CHAPTER XXXI
Mu Shi stood in the center of the room and glanced around, nodding his head, as if to express his affirmation of Hedi's ability to clean up the house. She sat down on the couch and asked, "What about Kabirch?" ”
"I don't know." He sat down against the edge of the bed, "He didn't tell me. ”
"He's not going to run out all the time, is he?" Mu Shi's face gradually became solemn, as if something unpleasant had happened.
"Hmm." He nodded, not understanding the sudden change in her mother-in-law's expression.
"This kid is not obedient at all." Mu Shi stood up and waved his hand impatiently, "You go to sleep, the doors and windows are closed." ”
"Got it." He sent his mother-in-law out of the house and hurriedly closed the door. She breathed a sigh of relief, as if the teacher who was checking her homework had walked past her. She took off her coat, climbed into bed, and stretched her hands and feet in the warm quilt, but she couldn't help but wonder in her heart, what did Cheng Jiahua do when he ran out every night?
Although the night is late, it is not yet the time to make people sleepy. He Tu lay on the bed with his eyes closed for a while, but he couldn't sleep, so he simply sat up. She didn't turn on the light, so she rummaged through the dark closet looking for the Walkman, which was already a little worn. When her fingers touched the hard, cold object, she felt a sense of calm, and she held it tightly in her arms and lay back down.
The Walkman still contains the tape that Xiuhan recorded himself. She listened to it countless times, and she could almost sing that song upside down, but every time she listened to it, she still had a different feeling. Xiuhan's gentle singing voice slowly came from the speaker of the Walkman, as if a pair of invisible hands were soothing Hedi's brain, she gradually relaxed her body, letting her thoughts gallop in the darkness, rushing, her consciousness slowly became blurred, and the darkness in front of her seemed to be thicker......
Suddenly, there was a soft sound in the space above his head, and the sleepiness disappeared without a trace. Her eyes widened suddenly, her heart began to pound, and the darkness in front of her seemed to be thick fog, and she could see nothing as far as her eyes could see.
"Cheng Jiahua?" She called out softly, "Is that you?" ”
The room was silent, except for her voice slowly swirling, and the wind outside the window seemed to disappear all at once, nothing could be heard.
He comforted himself, maybe he heard it wrong, and it was not impossible for people to hallucinate when they were sleepy. She closed her eyes and tried to fall asleep, but just as her brain was gradually relaxing, she opened her eyes, rolled over and sat up from the bed.
The Walkman that was playing music was quiet, but I don't know when it was turned off.
He cowered in the darkness and looked around vigilantly for a while, and when he saw that there was still no movement in the room, he stretched out an arm and brought the Walkman to his eyes. She flipped the switch, and there was a murmur from the speaker of the Walkman, and the song slowly floated out again. It wasn't turned off because there was no power, so who turned it off? She felt a chill creep coming from behind her, and she wrapped herself tightly in the quilt and stared in horror at the darkness in front of her, as if something had crawled out of it.
However, the dark fog flowed slowly, and something was clearly wriggling in it. After wiping her eyes several times to make sure that it was not her hallucination, her heart seemed to be grabbed violently, and even her breathing stopped at once.
Xiuhan's singing echoed in the small space, and the originally warm and soft voice became eerie at this moment, as if this voice was sung by someone else disguised as Xiuhan. He Tu was so frightened that he lost his strength, and as soon as he let go of his hand, the Walkman fell on the bed with a click. The dark mist suddenly shook rapidly, and slowly dispersed in front of Hedi's eyes.
Hedi's eyes widened in horror, looking at the scene in front of her, she wanted to shout, but her throat seemed to be blocked by something, and she couldn't make a sound. Her hands held the quilt tightly, the white bones loomed on the joints on the back of her hands, she felt that her body could not support it and was about to faint, but her brain became extremely clear, and her eyesight was surprisingly good, although she did not turn on the light, all the details of the room were in her eyes. So, she saw clearly what frightened her, and she writhed desperately, trying to get up and flee from here, but the hateful body had no strength at all, and could barely move a finger.
