"When a person really loves me, I think I can feel it, I know that Lin Che really loves me, and he is so good to me, how can he really say that if he doesn't love me, he won't love it?"

I said, slowly tearing down, "He thought that if he said that, I would believe that he didn't love me, but in fact, his acting skills were not good...... Although his words really hurt me at the time, I don't like what he did. I love him, even if I die, I want to die by his side, but my love is extremely selfish, Lin Che wants me to live well, I want to listen to him, otherwise how can I be worthy of his hard work? ”

Wen Yi'an also shed tears with me, he reached out to wipe my tears, and said, "Yes! Before him, I thought that all men didn't love you as much as me, but Lin Che let me know that I lost, lost to him. Tuanzi, I'm sorry, Lin Che protected you very well, but I didn't. ”

I shook my head, "You are the same as Lin Che, I can't figure out what you paid for me." Wen Yi'an, tell me, how sick is I now? ”

"Treat well, don't be discouraged, there is hope." Wen Yi'an said, in fact, what he showed was even more bottomless.

That night, in Wen Yi'an's mouth, I learned about my current situation, in fact, I don't have any hemolytic anemia at all, I have lupus erythematosus, an autoimmune inflammatory connective tissue disease involving multiple organs that occurs in young women, resulting in kidney failure, even after Zhiying donated a kidney to me, this disease cannot be cured, and it has to be controlled by medication, Lin Che has been hiding from me for a long time, he accepts the fact that I can't give birth to a child for him, and is willing to be the villain who doesn't let me have a child.

He would rather make me hate him than make me feel guilty because I owe him, but how could a selfish person like me do something to leave him because of guilt? He still doesn't understand me.

Wen Yi'an said that I didn't understand myself.

I have expected this for a long time, I don't hate Lin Che, and I don't hate Zhiying. But like Lin Che and I said, we won't see each other again. I owe him, Wen Yi'an, and Zhiying.

Zhiying is right, Lin Che's love for me is largely based on the Zhiying he once met, if Zhiying found Lin Che before me, perhaps, they will always be together! Her life is really not good, even now, I don't know if Lin Che really fell in love with her......

I continued to ask Wen Yi'an how long I had left, and Wen Yi'an continued to answer my previous words, saying that as long as I was treated well, I would be fine.

This disease is also known as the cancer that does not die. Although the vast majority of patients are not cured, there are many cases where they can live a normal life with post-control management. And I, it was an accident.

I got a healthy kidney and was actively receiving treatment, but it was probably my selfishness that God couldn't stand it, so I had such an accident.

In fact, I don't know how many people experience accidents every day, and I have seen a lot of cases of this on the Internet, saying that this disease, which is originally healthy, may cause various consequences if the rescue is not timely overnight.

I'm not sad, although I also want to live in good health......

After being hospitalized, one day Wen Yi'an suddenly asked me if I still love Lin Che.

I didn't know what to say, I didn't quite understand what I was going to say, or I was afraid of what kind of situation it would cause if I said it, but it was clear that the answer to the question was clear to me.

Wen Yi'an continued: "Tuanzi, if you still love him, go and tell him, I bet now that he can come over tonight, whether you want to continue to love him, you choose." ”

I shook my head again and again, "I don't know if I still love him, but when I realize that I am going to leave this world soon, the person I want to see the most is him, and I want to talk to him the most and tell him that I am doing well and that I will not have him again for decades to come." But the more I had this thought, the more I knew, the less I could see him. ”

I'm also a big grower, and I know that I can't blindly rely on others.

Wen Yi'an laughed, "Great, our group has grown up and learned to bear the pain and live bravely, but there are some things that you can't talk nonsense, why are you going to leave the world soon?" You have to live well, otherwise you will be sorry for Lin Che, and you will be sorry for all of us, everyone who loves you. ”

After being hospitalized, the days slowly began to become monotonous, more than two months passed, and in the blink of an eye, it was the middle of winter, and the streets of New York were full of snowflakes, in fact, I liked snow days, but I couldn't go out for a walk, I had to protect myself from ultraviolet rays, and I couldn't catch a cold, these are extremely troublesome things.

It was around this time, at 12:30 noon in New York and 12:30 in Beijing time, a difference of 12 hours, that an unfamiliar number from Beijing, China, came to my mobile phone.

I hesitated, but I connected.

It's not that person, the voice that is slowly ringing on the other end of the phone is Cheng Zhiying's.

Zhiying asked softly, "Shen Zhihan, is it you?" ”

I didn't speak, but I gave her an affirmative answer.

She continued, "Can you come back and see Lin Che? He's not doing well. ”

What should I do? I've seen this kind of drama many times, both in the script and on it.

