On this day and night, Yu Wushuang suddenly had intestinal colic. However, the baby who was more than a month old cried heartbreakingly, his little face was red, and even his voice was hoarse.

Shan Yue'er was distressed, hugged him all night long, warmed his little belly with her own body, patted him, and coaxed him to sleep. When he slept soundly, he leaned against the head of the bed and tilted it slightly.

Yu Wushuang's illness took more than half a month to get better, and Shan Yue'er also couldn't eat and sleep well, and he was a lot haggard, so he naturally couldn't care about leaving the palace. Every time she watched Yu Wushuang cry, she also wept. She blamed herself, if she hadn't been careless that day, at this moment, this little baby should still be well protected by her in the womb, instead of suffering from illness like now.

Self-blame, heartache, tiredness, and a lot of unspeakable sadness pressed on Shan Yue'er's heart, making her feel a little breathless. Finally, after Yu Wushuang recovered, she fell ill again.

On this day, after breakfast, Shan Yue'er felt a little better, so she asked Caishang to accompany her and went to the garden for a walk.

When he was tired of walking, he sat on the bluestone bench to rest, watching the morning light shine through the leaves and stars, and Shan Yue'er's mind drifted far away.

What happened in the less than a year that she wanted to marry into the palace, she herself seemed to have been tossing and turning in the whirlpool of various power struggles, just to get a chance to breathe, but in the end, she still wanted to give up. Because, she is not happy. Because, this is not the life she wants.

She occupies a position that does not belong to her, and lives a life that does not belong to her, but no matter how she struggles, she still does not belong here after all, she does not want to be nostalgic anymore, and in the end even her only remaining dignity is lost in this strange world.

Yu Qingfeng has been busy recently, going out early and returning late every day, and even not seeing anyone for a few days, even when he was sick in the morning, he just hurriedly came over to take a few glances and left. She didn't blame him, and she didn't want to pursue all the things between him and others. Because, she understood, he was not only her husband, Zao'er's father, he was the king of the whole Akane Xiang, and the hope of the people.

But she can't forgive him, a woman can't forgive her husband's betrayal and alienation, a mother can't forgive her child's father's ignorance and neglect of her child, such alienation is a loss and resentment that can be filled with no matter how many reasons.

She wants to leave, and the most reluctant thing is her and his children. He was still so young, and she still wanted to watch him cry, watch him laugh, and watch him grow up in her arms little by little. But she has to go after all, and if she can't accompany him for the rest of her life, then leaving before he has an impression of her mother may hurt him the least. As for the others......

Caishang saw that Shan Yue'er had been distracted, and knew that she must be thinking nonsense again. Since she came back from Xiangju that day, she has been like this, although I don't know what the master and the prince said later, but Caishang knows that the matter of the prince going to the brothel has always been a hurdle in the heart of the master.

"Master, the day has risen. You're still sick, you're sunburned, it's time for us to go back. Caishang said worriedly.

Shan Yue'er heard her voice, came back to her senses, and let her help herself up. She looked at Caishang, who looked worried, patted her hand, and said, "Caishang, are you in your teens this year?" ”

Caishang was a little surprised why the master suddenly cared about her age, but she still replied truthfully: "Back to the master, in another month, the slave will be seventeen years old." ”

Shan Yue'er curled her lips and said, "Another month, what is your birthday?" ”

Caishang said: "The fifteenth day of the lunar month." ”

Shan Yue'er said with a smile: "It's a good day, I heard Lan Feng say that the fifteenth day of the lunar month is the Krathong Festival of Qianxiang." Every year on this day, the people of Akane will put Krathong into the river to place good wishes and blessings in their hearts. ”

Caishang nodded, seeing that Shan Yue'er was in a rare mood to laugh, and hurriedly responded: "I didn't expect that the slave's birthday is still a big day for everyone to celebrate on this Qianxiang." ”

Shan Yue'er said as she walked: "Yes! It's better to be happy this year, and do your marriage with Erniu on that day! It was my negligence, you are already seventeen years old, and I have selfishly kept you by my side. ”

Hearing this, Caishang liked and was shy, and hurriedly knelt down, and said: "The master has tormented the slave and the maid, and the slave and the maid are willing to serve the master all their lives, in this life, if you don't marry!" ”

Shan Yue'er hurriedly helped her up and sighed: "What kind of stupid thing to say, the girl's family, after all, you have to find a home." This Erniu, I originally thought he was not worthy of you, but now I don't think so. Although he can't give you any rich and noble life, he is a real person and is wholeheartedly devoted to you. Between husband and wife, the most rare thing is not the appearance of the pair, but the husband and wife are concentric and love each other. I saw that he was sincere, so I was willing to promise you to him. ”

Caishang still refused to follow, and said: "But master, the little master is young and frail, and you have not been in good health recently, just when you need someone to take care of you, how can the slave and maid leave you at this time?" ”

Shan Yue'er comforted her and said: "It's okay, after you get married, you can live in the palace and take care of me and Zao'er." Marry in peace, and I will wait to see the day when you will put on your dowry. ”

The master and servant were talking, and before they knew it, they had come to the door of Qingyu Hall. Hou Xiaoxiao at the gate greeted him and replied, "Master, you are back." Just now, the little maid at the gate came in to interpret at the same time, saying that there was a girl at the door who asked to see the master. ”

Shan Yue'er leaned on the chaise longue, took the herbal tea handed over by Caishang, took a sip, and wondered, she didn't have any relatives or friends here, who would be asking to see her? So he asked, "Who do you say?" ”

Xiaoxiao shook his head and said, "No, I just handed this handbook, and the slave didn't recognize the words on it." ”

Hearing this, Shan Yue'er took the envelope in her hand, but saw that there was only a line of beautiful small characters written on the white rice paper, and said: Hai Furong has come to meet the lord of the Protector of the Heavenly Empire!

It turned out to be Hai Furong, and it was said that this little girl saved her life on Yunzhong Island at that time. Shan Yue'er said in her heart, this girl's temperament is a full Hai family, she only knows the Heavenly Empire, but she doesn't know Qianxiang. It's just that the Hai family and the Yu family have never been on good terms, and now, she rashly came to the Jade Mansion to ask to see her, thinking that there must be something important. There are many people in the house, and it is really inconvenient to see her.

So, Shan Yue'er said to Xiaoxiao: "You go to see the girl at the door in person, and say that I will leave the house immediately and ask her to meet her at Tongque Teahouse." ”

The little one took his own order.

Caishang said worriedly: "The master is still sick, why bother to leave the house?" If you really want to see her, why don't you pass her in? ”

Shan Yue'er shook her head and said, "Okay, don't be verbose, my own body has my own number." It's inconvenient in the house, you can help me change into ordinary clothes, let Erniu prepare the car, and the two of you will accompany me out of the door. After thinking about it, he said, "The prince can be in the mansion?" ”

Caishang shook her head and said, "I haven't seen it." ”

Shan Yue'er nodded, looking a little lonely, and soon returned to normal, and said with a smile: "That's good, if the prince asks, you know how to reply." ”

Caishang nodded and said, "Yes, don't worry, the slave will go and take care of it." ”