[2nd story]

【Lin Xinxin, Fanwai】

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I know what I've lost.

After I've lost.

When the dust settled, I often wondered what I had gained and what I had lost.

I didn't get anything.

I think Li Rong is very stupid, she can't see anything, she has been stupid and used by others. I think even if I sell her, she'll count the money for me. It's not an exaggeration, I think she's really that stupid.

But we had a big fight, and after she was gone, I stood in the dormitory by myself, and the whole dormitory fell silent, especially after a heated argument just now, and the extreme silence was sad.

Who knows what I'm upsetting about.

But there was a sense of loneliness that overwhelmed me, and I followed out of the dormitory without looking back. I think I must have looked sad, but, for the only time in a long time, wasn't pretending to be sad.

In fact, I can't tell the difference between my true and false intentions, and I'm used to living with a mask.

However, there is one difference, that is, I usually pay attention to my image when I cry, but that time, I cried heartbreakingly, and I was in no mood to hide my ugly appearance at all.

I know, I lost a friend.

There was a man who used to make me a friend.

I began to miss her.

Also starting, missing another person.

I don't know when Tang Mo fell in love with me, but I think he was no different from other people who liked me, except for the way I looked.

But I wasn't disfigured, but he didn't want me anymore.

As if I had fallen into an evil spirit, I began to recall everything about him. He is more enthusiastic and considerate than any other suitor. I began to think about the hand warmers and breakfasts in the winter, and I began to think of the blush he blushed every time he saw me, and how little thoughts he hid.

I finally began to feel that he meant it.

He meant it.

At that time.

But I missed it after all.

Later, by coincidence, one time, I met him in an alley.

He has cat food in his hand.

There is a cat in this alley, and it makes its nest here. I know, I fed it.

I look at him. His expression was a little complicated.

He handed the kitten the cat food in his hand, and I saw the boy's side face in the sun.

The tenderness of that moment.

It's different from what I used to think of him.

I've fed this cat before, but I don't think my mind is as pure as his.

It's not that I don't know that my center of gravity really doesn't look like a very good girl. Therefore, I always consciously feed stray cats and dogs, and I will also happily give money to the homeless people on the street.

Whenever this happens, I feel relaxed.

Every little act of kindness that I do seems to prove that I am a kind girl.

But I know that I don't have the kindness to care for stray animals, nor do I have sympathy for beggars.

It's just a kind of self-comfort, that's it.

Tang Mo looked up and told me that this was the place where he first met me.

He thinks I'm very gentle when I feed the cats.

At that moment, I had another dark thought, and I was eager to tell him that I was really what he thought was a good girl, and that I was just confused for a moment.

But another girl came over. She also crouched down to feed the cat, with a completely pure look in her eyes.

Tang Mo introduced, "This is my girlfriend. ”

So I smiled and said hello.

Finally, I knew what I had lost.

After I've lost.