Chapter 192: I'm most afraid of understanding
After saying it in a low voice, some ears were still hot, and he stuck his head hard in Lin Zeyuan's arms, sniffed the smell on his body with some satisfaction, and arched forward again, Lin Zeyuan's body tensed for a moment, and it was soft, holding me, touching my head with his hand for a while, and he didn't speak, but the atmosphere was very comfortable.
There was silence for a long time.
When my throbbing heart had gradually calmed down, I rubbed my head in his arms again, and felt him take a deep breath, and then, a deep voice, from my chest cavity and from the air, came to my ears together: "You know...... Where have I been these days? β
"Hmm...... You said. β
I was very comfortable and relaxed.
Lin Zeyuan's throat seemed to roll, and he took a long breath before he said: "I went to your small courtyard and took a few routes between you and the Li family's tomb, and imagined what your life and mood were like without me." β
A lazy and comfortable heart, solemn.
I swallowed my saliva and cleared my throat before saying, "Then you want to figure it out, what is it?" β
Lin Zeyuan's breathing was a little heavy: "Maybe...... It's lonelier than I thought. You're so afraid of loneliness, how did you come here. β
Lin Zeyuan's words were very low and light, as if he was gently tapping the keys, but the music he played was in the lowest key.
My chest and mind, which had just calmed down, were undulating and chopping because of this heavy tune!
"I ...... Just come over like that. β
When I whispered, my heart was beating heavily, and I said that people are most afraid of suddenly understanding a song, in my eyes, it is not to understand the song, but to understand myself, just like when I sang the thorn bird before.
And "understand" this matter, it's good to understand yourself, in fact, we are most afraid of-
Others understood.
Since I was a child, I have never expressed my thoughts about loneliness, and I even keep telling myself that everyone in the world is lonely, and all happiness and interpersonal interactions will bring the same amount or even double the pain and double the loneliness, especially love and friendship, which will be repaid with a thousand times the loneliness, I have also experienced it deeply, so I am more convinced -
People still have to be lonely!
So I used to keep running away, I didn't associate with Shen Xuanhe, I didn't associate with Huangliang deeply, I refused to socialize with anyone, including Chen Jiangyan...... I naively thought that as long as I didn't provoke anything, I wouldn't be upset.
Until now.
Lin Zeyuan, he hugged me and said seriously word by wordββ
"Zhou Yi, from now on, if you and I don't die, we will never be separated. I will never let you be lonely and lonely again. β
A long time ago, Lin Zeyuan also confessed and showed his sincerity.
But there has never been such a sentence that makes my heart surge, and at the same time very down-to-earth.
"You're going to talk ......"
I whispered, inexplicably...... His voice choked up and he cried.
Crying, hugging him harder.
I hugged it to the death, and then, I felt that all the suffering I had suffered in the first half of my life was worth it.
I feel that everything I have done is worth it!
I even think that I am very grateful for the suffering and suffering in the first half of my life, because I have been so painful, and I am grateful for this moment!
"What I said, when did it change."
Lin Zeyuan said, hugged me too, and patted my back for a long, long time.
And I was a little shy because of crying, this was a happy time, what was I ashamed, but I just felt that I couldn't lift my head, like a plucked chicken, there was nowhere to hide, so I could only plunge harder into his arms...... Pierce deeper, enter his heart, and never come out again!
β¦β¦
I don't know how I cried and fell asleep.
When I woke up again, I was tempted by the aroma of soy milk.
I haven't felt that aroma for a long time, I opened my eyes suddenly, and at first fell into a pair of smiling eyes: "I remember, when I investigated you before, you would go to buy fried dough sticks and soy milk at this time every morning, and ...... in the future." I'll buy it for you whenever I have the chance. Get up and eat, little pig. β
In the end, Lin Zeyuan took the breakfast in his hand, and I got up and followed his footsteps to the restaurant.
When I got to the table, I looked at the soy milk fritters and subconsciously swallowed my saliva, but! I couldn't help but eat, and seeing Lin Zeyuan's busy back in the kitchen, it was so gentle...... I can't help but remember that when Lin Zeyuan was cooking in the kitchen, he didn't let me in, and I also remembered that Tang Gongru was cooking.
Now I get it.
They all know how to cook, and they cook so deliciously, because-
It's just one person!
Chef of the soul?
Quietly walked behind him, and then to the side.
I pouted, intending to take advantage of his unpreparedness, kiss him on the side of the cheek, and then hug him.
