Lin Che hesitated and looked at me steadily, "I didn't say I was going to break up, how would I live without you?" ”

"No, it's not." I shook my head, "You are like this now, in fact, you have the answer in your heart, Lin Che, what is going on, can you tell me?" What do you think...... If you want to break up now, will I promise you? I gave you a chance, take 10,000 steps back and say, even if you and Cheng Zhiying really have a relationship and even have a child, so what? I am your licensed wife, and as long as I don't agree to the divorce, she will be an illegitimate child even if she has children. ”

Saying this, I became even more upset, and continued: "What's more...... I have a child, I will never let you leave me, no matter what Cheng Zhiying wants to do, she wants to snatch you away from me, impossible. Don't you want to think about it, my child......"

"Zhihan," Lin Che pressed me, trying to contain his emotions and said, "You calm down, I will take care of these things, trust me." ”

"How can I convince myself to keep believing?" I shook my head, he didn't answer my question, and I didn't continue talking.

There was a long silence before Lin Che spoke, and he asked me, "Zhihan, how long have we known each other?"

I was not in the mood to answer such an innocuous question, so he replied to himself, "I saw you when you were sixteen years old, and at that time you mistook me for Wen Yi'an at the airport, holding me and not letting go, I turned my head and saw you, if you weren't good-looking, I would have beaten you to death." ”

As he spoke, his mood seemed to improve, and he even smiled when he recalled those things.

"What the hell are you trying to say?" I'm starting to get a little impatient.

"Later! It wasn't until you were eighteen years old that you met for the second time, when you tried to sabotage our parents' date, after I learned the news, I was going to let Zhao Wen educate you, thinking about this young girl, why do you have so many eyes, Zhao Wen temporarily had a situation that day, so I went by myself.

Do you know? Some coincidence, before I met you, I never believed in any fate, do you think I really don't want to touch you when I take you back that night? I tried to make myself rational over and over again, in fact, your campus card at that time was deliberately taken away by me, and the mobile phone was also turned off by me, and Yang Hao, at that time, I knew that I couldn't give you a future, but I just couldn't get used to seeing you with other men, and then you went to me again and again and told me that you liked me, how much I struggled at that time.

I say this to tell you that I sincerely wanted to live with you, both at that time and at every step I took later. You are twenty-three and a half years old this year, and I really love you for the past five years from the time you were eighteen years old to now. ”

"You've loved me for five years, and now you don't continue to love me, do you want to say this?"

Lin Che touched my hair, his eyes were still red, but the corners of his mouth were smiling, "Let's not talk about this, come, change clothes first." Don't you always say that being bored at home? Shall I wait for you to go out for a walk? ”

"Turn you ghost!" I waved my hands and hit him in the face, "You make it clear!" ”

When I hit him, he didn't stop me, and let me beat him with all my might, until at last I couldn't do it, and he took him in his arms and bit him again. The more he didn't struggle, the more I cried.

After a long time, in this tugging, he helped me change my dress, and combed my hair and applied sunscreen not very skillfully, I lost my strength and felt very uncomfortable, until he carried me to the car, I asked weakly: "Are you going to take me to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce?"

"It's the weekend, and no one from the Civil Affairs Bureau goes to work." Lin Che said, "What are you thinking about? I won't leave you until the last step, Zhihan, no matter what. ”

"What are you hiding from me?"

"Is that okay?" Lin Che turned sideways, pressed my shoulder, and said seriously, "Zhihan, you look at me, will you give me three days?" In three days, I will give you an answer, and you will trust me for the last time. ”

My heart became heavier and heavier, and my mouth opened and closed, and it was very difficult, "It means that you only gave us the last three days, and after three days, you may have to leave me?" ”

"Don't think about it, I'll be very distressed, do you know?" Lin Che pinched my face again, "No matter what, you have to believe that I am absolutely reluctant to hurt you, since I decided to be with you, maybe I have done things that make you sad and disappointed, but there has never been a moment when I have done such a thing intentionally." ”

I also believe what Lin Che said, it is true that he is very good to me, he really loves me. But I wasn't 100% convinced of him, and it was painful for me.

"Then between you and Cheng Zhiying, what hasn't happened......" Before I finished speaking, he grabbed my head and blocked my lips, we kissed, unlike every time before, pleasant or unpleasant, I just felt that I was now jumping into a big pit, which was full of daylight, I couldn't climb up, and no one tried to pull me.

Later, Lin Che took me to the supermarket and bought milk tea ice cream on the street. It's been a long time since we've been so idle, in fact, I've always had a lot of time to be idle, mainly because Lin Che has been very busy, and I don't even know what he's been busy with before.

When I returned home and filled the refrigerator, I felt at home. After that, we went to the beach again, and sat on the beach for a long time, the waves crashed against the waves, Lin Che turned my head and leaned on his shoulder, I touched my belly, child...... When I think of it, I am no longer happy, I just feel more and more bottomless, falling deeper and deeper into the abyss.

