Chapter 496: Love is painful

Instead of doing better, you should be different. Zhang Fengyi will always be that one - a different existence! A person who is willing to remain true to himself has his most authentic side.

In front of Xu Xiaoyu, the true truth is fully expressed. In front of Xu Sange, he will always be a real free man.

The way he gets along with Xu Xiaoyu does not have a fixed format in words and deeds. All his performances are instinctively the most natural, the most straightforward, the most spontaneous behavior.

Mr. Zhang did not live the so-called freedom that people say, in fact, he lived a real self.

And it is precisely because he has lived out himself that he will live so freely, confidently, comfortably, and freely in front of Xu Xiaoyu, and these are the greatest characteristics and true charm of a person.

Because of a person's full affirmation of himself, it will attract a person to dump for him.

However, in front of the excellent Mr. Fang, Mr. Zhang lacked this confidence and calmness. Always feeling his inadequacy and inadequacy will lead him to constantly deny himself.

In fact, the real free man is not like what is described in books, movies, and TV series. All of them are not so fanatical, so intense, or always full of strength in their hearts to struggle against the world.

No, it's definitely not like that! A true liberal, always calm! He has his own rhythm of life, and he always thinks independently and lives solemnly at his own pace.

A true free man does not deliberately try to be different, but no matter whether he is different or not, he can always remain calm and have a normal heart. And it is precisely this quiet and peaceful atmosphere that makes him so different.

If you want to be truly free, you also need to avoid mistakes! The more things a person can accept, the more freedom he becomes.

All kinds of unacceptability are erecting walls around themselves. If the more walls are erected, then they are either labyrinths or cages. Don't let this stop us from being truly free.

"What? Xiaoyi, what do you say? Xu Xiaoyu was closing his eyes, thinking about his own affairs, and also planning what he was going to do next.

As soon as Xu Shaojia Xiaoyi spoke, he immediately widened his eyes, and looked straight at the man who was so charming and extremely crazy and fascinated.

Suddenly, he heard Mr. Zhang talking to him, but he didn't hear clearly. It should be said that he did not believe what his ears were hearing.

"I said, 'Let's do {}!" Zhang Fengyi repeated what he had just said, and his eyes when he looked at Xu Xiaoyu were clear and firm. Author: Jinlan Xiuxian

Xu Xiaoyu was "frightened" by Mr. Zhang, and immediately sat down, and then said to Zhang Fengyi:

"I didn't ...... You heard that right! Xiaoyi, you're not joking with the third brother, or deliberately entertaining me! ”

Despite this, Xu Sange continued to hold Mr. Zhang's hand. From childhood to adulthood, he hasn't seen any scenes! These words suddenly came out of the mouth of his family Xiaoyi, which really shocked him too much.

And they have been brothers for twenty years, and he has never seen his family like this! After knowing each other for so long, it is the first time that he is so abnormal, it can be seen that his eldest brother is stimulated a lot!

"Xiaoyu, what's wrong with you? Isn't that something you've always wanted to do? Zhang Fengyi stretched out a hand and touched Xu Xiaoyu's forehead, and then said to him with a smile. His smile was beautiful, innocent, innocent, innocent, bitter......

Xu Xiaoyu also touched Zhang Fengyi's forehead with his own hand, after making sure that this guy didn't say these crazy things to himself because he was confused.

He let go of his hand holding Zhang Fengyi, and then leaned his body on the bed at the head of the bed, and then said to Zhang Fengyi very seriously:

"Big brother! I want to, but what I want more is: you want to do it with me because you love me. If you don't love me, I'd rather there be nothing between us. If we do this, I am afraid that it will be difficult for us to even be brothers in the future.

In this life, there are men and women of all shapes, all kinds of bodies, I Xu Xiaoyu have seen too much. From now on, I don't want that loveless {} sex{} anymore.

The final outcome of all mirrors can only bring about the sinking of the senses and the paralysis of instinct, and the infinite desolation of the self. Then, with it, the soul falls into the bottomless abyss. And there is nowhere to hide, a great sense of shame that cannot be hidden!