In front of the dresser in the dark, the silhouette of a woman gradually appeared. She opened and closed her lips slightly, and her mouth was almost the same as the song played on the Walkman, if it weren't for the Walkman being around her, she almost thought that the song was made by her.
There was only a vague silhouette of the woman, as if it had condensed with the darkness around her. She slowly raised her arms and combed her long, waterfall-like hair with a comb. She combed it for a long, long time, so long that she thought a century had passed. Finally, she put down her comb, ran her long hair over her shoulders, and stood up.
Hedi's gaze moved with the woman's body, and at this moment, she didn't even have the idea of escaping, only a desperate emotion spread in her heart. Her body was not hers, her consciousness was only temporarily present in this body, through which she observed everything in front of her. She saw the woman walk up to the couch, grab a long silk scarf from the back of the couch and drape it over her shoulders, and spun around in circles. In the dark, Hetu couldn't see her face at all, or rather, she didn't have a face at all, she seemed to be a shadow, a flesh-and-blood shadow that was not flat, she didn't seem to be able to see Hetu, walking around in front of Hetu's eyes, her figure was like Xiuhan on the stage, it was so beautiful and elegant, Hetu could feel that she was very happy, the kind of happiness from the bottom of her heart, but this happiness did not last long. Suddenly, she stopped, and gradually, the darkness was pulled out of her, and a blue liquid began to flow all over her body, and the liquid faintly glowed, scurrying around her body, and the woman squatted down in pain, holding her head, and writhing on the ground, the liquid illuminated the things around her, and the things around her began to melt into liquid, flowing to the woman's side, almost drowning her. He Tu was extremely frightened, and suddenly felt a trace of sympathy in his heart, and felt that the woman in front of him was very pitiful.
He Tu looked at the scene in front of him motionlessly, the whole room had turned into a boiling water, and the woman had disappeared into the water. Relieved that she could finally be freed, she slowly let go of her hand that was clutching the sheet, but without mentioning the thud in the water, a wet figure slammed into her eyes from the water, almost scaring her half to death.
At last, she could see the woman's face clearly, it was a familiar face, a very gentle and very beautiful face, but the face was now covered with tears, and the red and swollen eyes looked at her, and the mouth kept moving, as if to roar something. But he couldn't hear a word, she just watched the woman dance in front of her eyes, desperately telling something. The water in the room gradually receded, and the woman's body slowly drifted away, until it became a small dot, where she was still waving her hands and screaming......
He Tu looked at everything in front of him unconsciously, and his mind went blank. She suddenly felt a dull pain in her heart, as if someone was stabbing her heart with a knife, and there was a violent slamming sound in her ears after being quiet for a long time, accompanied by someone's painful roar. She closed her eyes and writhed in pain, like a woman, and finally, with a bright uproar, she rolled over and sat up from the bed.
It turned out that everything was just a dream.
He wiped the sweat from his forehead in horror and looked around in confusion. It's still that small room, which she cleaned up neatly and well-organized. The sound of slamming in his ears was still ringing, and there was a light outside the window, and he hurriedly opened the curtains to look out, only to see Cheng Jiahua sitting in the courtyard with his legs outstretched, he hammered the ground hard, and cried in pain.
"What's going on?" He Tu looked out the window in horror, as if he had forgotten the nightmare he had just had in an instant. She hurriedly put on a piece of clothing, rolled out of bed and ran outside. Cheng Tielong and Mu Shi were already in the yard, Cheng Tielong sat on the railing of the garden with his arms crossed and his face was iron-clad, Mu Shi stood next to him with his head down, the light bulb installed on the gate illuminated the courtyard brightly, and he could almost see the bulging blood vessels on his father-in-law's temples. She lowered her head, not wanting to look at Cheng Jiahua, who was crying in embarrassment, and she didn't dare to look at the two angry faces of her father-in-law and mother-in-law who seemed to explode at any time. She shuffled over to Mu Shi and stood silently with her hands folded.