If the other party is the female owner, it will definitely be distressed, and the first reaction involuntarily immediately anxiously asked the male owner what's wrong? And then I heard that the male owner had a terminal illness or something.,The female owner rushed back across the ocean and kept guarding the male owner.,In the end, the male owner was cured because of the company of the female owner.,The terminal illness was cured.。 There is also a kind of male protagonist who is not sick at all.,It's very healthy.,Just use this method to let the female protagonist know that she still cares about him.。

Then, a lover finally becomes a family, HappyEnding, and the end of the play.

I'm so smart, I guessed it all.

Then I smiled faintly, as if remembering a joke, and I replied, "He's not good?" I'm not good yet! ”

The other end of the phone was slightly stunned, Zhiying sobbed, and continued: "Shen Zhihan, if I tell you that after you left, Lin Che drank heavily every day, and now he has advanced stomach cancer, what will you do?"

My heart trembled violently, and then reminded myself - no, no, what Cheng Zhiying said was a hypothetical sentence, she loves to lie so much, isn't this the same as I expected?

"Miss Cheng Zhiying," I said calmly, following her assumptions, "Your husband is dying of stomach cancer, why don't you cherish this little time with him and cry to me, are you funny?" With this spare time, it is recommended that you prepare well for his future. He dies, or you die, whether all of you are dead or alive has nothing to do with me, I said it, don't contact me. ”

On the other end of the phone, Zhiying gasped, "You really don't care at all?" Do you have a heart? ”

"Who says I don't care?" I replied lazily, "When you told me, my heart fluttered violently. But think about it! After all, it's an ex-husband, even if any person around him has a terminal illness, it will inevitably make people feel shocked. ”

"You are very merciful to the people around you! But do this to the person who truly loves you? Shen Zhihan, how can you be so heartless, I want to kill you! On the other end of the phone, Cheng Zhiying suddenly burst into tears, and then whimpered, "Do you know that Lin Che is for you...... We ......"

"Well, don't say it, I'm not stupid, really. Don't think about killing me, a society ruled by law, murder is illegal, and besides, you can't kill me, and we won't see each other again. I still have one of your kidneys in my body, and it's a pity that you killed me? ”

"Since you know all this, why do you still say this about Lin Che? He's so nice to you......"

"There are so many people who are good to me! Aren't you two going to grow old together? If you want to say blessings, I'm sorry, I can't say it, so do it yourself! ”

After I finished saying this, there was no sound on the other end of the phone, and I was removing the phone from my ear, about to hang up, when Cheng Zhiying's voice suddenly rang again, she was not saying to me.

"Lin Che, do you hear me? Deadhearted? Is it okay to live well? You see she doesn't love you at all, she doesn't love you at all! Aren't you tired......"

Before Cheng Zhiying's words were finished, there was a "bang" on the other end of the phone, I estimated that Lin Che might have smashed her mobile phone, and the moment she put down her mobile phone, Lin Che's voice on the other end of the phone suddenly came.

He asked me, "Who told you that?" ”

This kind of question is so boring, what is the point of who told me? I just want him to know that even if I knew the truth, I wouldn't be grateful and loving to him, and he didn't need to worry about someone like me.

"It doesn't seem to have anything to do with you, does it? The two of you are really interesting, I have to be involved in a mother's quarrel, I want to take a nap at noon, please take care of your daughter-in-law, I will not answer such a strange number in the future. ”

"Are you alright?" Lin Che suddenly asked softly, his voice was hoarse and tired, but it was still very good, I almost cried when I heard these three words.

Then I laughed, "Thanks to you, I'm fine." Thank you and take care! ”

With that, I quickly hung up the phone and tossed my phone aside. I lifted the quilt and got up from the hospital bed, walked to the window, the snow was blowing outside, all I could see was white snowflakes, and it was all Lin Che's face, I really missed him.

If I hadn't hung up the phone soon, I might have told him.

Tell him I'm not doing well and I'm going to die.

These people who love me always like to make their own decisions and give me what they think is the best love. Wen Yi'an personally sent me to Lin Che because he loved me, and Lin Che was with Zhiying because he loved me. But now, Wen Yi'an's care and respect for me is the most comfortable love in my opinion.

I also have to learn to love people in their way, I want Lin Che to live a better life, each of them, who has really loved, said that love is fulfillment and concession.

After all this experience, I gradually understood.

Ten minutes later, Sister Wen Wen came to bring me a nutritious meal, she saw me standing by the window, came over and hugged me, and asked softly, "Are you homesick?"

I didn't cry and didn't show any other emotions, Sister Wen Wen said, but my appearance was obviously sadder than crying.

I just laughed, I was really homesick, even though I said, this is my home.

After that, I completely cut off contact with Lin Che and Cheng Zhiying. There were no more strange phone calls.