After Bai Zhi won the guitar competition, there was no news of heather, and Xiao Zhang disappeared after sending her off that day.

In this week when there was no news of heather, time suddenly passed very slowly, and every day was constantly reminding Bai Zhi of the existence of this person.

The first is the routine inspection every Monday, this day Bai Zhi got up early, and it was rare to dress up, even Director Li, who usually doesn't praise people much, said after seeing her: "Teacher Bai is so good-looking today, it's rare to see you tidy up like this!" ”

Bai Zhi just smiled and didn't talk.

When it was time to go out to greet the leaders, the teachers were all standing straight, a few of them were whispering in private, and Bai Zhi's eyes looked at the end of the street.

A black Volkswagen arrived at the school gate, slowly stopped, and at the moment of opening the door, Bai Zhi's heart leaked half a beat, and her eyes looked motionless at the person who was about to get off the bus.

The man had a somewhat round face, and the round belly under the finely patterned shirt was a bit eye-catching. Bai Zhi had some indescribable emotions in her heart for a while, which were deeper than loss and lighter than disappointment.

A group of people followed behind the round-faced man, Bai Zhi still stayed in place, looking at the street, hoping that there would be a car coming, and then stopped at her feet.

But after waiting for a long time, there was nothing on the street except for motorcycles.

Bai Zhi couldn't stand it in her heart, but she had no reason to vent. Heather has never clearly said that she has any special relationship with her, and her whereabouts naturally do not need to be explained.

But in her heart, she was uncomfortable and angry. Gradually, this emotion evolved into a kind of complaint, like a resentful woman who was hidden in the deep boudoir and suddenly fell out of favor.

Two weeks have passed, and she has tried all the contact information of heather, but there is no response.

She also tactfully asked Mai Dong to ask Xia Fan, but Xia Fan and Danqing just said "I don't know".

She even went to the county seat for the first time on weekends in the past two weeks, from the bustling streets to the dead of night, but she still never met him, she also went to the residence to look for him, and when she took out the key to open the door, she found that the lock of the door had been changed somehow.

When she calmed down, Bai Zhi only felt that she was so stupid, so in a hurry, her originally boring life had been revolving around a man at the moment.

She suddenly began to hate her current self, and she had a kind of wagging her tail and begging for pity. In her heart, she has always been chic about her feelings, what is forced, what is ambiguous, for her is undoubtedly dead at the sight of the light, cut in two.

The last week of the end of the semester is quietly coming, and the days are gradually returning to calm, and Bai Zhi rarely thinks of heather again, but she never listens to music such as guitar anymore.

The succulent by the window was raised a long, long time ago, and I thought that its weak branches and leaves would probably not come alive under the lazy care of Angelica Angelica, but at this time it was pavilion and green, and there was a bit of a dripping Guanyin.

The Monday of the last week of the semester is the last routine inspection of the semester, and the school attaches great importance to it, requiring every teacher to dress neatly and wear light makeup that morning.

Bai Zhi felt that this request was a bit pretentious, and she really didn't have the heart to cater to it, so she asked for leave under the pretext of excuse. In order to fulfill the lie of asking for leave, I also went to the health center to ask for a few pairs of medicines.

Just as she walked into the school gate with the medicine leisurely and leisurely, a crisp female voice behind her called out to her: "Bai Zhi? ”

Bai Zhi turned around and looked, the person between them had a delicate face, exquisite makeup, and exquisite clothes, and when someone approached, Bai Zhi vaguely remembered.

But the man said, "What? Don't know me anymore? The man saw that Bai Zhi didn't react, and snorted coldly: "I didn't expect you to be in such a small school." I'll just say why heather always likes to come to this school. It turned out ....."

When she heard the name of Heather Ye again, Bai Zhi was stunned, she couldn't imagine that she would remember him again, it would be in such a situation.

Bai Zhi pinched the medicine bag in her hand, and her face was calm: "Our school is a little small, but the people are warm, and they can't compare to some big environments, and they know that they are warm." ”

The man was not angry, sneered, approached Bai Zhi sideways, and said in a voice that only the two of them could hear, "What are you crazy about?" Do you think the heather will still protect you? I'm telling you, he's engaged. The subject's identity background is strong. ”

Bai Zhi's head was blank for a while, and the news came suddenly, making her not know what mood to face for a while.

The man looked at Bai Zhi's pale face, and was a little proud: "Also, you made me very unhappy just now, I won't let your school's rating pass this time." You're ready to write reviews and critiques!"

Bai Zhi: "Su Mulan, you declare a personal vendetta, you have emotions to rush at me!" ”

Su Mulan straightened up and looked condescending: "I'll just announce my personal vendetta, what's the matter?" ”

Bai Zhi looked at her back as she twisted her waist and walked, and felt a sense of disgust in her heart.