Cheng Tielong didn't say a word, just looked at Cheng Jiahua in silence. It didn't take long for the lights on the second floor of the small building to come on, the door creaked open, and two figures of average size stood at the door and looked curiously downstairs. He Tu glanced at them quickly, and heard that the door of Cheng Jiayi's room behind him was also opened, and the voice with a heavy sleepiness came, suppressing the monotonous cry immediately.
"Dad! Mother! Why don't you sleep in the yard? Cheng Jiayi rubbed his eyes vigorously, jumped down the steps and took two steps forward, his eyes suddenly widened in surprise, "What's wrong with the eldest brother?" ”
"It's none of your business." Mu Shi hurriedly turned around and reprimanded, "Go back to sleep!" ”
"I can't sleep when it's so noisy." Cheng Jiayi didn't care about the reproach in her mother's words at all, she jumped up and walked to Cheng Tielong's side, reached out to hold his arm, and asked curiously, "Dad, what's wrong?" ”
Cheng Tielong turned his head to look at her, but obviously couldn't bear to scold her, so he had to say: "It's nothing, children's families, don't ask adults about things." He looked up at the two figures on the second floor and shouted, "Come down and take your sister to bed, and close the door!" ”
"Good!" Cheng Jiaji hurriedly responded, he pushed Cheng Jiaye's arm, but Cheng Jiaye remained silent, sneered, and turned around and went into the house. Cheng Jiaji embarrassedly withdrew his arm in the air, turned around and ran downstairs.
"Gone, gone, gone to sleep." He pushed Cheng Jiayi's back and walked towards her room.
After the three children entered the house and closed the door, Cheng Tielong put down his arms, stood up, and walked towards Cheng Jiahua, who was still crying.
The north wind in the night was blowing more and more tightly, and although he was wearing his coat, he couldn't help but shiver. She raised her eyes slightly and stared at her father-in-law's serious back, a gut feeling that something was going to happen.
"You get up for me!" Cheng Tielong stood still in front of Cheng Jiahua, looked at him coldly with his head down, and said through gritted teeth.
Cheng Jiahua, who was sitting on the ground, heard this, and immediately raised his face full of tears. His face was so red that he couldn't tell if it was blown by the north wind or if he was crying like this. He looked at his father in a daze, and asked for a long time, "Where is Jiajia?" ”
Cheng Tielong's face changed suddenly, he quickly turned his head to look at Hedi, turned his head again, and scolded fiercely: "You stand up for me!" ”
Cheng Jiahua staggered to his feet, and a strong smell of wine suddenly rushed towards Cheng Tielong's face. He stared at his father's face tightly, and suddenly shouted loudly, "Jiajia! ”
"Shut up!" Cheng Tielong's roar came even faster, he grabbed Cheng Jiahua's wrist, and dragged Cheng Jiahua to his house. Cheng Tielong's figure was tall and strong, and Cheng Jiahua was thin and weak, and he was dragged by him for a while and staggered a few steps, almost falling to the ground.
"You let go of me!" Cheng Jiahua struggled desperately, staring at his father almost with hatred, "Where did you hide Jiajia!" You tell me! You give Jiajia back to me! ”
Cheng Tielong shook off his arm and raised his hand to hit Cheng Jiahua's face with a snap. The crisp sound almost overshadowed the whistling of the north wind, and the left half of Cheng Jiahua's face quickly swollen.
Both Hedi and Mushi were startled and stared blankly at the scene in front of them. As if awakened by this slap, Cheng Jiahua's face instantly turned white, and soon turned cyan again. He raised his hand and touched the left side of his face with an expression of disbelief on his face.
"Nothing is good!" Cheng Tielong gritted his teeth and said, he pointed at Hetu, "That's your daughter-in-law!" Do you remember! ”
Cheng Jiahua nodded dumbly, his eyes changed from invincible to timid, and he almost didn't dare to look directly into Cheng Tielong's eyes. Hedi's heart beat violently, for fear that Cheng Jiahua would say something wrong, and his father-in-law would slap Cheng Jiahua again. The father-in-law's eyes stared at his son like hungry wolves, and as soon as that gaze touched it, a chill came from her body. Fortunately, Cheng Jiahua didn't say anything more, Cheng Tielong stayed for a few seconds, and then turned around and went into the house.