After doing it, what kind of emptiness the soul is like duckweed, like a rootless grass, you will never be able to understand it, I am really afraid now! Don't wade through this muddy water anymore.

I just played my life indiscriminately, and in the end I lost my most precious thing. is so passive now, and it also leaves a lot of holes in the soul.

Although love is sometimes unattainable, it is also the most luxurious thing. But this time, I just want to be serious for my love and for my lover, and I choose to take the path of pursuing true love.

In my eyes, you are the only one who is different from everyone else! You're the cleanest one! Xiaoyi, you listen to the third brother, don't do irreparably wrong things because of a momentary impulse. At that point, it will be too late to regret it.

The third brother has done too many bastard things in the first half of his life, if I could treat you wholeheartedly at that time. Instead of making a mess of self-deprecation and playing your own life, I don't think I would have let you suffer so much.

Since time can't be turned back, it's irreversible, and that's how things have been. I can only try to atone for my sins and make up for the mistakes I have put down. I will wait for you! The day you truly fall in love with me, we'll {} do it again!

And I'm waiting for you voluntarily, so you don't have any psychological burden! No matter what, I will always be your third brother, I just want to see your happy smile, not with sadness, bitterness, helplessness and desolation in your smile......"

Listening and listening, Zhang Fengyi's eyes moistened, and he suddenly fell into Xu Xiaoyu's arms, and he cried! Happily, I cried with an amplified voice!

At this time, Zhang Fengyi is like a child who is a few years old, he doesn't need any disguise and disguise in front of Xu Xiaoyu, he no longer has to strain his nerves, which have already reached the verge of collapse......

Mr. Zhang has already said to himself - don't cry in the future! But he still cried! It was a cry from the depths of his soul, a hysterical roar from within.

Over the years, he has endured too hard! In the past, he was always blindly wronging himself. This time, he was going to cry and forget all about the past...... Start a whole new life!

When it is very necessary, it is really time for people to vent their emotions. Even if the whole world does not hear it, let these echoes reverberate for a longer time. Author: Jinlan Xiuxian

Mr. Zhang needs to release himself too much! If he doesn't completely take off his mask, he will always live in shackles and will not be completely liberated!

Oh, yes! Life is short, everyone's life exists for ourselves! Why did he make himself so hard?! Why just be a clown to please others?! We're not entertainers! It's better not to make a living by juggling!

Xu Xiaoyu hugged Zhang Fengyi's body with one hand, and stroked his hair, which was smoother and softer than silk with the other, which could be regarded as silently comforting him.

Xu Xiaoyu leaned against the bed, took some tissues from the bedside table, and gently wiped the tears that flowed from his baby, the rarest person in his life.

And because of his family's righteous temperament, he made him cry happily and tears, and if he didn't let him cry happily, he would really suffocate this nerd in his family.

At this time, what Xu Dashao had been waiting for for many years—everything he wanted—was suddenly placed in front of him. Not only did he not have the impulse in his head, but he became more calm and sober, which was really joyful and cowardly.

Xu Xiaoyu is not admitting it, what he is presenting to Zhang Fengyi now is a more rational and mature love. They are no longer at the age of the beginning of love, and he is no longer the rich second generation who can only make mistakes and only know how to behave.

Moreover, people are always very contradictory individuals. There should always be a constant hovering between gains and losses, and it is difficult to make a final decision until the last resort.

They used to grow together; study together; Laugh together; Play together; Work together, travel to the world's major cities and villages, and ...... together Oh, yes! There are many tomorrows, and they still have to continue together, don't they?

Xu Shao knew Zhang Fengyi too well, so it was impossible for him to just covet a momentary pleasure and do something that both of them regretted. Or, it is himself who will end the hardest, and he who will suffer the most.

Besides, what Young Master Xu is planning is: for the second half of their lives, he will only sleep with this one person for the rest of his life! How could he have lost so much by coveting a moment of pleasure?

He wanted to keep all the best moments that belonged to them in his careful arrangement, and leave them both with a better memory.

How could he be so sloppy and rash for the first time with him, or in such a situation of taking advantage of others!