Su Mulan turned her head again, smiled and said, "Do you know Bai Zhi, looking at your deflated face now, I am really relieved." People, you still have to see your position clearly, are you worthy of heather like you? Hum! ”

Su Mulan's words were like a knife, piercing deeply into Bai Zhi's heart, but in the face of such an unreasonable and arrogant woman, she had no reason to resist at all.

Originally, the distance from the school gate to the office was only 100 steps, but Bai Zhi seemed to have dragged her heavy body for a century. Su Mulan's words echoed in his mind, and he was engraved sentence by sentence.

Finally, I couldn't stand it anymore, and when I was about to get to the office, my head sank, my body deviated, and I fainted.

This is really confirming the reason for taking leave, this time there is no fraud, it is true and effective.

When Bai Zhi woke up, she was already lying on her own bed.

The slightly cushioned eyes opened, looking at the snow-white Qiang who brushed the ground on his head, Su Mulan's words echoed in his mind.

Bai Zhi felt that she was really weak, and she was so vulnerable to a few words from others, that kind of heart was empty, and she slowly woke up with a faint pain, gnawing at her heart inch by inch.

Fang Yuan came in with porridge, looked at his bloodless face with empty eyes, and said softly, "Drink porridge." ”

"How is the school's rating?" Fang Yuan's hand that was suddenly grabbed by Bai Zhi was a little painful by her.

Fang Yuan broke free of his hand, he was so angry, when did he still think about these things, but seeing her worried look, he still replied: "It's over." Xia Fan and Danqing came later and changed the evaluation results. You can rest assured. ”

"That's good." Bai Zhi muttered.

Fang Yuan put the porridge on the bedside table on the side, then helped her sit up, took the porridge, blew it, and fed it one bite at a time.

Bai Zhi suddenly felt a little funny, poked Fang Yuan's hand, and said, "You say that we are like this now, does it look like this?" ”

Fang Yuan was stunned, and suddenly thought of something, and pushed Bai Zhi angrily: "I'm sick and restless!" I can declare, I like men, you don't have a chance! ”

Bai Zhi tilted her head and looked at her: "So, you have a partner?" ”

Fang Yuan's hand feeding the porridge shook, and a layer of red rose on his face, like a big girl's shame after her heart was exposed.

"I really got it right, what?"

Fang Yuan muttered a few words, then went out with the bowl.

It is said that soldiers come like a mountain, and illness goes like a thread. After a long week of bed rest, Angelica's body finally recovered.

Because there was no inspection, Monday morning, rare laziness and leisure, suddenly seemed to have plenty of time.

Bai Zhi cleaned herself up and looked in the mirror before going out.

The mirror is a clear mirror, but what about the person in the mirror? The face is gray, the corners of the eyes are drooping, the eye circles are blue, the face that was already round is also a little swollen, the figure is slightly bloated, and the whole face shows an old state like a middle-aged woman.

Angelica stumbled and fell to the ground. She is a little fat, but she is not like this, she has a feeling of old age. It's only a week's time, and as the saying goes: "Time is a pig-killing knife", sure enough!

He stood up with his best hands, and after a moment of dizziness, he stood up in front of the mirror again and patted his face.

For the first time, Bai Zhi felt that she had seen everything of herself so clearly, and the words about her body and face that had been ignored before were actually just self-comforting.

Su Mulan's words were right. Why is she like this? It's not beautiful, it has no connotation, the only thing that is considered a talent is that of heather and leaves, and other aspects are not worth mentioning.

And Shi Nanye himself went to that station, cultivating both inside and outside, and his temperament of both ability and political integrity, all in his every move, it was simply natural.

Bai Zhi didn't remember what kind of mood she was in when she came to the office, she just sat in her seat blankly, her eyes were empty, her head was already messed up, the more she thought about it, the more chaotic it became.

When it was about to get off work, Bai Zhi slowly came back to her senses, and cleaned up the bits and pieces of what happened this semester in her mind.

First of all, for her career, she tried her best to come here, and what she was engaged in was just an idle job with a salary and a job every day, and she never interfered in real teaching. And she is still complacent every day.

Secondly, for feelings, what Guangbaichuan yearns for is a government unit with good conditions and excellent treatment, just looking at this, even if two people are together, the three views do not agree, and there will be cracks in the future.

As for the heather, in front of him, Bai Zhi was directly left with scum in seconds.

feelings, she just waits to death, she doesn't take the initiative to attack, and she doesn't have a spirit of stalking, even if a girl wants to be reserved, she should be desperate for what she loves.

Again, it's for life. Look at the leisure time on the weekend, either eating or sleeping, and the time to read is pitiful. Without interests and hobbies, life is like a pool of stagnant water.

Bai Zhi listed what she did in these three aspects, only to find that she had no passion, no enthusiasm for life, no pursuit of ideals, and no thirst for knowledge.

In the end, she was only reduced to a soft egg who only felt sorry for herself in her own world, comforted and deceived herself, such a temperament that was low to the dust, which she hated from the heart before.

When was it changed? What has changed it? Is it the polish of life or the push of time? - The root of all this is my own ignorance!