Seeing Cheng Tielong's figure disappear behind the thick door curtain, Mu Shi breathed a long sigh of relief. She hurriedly stepped forward to pick up her son who had fallen to the ground, and turned her head to Hetu and scolded, "Why don't you hurry up and come over and help her!" ”
He Di agreed, and hurriedly ran over to help Cheng Jiahua's other arm. As soon as Cheng Jiahua touched her body, he shook off her hand suddenly, glared at her with disgust, and walked towards the house with Mu Shi's support.
He Tu stared blankly at the figure of the mother and son, not knowing what to do for a while. Her heart was tangled, faintly painful, and tears were about to flow down in an instant. Fortunately, the north wind was strong enough and the weather was cold enough, so that she could clearly see Mu Shi turning his head to look at her disgusted eyes. Her strength suddenly came to her heart, she would never let herself cry in this situation, raised her hand and wiped away the tears floating in her eyes, she strode forward, and followed the two people into the house.
Mu Shi entered the room and sat down on the sofa, looking at Hedi coldly. He leaned against the door, glanced at the two of them quickly, and then lowered his head and did not speak. She didn't know what she should do, and she sensitively realized that even if she said something, she would attract reprimands and impatient eyes, so she simply closed her mouth and waited quietly.
Cheng Jiahua stumbled and sat down on the edge of the bed, he raised his arm to unbutton his coat, and his movements looked extremely chaotic. Just as he hadn't finished unbuttoning one of his buttons, Mu Shi said coldly, "You're still standing there, why don't you hurry up and help him undress!" ”
He Tu raised her head and glanced at her mother-in-law blankly, she licked her chapped lips that were blown by the wind, agreed, and stepped forward hesitantly.
"No need for you!" Cheng Jiahua shook his arm roughly, almost hitting Hetu's face. He Tu took a step back quickly and looked at his mother-in-law in embarrassment.
"Ouch, you said you, why are you drinking so much? Look at the face. Mu Shi said distressedly, but he was still sitting upright on the sofa without any movement. She glanced at He Tu impatiently, and then said to Cheng Jiahua, "Just let your daughter-in-law help you change your clothes." ”
"I don't need her!" As soon as Cheng Tielong disappeared, Cheng Jiahua's wine strength came up again, he looked at his mother in a daze, and asked with a big tongue, "Where is Jiajia?" Mom, what about Jiajia? ”
Mu Shi hesitated, she bit her lip, as if she was struggling with whether to speak, but she still said it, and said it word by word through gritted teeth, trying to make Cheng Jiahua hear clearly, so that he could completely die, "She's dead." ”
Cheng Jiahua's expression suddenly became painful, he grabbed the clothes on his chest hard, and said in a hoarse voice, "Impossible, she can't die, how could she die." ”
"You know, you saw it, it's all true." Mu Shi stood up from the sofa, his expression became more and more cold, "Everyone is dead, why are you still thinking about her?" Hurry up and change your clothes and go to bed, and get up early tomorrow to confess your mistake to your dad. She stood in place, as if waiting for Cheng Jiahua's response. But the man was in so much pain at this moment that he barely had the strength to lift his head, and he didn't hear her words. Mu Shi waited for a while and didn't wait for the answer he wanted, then coughed his throat and said to Hedi: "You take care of him at night, don't let him get sick, after all, he has been in the cold wind for so long." ”
"Got it." He Tu said with his head down. She heard Mu Shi's footsteps gradually disappear outside the door, so she closed the door and turned to look at Cheng Jiahua. Her heart was full of curiosity, doubts and grievances, she didn't know who that Jiajia was, she didn't know where Cheng Jiahua's disgust for her came from, and she didn't know why her mother-in-law became disgusted with herself. She was very sad in her heart, she had been trying to do a good job, to make a good impression on them, but in just a few days, things had turned out beyond her expectations, especially ...... He Tu shuddered, and remembered the nightmare she had just had, the woman's black shadow seemed to still linger in front of her eyes, smiling weirdly, and the miserable roar was the same as the current Cheng Jiahua, full of despair and unwillingness.