But what I didn't expect was that the pouting mouth ...... Pounced.
He dodged on one side.
The window in front of the kitchen was full of morning sunshine, and the golden sun shone on his eyes as if there were stars in his eyes, and the smile in his eyes was like the boundless sea, the sea of stars surrounded me impenetrable, and in a blink of an eye, in my stupidity, he leaned down and pressed down, pinched my chin, and kissed me.
"Hmm......"
I was caught off guard by the kiss, and my heartbeat suddenly accelerated.
The tip of his tongue swept over my lips, as if he had eaten something delicious, returned to his original position, licked his lips, and glanced at me demonically: "Next time, kiss here." β
After speaking, he turned his head with a smile in his eyes, and put a serious crushed fritters into soy milk-
One, two, three......
Then use chopsticks to press down and bubble.
I looked at it a little blankly, and then, swallowing my saliva, I wanted to eat!
"Sit down and eat."
After Lin Zeyuan finished speaking, he turned around and took the bowl over.
I followed like a fart, and waited for the fritter to suck up the bean juice, and then he picked it upβ
"Open your mouth."
Said indifferently, with smiling eyes.
I submissively opened my mouth and ......
Eat it in one bite.
Delicious!
"Huh."
Lin Zeyuan smiled at the corner of his mouth, and I remembered what Tang Gongru did when he was in the restaurant.
The current man ...... It's that ruffian, it seems, it's not bad.
Incredible, and whispering joy.
Then one, two, three......
After eating and drinking, I feel that the whole person is warm, and the whole life seems to be bright.
"I'm going to fight zombies in a moment."
Lying on Lin Zeyuan's lap, I looked at the blue sky outside and the green vines in the window from the window, and I was ...... There were no ups and downs, and it felt like saying that the sun was fine today.
Lin Zeyuan stroked my hair, fiddling with it for a while, and said softly.
I blinked, and at this time I wanted to cultivate, but I felt that there was too little time, and that cultivating that point was similar to a temporary cramming, and it was useless.
bored, he looked up at him, but his heart was pounding.
He lowered his head, and his hair and eyelashes covered his pupils, but there was still light in the depths of his pupils.
A shallow and shredded light came out of it, brighter than the daylight.
He bowed his head slightly, bent over a little, and smiled with a smile in his eyes, as my breathing became more and more rapid, and as our breaths staggered, he continued to lean over slowly, and finallyβ
In the center of my eyebrows, a kiss fell.
"Zhou Yi, after this matter is over, we ...... Let's get married. β
said it extremely reverently, and the long eyelashes with his eyes closed were trembling.
"When the emperor is destroyed, we will have children."
When Lin Zeyuan said this, he slowly opened his eyes and got up slightly, but he still looked down at me.
I felt my brain spin for a while, and I blinked at himβ
"You...... Is this a marriage proposal? β
Actually, this is not the first time he has proposed.
But I can feel that this time is different.
Sure enough, he took out a ring with a unique shape, which seemed to be a ring of wood, but it was silver, and the silver wood grain was staggered and swirling, holding a crystal clear diamond with a golden sparkle? Probably not!
The stone can't see the material, only in the sun, the light is bright, especially the silver ring, the refracted light, the silver and gold are intertwined, it is not an exaggeration to call it overflowing!
"Yes, it's a serious proposal."
Lin Zeyuan helped me up, and in my surprise, he actually knelt on one knee, and his eyes full of stars and sea looked at me and said-
"Marry me, and I will always be with you until death."
It's a good one to die.
Listening to my tears are coming out again.
I haven't been formally proposed to marriage like this, but my mouth doesn't speak, and my nose is sour.
Not good! To cry!
I subconsciously covered my mouth, but I felt that there were suddenly a lot of villains in my head, dancing, carnival, he proposed, he proposed to me!
It's in this ...... Tang Gongru prepared a room for me!
My heart was already dancing faster.
Although he had asked for it before, such formality was different!
"I ...... Ahem, ahem! β
I wanted to speak, but what I didn't expect was choked by saliva.
After coughing, I stretched out my hand and said excitedly-
"I, I'd like to- uh-huh!"
I do...... Not finished.
Suddenly, I was picked up by Lin Zeyuan!
It was too late, and there was a thud from behind, and when I turned back, where I was sitting, a knife was inserted, andβ
Or a knife with a lot of ancient blood characters engraved on it!
Where the knife fell, there was a sneering smoke, and Lin Zeyuan's eyes sank when he looked at the knife: "Demon Removal Order......