He Tu looked at Zheng Xi's face with some hesitation, his self-esteem began to bother again, and he said with an ugly expression: "If you don't want to, don't be embarrassed, I don't have to force you to lend it to me." ”

"No, no, no." Zheng Xi hurriedly shook his head and said, "Don't get me wrong. He hesitated for a moment and said, "I can lend it to you, but you think, I did you this favor this time, so what will you do next time?" Do you still have to borrow money from others to pay off your debts? So when will you pay it off? ”

He Tu looked at the misty distance and said sluggishly: "I don't know, let's take one step at a time." ”

Zheng Xi sighed and said: "Jia Hua, although I don't have much contact with him, but I also know a little about his temperament, he is a person, if he doesn't force it at the moment, he is likely to be like this for the rest of his life, he doesn't care about himself, so what should you do with your two children?" This time, you borrowed money from me for him, so who will you borrow from next time? Don't you pay back what you borrowed? ”

He Tu raised his hand to cover his face, and said in a muffled voice: "I don't know, my heart is also very messy." ”

"You just hold on and don't say anything to anyone, and this life is not like this to go on." Zheng Xi said, took out his wallet from his pocket, and said while counting the banknotes, "You still talk to his family, or you take the two children back to your parents' house to live for a while, and see if he can change it when you are away." ”

"I'm afraid that if I'm gone, he's going to tear down this house." He Tu said desperately, "That is, I am here, so he is not so presumptuous." ”

"Then you have to plan for yourself, you can't let him mess around like this all the time." Zheng Xi handed a wad of money to He Tu and said, "I lent you this money, not Cheng Jiahua, you can take it." ”

He Di glanced at Zheng Xi, and then looked at the money in his hand, and a strange feeling rose in her heart, she reached out and took the banknote, which still carried Zheng Xi's body temperature, which was slightly warm. She put the money in her pocket, and for a moment she was choked up and unable to speak. Zheng Xi smiled and said, "Go back quickly, it's very cold." ”

"Thank you......" Hetu muttered, lowering his head to hide his gaffe.

"It's fine." Zheng Xi restrained his smile, and felt inexplicably uncomfortable in his heart for a while.

"I'll pay it back to you, but I don't know when I'll be able to save enough, I'll pay it back little by little, and I'll pay it off." He said quickly, glancing at him again, and turned to walk quickly in the direction of home.

Zheng Xi watched her back disappear behind the courtyard wall, and her heart became cold with her departure. He sighed, turned and walked towards where he had come, suddenly feeling a little lazy.

He Tu rushed home, Cheng Jiahua was sitting on the bench washing his face, and when he saw her come in, he hurriedly raised his head and looked at her with inquiring eyes, wanting to know the result eagerly.

As soon as he saw Cheng Jiahua, Hedi's heart became cold. She took the money out of her arms, threw it on the table next to him, and walked past him towards the bedroom.

"Really borrowed?" Cheng Jiahua looked at the pile of money in surprise, turned his head and shouted at Hedi, "How much did you borrow?" ”

"You don't have long hands and can't count?" He Tu said coldly, slamming the door shut. Cheng Jiahua glared dissatisfied, dried his hands with a towel, picked up the pile of money and counted it carefully, it didn't reach the amount he wanted, but it was a lot, his eyes rolled, and other thoughts popped up in his head, and he shouted in the back room: "If you take the money, return it to others quickly, don't take it to gamble anymore!" ”

The unformed thoughts in Cheng Jiahua's head were instantly dispelled by this sentence, he frowned unhappily, put the money away, and looked outside, not knowing when Chen Ye's group of people came.

The more anxious he was, the slower time passed, and at noon he finally heard footsteps outside the door, and hurriedly got up and walked outside. Chen Ye originally guessed in his heart that Cheng Jiahua would not be able to return the money to him for the time being, he did this just to add a little pressure to Cheng Jiahua, but he didn't expect Cheng Jiahua to really take out a sum of money, although it did not reach the full amount, but it was almost able to repay nearly half. Chen Ye looked at the decadent young man in front of him in surprise, he didn't know where he got so much money, and he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to think about it for a while, so the hand that took the money also stopped in the air, looking at him suspiciously.

"Take it." Cheng Jiahua stuffed the money into his hand and said, "I'll find a way to pay you back the rest, but I don't have that much money now, you can give me a few more days." ”

"Where did you get the money?" Chen Ye frowned and retracted his hand.

"Borrowed." Cheng Jiahua said casually and turned his head.

Chen Ye counted the money, put it in his pocket, sighed, and said: "Cheng Jiahua, we have been friends for a while, I advise you, you should live a good life in the future, don't do this kind of thing that loses yourself and others." After speaking, he stared at Cheng Jiahua for two seconds, then turned around and walked towards the way he came.

Cheng Jiahua's eyes were fixed on the dirt road, not moving, as if he hadn't heard what the bald head said.

