Her spirit and body were so yearning for the liberation of death, even with the guilt of Qin Lie and Qin Su, she couldn't suppress this surging killing intent, she was really broken from the inside out this time, and she couldn't lift her spirit to fight against the invasion of the disease.

She no longer knew how much courage it would take to keep living.

After the turning point in her life, it seems that she has never encountered many things that make her happy. However, what made her feel even more desperate was that the reason why she was able to live so long after the Luo family went bankrupt was actually because of her love and hatred for Fu Tingyuan.

When this relationship no longer has a focus, Luo Nanchu's whole person fell apart.

She couldn't love him anymore, and she couldn't continue to hate him—the child really couldn't be born, and he really couldn't be with her.

She couldn't say that Fu Tingyuan did everything right to her, but it was right not to keep that child.

Knowing that all this didn't make her feel much better, her heart was still so painful, the truth was a dagger for her, it was cutting her soul little by little.

It kept her alive and unwhole.

It made her sicker and made her worse than dead.

Let her live in great despair every day, every second.

*

The aggravation of the drug made Luo Nanchu groggy all day.

Alprazolam and nafazodone made her a little unable to think, and the daily tranquilizers made her physically tired. She hadn't taken that many doses before, and the body's rejection was severe, vomiting and shivering, her heart was racing, and then she was dizzy.

Luo Nanchu sometimes can't stand it, and it's better to die if she continues to be treated like this, but she feels that this kind of thinking may be the negative impact of depression on her, and she wants to endure it.

She promised Qin Lie that she would be discharged from the hospital, how could she stay in the hospital all the time.

However, what makes Luo Nanchu desperate is that many times many things never happen as she imagined.

She was in the hospital for more than half a month, but her condition did not improve much.

The nurse who cared over her sighed at her, as if she were such a hopeless patient.

She was actually a little aggrieved. After all, she has been taking medicine so hard, how can she be blamed for the medicine no matter how it works.

Qin Lie and Qin Su would come to see her every day, they didn't worry that she was alone in the hospital, just like they used to take care of her, they hoped that she would get better. Luo Nanchu finished smoking the pack of cigarettes that Qin Lie had left behind, and the cigarettes reminded her of the crazy and wanton past when she was young, which brought her a lot of illusory comfort.

- If she gets better, will she be as carefree and happy as before?

But after smoking the pack of cigarettes, she didn't ask Qin Lie to bring them again.

The past could no longer paralyze the nerves of reality, and when she looked forward, it was still a bottomless abyss.

She probably won't get better.

The night was dark.

Qin Lie stayed in the ward and sat on the sofa with Luo Nanchu in his arms.

Luo Nanchu had already fallen asleep, she had just taken the medicine and slept peacefully.

The medicine made her long hair furry, Qin Lie reached out and brushed away the broken hair that fell on Luo Nanchu's face, and lowered his eyes to look at her docile and quiet sleeping face.

She looked so well-behaved now, like an ignorant child, but the doctor told him that Luo Nanchu still needed to live here for a while.

Her condition is not improving, and she still needs to take many, many pills to control her depression.

*

Asking for tickets~ Soon, Mr. Fu rushed out and took Chu Chu away, everything will be fine, Mo Mo Da. Just like Yan Ruyu said - although he refused to admit it, Fu Scumbag was indeed the first medicine, everything started because of him, and naturally he had to end it. He owes Chu Chu and he will pay it back for the rest of his life. - Well, the whitewashing from Fu's mother.