My hair was blown to Lin Che's face by the sea breeze, and he turned his head and asked me what I was thinking.

I spoke slowly and asked, "Son, do you like boys or girls?"

He hesitated, and I felt it, albeit for a short time, and then he said, "Actually, whether it's a boy or a girl, they don't matter as much as you. This kid, I want to talk to you......"

"Don't say it. I must keep it, even if I can only live with it in the operating room. Lin Che, this is your child, don't you love it at all? ”

"I love it, but I love it even more mommy." He turned his head and kissed me again, and I turned my face away, just feeling sad, but I didn't want to cry anymore.

On the way back, in order to make me happy, Lin Che picked up a lot of shells and conchs, I played with them in my hand, he gave me an umbrella, asked me if I wanted to go anywhere, take me tomorrow.

I shook my head and said I didn't want to go anywhere. When we came back, we cooked dinner together, watched TV and slept together.

After falling asleep, I vaguely heard Lin Che answering the phone, he whispered what to do to make up for it, no matter what other tricky requests Cheng Zhiying made, he must agree first, stabilize her emotions first, and then deal with the follow-up matters slowly.

I could hear his nervousness, and he hung up the phone and quietly went out of the room and dialed again, not knowing who to call.

It was two hours before he came back to lie down beside me and kissed me softly on the cheek in the night.

I seem to realize that Lin Che and I may have to finish playing in this way, just as we started inexplicably, and the end may also be so unclear.

Of course, I will feel inexplicable and inexplicable, and it should be me from beginning to end.

I put my arms around Lin Che's neck in the dark and whispered, "I don't want to go anywhere tomorrow, you locked me at home and didn't let me go out before, but now you stay at home with me, and you won't go anywhere, okay?"

He was probably surprised, but I was actually awake. Then he nodded and said yes, let me sleep in peace.

It's rare for me to have sleepless nights,

Dragged like this, I felt scared, and I became less and less confident that I could catch Lin Che.

He didn't seem to be asleep, we spent the whole night with our own thoughts, I think it's strange, even though Cheng Zhiying said that, I still don't want to believe that Lin Che really betrayed me, or rather, even if he betrayed me, I don't want to face this reality.

Because I didn't sleep at night, and I was very tired during the day, Lin Che said that it was normal for me to be pregnant and sleepy, so he let me sleep.

But I was afraid that he would leave when I fell asleep, and I didn't want to fall asleep.

In this way, Lin Che answered a phone call at noon, and he has been absent since then.

I went to the bathroom and washed my face, and in front of the mirror, I was frightened by my own face, and my face began to have red spots again, and my whole face looked very puffy again.

I had to keep rinsing with cold water to try to ease my current appearance. But he fell on the edge of the pool.

When I woke up again, I was surrounded by the smell of disinfectant water, which was not only boring, but also fearful.

Lin Che sat next to me, and his face was also very ugly. When I opened my eyes and saw him, I instinctively hugged him and whispered, "You're still there!" You don't want to go, okay? ”

But he was very cruel and took me to hold his arm, and his eyes became firm, he was going to talk about breaking up.

As a result, he spoke slowly, but what he said was the child's problem, "Zhihan, your current physical condition is not very optimistic, we don't want this child for the time being." ”

"No way!" I protect my belly, the child is everything to me at this moment, it is much stronger than the sense of security that Lin Che brings me, "I said, even if I die, I will keep the child." And you acquiesced to the fact that I could give birth to the child. ”

"Then what should I do if you die?" He asked me, his eyes suddenly helpless.

"Am I really going to die?" I asked sluggishly.

"No, no, it's okay to have surgery as soon as possible, but this child, Zhihan, can't be saved from the beginning."

Lin Che and I looked at each other for a few seconds, looking at his affectionate eyes, and suddenly felt angry, "You can't keep it in the first place?" That's not what you said before, that's not what you and the doctor said! You have changed your rhetoric now, do you want me to kill the child as soon as possible? It's good to get a divorce if you kill the child, right? ”

Lin Che didn't refute what I said, but said to himself: "The child's matter is my fault, I shouldn't have let you get pregnant at this time, I should have taken it off a long time ago, but during that time, the two of us were like this, the relationship was tense, because you have a child, you will no longer abuse yourself, you will live a good life and take medicine seriously, and eagerly look forward to your recovery, but Zhihan, this child is really not the right time, I said I love our child, but I love you more, even if it is me and your child, I will not allow it to cause harm to you."

"So you're not having children for me? If the child is gone, you won't break up with me? I stared at him without blinking, and he hesitated.

Before he could speak, I immediately sarcastically said, "It's ridiculous, if you really want to mention breaking up, can't you just be neat?" But I'm also a ridiculous person, I don't care what you think in your heart, I have to keep this kid. ”

"Then if we get divorced, do you want to be alone with the children?" Lin Che suddenly became angry, his tone intensified, and the guilt on his face slowly disappeared.

The moment still came.