"Are you ......" Hetu stepped forward and asked hesitantly, "Are you okay?" ”
Cheng Jiahua writhed his body in pain and didn't speak. It was a long time, long enough that He Tu thought he was about to fall asleep, and then he raised his head, looked at her with teary eyes, his eyes were full of pain, and the previous disgust seemed to disappear at once.
"I'm so tired." He pointed to his heart, "It hurts here." ”
He Tu looked at him puzzled, and suddenly she recalled that when she had just separated from Zhu Hai before, she was also so painful at that time, it seemed that there were no tears when she cried, and the whole world suddenly darkened, as if the sun would not rise again the next day. Is Cheng Jiahua the same as her at that time, separated from "Jiajia", which made him so painful and desperate.
He hesitated for a long time, organizing words to comfort him in his heart, but no matter how he thought about it, he felt that it was not right. Jiajia is dead, this is undoubtedly a huge blow to Cheng Jiahua, how can she comfort him? No matter how comforting he is, he feels that he is revealing the scars on his heart.
"Don't cry." She finally squeezed this sentence out of her mouth, "Quickly change your clothes and go to sleep, I'll wash your feet." ”
"Come here." Cheng Jiahua said suddenly. He raised his arm and shook it at her, looking at her fragilely. As soon as Hedi's heart softened, his body involuntarily turned around and walked towards Cheng Jiahua.
"Sit here." Cheng Jiahua patted the position next to him, watched Hetu sit down, and then turned his head. He had a desire to talk, and he saw it, and was ready to listen, but he kept his mouth shut.
He looked at him puzzled, not knowing what he meant. She waited for a while, but he still didn't respond, and was ready to stand up and wash his feet. At this time, Cheng Jiahua's body moved, he raised his arm, stuffed his hand into the inner pocket of his clothes, and slowly took out a very old photo that had been rubbed from it. That photo is very familiar, and the girl in the photo is also familiar to her. She lowered her head and looked at the photo carefully, and inexplicably felt as if the figure of this girl had just been seen not long ago, and suddenly, a thunder exploded in her head, almost making her faint.
The woman's black shadow gradually overlapped with the girl in the photo, merging together, twisting and screaming in front of her eyes.
"She!" He Tu pointed to the photo and cried out in horror, "I just dreamed of her!" ”
"What?" Cheng Jiahua looked at her in confusion, and immediately became sober again, he hurriedly stuffed the photo back into his pocket, grabbed Hedi's shoulders hard, and asked anxiously, "What did you dream of her?" You haven't even seen her, how did you dream of her? ”
He Tu shook his head, his face full of horror, "It's a nightmare, a nightmare, not a good dream." ”
"Nightmares?" Cheng Jiahua looked at her sadly, a wry smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, he let go of Hedi's shoulders, and said miserably, "I also dreamed of her, it's just an old dream." ”
"Can you tell me what the hell is going on?" He Tu asked tentatively, she had too many doubts, and the dream just now cast a thick fog on her heart, and her heart panicked. She was anxious to know the truth of the matter and didn't want to be kept in the dark all the time, not knowing anything, not understanding anything.
Cheng Jiahua glanced at her, his gaze as unfathomable as the bottom of a frozen lake on a winter night. He seemed to wake up in an instant, the desire to pour out disappeared like a low tide, his face became cold and mocking again, he rolled over and lay down without saying a word, held the picture in the palm of his hand, and closed his eyes tightly.
"You-" Hedi tried to remind him that he hadn't changed his clothes yet, but he opened his mouth and still didn't speak. She silently took off her coat and folded it at the head of the bed, shrunk into the corner of the bed and closed her eyes. On such a night, she suddenly missed her parents, sister and Xiuhan, and although the house she was in was large and elegant, she never felt the warmth of her existence. He Tu couldn't help but clench her arms, she felt that her surroundings seemed to be getting colder and colder, and she seemed to be able to feel the figure of the woman hovering above her head, resentful, unwilling, and unwilling.