In the summer of 1984, the big red list posted at the entrance of the county No. 1 middle school was crowded with people. I looked up at the sky, and the blinding sunlight darkened my eyes for a moment. Then I picked up my bag and boarded the way home.

My name is Lin Xiaoyu, I am eighteen years old this year, and I finally borrowed money from my father who abandoned his wife and children to go to high school.

"Man's destiny is predestined! Since you didn't get in, let's live with peace of mind..."

My mother sat on the edge of the kang and comforted me, and my heart became even more upset. Why is it that other people's lives are good, I can only go back to this small mud house and live a life facing the loess with my back to the sky.

Seeing that I didn't speak, my mother stopped talking, she carefully avoided my injuries and said to herself: "Our family is poor, my mother knows that you don't want me to suffer anymore, yesterday your princess came to talk to me about something, and a big family in the town asked her to be a matchmaker..."

I looked at my mother coldly, I just came back, and I was going to drive me away before I had eaten a mouthful of rice from home? However, they ignored my advice, and the matchmaker came to the door the next day.

"Mom, what's the difference between you and selling your daughter?" I questioned loudly, locking myself in the room and not going out. The stepfather and mother were anxiously explaining outside.

A bride price of 1,000 yuan!

Scold...

I didn't expect to sell it for such a good price, you know, this is my family's income for five or six years without eating or drinking.

The mother cried that the other party was a big family that opened a factory. Although my father-in-law went two years ago, the property was left to the two brothers in the family, and it was definitely better for me to marry than at home.

I turned my head to look at myself in the mirror, a clear face, at most beautiful. Can such a posture marry into such a good family? What do people want me to do?

"Xiaoyu, you... If you don't think about this family, you should always think about your brother! You also know what reputation you have, and if you can marry into such a family, it is an eye-opener! ”

My mother was crying outside the door, and I was hugging my knees in the corner and sobbing quietly. Fame? Thinking about the gossip that has accompanied him for many years, he can only bite his lip and swallow the blood into his stomach.

Three days later, at dusk, I was pulled away by a donkey cart sent by Houshan Town.

There was a big red flower hanging on the donkey's head, and the wheel was surrounded by a red cloth, except for the matchmaker and the chauffeur, the husband's family only came to welcome the family. With such a shabby wedding, I wonder if the high bride price my mother said is true.

Besides, who is the family to get married at night?

"Mom, the back mountain is not far away, and the road is not easy to walk when it's dark, why do you want to go out at this time?"

My mother was at a loss, and she couldn't say it. It's just that the other party asked for this time, and it was okay to follow the other party. She rushed me out of the door one by one, for fear that the other party wouldn't want me.

The driver shouted "Drive", and my mother stood at the door and poured a basin of water on our wheels. Her sobbing voice was particularly clear in this dusk, and I looked up at Caixia in the sky and bit my lip.

I knew that my mother loved me, otherwise she wouldn't have fought to bring me back when I was thrown into the river.

I learned about my life story from the words of the villagers, and it is said that I was born in a pile of dead people. At that time, there were people dying of hunger everywhere, and the mother was determined to be out of breath by the midwife in childbirth, and her body and two lives were swept away in a bedding roll. The carryer was also hungry and had no strength, so he didn't even save the steps of burying it, and threw it directly into the pile of dead people.

When someone passed by, they heard my cry, and I was just born, covered in blood, lying on my mother's stomach and looking at this strange world.

As soon as passers-by touched it, my mother still breathed a sigh of relief, and quickly called my father to carry us home. It was supposed to be a great joy, but the midwife said that I had crawled out of the pile of dead people, and that I was a great bad person, so my father quickly threw me into the river and drowned.

My father did that, but I couldn't sink in the river. The mother dragged her weak body and hugged her father's thighs and cried, saying that it must be providential. My father gritted his teeth and fished me up with a fishing net.

That's why my name is Lin Xiaoyu. The old people said that the blood on my body was not washed away in the drain, and it was dirty everywhere except for a white face, and it was not until nine months later that the blood gradually faded. I guess this is what they spread falsely, and I guess I just had a birthmark that was more obvious than others at the time.

On the donkey cart, Mrs. Wang and my future sister-in-law discussed the upcoming wedding. Mrs. Wang said vigorously how rich her husband's family is, there are two brothers in the family, and her father-in-law was the director of the textile factory in our town before his death, and the factory is called big, and there are hundreds of employees below. Now that the people are gone, the benefits of the factory have also come down, but the emaciated camel is bigger than the horse, which is not comparable to the ravine family like ours.