This kind of borrowing experience has happened a few times, and the creditors heard that Cheng Jiahua was rich and repaid part of Chen Ye's debts, and they all came to the door to ask for the account. Cheng Jiahua coped with it a few times, but he was tired of greeting, begging and threatening to let Hedi go to borrow money from Zheng Xi again. Since the first time she borrowed money, Hedi felt that she had lost face with Zheng Xi, and she didn't plan to meet Zheng Xi again, so she quarreled with Cheng Jiahua several times for this matter, but she was really forced by him to borrow money from Zheng Xi. Zheng Xi agreed without hesitation, but every time he emphasized that the money was lent to Hetu, not to Cheng Jiahua. In this regard, He Tu also faintly understood in her heart, but that thought was pressed in the deepest part of her heart, and she didn't dare to admit it, nor did she dare to let it out. She silently agreed with Zheng Xi's words, and wrote a few IOUs to him, and the signatures on the back were all written with her own name. With these borrowed money, they finally sent away a few fierce creditors who demanded debts, and the family's life became a little less urgent, but despite this, their lives also went downhill at a speed visible to the naked eye.

About Cheng Jiahua also realized the current living situation of the whole family, he began to have the heart to change this situation, although he still can't get rid of his gambling addiction for the time being, but he finally went out to find a serious job to do, most of the money was filled into the endless abyss, but with the efforts and persistence of Hedi, he still left some money down, and did not let him gamble all the money. He still brings a group of people to the house every night to play mahjong, losing money is a common thing, all-nighters are also common, these Hetu has become accustomed to it, and she doesn't even bother to react, she pins all her hopes on the little savings she has saved hard, trying to change the life of the whole family and put their lives on the right track.

This kind of life was maintained until Cheng Yan was five years old, when the little girl had grown up to the age where she could run around and be literate and study. He Tu has never forgotten her experience when she was a child, reading has always had a magical magic for her, since it can't be realized in herself, then she pins her hopes on her daughter, hoping that she can study hard and have a good way out like Xiuhan in the future. It's just that the money he has saved is not enough to pay the tuition, even if the school exempts part of the tuition fees from poor families, plus Cheng Jiahua has relapsed during this time, he doesn't work well during the day, soaks in the mahjong hall all day, and can't get a penny back, but instead urges Hetu to borrow money from Zheng Xi to satisfy his endless desire to gamble. Of course, Hetu is reluctant, she already owes Zheng Xi a lot of debts, even if her skin is thick, she is not willing to borrow money from Zheng Xi anymore, plus out of a woman's sensitive sixth sense, she faintly feels that Zheng Xi has an inexplicable feeling for her, this feeling makes her panic, and she unconsciously wants to stay away from him, so she is even more reluctant to meet him. Regarding Cheng Jiahua's urging, she just silently did not speak, or sneered at each other, so as to shut up Cheng Jiahua. It's just that the child is really at the age of going to school, she can't live a perfunctory life anymore, for the sake of the child, she must use some thought to break Cheng Jiahua and let him quit those problems.

She began to run around on the road to the mahjong parlor and home again, but fortunately, because Cheng Yan went to school, Cheng Jiahua was not so willful and reckless, and he seemed to have a faint trace of life pressure in his heart, but this pressure was pressed by him in the bottom of his heart, pretending not to realize it, and in the face of this realistic problem, he chose to escape. Every time he came to Hedi to find him and urge him to go home, he always pretended to be indifferent, but his heart became more and more anxious, yes, he is not alone now, he is now a family, and there are two young children who need good living conditions. Although the family's expenses are not big at all, for them, they can be called beyond their means. After sending Cheng Yan to school, Hedi went to the mahjong parlor to find Cheng Jiahua more and more often, and finally one day, he couldn't stand it anymore, after listening to Hedi's persuasion of crying and making trouble, he pushed the mahjong on the table, Huo's stood up, and roared in annoyance: "Okay, good!" Get back! I'll go back! ”

He Tu was stunned for two seconds, but quickly reacted, although he was a little incredulous, he still raised his arm and quickly wiped the tears on his face, clenched Cheng Lin's little hand, and followed Cheng Jiahua's footsteps and walked outside.

People are born with a sense of inertia, and driven by this inertia, even if they are determined to change, they still don't know where to start. Cheng Jiahua returned home and collapsed on the sofa, thinking about what he had to do. He was used to the life in front of him, and it was a little uncomfortable to make him change suddenly. After thinking about it for a long time, he didn't have the ability to earn food, the work done by literati was definitely not enough, and he didn't even have the skills to make a living, the more Cheng Jiahua thought about it, the more worried he became, put his two big hands on the back of his head, and picked up his hair.

He Tu asked Cheng Yan, who had just come back from school, to take Cheng Lin to play, while he sat down next to Cheng Jiahua, looked at him with a calm face, and asked, "What are you going to do?" ”

Cheng Jiahua glanced at her sadly and tiredly, and said angrily: "How do I know!" ”

He Tu pulled the half-knitted sweater on the armrest of the sofa, and said sullenly: "I see that you follow Guoqiang and them to work, it looks good." Guoqiang is a friend of Cheng Jiahua, who works on the construction site and often corresponds with him on weekdays.

