu took him in his arms and fed, when the twilight was four, Cheng Jiahua came back, went to the house to see Cheng Lin as usual, hugged once, and was about to turn around and leave, ready to go to Jiaye's room to rest. Occasionally, the two of them will say a few words peacefully, but most of the time, when Hetu sees him, he can't help but sneer, using this method to vent the bitterness in his heart. Of course, the young Cheng Jiahua was unwilling to endure her harsh words, and he was bound to refute it, and the two quarreled again. Such days lasted until Fang He gave birth to a child, and when Cheng Lin was half a year old, it was slightly relieved.

On the day of Fanghe's birth, there was a heavy snow in the air.

Maybe Fanghe wanted to give birth to a daughter, but she was really a little girl who was born. The little guy's personality seems to be very good, and he doesn't cry or make trouble when he is born, but purses his lips and laughs. The people in the room looked at her expression, and although they felt a little disappointed that she was not a son, they were moved by her optimistic little expression, and they all laughed happily. Kaji's joy was even greater, he looked at the little guy curiously, and felt that it was amazing, this was his own child, and he was finally a father! He happily hugged the baby's small body and spun around twice in place, which made Fanghe, who was lying weakly on the bed, laugh uncontrollably. Cheng Tielong named the little girl Cheng Siwen, hoping that she would have a gentle personality and a very stable future life. Fang He was also very satisfied with the name, and she didn't say anything about the family's reaction, just looking at their happy looks, she felt that her credit was completed, and she was also very satisfied.

In fact, Fang He is only in his early nineteens, and he is just a child, and he suddenly has a little baby, and he really doesn't know how to take care of it. She had no experience at all, and during that time, the elder of a relative in the family passed away, and she invited Mu Shi to help with the housework, and no one could help her take care of the child. In desperation, she had no choice but to ask for help, after all, she had already given birth to two, and she was more experienced than her. But where did she think about it, Hetu couldn't even be busy herself, and with a small problem, she was already taking care of Cheng Lin. Fanghe's Fanghe also wanted to stuff Cheng Siwen over, and she felt a little too much to take care of. But there is a huge yard at home, there is not much work, but not much, if she goes to do the work, the inexperienced Fanghe will have to take care of the two children at the same time, usually in a hurry, once he almost didn't look at Cheng Lin, so he fell to the ground. Later, the situation of the two people changed to Fang He doing the work, and Hetu came to take care of the two children, and the situation finally did not change too badly. It's just that He Tu can't say the bitterness in his heart, he finally hoped that Cheng Lin would be a little older, not as difficult to take care of as when he was born, but there was a newborn Cheng Siwen, the little girl didn't cry when she was born, and she was very quiet, but somehow, after a week, she began to cry very much, and her sharp voice often hovered over the yard, and as she cried, the air seemed to tremble, as if a sharp blade had torn it apart. Hedi felt more and more broken, she often had to face the miserable scene of a child crying, and before she could coax her, the other one also started crying, which made her feel at a loss and almost crazy. To tell the truth, she felt that she was going mad too, and now when she saw the baby's small mouth, her head banged, and it seemed as if a messenger from hell had come to her door, and this terrifying feeling made her want to flee from this place immediately. But the most powerless thing is that she can't escape, and she can't escape, those two little guys are not hell messengers after all, but two living people, she has to take care of them, and endure their torture of her, this reality is too helpless for her, she has to endure, hard, hoping that they will grow up quickly, so that she can be freed as soon as possible.

In such a situation where there is no good sleep day and night, and the spirit is extremely overdrawn, even if it is an iron person, the body can't stand it. Finally one day, when Fanghe knocked on his door again in the early morning of the night with Siwen who was crying in his arms, Hetu woke up from his dream, opened his eyes, and suddenly felt a burst of Venus in front of him, and the whole person seemed to be caught in the sea of constant storms and swayed, and the feeling of dizziness made her almost want to vomit. After the noisy tinnitus, she heard the knock on the door getting more and more urgent, and even Cheng Lin, who was sleeping soundly on the small bed, woke up, looking at her with wide eyes and curiosity and confusion. Biting her lip tightly, she struggled to suppress the dizziness, struggled to get out of bed, and opened the door.

"Sister-in-law, look at it! Look! Fang He's face was anxious, and his tone was very hurried, "Siwen's forehead is so hot, is it a fever!" Kaki was busy today, sleeping in the store, and didn't come back, I really don't know what to do? She pursed her lips, looked at Hedi and didn't respond, and said anxiously, "Dad and Mom are asleep, I don't know what to do, so I have to come to you, sister-in-law, you see, you touch Siwen's forehead to see if she has a fever?" ”

Before she could finish speaking, she heard a "bang", and Hetu had fallen in front of her, her eyes closed, her lips pale, her face sallow, and she had fainted. Fanghe, who was already anxious, couldn't help but be stunned when she saw her like this, she opened her mouth in fright, turned her head and shouted into the yard, until the lights in her parents-in-law's room were turned on, and the lights in Jiaye Jiayi's room were also turned on, and everyone ran out in a hurry wrapped in coats, and asked her what was wrong. Fang He was so frightened that she almost cried, and pointed to Hetu lying on the ground and shouted, "Sister-in-law is faint!" My sister-in-law is dizzy! Thinking of Siwen in his arms again, tears couldn't help but flow out, and he muttered, "Siwen also has a fever......

Everyone rushed up and carried Hedi to the bed, which made Jiaye hurry out to find the doctor. In the vast night, only the lights of this house are on, standing in the distance and looking at it, it seems like a faint spark in the vast sea, which makes people feel desolate.