Especially my husband, Chu Qingfeng, is a great talent. If it weren't for the death of his father, he would definitely be going to the capital to engage in scientific research now. In and out of the words, it is a great blessing that I can marry into the Chu family, and it is all due to her clever mouth.

The cousin-in-law next to me snorted as if she was disdainful, and she took my hand, and my palms were sweaty.

"I see, the sick seedlings of the breeze... To be able to marry such a girl can be regarded as burning high incense! Lady Wang, you can keep your spit and talk about it in the happy hall for a while..."

Although the cousin's tone is mean, it warms the ears and hearts when I hear it. I shook my sister-in-law's hand back, but my heart was even more uneasy. Sick seedlings? Is it because he is sick that he will marry a girl like me?

The night in the mountains, the darkness seeps people. The light from the two white lanterns had long been silently engulfed in the mountains. I frowned and asked my sister-in-law, why do you use white lanterns? Isn't it taboo?

Wang Po said anxiously, the white lantern is brighter this night. After all, the trail in the mountains is too narrow.

I shut my mouth, not to believe it, but to see a line of blowing and blowing in the distance in front of the donkey cart! The sharp sound of suona resounded in the sky, and the crows in the forest fluttered and spread their wings. Seeing them getting closer and closer, this team was dressed in colorful clothes, obviously paper figures that could only be seen at funerals!

"Stop!"

I hurriedly tugged at the coachman's reins, my sister-in-law asked me what was wrong, I opened my eyes and looked over again, the team was gone, but the seeping suona sound still echoed in the mountains.

Wang Po laughed embarrassedly twice, she waved her hand in front of her anxiously, and looked back and laughed at me, I must have been dazzled.

The suona sound is gone, and everything is back to normal. Looking at everyone's puzzled faces, I suddenly understood that this was another scene that only I could see.

"Let's go!"

Ever since I was nine years old, I've always been able to see things that others can't. I think it's a ghost, but no one will believe it.

There was an intermittent sound of joy in his ears, especially the suona blowing very happily. I covered my ears, fearing that my clothes would be dampled with sweat from every sweat pore, it must be an illusion!

Otherwise, do I need ghost music on my way to greet my relatives?

By the time we arrived at the place, it was already late at night. I jumped out of the car with my sister-in-law's hand under my red hijab, but I didn't hear the sound of firecrackers or the excitement, I could only feel the oil cypress road under my feet and the two stone lions looming in front of the door.

"The bride has arrived, hurry up and let Jianguo come out!"

There was a thumping sound in my ears, and the ground trembled. Shiver stopped a step in front of me, and through the gap in the red hijab were a pair of huge boat-like cowhide sandals. The smell of feet penetrated into my nostrils, and I couldn't help but hold my breath.

"Sister-in-law, this girl has a good physique! There is material... There is material! ”

His half-yellow, half-meat words reached my ears, and my ears were red with shame.

Could it be that my husband is such a person?

The cousin-in-law patted him on the side and scolded in a low voice: "Jianguo, this is your sister-in-law, don't be full of nonsense!" ”

Chu Jianguo didn't say a word, grabbed my hand and walked into the courtyard. I was dragged by him, and my sister-in-law scolded in the back and could only pull her sleeves, how could I hold my hand?

The greasy feeling from my hand made me extremely uncomfortable, and when I entered the door, I shook Chu Jianguo's hand fiercely. Under the red hijab, he and I couldn't see each other's expressions clearly, he didn't know my anger, I only heard his treacherous laughter.

"Her sister-in-law, you take the bride to pick up, and when the auspicious time comes, we will visit the church and get married."

The threshold of this house is very high, and there are stairs, and I don't know how many floors of small western-style buildings it is. I was dragged by my sister-in-law for several turns and two floors before stopping, she lifted her red hijab and looked at her slightly heroic appearance, she should not be a few years older than me.

"You kid, it's a pity..."

I laughed at myself, everyone thought I was married very well, how could it be a pity?

I was scared half to death along the way, sleepy and tired, with a sore back, and when I saw that there was still a bed on the bed, I simply lay down to rest for a while, but accidentally fell asleep.

In my dream, something seemed to float past me, and I was very uneasy with the gaze coming from nowhere, but I couldn't wake up. Until a cold wind hit, I had goosebumps all over my body, and I heard a very elegant voice: it turned out to be her!