"How is that possible!" Cheng Jiahua suddenly sat up straight as if he had been stimulated by something, "I'm a scholar, going to do the work on the construction site?" Isn't that a shame for our dad? ”

He Tu glanced at him, opened his mouth, wanted to say something, but never said it, just sneered, and still lowered his head to knit a sweater.

That being said, after two days, Cheng Jiahua still followed Guoqiang to work on the construction site, all of which were rough and tiring, and when he met someone who was rushing to the project, he couldn't even come back home at night, so he could only sleep on the construction site for a night. However, he was tired, but the pay was higher than the work he had done before, Cheng Jiahua bit his lip and persevered, and within a few days, his originally white and clean face was tanned, and his half-length hair always seemed to be covered with dust, and he couldn't wash it cleanly. Although the appearance is a little embarrassed, but in his eyes, he feels very satisfied and comfortable, even if Cheng Jiahua still runs to the casino in his free time for three days, she doesn't care so much, as long as he is willing to work and make money, she is already very satisfied. Life has been maintained for a fairly stable year, when Cheng Yan was promoted from preschool to first grade, Hedi heard a shocking news from her parents on the phone call from her hometown, this news she had never expected before, and she couldn't believe it after knowing it, and she was dumbfounded for a while, not knowing what to say.

"Hetu, Hedi?" Unable to hear Hedi's response, Cuiying put her mouth close to the microphone and shouted a few times.

"Huh?" He Tu came back to his senses abruptly and hurriedly said, "I'll listen." ”

"That's it, we'll leave next week, if you're free, come back and see us, this time, I really don't know how many years we can see each other again." Jiafu gently pushed Cuiying away, and continued.

He Di only felt as if a thunder exploded on her head, she answered two times in a daze, and suddenly reacted to what her father meant, they were about to move away from their hometown to another city, leaving her, Xiao Yan, Xiao Lin, her only relatives, about to leave.

"When are you coming?" She asked as if in a dream, feeling that this conversation was very unreal.

"Next week, you tell your in-laws, come back to the house and have a look, and Heyi Hefu will follow us." Cuiying's tone suddenly became lower, she sighed, and said, "If you have anything in the future, contact your sister and Herui well, we are far away from you, even if there is an emergency, we can't help, you three sisters help each other, remember?" ”

He nodded dumbly, she seemed to have listened to her parents' instructions, and she didn't seem to have listened to a word, and then how the phone hung up, she didn't know, she only felt an unswallowed emotion choked in her throat, which made her feel very uncomfortable.

He Di told her parents-in-law about it almost immediately, and without waiting for her parents-in-law to agree, she hurriedly turned around and wanted to leave. Cheng Tielong didn't react, his in-laws were leaving, and it was understandable that the child would send it off, only Na Mu Shi had a gloomy face, but he didn't say a word, and his eyes were like knives on Hedi's body. He Tu didn't have time to pay attention, and before Cheng Jiahua came back from work, she had already packed her luggage, dressed the two children, and sat on the sofa in a reluctant manner, looking at the sky outside the door getting darker and darker, and her heart became more and more anxious and restless.

When it was so dark that she could only faintly see the figure, Xiao Yan and Xiao Lin lay on her lap and competed with each other, saying that they were hungry and wanted to eat. He Tu sighed and stood up, and suddenly saw a figure flash outside the courtyard wall, seemed to hesitate, and stood in the corner.

He Tu narrowed his eyes and took a closer look, the figure was very familiar, although she hadn't seen it for more than a month, she still recognized it at once, it was Zheng Xi, he seemed to have gained some weight, and the uneasy look on his face could be faintly seen in the dark.

Hetu hesitated for a moment, but soon walked into the kitchen without stopping, and she felt that the anxiety in her heart seemed to be covered with something unknown, which made the heart more and more uncomfortable, as if it had been grabbed and ravaged by an invisible hand. She was absentmindedly cooking dinner, and her mind seemed to be thinking about something, but it was chaotic and she didn't know why. After taking care of the two children and eating, she seemed to inadvertently glance out of the window, and saw that the figure was still in the corner, and her heart suddenly became more and more uncomfortable.

finally waited for Cheng Jiahua to come back, but it was already late at night. He looked very tired, and his head was covered in dirt. He fetched hot water and waited for him to wash, and while he was wiping his head and face with a towel, she sat down on the edge of the bed, leaned forward slightly, and said, "Let's go back to my house." ”

"What are you doing back to your house?" Cheng Jiahua asked indifferently, he shaved his hair and shook his head vigorously.

"My parents said they were leaving next week, and I was thinking about taking my two kids back to see them."

"Going? Where to? Cheng Jiahua put down the towel in his hand, but his eyes still didn't look at Hedi.

"Go to xx." It was a very distant city, and even though she had never been there, she already knew from other people's mouths that it was not a place that could be reached overnight.

Cheng Jiahua rolled his eyes, the laziness came up again, since he could let himself rest for two days, why not. He fell back on the couch, closed his eyes, and said, "Come on, then I'll go back tomorrow." ”

He stood up excitedly, but quickly fell into decay. She replied in a low voice, turning her head and beckoning the two children to hurry to bed.